At night, it is the wolf with deep eyes, lonely waiting for the dawn. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

This is the longest vacation I've given myself since I came out of social work, and I'm starting to feel hesitant. For most of the month, it seems to have passed so fast, so fast that there is no sense of existence at all. In other words, a holiday without realism.

The new little world has been perfected, but my heart is messy, is it my mind that deceives my body?

My mind is to quickly build a new world so that my body can change back to its original rhythm. However, the new little world is back, but my body doesn't feel happy. A kind of nothingness is constantly devouring the inner expectation of the future, and gradually, some of the taste of death wafts out......

This vacation of complete freedom is what I have longed for very much in the past! But why, in such a completely free vacation, I do not feel the joy of enjoying freedom? Moreover, there is a sense of decadence and depravity that is so cruelly entwined in my body that I cannot see hope.

A spiritual world with sunshine at the end of the day slowly turned into a dark and lightless ruin. Such a change was beyond my expectations. Like, too, I was deceived by myself......

This so-called complete freedom is not freedom at all, but another terrible bondage that cannot be seen. Without a sunny heart, no matter how much time and space you have, you won't feel free. True freedom is in the heart, not in time and space.

Therefore, when I see the happiness of office workers on vacation, I am very envious, that is freedom......! In the future, there will be......

When my mental world isn't turning properly or there is no one in my mind and body on the way, it proves that I am going downhill or in a low period.

During this time, I was at a low point and was in a very bad mood, so I stayed up a lot of nights......

However, I am not excluded from low periods. I used to be very resistant, but now I can accept it. Because, it's normal. Life has its ups and downs. It's like the mountains ahead, some high and some low. There are many, many subtle things, all of which are thought of in the trough. In the trough, you can see a lot clearly, whether it is people or things......

It's not scary to spend time in the trough, it's scary to get used to spending it in the trough and not want to climb up. I'm scared of that.

Therefore, it is necessary to awaken and re-turn the spiritual world.

In the world, relatives and friends can bring you strength, but the only one who can really save you is yourself. Just like that sentence, if you are not brave, who will be strong for you?

Whew, I drank so much chicken soup for the soul, and I didn't drink it for nothing. Even if you can't make me drink for nothing, it won't make me yellow and thin. Chicken soup for the soul is not poisonous, if you don't know how to drink it, that's poisonous.

After saving myself, that day I focused on the singing part of the spiritual world. Well, I sang on the national karaoke. Actually, I'm used to singing a cappella, and if I sing along to the music, it's hard for me to sing it, unless the song is very low-pitched.

However, it was a real surprise that day, I was scared of myself! I was able to sing along with the music, which is a bit high-pitched for me, and I also got an S rating. For me at the time, I could really say that I looked up at the time from the perspective of the time.

As for why I can sing, maybe it's because I can sing my own songs from time to time, so my throat has been trained. Well, nothing is in vain!

Late that night, I rode the "Little Perfect" to the bank to get money to buy a kettle, and by the way, I went to the "March Wind" for a ride. At that time, there was no one on the road, and I saw a lonely back from afar.

That back is the back of a girl. Shoulder-length hair, white dress pajamas, and big headphones...... The feeling of walking seems to tell your heart. It seems that she is a girl who is close to the state of a lovelorn......

Well, my "thinking too much" is sick again......

Whew, she is lonely, and she is not the only one.

After buying a kettle and returning to Xinxiaotiandi, as soon as I closed the door, it immediately began to rain heavily!

However, it took less than two minutes to boil the hot water in a kettle, and the strip burned off...... Well, my luck is really leveraged! It must be reminding me not to use cheap and inferior products, safety first! If I am not lucky, the row may catch fire and cause a fire!

This can be said to be reasonable, and it really convinces me......

Whew, I always feel that the new little world is very awkward, so change it to a more innovative and sexy name......

Okay......! Heart!

Forehead...... I'm sorry, I don't know him......

Time goes on.

During this time, whenever someone asked me that sentence, I would feel very hesitant.

That is, have you found a job?

I don't know why, I just don't want to hear that. I also know that it is useless to run away. What should be faced, sooner or later. And I just need a process to unravel myself......

The feeling of disparity turned out to be really difficult to control.

Originally, it could have been able to develop steadily in Xidesheng, but under the dual effect of adventure and temptation, he spent most of the year abroad unexpectedly. And in that half a year, I didn't learn a skill that could support myself, but I saw a little more. When I returned to the same place, although it was still the same place I liked at the beginning, the psychological gap no longer allowed me to face this place with the same mentality as I did at the beginning......

At the beginning, the beast squad leader advised me to stay and not go so far, it was too dangerous...... But I still smiled and said that I went out to see the outside world.

After seeing a little bit of the outside world, I came back, but I didn't know how to face Xidesheng......

In the final analysis, it is my psychological effect that is causing trouble, or perhaps, it is the face that is causing trouble. Everyone knows that face is not valuable. However, a kind of "face view" that has been instilled by my family since I was a child, does it mean that if I don't care, I don't care? So, I need a process to unravel myself. If others can't help, it's a heart disease, and you have to overcome it by yourself.

Perhaps, this is also like falling in love.

For example, a boy was originally with a very real girl, and he was happy. Later, the boy met a beautiful and rich girl in a special opportunity. So, the boy broke up with the real girl, and went to live in a long way with the beautiful and rich girl. For most of the year in their lives, the boy gradually realized that he was not happy, and from time to time he would miss the girl's kindness to him. So, he broke up with a beautiful and rich girl. However, he no longer knew what identity to face the real girl, and when he looked at her from afar, he felt that it was a wound in his heart......

So when someone asks me if I've got a job, it's like asking if I've found a girlfriend. Whew, don't...... I want to be quiet......

Of course, the nature of work and love are not the same, and I just suddenly had the feeling to connect them.

I have my plans, and although I can't say for sure when I'll get a job, I have a time limit in my mind, and I just don't want to say it.

As the world of my heart becomes more and more perfect, my spiritual world will give me spiritual strength.

Thinking too much is a very serious disease! Because it can corrode the hope in one's heart and deepen one's fear of the future.

In this regard, there is only one way to cure the disease of "thinking too much"!

Hmm?

The way to do this is, don't overthink it.

I...... Dizzy...... Can you still chat happily?

Yes, if you suddenly smiled, did you feel that you had forgotten a trace of fear?

Forehead...... Probably...... It seems like...... Bar......

By the time you think about the question I'm asking, you're not thinking too much about it.

Oh? Isn't it...... This is......

That's right, it's that I went out tonight to March Wind and forgot to bring money!!

Huh?!you............

Let's go back...... The wind is so cool tonight!

Haha, I see.

Quack, do you really understand?

Understand...... Really understand......

Well, I love you!

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