There was no countercurrent, I just thought I was countercurrent!

It's like I live at 32 on a certain street, but I always think that I'm not at 32, I've been looking for 32 all my life. Moreover, I kept looking everywhere outside, and I walked thousands of miles of rivers and mountains, but I didn't find a certain street No. 32.

There is a misleading saying about going against the current, which is that it seems that there is a character in the flow and then you can choose to go with the current or against the current. But in fact, the idea of going with the flow and going against the current appeared together with the scene at that time.

In other words, ideas and scenes are only visual elements that are perceived at the moment. It's just that the picture element that I perceive at this moment is a certain scene, and then I add the thought and emotion of "I'm going against the current".

A scene, together with an idea, constitutes the visual element that is perceived at this moment. So, what are you talking about?

It's the script, it's the stuff that's destined to be good. Maybe it's a bit impersonal to tell it like this, but it's true, doomed to so-called bad luck, doomed to fail, doomed to struggle, doomed to complain.

Perhaps, it will be changed by reading some books, or traveling long distances. But this change itself is also a doomed thing.

I don't know what the world is playing. Those so-called transformations, those so-called consciousness increases, don't matter at all. As long as it's not true, then it's false. If it is false, it no longer matters what kind of falsehood.

Become kind, become positive, become hardworking, become upward, become kind, become beautiful, become evil, become conscientious, become uncompromising, become irritable and anxious, become approachable, become relaxed...... It's all untrue.

But I'm definitely uncomfortable when those nasty people show up to me, or when those uncompromising things happen to me.

That's the key point, it seems like I shouldn't hate those bad guys. But actually, it's not that I shouldn't hate these bad guys. Rather, I shouldn't think "I shouldn't hate bad people". There's nothing wrong with hating bad guys, because these are the characters' stuff, and they're just visual elements that you perceive at the moment.

Not all masters are benevolent, they are all tolerant. Not resisting is the key. Since the character's behavior doesn't matter, I shouldn't focus on the question of what the character should do.

No master is real, because the character is false, and all masters have their own preferences. Perhaps, when talking about the topic of real IQ, I have to talk about this statement that there is no difference. Because, all of them are just the picture elements that are perceived at the moment, what's the difference?

But as a master of the role, I will definitely have preferences. It's still the same example, why choose to eat instead of eating.

All of them are just the pictorial elements that are perceived at the moment, and there is no need to discuss the fake pictorial elements at all. It's all picture elements, who is better than whom?

When you think that the countercurrent is not good, you are already in a state of countercurrent. When I think it's good to go against the current, I often can't continue to go against it. That state of ease of integration permeated my whole body, and it was clear that I knew what I would do.

I'm still scared, and I know I'm still scared. But I'm afraid that the bewitching woman can't blatantly use fear to control me like before. In other words, I knew I was fearing and focused my attention on the fear, not on the content of the fear.

Standing on the content of fear is not able to defeat the bewitching woman who is afraid, or rather, this victory over the content of fear has actually been lost. Let fear in, just like being cool, it's not about not fantasizing about being cool, it's about clearly seeing that you're fantasizing about being cool.

The content is not important at all, but to put an end to the fear by standing on a higher level than the fear. In fact, it's not the end. When you are not afraid of fear, when you don't resist fear, when you know that you are afraid and let fear run rampant, you have failed to fear the bewitching woman.

I always believe that the role should be better, the role should be upward, the role should be positive, the role should be benevolent and harmonious, etc. This will contradict reality, because reality is not a limited existence at all, how can it be shown because of some limited self-definition of the character?

Or, I always have that mindset. When the slash is done, I'll be a better character. I can show off, I can be arrogant, I can look down on everyone because I touch the truth.

But in fact, the aforementioned "I" itself is the object of beheading.

I, it's easy to understand that the roles in the characters are all fixed. No matter what the character says or thinks, it's a fixed number. But for the characters in it, they don't think their words and deeds are fixed at all.

If I am in a section, then this is the status quo at the moment, and the ghost will believe that he is not free all the time, and his words and deeds are fixed. But in fact, there is no way to get rid of fatalism.

All of them are just the elements of the picture that are perceived at the moment. Without time, any discussion would seem illusory and absurd. Unfortunately, I still grabbed something, so I didn't finish the slash yet.

I always believe that hard work pays off. Or at least, I don't think there will be anything to be gained if you don't work hard. This kind of baseless affirmation is how it occupies my brain. It's not as arrogant as those twists, but they've always manipulated me.

So many years of life experience, so many years of experience, so many years of study, so many years of hearing all kinds of stories. There is no one who does not think that there will be no gains if you don't work hard. Therefore, I declare that it is definitely not okay not to work hard.

Fear, that's the underlying fear. Or, the word "worried" can be used to express it a little more. I'm still believing in the distortions in my head, are these distortions correct? Do these distortions really work? Maybe there are, maybe they don't, I don't know.

But there will definitely be the illusion of "usefulness", and if it is really completely useless, then it will have long been abandoned. Perhaps, it was the little things that gave me the illusion that I could control it. For example, I want to get a cup, for example, I can calculate the exact time of free fall, etc.

These things remind me all the time that the distortions in my mind are useful and that I can take control of my life. Of course, I don't know if it's okay not to work hard.

But it doesn't matter at all, what's important about the character? No.

What's so important about this world? No.

That awareness is everything, and as for the visual elements that are perceived, what is it?

Hey, the fundamental reason, I just think I am the role of Yuan Changwen. It's no wonder, after all, how can a well-planned dream easily become a theatergoer.