There is an embarrassment that is similar to wanting to speak and stopping......

Obviously I already have the feeling of painting and want to draw but I don't do it, I already have the idea of a melody and want to write but I don't write it, I already have a lot of material for writing and want to do it, but I don't have it, I already have the passion to dance and want to dance, but I don't want to dance, I have a yearning for travel and want to travel, but I don't make up my mind to do it......

What the hell am I afraid of? I'm drunk like this......

It seems that since I decided to return to China in May, I have lost my passion for work. Pen Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info my body began to get more and more tired, even though I didn't do much. The sense of presence is constantly decreasing.

I really wanted to go back to China immediately, but the people and the world didn't allow me to do that. Therefore, for me, human feelings and sophistication are like an invisible shackle binding me. Helplessly, if you want to untie this shackle, then you will feel isolated from the world. But if I keep wearing this shackle, then I can't be truly free. Just like at that time, I couldn't do it if I wanted to return to China quickly, because my heart was tightly locked by this shackle......

That feeling of powerlessness creeped over my state of mind, and I was listless every day, trying to find some motivation to motivate myself. Like dreams. But I found that my dream was too far away, and the more I looked at it, the more hesitant I became......

At that time, I was ready to start handing over to the new people, so I was very free. There was so much time that I could have done as much as I wanted to do, but I didn't do anything, as I said at the beginning. For me, who was desperately squeezing in time to write, it was like finding an oasis in the desert. However, with such good conditions, I was in ruin......

Am I making a mistake? When I don't have time, I desperately squeeze in time to perfect the spiritual world. When there is time, it is stupidly letting time pass in vain. As if I didn't allow myself to be better......

But you know, if I can make full use of this abundant time before returning to China, my spiritual world can turn several times faster!

After returning to Japan, there will be things after returning to China, and we should not leave room for improvement at that time until after returning to Japan. Time doesn't wait for me, and I can't wait for time.

As a result, I entered a new round of psychological breakthrough. Do well what you should have done but have been delaying doing for a long time! This is the difficulty. Those things that have been delayed have become walls in my heart, and unless the walls are torn down, it will become a psychological barrier for me and stop me from growing......

Every period of confusion means a new breakthrough, and the more confused you are, the greater your growth after the breakthrough! At this time, if you retreat, then the level of growth will stop at that line. If you are brave enough to break through, then the level of growth will make leaps and bounds!

Therefore, the more confused and painful it is, the more you must persist in facing it. Breakthroughs all come from the relative limit of the body, that is, when you are about to use all your strength.

Because I hate embarrassment, I ......

Time goes on.

Writing during work hours, I don't know if it can be regarded as busy. From the point of view of a good employee, I shouldn't have gone to work to write something. But I'm not a good employee......

In the case of ensuring that the quality of the work can be completed normally, I will choose to be lazy. And to be lazy, the best thing is to perfect your spiritual world.

In the last month at that time, I was very lazy, but not to perfect the spiritual world, but to spend time.

I would watch the news on Baidu every day, see what's going on internationally, and of course look at entertainment reports.

I didn't have such conditions in my previous job, so when I was lazy in my previous job, I was improving my spiritual world. At that time, the objective conditions were relatively better, so it became a pastime.

In this regard, I think God is right to let me endure hardship, because people like me who don't know how to cherish what they have should taste more hardships to understand the hard-won things they have.

The beauty that is too easy to obtain will only make my heart swell, and I will forget the original meaning.

So although those days of hardship seem to be hard, in those days, you can feel the power of life. Moreover, the days of hardship are always so impressive that they have a unique meaning.

In my previous job, I always said that there was not enough time, but when there was a lot of time, I was at a loss......

Maybe this can reflect my other needs, I always feel that I don't have enough money, and when I have a lot of money one day, maybe I feel like I have nothing but money.

Life is so funny. When you want it, you don't. When you have, you don't understand why you have to do so much......

Or, it's really more reliable to "live in the moment". Again, the big truth......

Living in the present, even if you don't have enough time and money, you will feel that every day is full and enjoyable. If people think too much about the past and the future in the present, then the illusion will deceive people's hearts, and maybe it will gradually destroy a person's heart. The real devil can be seen, but the illusory devil is invisible.

When they don't get it, many people will swear how they will cherish it if they get it. But when they really got it, those swore words that turned into big words in the face.

A person's heart can determine how much he gets, even if the objective environment may have an impact, but the ultimate determining factor is the quality of the heart.

My heart is not big, and I don't get much. Even if the objective environment gives me a lot, my heart can't hold it. Therefore, mind cultivation is the strongest foundation.

If you lose it, if you are strong in your heart, you will still get it. If you get it, your heart can't support it, and you will easily lose it.

Time didn't tell me where I lived......

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