I have always wondered why these people who are engaged in art are so fond of the scene, but the feeling of being at the scene is still very good, I heard that the stage is arranged by the students themselves, not to talk about professionalism, but the feeling of being in it is very different, the students who come in pairs around are indeed very eye-catching, living in such an environment, it is very difficult not to fall in love.

And Chen Shi was in such an environment, and he was labeled as Tang Si for four whole years.

I feel like I'm going to be jealous.

It's not that he is jealous that Tang Si can still brush up on Chen Shi's presence from time to time, but that he feels beyond the reach of their common memories that have lasted for more than 1,500 days.

I once asked Chen Shi this question on the side, but he didn't seem to want to answer, and the most common result was to stare at me with a cold face, and then break up unhappily.

Chen Shi thinks that I am as vulgar as other girls, and I think that this vulgarity is innate.

After all, it's still an ordinary friend's relationship, Chen Shi and I almost don't see each other anymore, and this graduation performance is also an accident, I flipped through the text messages, from the time he told me that he wanted me to come, and then looked at it, we had no contact at all for half a month, that is, it started after he hinted that I wanted to reconcile and I refused.

Chen Shi was rejected once, and he stopped looking for me.

During that time, we were all busy with each other, and gradually he didn't take the emotional matter so seriously.

For example, when he first said that he was going to separate, Chen Shi would still find opportunities to get close to me, and text messages and phone calls were also very frequent.

I watched Si Chen help me set up the DV and thought, am I being self-inflicted like this, and I have to film his performance.

Si Chen comforted me, "Don't think so much. ”

But I felt that there was something in his words, so I asked Si Chen, "Are you hiding something from me?"

Si Chen put down the machine, "Blind thought, Xiangxi, I'll tell you, I feel tired if you change it to me like this, think about it, don't be so stubborn, otherwise you will regret it." ”

Si Chen's words are a warning, maybe he doesn't know anything, but he is a person who lives by Chen Shi's side, just like Chen Xiang and I can understand each other's careful thoughts even if we don't say it, Si Chen can also see through Chen Shi's thoughts.

If Chen Zhi wavered, then Si Chen was probably the first person to know.

Let me take a look at the message that Chen Shi gave me: The day after tomorrow, we will perform for graduation, can you come and see?

In a rather casual tone, under Si Chen's nudge, I was alone and a little estranged. Alas, I'm in a bad mood.

Si Chen's mind was still on Chen Xiang, Xu Nia called half an hour ago and said that he was absent from an emergency, so I silently walked to my seat and waited.

After a while, the show began, and Si Chen said goodbye to us and went backstage. said that it was a graduation performance but not everyone had the opportunity to go on stage, but Si Chen and Chen Shi were both counted as characters in this session, as for Tang Si, I didn't see her name, and I was a little relieved, I don't think I'm too bad.

Si Chen's program is relatively high, it is a cooperation with a girl, the girl sings, Si Chen plays the piano, and the special prince.

While swinging the DV to help him record the video, I asked Chen Xiang, "Are you not worried?"

"Worried about what?"

"So many people like him, I didn't know it before. ”

I really didn't notice anyone who liked Si Chen, in the past, my eyes were all focused on Chen Zhi alone.

Chen Xiang looked at Si Chen on the stage, a little hesitant, "There will be more people around them in the future." ”

Yes, yes, I actually forgot, SLAM signed a contract with a record company, maybe it won't be long before an album will be released, will be on TV, and then become a big star like Xu Yi, in such a small campus, they are all surrounded by people with a halo, then change to a bigger stage, and there will be more people who like them.

There are simple likes and support, and there are also people like me and Chen Xiang, who no longer want to wait and see.

In our best and youngest days, I had the privilege of standing beside Chen Shi and listening to his most sincere confession, and I should be content with such luck.

Si Chen had a thirty-second opportunity to speak after the performance, he should have discussed it with the host, I didn't listen carefully, and then I saw the lights around us gathered on our side, originally Chen Xiang and I were seated in Si Chen's class, and Si Chen's classmates coaxed Chen Xiang to go on stage. I smiled and pretended to be very happy and said, "Go quickly." ”

Chen Xiang came to power, and then never returned, at this time she and Si Chen should need a little time alone. It's just that I'm alone, and I always have to feel the loneliness that is boundless.

There is an illusion that it is about to be devoured.

The party lasted three or four hours, and Chen Shi came on the stage very late, and when he appeared, my upper and lower eyelids began to fight.

The video that forced me to concentrate on it, the hand dragging the DV was also pantothenic, and the lights were no longer on our side at this time, Chen Shi couldn't see me, and it was pitch black from his position, but I still had a prepared posture, people are easy to be amorous, I secretly wondered if Chen Shi would also stand on the stage and say something to me at the end of the performance like Si Chen. With this anticipation, I didn't dare to get tired for a moment, I sat up straight, and I thought that the next moment the lights would shine again.

I'm really thinking too much.

Chen Shi is very restrained today, wearing a white shirt, the top two buttons are unbuttoned, a black tie, black trousers, and white sneakers, which is quite a bit of a school grass. He sat casually on the steps of the stage, stepped forward with two long legs, held the acoustic guitar, and played and sang softly.

sang "Those Flowers", which is very appropriate.

I listened quietly, a little fascinated.

After singing, Chen Zhi stood up from the steps, and there was an accompaniment sound around him, and he walked forward step by step. At that moment, I almost got to my feet.

However, the light gradually shifted, and Tang Si appeared beside Chen Shi. Chen Shi smiled and held her hand, and when he turned around again, the whole class had already taken the stage.

In the second half, it became a chorus of the whole class, with Chen Shi and Tang Si standing in the middle.

I'm leaving, this choice is considered to be interesting, Chen Zhi's performance is very popular, the atmosphere on the stage is quiet, and the audience is indeed boiling, including the students around me, no one will notice that there is such a little me fleeing in disgrace.

The moment I opened the door, a light came in from outside, and I was afraid that I would see it from the stage, so I was in a hurry to go out, and finally I looked back.

It was too far away to see what kind of expression Chen Shi was at all, he was facing my side, and Tang Si suddenly stood on tiptoe and hooked Chen Shi's neck and kissed him on the cheek.

There is a sentence in the lyrics: Some stories have not been told, so forget it, those moods have been difficult to distinguish between truth and falsehood in the years.

Those stories that are difficult to distinguish between truth and falsehood, forget it.

After leaving the music school, I walked blindly forward, got into the car, and casually told the driver the name of the place where Chen Xiang and I used to share, and when I got upstairs, I realized that she had also moved away for a long time.

My phone ran out of battery, and I sat at the door for a while before heading out.

I met Xu Yi at the gate of the rivers and lakes.

He shouldn't have remembered me, but Lao Bi remembered, and Lao Bi called me, "Why did you come here alone?"

I shook my head, "It's okay, just hang out." ”

Xu Yi looked at me again, as if he remembered, and beckoned at me to go next to him.

I said no, and ran out of the yard of the rivers and lakes. I still remember the situation of the celebration banquet that day, Xu Yi is a very dangerous person, I don't plan to wade into troubled waters with him.

It's not too late, and the riverside road is still brightly lit. I stood on the overpass and listened to the boy who looked like a high school student sing, and as I listened, I saw Xu Yi again.

This time he was under the bridge, got out of the car, took out his phone and gestured to me.

I took out my phone, turned it on, and then received a call from an unfamiliar number, obviously Xu Yi.

He said, "Come down?"

I wanted to say forget it, but Xu Yi urged again, "If you don't come down, I'll leave." ”

Then the phone automatically turned off again, and Xu Yi was still waiting for me below. I felt that even if I didn't go, I had to say it, and I was embarrassed to make him wait so much, so I went down and was got into the car by Xu Yi.

The door was locked, and I was a little anxious, "I'm not going to let me get out of the car." ”

Xu Yi looked at me and couldn't help but smile, "Feeling bad?"

"Nope. "I turned my face sideways and didn't look at him, besides, I'm in a bad mood, what is he laughing at.

I continued to toss in the car, studying how to open the door, the car had already started, Xu Yi was probably annoyed by my tossing, braked sharply at the red light, and ordered in a serious tone, "Sit down." ”

Xu Yi's words are very useful, I am a bully and afraid of the hard, so I rarely lose my temper with him when Chen Shi didn't give me a good face, Xu Yi was too good to talk before, so I was lawless in him, he yelled once, and I wilted, and I was much more settled.

But that's not right, why did he lock me up in his car?

I sat quietly for a while, and at the second red light, I turned to Xu Yi, pitiful, "You let me go down." ”

Xu Yi smiled again, not the relaxed kind, it was a very dangerous smile, and his face leaned over, "Are you afraid?"

"No, you let me go down. ”

The red light turned green, and the car started again, Xu Yi didn't consider my suggestion at all, and drove the car fast, I looked at his deep side face, slightly helpless.

Even if you are afraid, you have to be in your heart when you are fine, I am in a bad mood now, and there is no room for fear, I just feel that I am unlucky. I felt unlucky because I was sitting in the same car as Xu Yi, which in itself was incredible.

In fact, I also understand that Xu Yi can't do anything in front of me, he is probably bored and curious at this time, so he deliberately teases me. I simply closed my eyes and ignored him.

Then his phone rang, and it was in the cup slot.

Xu Yi concentrated on driving, picked up the phone with one free hand, glanced at it, and handed it to me, "Help me take it." ”

"Huh?"

I looked at the caller ID, the call was from Xu Niya, and there was only one word in the note: brother.

Inexplicably cordial, I suddenly had a good impression of Xu Yi again. Xu Nia was very surprised that I was with Xu Yi, he asked me what was wrong, I didn't say anything about Chen Shi's performance, just said that I met Xu Yi outside.

Xu Nia said to let Xu Yi answer the phone.

I poked Xu Yi's arm, he slowed down and glanced at me, "What's wrong?"

I said, "Langlang will let you pick it up." ”

Xu Yi smiled, "This kid." ”

He didn't stop when he answered the phone, he just held the steering wheel with one hand, and his movements were very skillful, and I looked at him a little dumbfounded. Indeed, Chen Zhi will be compared to Xu Yi, and they will be compared without a trace.

I looked at Xu Yi, and I was distracted when I looked at it, I don't know when he hung up the phone, and I don't know when he turned around.

Anyway, Xu Yi sent me home, and Xu Nia should have told him the address.

When I got out of the car, I was about to say goodbye, and remembering the phone number from earlier, I asked him, "How do you have my phone number?"

Xu Yi didn't look at me, "Just know if you want to know." ”

"Then thank you for sending me back. ”

The second time we met, Xu Yi was really bored and joking with me, but in the eyes of others, it was different, such an interaction did not belong to two complete strangers.

I kept looking in Xu Yi's direction, and I didn't turn around until the car drove away.

I didn't expect Chen Shi to come back, he was sitting on the steps at the entrance of the building, I don't know how long he waited, he looked a little embarrassed, his expression was very serious, his mouth was tightly pursed, and he looked angry.

I suddenly didn't want to pay attention to him, why did he get angry with me, bypassing Chen Zhi, I was going to go in directly, but I was still caught by him at the door.

Chen Shi closed his fingers, and it hurt me so much that I turned my head to glare at him.

"Let it go!"

I can't see his face clearly in the dark, people are afraid of the unknown, even in the face of people who were once familiar, there will always be no sense of security in the dark, I desperately broke free, but I didn't know that such an action was resistance and resistance to him in Chen Shi's opinion.

He felt that I didn't want him to touch me because I didn't like him anymore.

Chen Shi asked me, "You were with him just now?"

I stopped my movements, and at first I was going to explain, thinking of Tang Si, my mouth hardened, "Yes, didn't you see it?"

It's not the first time that Chen Shi has been jealous like this, Yu Xueqian, Xu Ya, every time he inexplicably treats others as imaginary enemies, and Xu Yi is no exception.

And he himself, doesn't know how to clean himself at all, let me go to his graduation performance, he actually calculated that I would appreciate how Tang Si kissed him, and the more I thought about it, the more angry I became.

I said, "I like Xu Yi, you didn't know it for the first time, okay, okay, now I don't have to hinder you from reconciling with your ex-girlfriend, you're very happy now, how good you just cooperated on stage." Don't tell me that this is the last time she begged you, and what are your troubles, I don't want to know, and I don't want to know anything about you in the future. ”

"Are you sure?"

Chen Zhi's voice was cold.

"Yes. ”

I know I shouldn't admit it casually at this time, but sometimes people are like that, knowing that they shouldn't be impulsive, but they just can't get angry. I think it's obvious that I like Chen Shi so much, and he is here to question me.

Confront me when he and others are still unclear.

Chen Shi looked at me for a while, looking at me so lightly, with a sense of disappointment, his cold fingers swept across my face, touched it lightly a few times, and then left gently.

He took a breath and said, "You've been gone for four hours, and I've just chased it out." Xiangxi, I can't find you, are you going to tell me now, have you been with him for the past four hours, when I was looking for you......? What did you do?"

Chen Zhi's tone is so aggrieved, but I feel very funny when I listen to it, he actually thinks of me so much.

"Whatever you want, I'm leaving. ”

I pushed Chen Shi away and went upstairs alone.

Since that day, I haven't seen Chen Zhi, the next day I went to Xu Nia to return the DV, the door of Chen Shi's room was closed, Xu Nia fiddled with it, and asked me, "Why did you only record Si Chen?"

I laughed dryly, "It's too complicated to use." ”

Until I left, Chen Shi never came out.

After another half a month, I also had a holiday, and Chen Zhi and they followed the record company to Guangzhou to participate in training, it is said that it was two months, he didn't mention it to me, and I don't know, these are all told to me by Si Chen, and he also persuaded me twice, I asked him if he also persuaded Chen Zhi to do the same.

Si Chen didn't speak, which was a tacit acquiescence.

Then what else to say, I don't think I will lower my posture and Chen Zhi to explain anything, or, there is no need to explain at all. We're just betting on each other. I don't understand what Chen Shi thinks, but I don't like to be angry, I'm really thinking about giving up.

During the summer vacation, I moved to the student dormitory in advance, cleaned the room, and then calculated the rent and handed it to Lao Bi along with the key, so that he would have the opportunity to transfer it to Chen Shi again.

During the holidays, Chen Xiang and I worked as teachers in the school's introductory Japanese class, and every day I faced a group of primary and secondary school students.

The written review of the study abroad materials has passed, my mother has scraped together some money for me to freeze in the bank or the next step of the procedure, day by day, I methodically prepare for the procedures for going abroad, and the lectures are gradually handy. Without old knowledge, my life is not difficult.

It's really not good, that's only one point, there are no people in the school during the summer vacation, and the cafeteria is just a decoration. I had to save money, of course, I didn't spend a lot of money on fast food, and it was not convenient to cook in the dormitory, so I ate instant noodles every day that month.

When I got stomach problems, my mother went to the hospital to see me, and had a serious chat with me, talking about Chen Zhi. Some things don't have to be broken, my mother asked me where Chen Shi and I had developed. I bowed my head and didn't speak.

My mother said that you have only been together for a few days, yes, not a few days at all, I used to think it was nothing, but now that I think about it, I slept with Chen Shi in such a daze, but in the end I didn't get any results, but I don't regret it. It's just that this time, my mother didn't have a good impression of Chen Shi at all, and she didn't force me to do anything with Yu Xueqian, but told me that I must grasp the matter of going abroad.

My mom suffered from my dad, she didn't have a sense of security, when I was very young, she always instilled in me a kind of girl to be independent, don't look forward to being able to rely on anyone, no one can really accompany anyone for a lifetime, there is a weakness to rely on. If you want to have a good relationship, you still have to be strong first.

I listened to her, and after I was discharged from the hospital, I began to study actively, and most of the time I opened my eyes every day was to face the textbooks, and my TOEFL score improved a lot that month, and even I felt that it was a loss not to go abroad and not to go to graduate school. If I had such energy in my junior year of high school, I probably wouldn't have been admitted to the outer court.

I didn't even say anything about Chen Xiang's illness, and of course Chen Shi couldn't have known, but Xu Nia occasionally sent me some text messages, and uploaded photos of their practice from QQ. At first, he often talked about Chen Zhi, but in the last few days, he didn't mention it, and there were few photos. Although I was curious, I didn't ask him anything, after all, I was preparing a little bit, and it should be best to officially erase Chen Zhi from my life and stop paying attention to him.

I was going to look for some information on the Internet that day, and I opened QQ with my hand, and I blocked Chen Zhi's account before, and then he added himself back to my account, and he also made a group for himself.

I remember that when he did this, he told me very seriously that no matter how much we quarreled in the future, we couldn't say anything that we didn't touch. He also said that the breakup was not a joke.

Thinking about the past, I feel sad.

It's not that I haven't reflected on it these days, Si Chen is right, I have indeed done a lot of things that make Chen Zhi tired, even they say that Chen Shi really likes me, but I have been making trouble with him.

All along, whether it's good or bad, this step by step, in fact, the two of us walked together, and there are many things that I didn't give him a chance to explain to get to this point.

If they are really destined to miss each other, then Chen Zhi is also a victim.

I stared at the computer in a daze, Chen Shi's QQ is online, isn't he practicing in a closed area now? Xu Nia and Si Chen's avatars are gray, I stared at it for a while, and then I found that Chen Shi's avatar and name have changed.

I thought he had a stolen number. At that time, QQ was already able to log in realistically, and I moved the mouse over, and it was in Guangzhou.

After a while, the bell rang and he made a video invitation to me.

I hesitated, but remembered what he had said, and finally accepted it, and listened to what he had to say, or also told him about my decision, and told him that I might have to go.

The network of the library is very slow, and it took me a long time to see the picture on the other side, not Chen Zhi.

It's not Chen Shi, it's Tang Si, in the hotel. She hung up in a hurry, then typed to tell me: Sorry, I made a mistake.

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