I nodded, she sent me back to the door, and then went to find Qin Xinhao. ………… I thought that was the end for each of us. We may go far away, or pursue the favorites, or each guard our own man, or face a new life.

It's just that I didn't expect that when I went back, Yan Bin packed a big bag of luggage, sat on the edge of the bed and smoked, as if waiting for me to come back.

When I opened the door and saw this scene, I was very dazed. I didn't know what was wrong with him, what was he going to do, but I felt a "bang" in my head at that time, and I said, "Where are you going?"

He threw the half of the cigarette butt he was holding on the ground, sighed heavily, and said to me as if he had made up his mind: "Shu Hua, let's break up." ”

At that moment, I felt my heart crack open. I was dumbfounded, "What did you say? ”

He looked at me and said word for word, "Let's break up." ”

My heart cooled down quickly, and I was a little unsteady on my feet, feeling like a thunderbolt from my body and soul. I have a vague premonition of what will happen between us these days, but I didn't expect it to be so quick and so sudden.

I asked coldly, "Why?"

He lowered his head and didn't say anything more, just tossed around with a razor in his hand, unwilling to answer me, just trying to escape.

I sat beside him in a daze, feeling distressed, but still asked softly, "Am I not doing well enough?"

He shook his head, and he said, "No." We are not suitable, I don't want to delay you, and I don't want to delay myself. ”

I couldn't help but sneer, and I said, "Am I blocking your great future?" Yanbin, is this what you mean by loving me?"

I don't know how I suddenly became so calm, I felt that the blood in my body instantly cooled, my whole body was cold, and my speech became less gentle.

He didn't want to say more to me, as if explanations were superfluous. He put one hand on his luggage and said, "I'm gone, you take care of yourself." ”

I stopped him, and I said, "Where are you going, at least tell me what you're going to do?"

He didn't dare to look at me all the time, with his head down and his eyes on the ground, he said, "I have my plan." ”

I tried to take his hand, but he broke free, and I said, "Isn't your plan to count me in it?"

He smiled and said, "I agreed to date (Miss M), what do you say?"

Syllable...... I actually gave him a slap in the face, I didn't even think of it! But at that moment, when the three words "" popped out of his mouth, I was instinctively angry and gave him a slap in the face. I think it hurts me so much to be so irresponsible.

He covered his face and looked at me stunned, he said, "This is the first time that a woman dares to hit me......"

I said, "If your career needs to be reliant on a woman's comeback, then for whatever reason, I look down on you." ”

He smiled, and then said, "Shu Hua, I don't expect you to understand me, and I don't expect you to forgive me. I'm sorry, I'm Yan Bin is a negative man, I'm sorry for you!

After speaking, he opened the door with his luggage, looked back at me, I didn't cry, I just sat on the edge of the bed blankly, my whole head was blank, and I didn't save the little dignity I had left. I didn't do anything, I heard him drag his suitcase out the door, then gently close the door, and then the sound of a thump going downstairs, and then there was no more......

He's gone, he's gone from me...... I thought that my proximity at this time could give him enough warmth, I thought I could make him change, I thought he would be moved by me, but I didn't expect ...... My love is useless! Love, in the face of reality, is worthless.

I sat in my room, crying quietly, feeling a pain in my heart, and I took out the phone, and I wanted to say something to him again, and I wanted him to say something to me again. But in the end, I held back my breakdown and didn't dial it out. I don't think I'll ever call him again, you'll never be able to keep someone you've already lost......

At that moment, I was once again alone, alone in the face of this shattered life, the people with whom I had just established an intimate relationship left one by one, life kept repeating this scene in me like a curse, and I could only be forced to bear the blows again and again, regain my broken faith, and face the difficulties of life again......

I sat in silence for a night, looked in the mirror at dawn, and found that I had turned several hairs gray overnight. At that moment, I deeply understood that no one in this world would feel sorry for me except myself.

When it was dawn, I started to organize my resumes on my computer, and then I went through them one by one, and I was busy until the afternoon. One day and one night, I didn't contact anyone, I closed myself in my own little world, silently suffering and digesting pain alone, every time I thought of the bitterness of life, I thought of being let down again and again, I felt like a knife tearing my heart apart......

Indeed, he was right to leave me. is the woman who can help him up again, and he chooses her at this time, just hoping to get up again quickly with the help of strength. With the woman's heart for him, she would help her. I used to think that she was just an ordinary woman, but as soon as Mr. Ma's company had an accident, she suddenly acquired several other projects under Mr. Ma, and suddenly became a senior president. It's not easy.

So he has been busy in the past few days, is he just accompaniing?...... Hehe, no matter what he is to, whether he uses her as a springboard or is really interested in her, in short, it is a fact that I was easily given up by him. A duckweed-like woman like me, who has no foundation and drifts in the wind, may only be able to add icing on the cake when a man succeeds, how can I have such a strong strength to help in the snow? I am overestimating myself!

Doesn't God say that when God closes a door, he opens and closes a window? Why do I always feel as if I'm walking through a tunnel, and everywhere I go is a dead end? At that moment, I felt as if there was a curse on me, love and career were always just red fruits hanging high on the top, I tried so hard to climb and pick, but it was always a little bit short.

Extreme torment and anxiety made me insomnia all night long, but I didn't know who to tell it, one of my friends was lost one after another, and the feelings I had gradually became sour, Brother Monkey sent a wedding card, and the wedding date was approaching to invite me to go with Yan Bin, Wang Ling accepted Qin Xinhao's marriage proposal, and was happily waiting to be the bride, Chen You soon had a new life after going back, and opened a living hall with his fiancé, Zhang Hui is still drifting Wang Haoran is still looking for ...... They all have their own new lives, and they all have lovers around them to accompany them, but I seem to be like a lonely star, destined to be lonely and incomplete.

Fortunately, I received interview calls from several companies one after another. I started interviewing from house to house, and women who were still struggling at the beginning at the age of 30 were inevitably high or low, and I weighed and weighed, and I didn't know what choice to make.

That night, I suddenly received a call from Wang Ling. She said to me in a bit of a panic: "Shu Hua, come over quickly, I have something to look for you." ”

I hurried to her house, and as soon as she opened the door, she said to me: "Shu Hua, Qin Xinhao suddenly can't be contacted, I call him on both phones and are turned off, what should I do, will something happen?"

I was very surprised, and I said, "No, is it? Could it be that the power is out?"

She shook her head, and she said, "He called me this morning and told me that he was going to a party today and couldn't accompany me. I didn't want to bother him, he didn't call him, it's 10 o'clock in the evening, and I called him and found that the phone was turned off. What should I do, will he suddenly disappear, will he suddenly regret not wanting to marry me?"

I pulled her to sit on the sofa, and I said, "No, maybe it was an accident, do you have other people's contact information?" ”

She shook her head, she said: "We have known each other for less than half a year, I don't have a good impression of Wu Tong and Qian Li, so I haven't left contact information, and I don't know him very well at home, he originally came to arrange for me to meet his parents next week." Shu Hua, I always feel that something is wrong, he must have repented, he used to say that he is unmarried, he doesn't want children, he must have repented......"

I sighed, and I said, "Don't think about it, just wait, maybe he'll be calling in a moment." ”

She shook her head, and suddenly burst into tears, and she said, "What should I do if he never shows up again? Will I give birth to this child or not? My baby's clothes are ready, and the crib is bought, and he bought it with him, and he never said that he doesn't want a child, what should I do if he really disappears suddenly." ”

I tried to soothe her emotions and I said, "Take a deep breath, yes, that's it, don't think about those bad thoughts, you can recuperate in peace now, he will definitely contact you when he is free." Don't worry, don't be suspicious, don't be afraid. ”

She took several deep breaths, and her emotions gradually calmed down. She grabbed my hand and exclaimed, "Shu Hua, why are your hands so cold?"

I smiled and I said, "I broke up with Yan Bin." ”

She was astonished, and she said, "Why? Aren't you all right?"

I shook my head, and I said, "Some time ago he used to say that he was busy, and then he packed his bags and told me to break up and move out. He said that he chose Miss, hehe. I couldn't help his career, so he chose a woman who was stronger than me and younger than me, normal. Nothing to be sad about. ”

Having said that, I couldn't help but let my tears fall as I spoke. Wang Ling looked incredulous, she said: "No, Yan Bin is not this kind of person, he has never thought of relying on women to get on the throne, no, there must be other reasons." ”

I said, "He left me, that's the truth." It doesn't matter what the reason is, the important thing is that he didn't choose me, he chose someone else......"