Other people are still influencing me in my head.

Those opinions are still arguing in my head.

"I'm wasting my time by doing this!"

"If you don't work hard, how can you reach the top!"

"What's the point! After the killing, are you still human!"

"Life is to struggle, to protect, to have bonds!"

Noisy, can you still be a little more noisy?

Noisy!

The characters have been noisy, and I don't understand, how did I endure it?

Those successes are pretty much what I've been taught for so many years.

In a trance, I lost the pursuit of a successful career, and I didn't know what to do.

Without success as a driving force for words and deeds, how should I live?

I am like a prisoner, accustomed to prison life, accustomed to being told what I should do, and accustomed to what I can't do in an organized manner.

Now, I'm free, but I don't know what to do!

No, it's not freedom, it's imagining the days of losing prison, and I don't seem to know how to live my life.

In "The Shawshank Redemption", after the old black man was released from prison, he couldn't adapt at all and had to hang himself. That's how I am, the urge to die hasn't dissipated.

What is the meaning of this world, what use do I want this flesh to have!

I'm not a character, I'm not a body, I'm not thinking, so why am I struggling for this role?

Isn't being a human being just here to entertain?

Those self-definitions make me unable to move, and it seems that death is much more lovely than this life.

Not to mention, I would have died.

Not only was I a little kid, a rude little kid, but I was also in prison.

Whose prison?

The self-defined prison, self-incarceration, makes me unable to see the truth of "selflessness" and makes me live a dishonest life.

Hah!

Bah!

It's completely pulled by time, pushed forward by various self-definitions. What kind of life is this, fear possesses and stench, and self-definition fills the body like shit.

And then, everyone is still showing off their shit to be different.

Depend on!

One day, I'm going to make a movie about a group of kids who are in prison and doing all sorts of ridiculous things without thinking they're being imprisoned.

Freely?

If the cell is relatively large, it is freedom?

What success is my own choice?

I'm still worried, still thinking about others, "Will others think that I don't want to kill, but just because I can't succeed, so I sarcastically succeed." ”

I'm still thinking about others!

It's my!

I'm not trying to convince people that the character's deception is really hard to prevent.

"I'm right", this sentence affects me all the time, I always want to prove that I am right, I always want others to believe in me, and I always care about myself in the eyes of others.

In fact, it's nothing more than what I think of other people in my head, and then in that opinion, I guess what other people will think of me.

Mentally retarded!

All other people's opinions are just their own speculations.

Jinnyima is funny, I fantasize about the existence of a certain person in my head, and then I imagine that person's personality traits and so on, and finally I use the synthesis of this person's information in my mind to influence myself.

I'm an idiot!

Is success ridiculous? Not ridiculous.

Isn't it ridiculous to pursue success and money? It's not ridiculous, it's noble.

Then why do I want to kill success or something?

Characters, always put countless things in my head, dazzled me.

Noise, all are noises.

I don't dare to relax, I don't dare to sit idle and do nothing, I'm always busy.

Pretend to be busy!

I was afraid that if I wasn't busy, I wouldn't be successful, and I was afraid that if I wasn't busy, I would be spurned as a waste of time.

You have to be busy, pretend you're busy, so you can comfort yourself, "Look, I've tried so hard, even if I fail, I'll admit it." ”

Not honest at all.

Now, I make slashing my own business, and it seems that I have to think about slashing all the time, otherwise it's a waste of time.

This is the same as pretending to be angry before!

It's the same, it's all a trick of the characters. Obviously he was slashing, but he began to deviate as he walked.

Wrong!

I've been going around in circles, going around in circles, thinking I'm killing, thinking I'm facing difficulties, thinking I'm moving forward or going away.

In fact, I TM didn't start at all!

I couldn't be quiet for a second, my mind was bombarded at any moment. As long as there is no outside attraction, my brain starts to quarrel. The most disgusting thing is that those cool points will tempt me and make me unable to stop fantasizing.

It's obviously false, but it easily manipulates me. Alas, I'm so weak!

Even, I often think that I am about to finish the killing, and I am really pitiful to be played. Then, he couldn't get any anger at the existence of the character.

Yuan Changwen looked at the people on the grass, all of them seemed to be wearing masks, and there was no one under the masks. They are all manipulated, they are all puppets.

How do I control what other people say or do? Obviously, I can't do it, and people stand in front of me and accuse me or scold me, which is not something I can control.

So, how powerless is the effort to get others to believe in me, and how ridiculous is the study to achieve these goals!

It is the kind of distortion that the character achieves that will make it a goal to control others as a goal to strive for.

What's more, how do I know if the person standing in front of me is a real person, a real person in it, or a machine like a human?

I don't know, and my character doesn't care about that, and has to control everything to show that he exists.

What should we do in the future?

Without these self-definitions, I don't even know how to choose. I used to use my little head to weigh up, but now, how do I choose?

I don't know, but I do know that you can't rely on small heads, and that so-called knowledge is nothing more than a piece of shit.

Will it turn out to be an idiot?

Will it be inhumane?

Will it be impossible to interact with people?

Maybe, I don't know.

However, if I don't kill and let the characters be presumptuous there, I really can't stand it. In particular, this kind of thought, that kind of opinion, is bouncing around in my head, and I get irritated when I think about it.

Yuan Changwen found that he had begun to be confused and had begun to think illogically.

Is this also a trick of the character?

I can't focus on one issue, I can't see the way forward, I can't think about it.

I'm still looking for recognition!

Damn it!

The presence of the teacher, in addition to showing the way, I also found recognition in the teacher. "Well, you are a serious person, a person who works hard in your spiritual practice. ”

And the existence of students, in addition to the fact that I really want to teach something, is more of an identity. "Wow, this teacher is awesome and teaches a lot of useful things. ”

The character has always been like this, secretly transporting hidden targets through targets on the surface, and in the end, often the hidden targets will kill the targets on the surface.

For example, I will select students, in addition to the understanding part, more to put themselves in a comfortable state.

Who's comfortable?