When I was in Japan, Xu Yi said something to me.

He said that women will always be second in his mind.

So I asked, what about the first?

Xu Yi said that the first is work, and for him, women can only exist as a second in order to relieve the pressure of work.

By the time he said this, he had been in the studio for two nights in a row, and on the way back to the apartment, he had provoked me for a while, jokingly trying to help him relieve his stress.

I made a big grimace at his back.

At that time, I also understood that for men, love will never be everything.

The work in Xu Yi's eyes is the same as the dream in Chen Shi's heart, those are their ultimate pursuits, and I didn't care about these before, because I didn't think that I would have any conflict with Chen Shi's dream, I can stand behind him, and I can wait

It's just that after all the accidents happened in our lives, I found that I didn't have the initial self-confidence, and then I couldn't wait.

I asked Chen Shi and me to go back to Beijing, in a fundamental sense, not to oppose him to continue this path, I am not particularly clear about Chen Shi's situation in Guangzhou, but I can probably understand that it is just a behind-the-scenes job, and it is a pity to abandon it.

Back in Beijing, it may not be as good as the current situation, and it is a big deal to ask Rarity to help, and no matter how big it is, go back to run the rivers and lakes with Xu Niya.

It's a pity that Chen Shi didn't think so, he came to Guangzhou desperately, he worked hard, and finally got a small achievement, and if he insisted on it, maybe he could wait for the opportunity.

So he never answered my questions.

I was a little anxious, and I asked him, "Do you really have to be a star, do you have to release an album or hold a concert?"

Chen Shi looked at me with a look that had never been stranger than ever, but he didn't speak, and he didn't know what he was thinking.

I didn't continue, the sentence just now may not be what I said in my heart, I still remember that dream about the concert, in fact, it was shared by the two of us.

But when the word of apology comes to my mouth, I can't say it.

There was a stalemate outside the door for a while, but I still opened the door to let Chen Shi in.

He sighed softly, his eyes down as he passed me, and I kept looking at where he had just stood. In those few seconds, I had the illusion of passing by.

I turned around, and Chen Zhi had already walked to the side of the bed and lay down, and there was no response to calling him.

He was sick again, I don't know if it was too much tossing, he had a fever all day, he lay in bed with his eyes tightly closed, he didn't speak, he didn't express his pain, and he didn't cooperate with my care.

I was annoyed, and I wanted to ignore him for a while, but in the end I couldn't bear it.

Looking at him like this, he does look much haggard, and he is not as healthy as the first few days I came. I still believe what Chen Shi said, he should have been in the recording studio in those days, I came to Guangzhou, he had to take care of work on the one hand, and he had to find a way to take care of me so tired.

So tired, how can you have time to provoke others.

While he was asleep, I touched his face, and I lost a lot of weight, and I felt very distressed.

Xiaolei also came, dragging a large suitcase, she came to say goodbye this time, saying that she was going to move back to the dormitory. I didn't let her enter the door, so she quietly glanced at Chen Shi through the crack in the door, and then explained what Chen Shi said to me from beginning to end, and there was no discrepancy between what the two people said.

It's just that from Xiaolei's words, it can make people feel a kind of silent love, I see, I saw myself in the past, and I secretly liked Chen Zhi like that, because of my own likes and inferiority, and I always hide that emotion.

The only thing that made me unhappy was that she said before leaving, hoping that I would not be embarrassed.

I was so angry, I returned to the bedside after sending her away, staring at Chen Shi, watching and crying.

While crying, he said, "Did I embarrass you? What am I embarrassed about you? Do you know why I came to you, do you know that it was my birthday, and you didn't even notice that I had an injured foot

But I didn't really blame him for anything.

I kept my eyes closed when I cried, I cried enough, said enough, I opened my eyes, and I was relieved to see that Chen Shi was still asleep.

I said, "You're not awake, are you? Don't take it seriously. ”

Chen Shi still closed his eyes, probably really didn't hear it.

I went to wash my face and changed into a new towel to wipe his face, acting cautiously for fear of accidentally waking him up.

Chen Shi didn't wake up until the evening, I took the millet porridge I had prepared a long time ago to feed him, he raised his eyelids and looked at me, but he didn't speak.

I didn't speak, so I fed him one bite at a time, and after feeding a bowl, I asked, "Is it enough?"

Chen Shi nodded, I went to get him medicine again, and the fever was not completely reduced, so he continued to sleep after taking the medicine, covered with a thick quilt. I didn't have the heart to sleep, so I took a basin of warm water and helped him wipe his body little by little through the quilt.

The water was cold, and he was still sweating, so I changed the basin of water and continued.

Relying on the years often in the nursing home to help my mother, I have always been able to take care of people very well, take care of Chen Zhi, I am not tired, I hope he can always be by my side, of course, don't get sick, I can also take care of him when he is not sick, and take care of his body.

But these, to put it bluntly, I think about it casually alone.

Chen Shi still didn't give me an answer, he couldn't go back to Beijing, and I didn't seem to be particularly persistent after that time, of course, it was best to go back, but it had to be under the premise that he was willing.

I can't bear to force him, if someone else does it, I guess I will be even more angry than him.

This is love, and love is easy to make people unproductive.

In the mirror, I looked at my own face, from the age of nineteen to twenty-three, and was always in the look-alike type. On the contrary, it is Chen Zhi, whose changes in the past two years have become more and more able to provoke the little girl.

After walking a little bud, maybe there will be some big lei and two lei in the future, even if you can tie this person, can you tie your heart? And I'm not sure how long I've been able to tie up this person.

It's going to be the opposite, I'm really afraid that my hypocrisy and willfulness will really make Chen Zhi leave me completely.

I coaxed, for the first time.

After turning off the light, I lay down next to Chen Shi, still not at ease, pulled his arm and put it on my shoulder, and awkwardly put him in a posture of hugging me, his eyes were sour.

The next morning, Chen Shi had a fever, because he was sick and simply took a few days off, he slept for a day so he woke up earlier than me, I opened my eyes and saw that he had prepared breakfast.

Rubbing my eyes, I thought I was dreaming.

Then Chen Shi turned around and smiled at me, "Go wash your face?"

I blinked at him, and Chen Zhi behaved as if we had never quarreled, and the beauty was a little unreal. Then I continued to be in a daze, and Chen Zhi had already come over and bent down to hug me

I said what are you doing?

He said I wasn't allowed to walk until my feet were all right.

Without waiting for me to respond, his hand was on my back, and the other went to support his leg, in order not to let myself fall, I quickly went to circle his neck, and his body was immediately close together, very intimate.

Chen Shi's favor, I have been fortunate to feel too much, but the situation in front of me has never happened before, I was carried by him to wash, and then carried to the edge of the dining table.

I looked at his side face, my teeth chattering, "Is it heavy?"

I asked quietly, and Chen Shi smiled at me, "It's okay, I'm just holding you anyway." ”

I am a very coaxing person, Chen Zhi's performance, there is really no need to say too much, I have obediently and consciously returned to the state of obeying him.

Even if Chen Shi told me that he still wanted to stay in Guangzhou and wait for an opportunity, I guess I would agree.

But after eating, Chen Shi said to me, "I'll wait to buy a ticket." ”

I asked, "What ticket?"

"Back to Beijing. ”

He said lightly, and then began to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, and I asked a few questions, and he always had a faint smile on his face, telling me that it was true.

He would really accompany me back.

Going back to Beijing with me is the answer that Chen Shi considered after being sick this time, but we didn't quite understand it, and the answer came up too quickly, and sometimes even I was not confident enough.

Chen Shi decided to go back immediately this time, to put it bluntly, he was afraid that he would regret it, he didn't want to leave any room for consideration.

I looked at Chen Zhi, at his eyes, at his nose, at his mouth. His expression was only gentle, not mixed with other emotions, whether he was really happy, I couldn't tell.

Obviously, Chen Shi didn't want to give me a chance to question, he went out to buy a ticket, and came back at noon with two train tickets in his hand, just two days later.

Now that I have decided to leave and the tickets are all bought, there is nothing to hesitate about.

Chen Zhi didn't let me interfere in the finishing work, because he was afraid that my feet were not good and tossing around would be more serious. I watched him pack the scores and books little by little, and of course his precious equipment, which could not be taken away immediately, and Chen Shi said that he would please send him back at the same time.

I said, "Why don't you go back a few days later?"

I really don't need to be in such a hurry, Chen Shi made such a hasty arrangement, but I was very unconfident.

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