Today is the second day of 2019.

At this moment, I am drinking a glass of boiled water, feeling the faint taste.

It feels like this faint taste is a bit like the faint friendship in my life, and it seems to be an existence that I have neglected.

After I knew that Xiaoshi was pregnant, I didn't take the initiative to tell anyone else the news, except for my relatives who knew about it. Even if it was my good friend Ah Shen, I didn't take the initiative to contact him to tell him the news.

And almost every contact I have with Ah Shen is initiated by him, and he occasionally finds time to call me. This kind of initiative did not appear in me. I'm used to being as passive as ever, contacting me when others contact me, and not contacting me if others don't contact me.

In other words, I have been able to keep in touch with Ah Shen mainly because of Ah Shen's initiative in this friendship.

No matter how good the emotion is, if it lacks the corresponding interaction, it will gradually become fading.

Well, the news that I'm about to become a father was also told to him after Ah Shen called and chatted with me. In addition to congratulating me, he was also happy to impart his experience to me, including what documents to prepare before having a baby, what to belong, and what to pay attention to.

Even after we hung up the phone, he still remembered that I was about to become a father, and would send me a list of things to prepare before having a baby.

It's really good to have this friend, it's really good to say.

After that, I went back to my hometown to do a marriage check-up, apply for a birth permit, and met Ah Shen again. Although we had less and less contact with each other, our conversation was still very natural, and I asked him how to get a birth permit by the way.

He is like an existence sent by God to save me, and what I have to experience, he first goes through it better than me, and then he imparts my experience, so that I can avoid detours.

He was so good to me, but I couldn't be as good to him as he was to me.

On his birthday, I don't call him, I only send him a red envelope on WeChat, and when his daughter is full moon, I don't call him, I only send a red envelope on WeChat to wish him...... Like, I don't always call him......

In my heart, he is an important being. However, I just won't take the initiative to contact him, if one day he asks me for help, I will definitely help if I can.

Just because I don't reach out to him doesn't mean I don't value him. It's just that my personality is like this.

It's the same in the future, I'm still the same person.

If one day, we really fade and scatter...... I don't have anything to say. Because if it is our cause, it will definitely be our cause, and it will not be dispersed because it is light.

Because to be the most authentic version of yourself, everything you encounter is also the most real. I hope, and so does my friendship.

Plain water is very light and I rarely drink it, but that doesn't mean I don't value it.

Some people attach importance to it, but they don't see it......

And I'm one of those people.

Well, am I a very conflicted person?

Whew, it doesn't matter if it's not.

The important thing is that I understand what I'm doing.

After drinking the boiled water, it was late at night, and it was time to dream.

Faintly, good night.