Chapter 197: Re-Shedding XIX
The weather forecast indicates that it will be a rainy day, but the strong ultraviolet rays outside speak of their excitement under the glowing sky. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoThe more excited it is, the more I lose the flowers and vegetables on the balcony of my "heart world", because I am happy and sad.
Well, before I was in junior high school, whenever I encountered a weather forecast that did not correspond to the weather of the day, I would complain that the weather forecast was inaccurate. After all, at that time, I was relatively simple-minded.
When the simple brain wanders around the boring but also fun junior high school class, it will still capture the information that interests you.
I don't remember which junior high school teacher said it, but he said that it is normal for weather forecasts to be inaccurate sometimes, after all, it is a forecast, and it is not 100% accurate. What's more, there are inherently unpredictable circumstances in the sky.
Although the information was only a simple sentence or two, I had inadvertently kept it in my head. To this day, I see it that way, and when the weather forecast doesn't correspond to the weather of the day, I think, that's just the forecast.
Forecasting can be both happy and fearful. For example, forecasting a person's life span is often mixed with complex emotions.
I have never forgotten the words predicted by the chief surgeon in Zhanjiang Hospital three years ago, and after listening to that paragraph, I felt my soul tremble for the first time in my life.
Three years, is it really enough?
White, the white of hope, the white of disappointment. Hope is pure white, despair is miserable white.
At that time, I was leaning against the wall of the corridor filled with a miserable white breath, staring at the ground in a daze, should I believe that prediction?
It's been three years, and the time for the verification of the forecast is approaching. The time period I am most afraid of facing is still the same. No one can say for sure how accurate the forecast is, but we all hope that it doesn't ......
If it has already happened, what you can do is to treat it more carefully as if nothing happened.
I have always believed that "what the heart wants, dreams are true". In other words, all wishes come true.
However, there are two sides to even the best things.
Wishful fulfillment is a psychological example. I thought it would be done. However, what you want can be good or bad.
During the New Year, many people like to wish others their wishes come true, which represents the beauty of a wish come true. Indeed, if the content of the mind is beautiful and realized, it is a very happy thing. But what if the content of the mind is bad?
If Auntie hears me dissect "all wishes come true" in this way, she will definitely say, "Demon! Where is the bad? Only the good!"
Because Auntie just likes to emphasize words like this, in other words, the nerves are very sensitive.
When I was a kid, when I played games with other friends, I usually played a role, and if I was defeated, the other friends would show who was dead. Once, my aunt inadvertently heard my little friend say that I was dead, and then my aunt came to teach us very angrily that we can't talk like this......
Even the relationship between the daily pump and the bicycle tires, my aunt can also catch my verbal faults. When I was a kid, when I felt a flat tire on my bike, I would say, "The tire is flat." However, it may sound similar to "cut off qi" in Cantonese. Therefore, my aunt will ask me to correct it, and I can't say "no gas" and "cheer up", I can only say "no wind" and "hit the wind"......
Grandma always likes to find fault with these things like this, because she doesn't want the slightest bit of information to make the family feel bad. However, she forgot to find fault with herself, and her spoken language was often similar to that of most people. For example, dying of heat, dying of thirst, dying of exhaustion......
So, if I say "all wishes come true", it may also make bad things come true, and she will definitely find fault with me.
But facts are facts, and what wishes come true represents a magnetic attraction. If you always think about the good and try to live it, then the good things will be attracted by the magnetic field formed in your heart. In other words, if you are always thinking about sadness and being pessimistic about life, then the bad things will be attracted by the magnetic field formed in your heart.
Therefore, there is a great deal of variability in "thinking".
It doesn't mean that you just think about it, but that you have a deep understanding of what you imagine, whether it's beautiful or ugly.
Why is it so hard to succeed? because there is not enough desire.
If you don't have enough desire, you will be prone to half-heartedness, and even give birth to a variety of thoughts and emotions, and such a state will naturally not be "thoughts".
There is also a lot of uncertainty in "thinking", that is, thinking about a good period of time, but unable to control yourself falling into pessimism for a period of time, then the things that are attracted to you will naturally be good and bad.
Sometimes when I come home, I see that there is always a kind of sadness in my aunt's eyes, because she is afraid that the prediction will come true. The more I fear that prediction will come true, the more I want to fulfill some of my wishes before that prediction comes true. However, this is a cycle of magnetic field attraction. The more this is the case, the more indirectly it is agreed that the prediction will come true.
What I was most afraid to see when I went home was my aunt's eyes that secretly hid her sadness.
However, I can understand the sadness.
Love is all around you, and the more you love, the more you are afraid that love will suddenly disappear. So, helpless, hesitant, and uneasy......
In Auntie's opinion, the most important protagonist for the prediction to come true is me.
Well, it's me.
If I cooperate with my aunt to respond to the prediction coming true, don't I even indirectly agree that the prediction will come true?
But if I don't cooperate with my aunt to respond to the prediction that comes true, my aunt's sorrow and the resulting guilt will torment me like a nightmare.
I don't want that prediction to come true, so I always think that everything is good, I want to pursue my dreams at the best age when I can pursue them, and I feel that if my dreams can come true, then I will have more free time to stay at home, I will have more time to spend with my family......
However, the reality is cruel.
My family will only think that I am squandering my time, going on a lost path and not knowing how to return, even if they support me on the surface, they are not really supporting me in their hearts. So all sorts of mental states forced me to accept that the prediction would come true, as if it was going to come true.
Despite how I 2b optimistically convinced myself that a good thing had come true, none of my most powerful backing family members could really believe in me from the bottom of their hearts, and they all felt that the prediction was very likely to come true, and wanted me to take the so-called "right path".
What is the "right path"? Copying the patterns of thousands of people to live is the right way? What is the purpose of the brain given to me by God? Is it better to be a wooden man?
I think that the heart that I have settled down with difficulty is not stable enough and needs strength to strengthen, but the strength of my family has become a negative force, and a kind of ethereal state of "heaven is not heaven, earth is not earth" in the air is wondering what went wrong in this life.
Today, I can only maintain seven points and 2b optimism, and three points of pessimism influenced by my family to continue to move forward.
What my family wants me to do, I'm doing it, trying to do it without going against my inner feelings. The future is not just my own future, I need to be responsible for it, without going against my inner feelings.
No one knows what the future holds, but at least keep it alive. Don't always put "what if...... You will regret it" and so on, which is indirectly contributing to the realization of bad forecasts. If I had to say, I could have said, "If the world had ended in 2012, there would have been no worries now." ”
There are many ways to be alive.
Which way of living is right and which way of living is wrong is only relative. You think I'm living irresponsibly, and I think you're living cruelly.
Today's sunshine is really "enthusiastic......
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