I hate myself!

Yuan Changwen sat on the bench early in the morning, and the words "hate yourself" popped out of his mind.

It's the beginning of the day, with self-hatred.

Hehe, when you arrive at the company, will it be another irritable day?

I hate myself, Yuan Changwen looked at his hands and muttered, "Hands, do you hate me?"

I almost forgot that the body is in the realm of "indefinite reality".

Hey?

If I hate myself, then who is the first me? Who is the second me?

The first me or the second me, which is the real me?

Could it be that both are the same me?

Obviously not, if it was the same me, how could two completely different voices appear at the same time!

The second self refers to the composition of various behaviors and emotions, me at work, me at work, and me when I am unhappy......

Yuan Changwen's eyes lit up, isn't the second me "self"!

Weaving various definitions of the self, the "self" that draws boundaries from everything in the outside world. "Ego" has a job, is on the way to work, sits on a bench and is depressed, and will go to the company in a while.

These are all "self"!

That is, the second self of "I hate myself"!

So who is the first me?

Yuan Changwen found that this was not the question he had been looking for and had no answer to so far.

Who am I?

I can hate myself because the second me is not me at all, and that's the "self," which is the various definitions that are added to the background.

Assuming that all self-woven definitions are abandoned, my essence will not change. As much as it may seem like this person is out of place, good and evil, my essence will never change because of these additions.

I'm still me.

Yuan Changwen remembered his previous thoughts, what is true?

I can't be sure that the world is real, and I can't be sure that the world is false, so objective things are definitely classified into the scope of "indefinite reality".

Some people will say, what's the point? It's better to waste time and energy than to work honestly, live seriously, and enjoy a good life.

!

What do they think, and what does it have to do with me?

How celebrities live, how those sages live, what's my business?!

In my life, I'm not here to imitate anyone!

Even if my thinking does not lead to anything, even if I ruin my so-called life, even if I fail, even if these thoughts are meaningless, even if my wife is separated and cannot die......

I still have to see the truth.

What exactly is true for sure?

Yuan Changwen stood up suddenly, looked around, and the number of people coming and going gradually increased, almost all of them went to work.

Not to mention whether some people are right or not, your existence itself belongs to the "indefinite truth". If I talk to you and get entangled with you, I will be deceived by that demon again.

So I got stuck in the quagmire, arguing with you, talking to you, and I just couldn't move on.

Further!

Yuan Changwen looked at the orange clouds on the horizon, and thought of this word again, even further.

As long as you don't reach it in one day, then keep going.

How do I know I've reached it?

How do you know you're at the end of the road?

Maybe I'm already at the end of the road?

No, these are demonic temptations, and the end feels definitely different.

Although I don't know what that is.

Could it be, there is no end at all?

"Hahahaha!"

Yuan Changwen suddenly laughed, and the people around him glanced at it, and continued to take hurried steps.

Devil, I've seen your tricks.

No matter what the trap is, the carefully woven lie, in short, it just doesn't make me continue to think, it doesn't let me keep going.

Then, on the other hand, everything that hinders me from moving forward is a devil's trick!

It's funny to think about my previous hesitation, as if if if I made this decision, I would disappear into this world in a flash.

It's all a demonic deception!

Yuan Changwen looked at the time, it was still early.

The feeling he had just figured out made his body full of vitality, and he decided to go to the company on a whim.

As for whether you will be late, it doesn't matter, if you really don't have time, just take the car.

At this moment, I just want to go!

What calculations, what waste of time, hell with it!

The world belongs to "indefinite reality", so any cognition based on this world also belongs to "indefinite reality".

I can use it or not.

I am the authority, and there is no one to guide me anymore.

The truth that I believe in is the truth.

Maybe it's different from the people around you, maybe it's different from science reporting, but so what?

It's all "unsure of the truth"!

Some people may use the basic common sense of the mainland to prove that I am wrong in this way.

What is right and what is wrong? This proposition itself has a problem, how can we prove the existence of "right and wrong", and only then can we continue to explain what is "right and wrong".

These are just concepts, and over the millennia, have there been few changes in the concept of right and wrong?

Every year, people think that they have the real "right and wrong", and they can't figure out how the ancients could not see it. And a hundred years later, these rights and wrongs continue to change, and we continue to laugh at the ancients.

Interesting?

Besides, what those great gods say, and what so-and-so teaches us how to do it.

Am I brainless? Am I blind?

Need them to dictate?!

I admit that it is reassuring to listen to authority, especially when it is consistent with one's own thoughts. It seems that in an instant, he becomes as powerful as the authority.

Bullshit!

Yuan Changwen strode while thinking rapidly, this kind of pleasure of thinking has never been there since high school.

How rebellious I was at that time, I talked about "why" and "why" all day long. I doubt everything, and I feel that this is not right, and that is not right.

The cruelty of reality makes us give up this kind of thinking, give up the struggle, and live with everyone in peace. Perhaps, only in the dead of night, facing the darkness of the surroundings, will the middle finger be raised.

No, it's not like that at all!

It is we who voluntarily give up doubt, give up thinking, give up fighting. Because we feel that there is no hope in resisting, and there is no point in doubting the truth.

Watching the success of our peers, with the noise of hard work in our ears, we compromised.

Who is to blame for this? Obviously it is not a social problem, and all decisions are made by themselves.

We are afraid of being ostracized, we are afraid of not having a car and a house, we are afraid of being despised and ridiculed by others.

In the face of these fears, we don't think about why the fear, where the fear comes from, and what the nature of the fear is. All this, we didn't think about.

We simply give in, tremble in fear, and make the decisions that fear wants us to make. We think that with something, we are no longer afraid.

But in fact, fear is always around, and this is one of the devil's deceptions.

Yuan Changwen walked faster and faster, seemingly unwilling to stop, and his body began to heat up as his pace accelerated.

Everyone knows that this road is meaningless, at least at this stage.

I don't even know if there is an end to this road, let alone the reward for reaching it.

So what?

I don't want to be pulled by emotions anymore, I don't want to crouch in the corner and shiver, I don't want to cry out to heaven.

What is real?

I don't know, but I do know what falls under the category of "can't be sure of the truth".

Since the whole world belongs to the "uncertain truth", I want to see what is real.

Yuan Changwen found that what drove him on this path was not "thinking", but "hating".

I hate myself for being pulled by emotions, and I hate the emotion of coming and leaving when I want to.

Emotions, on the other hand, are the product of the interaction between self-woven definitions and reality. To get rid of emotions is to cut off the definition of self-weaving. Many of those definitions are good for society.

Those definitions make people polite, make people feel pity, make people feel guilty for doing bad things, and make people call moral exemplars.

If you "want" to explore the truth, then you will fall into the trap woven by the devil, and once there is a place in it that hurts you, you will stagnate.

It's like spending a lifetime of energy interspersed in various scriptures, and finally becoming a compassionate person who does good deeds.

But that's not true!

If you actively "want" to find the truth, you will stagnate in the face of self-harm, and you will be tricked by the devil into continuing to sleep. And they think they have found the truth of the world, such as everything is love, everyone is God, and so on.

Only the power of hatred can face the self-hurt and move on despite all odds.

Because what I hate is "self"!

It adds all sorts of definitions to the background, forcing me to be dragged along and letting emotions run wild with me.

You've got a kind!

Yuan Changwen suddenly wanted to roar, and a thousand words were combined into one word.

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