I was always worried that what I had would be taken away.

Not only will it be taken away, but even if it dies out naturally, I will be worried.

Deep down, I don't want anything I have to disappear.

I want to have it until I die.

But, in theory, this is simply not possible. There is nothing I can have until death, except death itself.

Even if it's a body, I can't guarantee that I'll always have it.

Perhaps, tomorrow my arm will be cut off, and the day after tomorrow my toe will be bitten off, it is entirely possible.

How do I know what the future holds?

If you don't know, you should have the attitude of not knowing, why do you always believe that you know what the future will be, and constantly fantasize about a specific future.

Deceive oneself as well as others.

I assume that what I have will always be with me. That's why when these things dissipate, I feel uncomfortable, and even my imagination at the moment is filled with fear.

I pretend these things will always be there, and I pretend I don't know they're going to be gone.

Then, pretending to be too long, it becomes real. Character, you're amazing, I don't remember how many moves this is, every time I think I've seen through your tricks, you'll give me new surprises.

Attaboy.

In a way, you're me, and you're so powerful, I can be a little proud.

Well, Pride is over. Since I'm so powerful, I guess it's no problem to kill you.

I admitted, "I can't let go of everything in the empire, and I always think about the scenery after I go back, and at the same time I am worried about whether the family I left will be destroyed during this time." ”

Too many people, too many things, constantly affect me in my head.

Noisy, real Nyima noisy!

I admit it, just by acknowledging it. Not resisting this worry, anxiety, and fear is the first and last step.

As long as it exceeds this non-resistance, anything is its own fabrication, whether it is a terrifying future or a beautiful future.

On the other hand, when I acknowledge this state, I don't want to use it as a new self-definition for myself, but to allow myself to see that I am grasping for this self-definition.

"I can't let go of my family", when I want to let go of my family, when I need to let go of my family when I encounter something, when I already have the urge to let go of my family, I will not hold on to my family because of this sentence.

Show everyone, "Alas, no way, I'm just a person who can't let go of my family", and don't let go in order to fit my own self-definition.

It's a trick of the character, and I've experienced it before. Obviously, I wanted to try to eat bitter gourd, but because I declared that "I never eat bitter gourd", I forced myself not to eat it.

Even if someone persuades me at this time, I will insist on not eating, and even pretend to be angry, "I said I won't eat!"

Shit!

Damn self-definition!

This kind of thing is equivalent to feeding one's own wishes to the lips. You see, I want to try to eat bitter gourd, so bitter gourd is on the dinner table. Not only that, but I was also persuaded that I didn't need to do anything at all, just nod my head.

In order to maintain the attributes of the character, I had to pretend to be angry and refuse the persuasion of others.

Alas, I really think of myself as a character. Think about it, the bad guy in the movie suddenly became the good guy, and all the dramatic conflicts disappeared at once.

Who would watch a neurotic movie like this?!

Maintaining character attributes, that's such nonsense!

I already know that I am not the role of Yuan Changwen, and none of this has anything to do with me. Characters are shaped by society, limited by the times, and all people are a template.

Those subtle differences, which look very different, look like it's easy to distinguish between two people, but in fact there isn't much difference at all.

Take the character of Yuan Changwen as an example, maybe it is the time of a meal, which can almost accurately describe the future life, from this moment to death, it can be almost completely predicted.

It's just a little kid who keeps snatching toys, either in the process of snatching toys or in the process of showing off toys.

"I was looked down upon at the beginning, but now I am doing it. ”

"I want to thank the people who despised me at the beginning, so that I didn't give up, and I can stand here at this moment, let's do it. ”

"He was a car washer, worked as a waiter, and for a while slept in the park. Now, how much he is worth and how much he has. ”

Revenge victory, the show-off of a rude child, the pride of a rude child, the life philosophy of a rude child.

There can be no vengeful victory in property, then in thought, in what emotional life.

Look, I know that, it's amazing.

To keep showing off, to keep telling your own opinions and opinions, is to put yourself in a certain high place. At least, in the high places of the circle of listening to yourself.

Is it possible that I despise them because I can't be at the top of society?

Yuan Changwen is the first person in the empire, but it is only a title, and it is only in the realm of spiritual masters. Even, just in the realm of public spiritual masters, no one knows where in the empire there are more powerful spiritual masters.

After all, Yuan Changwen's cultivation at the moment is far inferior to that of a teacher.

Ha!

Quite possibly, because I often fantasize that I really rule the empire, that my family really dominates the sky.

Therefore, it is entirely possible that it is because he cannot reach the top of society, so he despises them, and thus denies the series of positives of inspirational hard work.

In the final analysis, it is to want to reach the top of society in another aspect.

I don't deny it, I have to be honest, I have this idea in my heart, and the self-definition in this area is still in my hands.

Sure enough, it's a child!

On the one hand, he envies other people's toys, and on the other hand, he finds that he can't snatch them, so he has to show off what he has in order to despise the other person's shiny toys.

Any word can turn into a show-off, and it has nothing to do with the content of the word, even if I just say, "It's three o'clock in the afternoon," it's perfectly fine to show off, "Hey, you idiot, you don't even know the time." ”

It has nothing to do with the content of the words, are you showing off, don't you know?

I didn't know it before, and it was only because I wasn't honest. The so-called pride, in essence, is a kind of show-off.

it!

And self-esteem!

Oh my God, why didn't I realize before, self-esteem is also a kind of show-off! Passive show-off, once touched, will immediately rebound.

"I'm a self-respecting person, so I refuse to do anything. ”

Isn't this showing off? Or rather, low-key show-offs?

It's funny to despise people who abandon their self-esteem for money.

Giving up family reunions for the sake of money is something to be encouraged?

Sacrificing time for entertainment for money, which is commendable?

Since everyone is sacrificing something for money, what right is there to claim that giving up self-esteem is lowly and should be despised?

I have something, and I give it up in exchange for money, and I happen to need money, who is in a position to judge whether I can give this up or must keep that?

Who is qualified to judge?