It's not far, it's not high, but it's already tired......

For a week, I barely felt relaxed, and even the holidays didn't feel like vacations. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

The pressure was so great that I couldn't even feel relieved by drawing and writing......

In the past, I would talk to myself about this situation, but at that time, I had forgotten the feeling of talking to myself. When I no longer rely on my other self, it means that I am stronger than before! But at the same time, I'm also emptier than before......

From the paintings I wrote and painted, I can feel that I was writing in a chaotic and directionless way, and although my painting skills have improved, I will not have a little pleasure in my heart after each painting. It's like, after drinking a glass of delicious juice, it seems as if there is no residual taste left......

One day at that time, I chatted with my sister on the phone, and she told me not to always take pictures of the sky and those scenery, which are also available in China. If you want to shoot, you can shoot some local characteristics and customs, so that you can have a new feeling.

Indeed, if you take too many landscapes, your heart will be very numb, and there will be no surprises.

Perhaps, I really lost a lot of real "heart" in the process of growing up......

Also, typing on my phone has greatly reduced the amount of handwriting I use with a pen.

Could it be that beauty, prosperity and technology have invaded my soul and made me lose sight of the essential essence of innocence?

Messy thoughts have formed a lot of irregular nets in my mind, and I keep cutting and sorting them out......

I don't talk to myself anymore, so what should I do? Then find a quiet place to sort them out slowly......

One Sunday, I bought a small notebook to write down my moods. There is a natural joy called handwriting. That's what cell phone typing can't give me......

I was going to sit in a big supermarket for a day, but my mood still didn't allow it......

So, I decided to walk a few kilometers to get a car. In fact, there is no car at the entrance of the big supermarket, but the price is relatively expensive, and I don't necessarily know the location of my company. To be on the safe side, I still went to the bridge a few kilometers away to take a car.

Those kilometers of walking were in the scorching sun, but I felt so happy! It seemed like I hadn't walked that far in a long time, and I usually rode or rode a bicycle, but I really didn't walk much.

The reaction my body gave me made me feel that I couldn't forget my roots.

Although there are many means of transportation nowadays, we should not rely too much on them, people are animals, and legs need enough distance to prove themselves.

Although typing on mobile phones is convenient nowadays, don't forget to write by hand. In writing, there is the initial feeling of growth, and it should not be left out.

Although I have traveled a lot, I can't just look at the superficial magnificence. There are also some more meaningful ordinariness that are quiet in the corners you ignore, and those are the beauty that is closest to life.

I need to restructure my thoughts, after all, I seem to have used a "malfunctioning compass" to go down what I thought was the right one......

I was tired and wanted to seek some comfort through my spiritual world, but I had no choice but to reorganize it.

Okay, let's talk to Arou......

But the empty spiritual world makes me don't know what topic to talk about, but fortunately, Arou has a novel to read.

When Arou's bedtime passed, I thought she had already fallen asleep and was about to rack her brains to "save herself". At that moment, Arou sent a message asking what I was doing......

I asked her why she hadn't slept yet. She said that she would say "good night" to Dumb before going to sleep.

Yes, I'm a very easy person to touch. When I saw her reply, the "touch" had already accumulated in the corners of my eyes......

Then, they said goodnight to each other.

In this way, Arou simply gave me energy.

Whenever I'm tired, I think about whether I should stop flying and go back to China.

However, if I don't fly because I'm tired, is I worthy of love, is it worth relying on, and is I safe?

So, I was tired and flying.

But I haven't forgotten that on the shore behind me, there is still anticipation......

I haven't missed it since the winter of 1992 and every winter since. It wasn't until 2015 that I had the first year in my life without a winter season......

I love summer the most, so when I was a kid, I always thought how nice it would be if it was summer all year round!

Well, the feeling at that time was the feeling of summer, and the body was supposed to feel the embrace of winter, but it was floating freely with hot bangs......

I should be happy, but why doesn't my body give me a happy response?

The skin on the face still falls off little by little, as it does in winter...... It turns out that I think, I just want to. body, and do not want to ......

After so many years of winter feeling, when suddenly there is a time when you can't feel it, your body will miss it.

Wouldn't it feel like winter when you go to bed at night and turn down the air conditioner......?

Sometimes the feeling of deliberately getting is not only not satisfying, but even more incomplete. Naturally, it's better than deliberate.

What would happen to my body without a winter hug? I don't know about others, but my skin is all kinds of bad......

At that time, I suddenly had an urge to rub skin cream, I wanted to dress in a demeanor without loving temperature, I wanted to play with my mobile phone while warming the quilt, and I wanted to warm myself with hot water after a cold day......

However, man is a somewhat strange animal. Once you achieve what you want, it's easy to think about something else that you don't have yet.

It's like being hot and wanting to be cold. It's cold, I want to be hot.

Therefore, it feels like a very beautiful thing, but also a very scary thing.

Feeling can give people a direction of hope and make the heart look forward to it. But at the same time, feelings can also subtly make people not understand how to cherish the important moment.

So, I began to doubt my feelings......

Will sensibility, the supremacy of feeling, lead me to a tragic end?

Sometimes I think too much, because I feel too emotional and lose my clear thinking. If I let it run rampant like this, I will reap more damage. Whether it's for yourself or for the people around you......

Therefore, sensibility should add a kind of rationality in order to balance one's heart.

Call...... I wrote a lot of things that didn't seem to have a central idea, what was it for?

It's not why, I just want to hug ......

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