That breakup, even I don't understand what kind of mood I felt when I said it.

Whether it's a momentary anger or a real disappointment, I don't know.

It may also be that I can't accept that I am about to part ways with Chen Shi. Yes, we have been estranged, and we have been tepid for a long time, but every day when I open my eyes, I still feel lost because I can't see him.

It's just a habit.

I didn't really live in Xu Yina, and after resting for two days, I went out to look for a house. In fact, I thought about just going home, but I was a little unwilling, and planned to settle down temporarily and then look for a job.

Finding a house was enough to make me depressed.

Seriously, I don't have any money. After I resigned, Chen Shi raised me, and I swiped his card, but I didn't really buy anything for myself. Although I had a good income before I resigned, it was a pity that in addition to the money I had to pay back Xu Yi every month, all the rest was put in Chen Shi. He didn't know about it, I didn't want to talk about it at first, but now I think about it and feel so sad.

Probably this is the emptiness of people and money.

I can understand that Chen Shi will not take the initiative to contact me after hearing me break up, and it is the same if I am replaced. But didn't he really think about how I would live alone outside? Or was he only busy taking care of Tang Si now, and he couldn't remember that there was still me as a person.

When I think about this, I am sincerely depressed.

The clerk at the real estate store put in front of me photos of several apartment types.

I casually glanced at the price on it, pretended to read the text message, and said, "Sorry I have something to do today, I'll come back in a few days." ”

After going out of the store, I rushed directly to the nearby residential area, and I had to look for a house sooner or later, and I had more than 1,000 yuan on me, and I couldn't afford to live outside for a day, and only when I settled down could I find a job, and I planned to do the rest of the thing.

Throughout the noon, I tore up a small piece of paper for renting houses in several nearby communities, and after sorting and screening, I found that I could only lower the standard a little more. It's almost the Olympics, Beijing's housing prices have long been not what ordinary people like me can remember, even renting a house has increased several times compared to previous years, and then I finally found a room with a monthly rent of only 800, in fact, which is a room, just a partition room, even simpler than when Chen Zhi lived in them.

Asked the landlord to see the house, simple and completely simple, fortunately, the landlord is also a cautious person, the other tenants are also some students, I went to be quite an exception, plus I can only pay a month's rent, what deposit gift money can not be taken at all, fortunately, the house is rented in the end, open the door can not walk two steps to the bed, in addition to the bed can only barely put a desk and a hanger. I don't dislike anything, although the room is small but because it is separated by the balcony, the lighting and ventilation are very good, and there is no need to worry about safety.

In the afternoon, I went back to the house that Chen Shi rented to pack my things.

I still have a lot of things, clothes for the four seasons, and a little bit of small things, I thought about everything when I lived in Xu Yi in the past, and I arranged it with Chen Shi in that temporary home. After packing my belongings into two boxes, I took the garbage bag and threw away the rest of the packs that I couldn't take with me.

After a while, Chen Shi came back, and I was quite surprised, didn't he come back in the middle of the night? Why did he come back so early when I was not there?

When Chen Shi entered, I was stuffing the sheets and quilts that we both used into the garbage bag, and as if I didn't see him, I ripped the curtains down again. I bought these things, and I bought them with my own money, and even if I threw them all away, I wouldn't owe Chen anything to them. I didn't mean to embarrass him, I just wanted to be able to walk cleanly, and not even a single hair remained.

In the end, everything as small as a box of tissues and a remote control case I threw them all into the garbage bag.

Chen Shi has been sitting on the sofa, and I saw his frowning vigorously from the reflection of the stainless steel kettle, which was probably quite unhappy.

He was so unhappy that he didn't think about what kind of life I would live if I moved out like this.

I didn't have a word of communication with Chen Shi until I left, I dragged the box to the side of the elevator with difficulty, and then went back to get the garbage bags, Chen Shi glanced at me, bypassed me and entered the study.

I thought that would be the end of it, but within two minutes, he opened the door and came out.

I was bending over to pack the garbage bag, and he looked at me condescendingly and said in a soft voice, "So funny?"

I didn't speak, I carried a few garbage bags and prepared to go out, when I arrived at the door, Chen Shi pulled me, it happened to be my injured hand, in order to cover the gauze I tied a silk scarf on it, but the wound did not heal, it hurt to be pinched so hard.

I shook him off, frowning in pain.

"What's wrong with you?" Chen Shi asked me.

"It's okay!" I suddenly felt so annoyed that I didn't want to say a word and continued walking.

It is estimated that Chen Shi is also very annoying to me, so he threw him over, "Don't come back if you leave today." ”

Before he said this, I didn't have confidence that I would come back, but now it's okay, people are forced out, and I was really forced out by Chen Zhi.

I admit that there is something wrong, but it is too late to change the matter now, not to mention that Chen Zhi is okay? So far, he has not explained a word about Tang Si's matter. He didn't think it was necessary, or people were just generous and reconciled with his ex-girlfriend.

When I got on the elevator, I guess Chen Shi chased him out, and when the elevator door closed, I heard the sound of someone running outside, but the elevator had begun to fall slowly.

After leaving there, I dragged two boxes and even the car was reluctant to squeeze the subway back to my small cubicle, after two more boxes, there was almost no place to walk, I only took out the things I had to use, and the others were too lazy to pack up and continued to block the door.

At night, I hugged the pillow and quilt I brought back from Chen Shi, and I always felt that there was his smell on it, and I couldn't fall asleep after turning it over. Chen Shi had also lived in such a small partition room before, and I would come over to accompany him to help him clean whenever I had time, and even give him a sleep. Even then, we were very happy at the beginning, and we liked to be tired of being in a narrow bed, and we had to sleep together without a fan when it was hottest in summer.

Now that I think about it, he's such a bastard, why can't he explain to me that the matter is already in front of me, is it that if I don't ask the bottom line, he really has the right to remain silent.

I fell asleep like that, it was raining when it was almost dawn, and I put my head under the quilt because of the noise through the window, and when I got up in the morning, I realized that the small balcony where I lived was leaking, and the place where I slept was fortunately that there was a lot of water on the other side, and the clothes I changed were placed there, and all my savings after paying the rent were there.

I put the blistered money on the glass to dry, and there were only a few left.

Looking at it, I burst into tears.

Then I went to look for a job, but my goal was still clear, and I wanted to return to the TV station. In fact, after I left my job, I also kept in touch with the master who took me at the beginning, I asked him to help me ask if there was a chance to go back, he said let me go to the station to try, the formal process of the interview is not good, but at that time I was also regarded as a key training object, and it was considered a teacher, so there is still a chance.

I understand that the so-called opportunity is probably still Xu Yi's relationship, and I'm afraid that if I call from here, someone will contact Rarity soon.

I really didn't need any interview when I arrived in Taiwan, but directly talked about work arrangements and treatment, and the contract was officially signed the next day, and I needed a certificate of academic qualifications. I just remembered that I forgot to bring these out when I moved out of Chen Shi's place before.

No way, I'm going back again.

Last time, I was in too much of a hurry to return the key to Chen Shi, and it was convenient to go this time. After all, he said that he wouldn't come back if he left, and it would be embarrassing for me to go to him again.

When I went back, I opened the door smoothly, there was no one inside, the room was rearranged, the sheets and curtains were replaced with new ones, and the furniture was still the same as before, but the position and direction of the furnishings had changed a little. The first time I saw it, I thought I was in the wrong place.

Chen Shi was really interested, and he had time to rearrange the room after I left.

I used to put all my documents in the drawer of the bedside table, but when I opened them, the graduation certificate and passport were long gone, and they were replaced by a few boxes of sets.

And then the door opened. Then, Chen Zhi and Tang Si walked in together.

He looked at me in surprise, first asking why you were here, and then looking at the open drawer.

"I didn't ......"

I interrupted him, "I'll come back to get my papers." ”

Tang Si walked through the wardrobe at this time, opened the wardrobe, took out a leather document bag from the safe inside and handed it to me, and said, "These things are too important, I am worried that I will lose them if I put them casually, so I locked them." ”

"Thank you. I took it and glanced at the cupboard, where there were already a lot of women's clothes.

Tang Si moved in, and it was obvious.

I should have left after taking my things, and I didn't plan to talk to them too much, but this time Chen Shi chased him out, and when he got downstairs, he said, "Let's talk." ”

I glanced at him, nodded calmly, and walked with him to the bottom of the small pavilion nearby.

I asked, "Are you acquiescing to being with Tang Si now?"

"We'll just start after you're gone. Chen Shi lowered his eyes, "I haven't used the things you saw in the drawer. ”

"Oh. I nodded, "Is there a difference?" so you didn't explain it because there was nothing to explain, right?" You start after I'm gone, so are you thinking about how to start before I go?"

I'm looking at Chen Shi, and it turns out that I can't really throw any ugly words on him. But that's the way it is, it's already happened. This man I've loved for a long time, he cheated.

It's ridiculous.

"I'm leaving. ”

Chen Shi didn't chase after me again, and the last thing he said behind my back was sorry.

He didn't chase after me, so it was impossible to see me still crying after I left, and the sentence sorry smashed into my heart.

It doesn't matter if you really can't do it.

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