Ni Xiaona has disappeared from my life for a long time, and she suddenly appeared in my life like this, with a new and familiar attitude, which surprised and sighed to me.

And all her remarks are combined, and the one that makes me most uneasy and confused is: Shen Bai cheated, and he and the female colleagues of the company are in love vigorously.

Now should be her most painful stage, there has been no work for nearly two years, the focus of life revolves around the child, and the in-laws are constantly in conflict because of the child's education, but at the most unbearable time, the pillow person who thought she trusted absolutely also left her and fell in love with another woman. She was hesitant, restless, painful, tangled, lonely, crazy, even crazy.

She asked me, "Shu Hua, should I see a psychiatrist?"

She said: "Shu Hua, I feel like I'm going to collapse at any time, I slapped Shen Bai, he went out again, and he didn't come back all night." His parents ignored me because I beat their son in front of them. ”

She said: "Shu Hua, do you think I'm going to get a divorce? I feel that I might as well die if I live like this." ”

I listened silently, occasionally responding to a few words, in fact, I wanted to say to her from a cruel, human-like perspective: "If you can't accept it, you can bear it, if you can't bear it, you will leave, and if you can't leave, you will accept it." Time will erase everything. ”

But I couldn't say that, I could only keep comforting me with poor words, which made me very anxious, because it reminded me of what I was. I understand the feeling of being stuck in the mud, I understand the feeling of not being safe at all and still having to keep going, I have tasted the pain of brokenness.

I didn't think it was going to happen to her. At first, she was so happy. I still remember her happily sharing Shen Bai and all her sweet text messages, I still remember her and I showing off how good her in-laws are, and I still remember her happy face. It's just that in the blink of an eye, where is happiness?

I listened to her for two whole days, and finally I asked, "What are you going to do?"

She thought for a while and told me: "Go on, I can't cheapen him and the mistress, the child is still so young, I don't want to divorce, even if he dies in pain, I will drag him for the rest of my life." ”

See…… In fact, her thoughts were clear, but she couldn't get rid of that pain. I said, "Honey, if you think about it, you can do it." Teach you the easiest way, go to a spa, go to beauty, do everything you want to do, and do what you feel happy every time you feel annoyed. If it doesn't work out, you can take Shen Bai's salary card and swipe it hard. ”

She said, "Then what about him and the junior? Just let them go? His money is also my money, and I am reluctant to spend it indiscriminately." ”

Belch...... In fact, she still didn't understand what she wanted. I said, "Then I can't help you, I just want to tell you." The root cause of your suffering now is because you know what you want, but you can't get the things that are distracting you out of your mind. Actually, you have already chosen marriage. Since you have chosen, you have to learn to filter out those impurities, what about the affair, what about the upset, what about the bad relationship between your in-laws and you, you still want to maintain this relationship, right, then instead of complaining, change your current deadlock, no matter what you do, at the very least, you have to make yourself happy. ”

She still didn't understand, and she babbled a lot about me. In fact, everyone is a wise man in other people's lives and a fool in their own lives. The reason why he is ignorant is nothing more than because he can't get rid of those fogs, and he is just a mortal in the end.

I didn't go on, and gradually, she stopped talking to me. I know that she will go to find more women who are in the same situation as her, confide in each other's pain, and then find a reason to continue living in this conversation, and then continue to endure life and live as always. Anyway, I don't think I'm one of her fellow believers anymore. Because I'm getting busier, because I'm getting more and more awake, because I'm more and more aware of what I want and I'm constantly trying, I feel like I like it more and more like I'm alive, and even though I'm probably less and less understood by so many people because I've abandoned their creed and chosen to follow my own inner feelings, but so what, I'm a lot happier.

This is the end of the episode about Ni Xiaona, I sent her two cans of milk powder brought back from Hong Kong and some baby food, and she happily accepted it. I started to busy myself again, talking about my customers, signing my orders, setting up my stall, Wang Ling said: "Woman, I feel that you are becoming more and more attractive." ”

I smiled and said, "Am I still the same?" ”

She shook her head, and she said, "No, you are now full of a sense of self-confidence and accomplishment, you know? I used to look at you, and there was always some unknown melancholy hidden on your face, but now I feel that you are more and more outgoing, and you exude a unique charm all over your body. ”

I said, "That's because I don't hesitate anymore and I feel like I've chosen the right life." If possible, it would be nice to have another right relationship. ”

She always understood me like that. In life, it is a great blessing in life to have one or two friends who understand you. I took the time to accompany her through the prenatal check-up, and she came to work with me. In Li Dadao's office, there is one more person.

I called out from afar: "Lin Xi, are you back from vacation? This time, you went to Southeast Asia?"

When she saw me and Wang Ling walking in, she came over enthusiastically and couldn't wait to share it with us, she said, "Haha, have you ever been to Thailand? The ladyboy show there is too perverted, let me tell you, so-and-so in Myanmar is really good." By the way, I have brought you a lot of small gifts. Shu Hua, I heard that you and my brother have gone to Hong Kong, how do you feel?"

She seemed to be particularly excited, and happily took out the same small jewelry and small gift box from her bag, and then poured it all on Li Dadao's desk, I picked it up like Wang Ling, and she said generously: "If you like it, you can pick it up, I still have a lot at home, I bought a lot of it back." ”

I said, "Then you're welcome, Ling Ling, let's take it all." ”

I was joking, but unexpectedly, with a wave of her hand, she said, "Okay, you can take it all if you like." It's okay, it's all small money. ”

Li Dadao choked away, and Li Dadao said: "Yo, I've made a lot of money recently, and I look down on small money." ”

Lin Xi said with a smile: "Where can I compare to you, brother, but I am not bad sister." ”

I smiled and said, "What have you been doing lately? ”

She said: "Hey, it's nothing more than doing purchasing and the like." Don't ask, I said, would you like to go to the bar at night? ”

I was worried that I had been busy with work lately and hadn't had much contact with her, so I quickly responded, "Okay, I'm free anyway." ”

Li Dadao waved his hand, and then said, "Oh, who wants to go to the bar, I still have to go for a beauty salon at night." ”

Wang Ling was sure that she couldn't go, she sighed, and then said, "You two go crazy, Shu Hua has been tired recently, just go relax." ”

Lin Xi probably thought of my madness last time, looked at me with a smile on his eyebrows, and then said, "Do you want to find another handsome guy at night?"

I smiled and said, "What, you have something good to introduce?"

"Of course, you can have whatever you want," she said. ”

Li Dadao said: "Don't know all day long, hurry up and find a boyfriend, your mother said she was dead." ”

She countered: "You should hurry up and find a girlfriend, otherwise the family will suspect your sexual orientation." ”

Li Dadao was angry in an instant, chased Lin Xi around, the atmosphere in the office was lively, we looked at Li Dadao's running posture and wanted to laugh, I said: "I really can't imagine what he looked like in the past, you look at his every move now, he is more charming than a woman." ”

Wang Ling said: "He is now obsessed with beauty, hey, a while ago, in order to grow less hair, he went to inject estrogen, I really can't stand him." ”

I was embarrassed, and I said, "No wonder it's getting more and more ridiculous lately, and if it goes on like this, sexual orientation is really a problem." ”

Wang Ling laughed, and then said, "Maybe you're really a comrade, look at the two of us, aren't we getting soon?"

I suddenly thought of the sentence circulating on the Internet: "The opposite sex is only for inheritance, and the same sex is true love in the world." "I read it to Wang Ling, and she listened to it too.

Today's work is relatively idle, I didn't set any tasks for myself, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow will be the weekend, Wang Ling and I went home after work, made a dinner in an instant, and asked Lin Xi to come over to eat.

Abandon those previous suspicions, in fact, Lin Xi is still a very cheerful girl, although she is scheming, but she really treats you as a friend, and it is a different look.

The dishes I cooked, she bluntly said that they were delicious, and then said, "I didn't know you before, but I always thought you were special." Only now do I realize that you are also a arrogant faction in your bones. ”

Wang Ling said: "Shu's painting is very real, where did you make it?"

Lin Xi said: "That's before you saw her, she used to speak softly, walk slowly, always keep her head down, and look like Sister Lin." When I first joined the company, I didn't like her at first sight, thinking that this woman was so fake and always pretending to be weak. Shu Hua, don't mind, I'm just a straight talker. ”

I smiled and said, "Where can I be, I used to be exactly what you said, but I had a lot of things on my mind back then, and it was different from now." ”

She took a sip of the soup, praised it as "delicious," and said, "Well, it's changed so much now." I like you now, refreshing, and you can cook, and I will come to eat often in the future. ”

Wang Ling patted her head, and then said, "You know how to eat." ”

She was delighted, and she said, "It's delicious." If you look at you, you won't be able to cook, you don't have a strong family. ”

Wang Ling was "poofed", and then said: "Yes, yes, you have a lot of praise for Shu painting now." ”

Lin Xi said, "Well, that's not true. I like women who can afford to have fun, and I don't like women who can't let go of their squirming postures. If she had been like this, I wouldn't have targeted her. ”