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I have never been able to figure out Xu Yi's temper, and I have never been able to see through him as a person.

Xu Yi, he is an idol and a senior in my heart, but he has always had a sense of distance. He cared for me, but mostly it was lukewarm.

I know that he has always been distracted by me, and he has no distracted from anyone.

However, his attitude this time was indeed unexpected to me, and of course, my mind at this time was completely out of this issue.

I'm just nervous and scared.

On the other hand, I have never dared to go to the hospital because I dare not go alone, Xu Yi took me there, and I actually felt relieved.

When I arrived at the hospital, Xu Yi still brought a pair of sunglasses to disguise it a little, in fact, he could let me in by myself without following me out of the car, maybe he saw that I was cowardly, so he carried my arm all the way in.

Queued, registered, did a bunch of checks, big and small.

Finally, he accompanied me to the doctor's appointment.

I was really pregnant, sixty-one days ago, and I was pregnant when I was in Guangzhou.

The doctor saw that I looked quite young, so he asked if the child wanted it. I knew I should have made a decision early on whether I wanted to or not, but I wasn't sure.

I look at Xu Yi, Xu Yi can't help it, this is not his child.

However, Xu Yi didn't clear up the relationship in front of the doctor, but told me about spraying pesticides just now.

The doctor looked at me with disgust, "You young people are really capable of nonsense. ”

Although it's Hu Lai, it's actually not so squeamish, mainly because the children are too precious now, so the family will pay so much attention to this and don't let you do that and don't let you do that, the doctor said that it's okay to pay attention to it in the future, and prescribed me a bunch of medicines, saying that my body is too around, and the child has to be adjusted first regardless of whether he wants it or not.

This body wraps around, in fact, it is the sequelae of the last hospitalization.

I suddenly remembered that I said to the doctor, "I was in the hospital more than a month ago. ”

The doctor dropped his pen and looked up at me, "What's going on?"

I said, "Formaldehyde poisoning." ”

This time it was really not a trivial matter, the doctor looked at me, then at Xu Yi, and said, "You are still young." ”

Meaning, it is not recommended.

It was like a bang in my heart, and I felt very uncomfortable.

Not thinking about whether you want this child is not the same as losing a child because of your own mistakes. That feeling of self-reproach turned the river and the sea.

Xu Yi asked me to wait, and he went to get the medicine.

I waited, calmed myself down for a while, and thought for a while.

I want to get acquainted again. Although I wanted to, it didn't mean that I regretted breaking up with him, the decision to break up was something I thought about and thought about during a solo trip. It's just that the arrival of this child is something I didn't expect.

I think it's probably because there is a small life in my body that is inextricably linked to him, which is a continuation of him and is impossible to ignore.

And now, I may not be able to protect this continuation.

Actually, it's still sad.

Xu Yi came back, and as before, he didn't particularly avoid suspicion, came over and pulled my arm and asked me to go out with him. In the car, he handed me the medicine.

"Raise it first, don't think about it. ”

I nodded and I said thank you.

"What about Chen Shi, you don't want to hide it from him, do you?"

I laughed, forcefully. Even if the scene of me and Chen Shi breaking up is a little more intense, I won't hide this kind of thing from him, now I can't find Chen Shi, he is like missing. In fact, I have also tried some ways to inquire in the past few days, but to no avail, I only know that he also left Tianjin on Valentine's Day.

But I didn't go back to Guangzhou.

Xu Yi parked the car on the side of the road and called Chen Shi. The result, of course, is also a shutdown.

He asked me, "How long?"

I said, "From the day I went back to Beijing." ”

Xu Yi is not an almighty person, for example, now, Chen Zhi is missing, I can't find him, and Xu Yi can't help it. What else could you do? Go and call the police.

He also contacted a number of people, including Rarity to make a number of phone calls to the people at the Guangzhou office.

There was still no result, and Chen Zhi was determined to disappear for a while.

I couldn't hold back, I started crying, and halfway through the cry I remembered that I was tossing myself now to make this child suffer, and I endured the tears again.

After a week, Chen Zhi was still in that state of no news.

Xu Yi has been taking care of me, he can't help it, Xu Yi is indeed a person who doesn't care, but he also feels that if he doesn't care about me now, he will almost die and not save me. It's not a good idea to find Rarity, but he's still on vacation, so he can call me and talk to me, or buy something to eat with me.

I said, "You can't be so nice to me. ”

He said, "You really don't think of me as a human being. ”

Xu Yi cares about me, which is also human nature.

But school is about to start, and the roommates I haven't met before are back, so it's not appropriate to let Xu Yi come over.

Xu Yi also thinks that my state is okay these days, so let's do this first, let me contact him if I have something.

I said okay. While preparing for the make-up exam at the end of last semester, he continued to recuperate and wait for the news of Chen Zhi.

I didn't wait for Chen Zhi, but I waited for a new situation, that day I went to school for self-study, and on the way back, my stomach began to hurt, I found a restaurant to go in to rest, and after a while, I began to break out in a cold sweat, and my face was as white as the wall.

By the time I took a taxi to the hospital, it was already red.

I was not very conscious at the time, I was carried in when I almost got out of the car, and I couldn't answer the doctor's words, so I knew that it hurt, and finally I fainted.

My phone ran out of battery, and the doctor pulled out a small note in the middle of the dictionary in my bag and followed the phone call.

That was Xu Yi's number, which was the number Xu Yi wrote to me on the day when Chen Zhi and they rented a practice room and we celebrated together, but I couldn't find it later, it turned out to be sandwiched in the dictionary.

When Xu Yi arrived, I also woke up, lying in the ward, and my body was still in pain.

He came over to see me, and his face was not very good.

I was a little scared, so I clutched my stomach and asked, "What's wrong with me?"

Xu Yi shook his head, "It's not good." ”

I had to have a doctor to explain this to me, but Xu Yi was not at ease, so he stayed in the ward and looked at me, even if the middle-aged female doctor said a few words that his boyfriend was really not responsible.

The child is gone.

didn't let me think about it and suffer because of his going. When I came to the hospital, I had a miscarriage and I fainted, so I didn't know that I had lost so much blood later.

After the doctor finished speaking, he went out, probably wanting to give Xu Yi some time to comfort me.

There is nothing to comfort in.

I smiled at Xu Yi, "Now I finally don't have to worry." ”

Laughing and laughing, I cried.

After the miscarriage, I had to have surgery to clear the uterus, and the doctor said that there was no need to inject anesthetic, but it was very uncomfortable, so I put up with it.

I said okay, because I didn't want to trouble others, but in fact, I was still afraid, very afraid, and sad. When the two moods are staggered together, I especially hope that Chen Shi can be by my side at this time.

Because I didn't use anesthetic, I was awake during the operation, and I was put in a shameful position, watching the doctor bend over and move the surgical forceps.

I also clearly feel that this child, who fuses the blood of me and Chen Zhi, has been completely stripped of my body.

The pain in my body and the pain in my heart, I don't know which is more serious.

When I came out of the operating room, I felt like I had been blistered, and my body was covered in cold sweat.

The doctor said that this uterine evacuation operation is harmful to the body, for example, if you want to have children in the future, you should be more careful. It's okay once, but it's not okay to toss a few more times.

I stayed in the hospital for a day, and the next day I regained some strength and planned to go back to the rented house by myself.

I said, "Thank you for the first two days." ”

Xu Yi frowned, "Where are you going now?"

I said, "I'll go back." ”

After speaking, Xu Yi didn't reply, I walked around him, he didn't move, and after a while, he caught up and sighed, "Come with me." ”

I understood that it was unreasonable to be stubborn at this time, I had only known the roommates in the rental house for a few days, and I definitely couldn't expect them to take care of me. If you toss yourself now, maybe you really can't have children in the future.

I listened to Xu Yi's words and went home with him.

For the next few days, I stayed with him, and Xu Yi lived in the studio. He couldn't have taken care of me personally, even if he had a trusted aunt.

My aunt saw my appearance and said that I must not deal with the past casually. He also said to me, "Your husband treats you badly. ”

I pulled my mouth and laughed, "He's a good guy." ”

I didn't explain much about the specifics. On those days, I was in a low mood, very low, like I was missing my soul, and I was immersed in a kind of lost sadness all day and night.

I didn't sleep well or eat well, Xu Yi still took the time to call to care about my current situation, but he didn't show up in person, and I heard Rarity say that he was busy promoting the new album again.

Rarity says she has time to go shopping, and I say yes. Indeed, only Xu Yi and I know about my pregnancy until now.

Half a month after my miscarriage, I finally received a call from Chen Shi.

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