Lonely nights are the most emotionally unguarded time periods;

The roadside under the dim light is the most stress-free scene for emotion;

Sentimental music is the favorite catalyst for emotion;

The protagonist is the most effortlessly emotionally controlled slave......

Negative energy is the best laxative to expel the garbage of the soul. Pen, fun, and court www.biquge.info So, sometimes I take a dose unconsciously.

Let's talk about emotions, I realize, this has become very confusing......

For some reason, since I finished reading "The Lonely Novelist" at that time, I have a lot of thoughts to express in my heart, and I can't control it at all.

The content of the book is not what I wanted to write at that time, what I wanted to write was what I wanted to write in my heart.

To be honest, I was in a very awkward position. One is the choice of a job and the other is the choice of a spouse. I never imagined that there would come a time when I would have to consider both options. Therefore, I have never tried to be so confused, so confused that I don't even have a clue......

Spouse, actually, I don't really have much thought about this yet. However, sometimes providence is to arrange it this way, and if I don't choose, it will be as serious as a sin in the hearts of my family.

I have nothing to say about this.

It's just that I didn't even know what kind of spouse I wanted at the time. Kind, gentle, beautiful, filial, I don't have a roughly formed idea in my heart......

Some time ago, I was in a low mood and had no expectations for love.

At that time, my third sister jokingly asked me if I didn't like girls, and if so, she would fully support me. She said that she was also very open-minded, and that she wouldn't mind if I found a woman of her age to be my wife in the future...... I laughed......

Ever since the end of my second relationship, I've been lost in my heart. Because I don't know what to believe and what to hold on......

When I saw that the person who appeared in Arou Space was not me, I felt for the first time that if I gave the best of what I thought was the best, I would not necessarily get a response that would make my wishes come true. That's what I didn't even feel like my first love, and I thought it was the best I did......

Therefore, a deep inferiority complex devoured me fiercely...... I can't think of anything else to ......

The title "Arou" slowly stopped appearing in my mouth, but it still represented her.

During that time, she would come to my buckle space from time to time to see the news and logs I posted, and sometimes she would like it.

Come to think of it, a little touched. After all, it's been a long time since I've seen her feed, let alone likes, but she'll still give me likes.

It's just that she and I can't communicate normally. Because, there is a wall. Heart Wall.

Actually, I'm scared to see some news about the girl I like or have liked in the space who is in love. This is one of the reasons why I don't watch Arou's dynamics.

Ying's birthday the day before yesterday was the 22nd of the previous month, and it was her birthday a month later. However, I forgot because of the uncontrollable feelings, and it was only in the evening that I sent a simple blessing.

To be honest, I'm scared to see her suddenly post a story with a boyfriend. Unless, I have a girlfriend.

So, why don't you soak her? The reason is too many and too complicated. Sometimes people who know too much of your story can easily feel embarrassed. What's more, in her eyes, I should still be that fine nong. In this way, the picture is still better.

In Ying's birthday comments, I also saw Gan's comments.

Although she has changed her profile picture, changed her buckle name, and even if she is already a wife, she should be about to become a mother, but when she sees something about her, her heart will ripple.

That's an uncontrollable overthinking......

Although I wrote that I didn't want her to come to my space to see my news and journal, and I didn't want her to be friends with me, it's not just women who are duplicitous. I still wanted to know how she was doing, and I was scared to know how she was doing. That's my vulnerability, naked vulnerability.

The only time I ever said to her "I love you" was narrow-minded and selfish. I used to only hope that her happiness would be given by me, however, I couldn't. However, there is no way to see her get the happiness that others can give her. So, fate didn't let me be with her, and it does make sense.

My so-called love is so selfish and small......

What I can't accept the most is that I can't face up to my past but am still sinking into the past. This kind of self is really weak......

reminds me of "The Lonely Novelist", where a heroine said to the male protagonist that she had read every novel he wrote. At that time, I thought it was undoubtedly a very happy thing for a writer.

For the first and only time since I had a button, I was moved when someone read every post and post I posted, and I didn't say I wanted someone to read everything I wrote. But at that time, there was one person who did it. That person is Gan.

Looking back at the time, it turned out that it was not only moving, but also rare.

Juan, the day before yesterday, sent me a title "dragon" on the buckle that I hadn't heard for a long time. It seems, like going back to high school.

However, I replied after that, but after waiting for one night, there was no reply.

Scorpio, I really can't guess.

Later, I replied, it turned out that she generally doesn't play buckles, and plays WeChat more. It's just that my WeChat has been out of place for more than a year......

It seems that I am still thinking too much.

Xiaohong is one of the few girls who will take the initiative to chat with me.

There are many times when I accidentally associate her with Gan because their zodiac sign is Aries. Moreover, her personality is also a bit like Gan.

We don't know much about each other, though. So, there aren't many topics.

I don't want to talk to her like Gan when I talk to her, because that's not good. She is who she is, and she has her own personality. It's just that sometimes I can't control it......

At that time, the emotional world in my mind was so complicated that I had no idea what I wanted right now.

I've read some words before that don't show your vulnerability to others, that will only make others look down on you more.

After reading "The Lonely Novelist", I didn't care about any of that......

I just want to express my truest self, I'm just so vulnerable, just not as good as others seem on the surface. And yet, that's who I am, and I'm standing right here......

The person who really accepts you is not the person who sees how good you are on the surface, but the person who sees how fragile you are on the inside but still likes to be close to you.

Perhaps, this is the kind of person I am looking for......

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