Chapter 192: Re-Shedding XIV

When I liked horoscope secret words when I was studying, I saw such a sentence: A girl who marries a Sagittarius boy will find that life becomes very interesting. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info

For me, this sentence has yet to be verified, after all, I am not married.

Well, given that I'm a type A blood Sagittarius, I'm an elusive and incomprehensible person.

The personality of blood type A makes you pay a lot of attention to traditional morals and social norms, and you can treat everything with a calm attitude, rarely go beyond the norm, and live a life that follows the rules. Although he has unique ideas and lofty ideals, he does not act hastily and is mostly hidden in his heart. On the other hand, Sagittarius traits make you like to live a free-spirited life and be true to your desires. In order to satisfy his never-ending curiosity, he will not hesitate to violate ethics and morals. In addition, you are very persistent in the pursuit of ideals, act accurately and quickly, and never stop until you achieve your goals. Therefore, you are sometimes bold, sometimes reserved, sometimes you love the truth, and sometimes you indulge in fun......

No wonder I'm so conflicted all the time. Can I not contradict a spirit that longs for a distant place and a soul who is content with the status quo and always can't reach a consensus?

Contradictory souls, contradictory thoughts, contradictory lives, contradictory thoughts, so my world has heaven and earth, fire and water, movement and stillness. Although it is quite contradictory, it tends to be more balanced in the inner world. Therefore, I often stood in the middle of the spear and the shield, kicking away the spear and blocking the shield. To put it more vividly, I am playing the role of a peacemaker.

I am conservative with blood type A, I am open to Sagittarius traits, and I can have three personality types when combined.

The first personality looks extremely conservative on the outside, but the heart is open to the sky.

The second personality looks like a madman on the outside, but on the inside it is like an ancient city that imprisons the soul.

The third type of personality sometimes looks like an elegant literati who smiles and does not smile at flowers, sometimes he looks like a wild grass man living in the "green mountains", and his heart sometimes looks like a pool of spring water in an ancient mountain village, and sometimes he looks like a vast universe full of stars.

I feel that the third personality is more suitable for me. Why? Because of the perfect combination of movement and stillness, both long-range and close-quarters, I like it.

And because I like it, my imagination is not very controlled by me.

Last night, I went to eat pork knuckle rice with a belly that had been working hard all day and wanted to be a "male pig's foot".

In the process of enjoying the delicious pork knuckle rice, a sudden "spring breeze" blew in from outside the store, waking up my long-sleeping "wolf eyes".

The night is the deep eyes of the wolf. I especially like the lyrics in "Slaying the Wolf"! Because I like it, I like it very much.

Wolf Eyes' gaze slowly swept to the outside of the store, where a woman carrying a large bag was about to walk in.

According to the preliminary analysis of visual inspection, the woman looks to be 1.65 meters tall, minus about 6 centimeters of high heels, but in fact about 1.59 meters. The hairstyle is relatively simple and short for women, and the hair color is dark yellow. The skin on the face tends to be acne-free and dry, and the skin has low suppleness and radiance, and slight lines appear on the cheeks, so it is inferred that the age group is between 30 and 35 years old. The stature is medium and smooth, with no proud lordosis and no sexy backturn. The biggest highlight of the dress is that the combination of short-sleeved hot pants makes her legs so long, but the failure is that her hot pants are light pink, while the base layer is dark, resulting in the transparency of her hot pants reaching 15%. Such a "shallow outside and deep inside" collocation is undoubtedly faintly leaking spring......

I feel like I'm a dangerous being.

Call...... Take a deep breath and continue to eat pork knuckle rice.

After the boss brought her a bowl of noodles, I saw her take a bite and take a bite. Then, she began to cough, coughing and coughing, and spit out the mouthful of noodles that she had eaten, and after spitting up, she covered her mouth again, as if she felt a little nauseous and wanted to vomit......

Like a fallen leaf, the image gently fell on the level of my mind as calm as a mirror, gently rippling.

From the moment the woman entered the door carrying the big bag of things, it gave people a very lonely feeling, as if there should have been someone around to accompany her and help her carry things, but she didn't.

It was only after the woman took a bite of the noodles that she threw up. It may be that she choked accidentally, or she may be in a bad mood when she comes in, or she may have an unhappy thing that causes her appetite to become very poor, and she can't even adapt to eating a mouthful of noodles......

If it's because you're pregnant and want to vomit, then it's possible that you've had a plot like this:

First, she met a man and then lived together. Then one day she told the man that she was pregnant, and she thought that the man would be willing to take care of her for the rest of her life, but who knows, the man was just having a playful mentality, and then suddenly there was no news, as if there was no such person in the world. She was sad and sad because of this, and her diet and rest were all disrupted, but the one in her stomach still needed to eat nutritious. Although she hated that man very much, the life in her stomach was innocent, thinking about it, she still cheered up and went to buy some supplements, and went to eat a bowl of noodles by the way. So, there is the above scene.

Second, she is the wife of a certain man, and the man has gone to a foreign country for a long time because of work needs. During this time, she found out that she had a child. So, I plan to surprise her husband before he returns. However, she is a careless woman, often she can't take care of herself, and she has no family by her side. Now that I have one more in my belly, it becomes more difficult to take care of myself. Still, she tried to take care of herself. I went out and bought a big bag of things in need, and I went to eat a bowl of noodles by the way, but I didn't expect it to be so difficult for me to take care of my pregnant self. So, there is the above scene.

Third, she fell in love with a man with a wife and children, in other words, she became a junior, but she didn't know. Because the man deceived her, she always thought that the man was a single and successful person, so she was willing to give everything for him. Later, when she found out that she was pregnant, she happily told the man the good news. Unexpectedly, after the man heard the news, he called "I'm sorry, the user you are calling has been turned off". So, she decided to go to the place where the man worked. The premise is to be ready, live near the man's place of work, buy useful things, and then go to him. That night, after she had bought what she was supposed to buy, she felt hungry and ate a bowl of noodles by the way. In front of eating, she saw that the man had sent her some heartbreaking messages, and her mood became very bad. When I ate the first bite of noodles, I had mixed feelings, and the sharp change in mood caused nausea in my stomach. So, there is the above scene.

All of them said, my imagination is not under my control. Don't you just want to have a pork knuckle rice? However, my mind is so complicated...... Am I easy? I ......

The imagination is also very active objects, well, emotions.

Xiaohong sent me a very grateful message some time ago: "Thank you very much for having your company during this time, it is really my honor to meet you at the right time!"

I think that's how she feels to me. It's a new feeling that is different from the way I remember them in the past.

It's just that she always thinks so well of me, and buries all her shining points. Therefore, I always express this meaning to her: to see your own strengths, not to see yourself as useless.

After all, I prefer girls who have personality and their own style. Many girls may not look pretty, but they become beautiful, charming and attractive because they have a personality and their own style.

Because she wanted me to sing to her once, so I wanted to hear her sing to me.

So, I was looking forward to listening to her sing to me for a while, but she happened to be very busy during that time, and she was only available after that busy time.

It seems that after waiting for many long centuries, she finally looks forward to her busy time. So I anxiously asked her when she would sing to me, and she said it would be two days. Also, she was afraid that I would kill me if I heard her singing......

Call...... Sure enough, I can't let go. Even though I said it many times I didn't mind, she still felt like she did. What I want to listen to is not the skill of singing or the control of timbre at all, but whether I can sing my heart naturally, even if it is out of tune. For example, if the wife sings to her husband, but the singing is out of tune, even if the husband is snickering, will the wife mind?

Nature, is what I seek. I feel too restrictive and inhibited, and I feel very depressed.

So...... I want to hear her sing......

After that, I chatted and chatted with her, and she didn't know what to talk about, that is, she couldn't continue.

I just sent a wicked smile and added, "Just sing to me." ”

Then she replied simply, "Don't worry. ”

However, this sentence may be simple for her. But for me at that time, it was not easy.

Why? Because the imagination is out of control again......

When I saw her "don't worry" reply, this image came to my mind:

In the room where I shared a room with her, I looked at her sitting on the edge of the bed and looked down on her phone with a wicked smile and said, "I want to ......"

Trying to score in a mobile game, she simply replied, "Don't worry. ”

The picture in my head pauses first.

I just sent her a sentence expectantly: "I'm so anxious!"

She sent a questioning expression and added, "What's the hurry?"

Okay, the picture in my head continues to play.

Looking at her who couldn't extricate herself from the mobile game, I took off my shirt and said with a short breath: "I'm so anxious!"

When she finally cleared the customs, she began to look up at me, but when she saw me shirtless, she still asked me in confusion: "What's the hurry?"

The picture in my mind paused again.

I replied, "Listen to the song." ”

She replied with a sweaty expression and added, "Didn't you say that it would be better than two days?"

I immediately replied with a frantic look and a sentence, "I can't wait!"

Okay, the picture in my head continues to play.

Looking at her puzzled eyes, I slowly walked up to her, quietly approached her ear, and said softly, "I want to ......"

Her eyelids suddenly sank, and she said, "Didn't you say that it would be better than two days?"

I pressed her to the bed and whispered in her ear, "I can't wait......"

This is the end of the plot in my mind, and if I continue to play it, the consequences will be unimaginable.

Well, how do you feel that the last picture looks like the picture in the finale of the recently hit TV series "A Smile is Alluring"? It must have had an impact on me, otherwise, how would I have come up with this kind of picture?

Call...... All said, imagination is not under my control......

Later, she sang a song "Invisible Wings" to me. When I opened my mouth, I actually felt quite good. Because there wasn't much music at first, the voice she sang was a voice that she could naturally control.

When it came to the climax at the back, her voice couldn't keep up. This is normal, after all, many people who can't sing will encounter such a situation, walking and singing along with the tone of the song, but can't sing. I'm also a person who can't sing, so when I usually sing KTV, I can sing out of tune. That's why I prefer to sing a cappella because it can be sung in a tone that adapts to my throat.

I wanted her to sing a cappella to me, because it was the most natural.

At first she refused, but later, she sang a cappella in English.

Yes, it's good! It's a natural feeling that belongs to her, and there's no unnatural feeling of forcing herself to sing along.

Although I praised her, she always felt that I was coaxing her. She didn't believe that she sang well, and she still couldn't believe that she could shine.

I don't know what it's like for her to sing to someone she likes, I just know that when I sing to someone I like, even if I sing out of tune, I don't feel like I'm singing badly. As long as the person who likes me likes to listen, I feel like I'm going to shine, because there is only one listener who likes me.

She is a brave Aries and will strive for what she wants and likes. But sometimes they can't face up to some of their strengths, and they are always trapped in the cage of inferiority.

Of course, I am also a person with low self-esteem. But at the very least, I am narcissistic sometimes, and narcissism can inflate my inferiority side into an arrogant side, that is, I have some good qualities in myself that I can't face, but through narcissism, I may feel like I am unique because of some of my own merits. Some of my virtues sometimes fly high, sometimes sink, and slowly, they still carry a lot of weight in my heart, and they will not be useless.

Self-confidence is the best. It's just that I, who am already in the advanced stage of narcissistic cancer, have a hard time having it completely healthy.

Whether it's Xiaohong or me, they're all trying to make themselves better!

It's never easy to make yourself someone worthy of love, but you have to work hard.

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