At that time, I saw someone on Weibo saying that he felt that the articles he had written before were stupid, and even that he was a fool before. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

What I thought at the time was the opposite of what I thought above.

I don't think I was stupid at that time, even if I wrote a diary of two or three crosses in the second grade of elementary school, and the pen was written in a childlike style. On the contrary, I feel that I am not as real as I was then, although I was simple and didn't understand anything when I was a child, but I have naturally lived a real life. Although I know a lot more now than I did when I was a child, I can't learn to live a real life naturally. In other words, it's a gap in mentality.

For example, in fact, the beginning of life is the end. How to put it? The beginning of man is actually what he wants to pursue with his whole life, but he doesn't understand anything at first, and he doesn't know what he has at the moment is what he wants to pursue. So people begin to grow and begin to understand more. However, in the process of gradually understanding, I experienced all kinds of ups and downs. In order to pursue, I persevered desperately. When people's years are about to run out, and their brains have already understood too much, they realize that they are just returning to the starting point. That is, people start from the starting point to find the end, and go around and around for a lifetime before they understand that the end is the initial starting point.

So, I don't think I was stupid when I was a child, but it's a kind of cuteness that I yearn for.

After that, I read the first draft of "The Girls I Like", which had been written at that time, and looked at it, and it seemed that some of it was quite funny. Why can't I write now? Shouldn't people be progressive? Perhaps, people are so complex.

In those days, I actually had a lot of ideas that I wanted to express, but it was too cluttered. Plus, I want to do a lot of things, so I'm multitasking. In this case, it is even more chaotic.

But it doesn't matter, the ideas are still wandering in my head, and when the time is right, I'll salvage them.

What bothered me more in those days was marriage.

One day, my aunt went back to her hometown to find someone to count my eight characters, and it was calculated that my marriage came that year.

Auntie was so happy that even the air could feel her powerful aura of happiness. So, she began to look for a blind date for me, and told me to pay attention to the girls in the company.

Actually, I still have a fear of marriage. Because my mentality at that time was not the kind of mentality that I could be the head of the family and shoulder multiple responsibilities. I haven't even been able to grasp love, so how can I grasp marriage?

However, I had to get married earlier.

The "time bomb" in Uncle's body is what our whole family is most worried about. Auntie also asked the fortune teller to count my uncle's eight characters, and calculated that my uncle would be in danger in recent years. Although these fortune-telling with superstitious flavor are comical from a scientific point of view, for family members who have deep feudal thoughts since childhood, they should be treated with awe, not to mention, they would rather believe what they have than what they don't. Behind all of this, it is just the loving heart that Auntie hopes that her family will be well.

My aunt wants me to get married as soon as possible, so that I can be happy for my uncle. Although I have always disliked the word "chongxi", it can really make my uncle feel good. This is what Uncle looks forward to the most. As long as Uncle is in a good mood, his body will be maintained well. Thinking of this, I never wanted to get married so early, and there was no reason why I shouldn't get married sooner.

And my struggle is, will I really be happy if I get married in such a hurry? You know, I don't have a partner yet. Do you plan to get married as soon as you talk about your partner? I'm not the kind of person who gets married for the sake of getting married, I really want to get married because I love someone so much. But is there any time? Where is the person I love so much?

Can I break new ground in my growth before I get married? All kinds of entanglements, all kinds of awkwardness.

I'm a person who believes in fate. If there is a good person in my life in the near future, I will definitely take advantage of it.

After all, it's not just because of marriage, but also because I really want someone to accompany me on a small trip......

Grow in tangled and mature in growth.

For fate, I know that what should come will always come. In the future, no matter how artificial it is, it is futile.

Whether that she comes or comes, I'm here, waiting for her.

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