When Yuan Changwen saw those words, it was like a bolt of lightning passing across the night sky. It's not how beautiful the lightning is, but how light the way under your feet.

Further!

This magical word once again gave Yuan Changwen the motivation to move forward.

yes, I didn't do anything myself, I just beep there, ridiculous!

What do you say to others about inferiority, you are the most inferior person!

If not, why show off?

It's because I'm a prisoner now, and I want to find a sense of superiority in others, so I will crack down on the joke catcher.

Does that catcher have low self-esteem?

It doesn't matter at all, even if the catcher is really inferior, even if he listens to his words and goes back to reflect on it, so what?

Further!

As soon as I sorted out the definition of self-weaving, and as soon as I became familiar with the methods of the devil to deceive people, I fell into another self-definition.

When speaking, the word "Yuan Changwen" is no longer used, it is clear that it is Yuan Changwen who speaks, why do you still use the word "I"?

Now, I'm not qualified to use the word "I".

Sure enough, when you think you are sober, you are actually the easiest to be deceived.

Devil, you're so good!

What do I know?

I don't know anything.

The smug emotion just now, the happy emotion just now, I am agreeing!

I'm still identifying with emotions!

Obviously those are not me, if it weren't for those words, God knows how long I would have been proud?

All self-definition is not me, and all emotions are not me.

Not only should you not identify with negative emotions, but you should not even identify with positive emotions.

(Is this still human?Negative emotions are just that.,Even positive emotions can't be identified?Eat!)

[Emotions are emotions, regardless of positive or negative, and cannot be identified. In fact, we identify with negative emotions far more than with positive emotions. 】

[Look at your former self and know that every time fear hits, I follow the fear and fall into endless anxiety. Began to constantly fantasize about the future, constantly imagining his own tragic encounters. 】

[And the positive emotions are coming, everyone is happy and laughing, and then imagining a better life in the future. But I never thought that those good lives were within reach. On the contrary, for the fear of the future, I almost think that it has already happened. 】

(There's no need to get rid of positive emotions, isn't it??, how can you have fun after that?)

[Either intimidating me with the future, or looking for trouble with the problems of the future...... This is the trap of the devil! Positive emotions are the hardest thing to get rid of, because no one wants to do that. 】

[My former self fantasized that one day I would become perfect and perfect, no longer have negative emotions, and be grateful for everything. Always smiling and soft-spoken. 】

[However, these are still the definitions of self-weaving.] If you are in this state, then you don't kill yourself at all, but choose to surrender under the appeasement of the demon. 】

(Where is this surrender? It is clearly the bright future of mankind, and it is not good to work hard for this harmonious society?)

[Whether it's good or not, I don't know. But that's not what I want, this surrender is the equivalent of a deal with the devil, I don't move on, and you don't want me to have too many negative emotions. 】

[Why did I embark on this road? Lao Tzu is fed up with the pull of emotions, whether it is positive or negative, they come and go as they want!

[The devil has taken great pains to deceive me, mislead me, and seduce me. Why? I knew it was easy to see through all this, which is why the demon bothered so much. 】

Further!

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt that he should engrave these two words on his arm, and then watch them from time to time and be vigilant.

Otherwise, just like just now, it is easy to be carried away by positive emotions and teach others self-righteousness.

Could it be that he has been killing for so long, in fact, he has been going around in circles, and there is no progress at all?

Yuan Changwen thought of this thought, and fear suddenly struck.

After so many chapters, is there no progress on my own?

Wasting time?

He also took on the title of a mentally ill person!

The family is all gone!

Don't, don't! It must be useful! The effort of so many chapters must be effective!

【Nailed!】

Right!

I'm going to be nailed to "I exist", and nothing else is real.

Yuan Changwen stood on the extremely small piece of sand and stone, and the huge desert and building complex opposite him pressed over with a thunderous force.

The wind whistled by, and the flying sand and rocks hit Yuan Changwen painfully.

I put everything on the slaughter, and now tell me that I haven't made any progress at all?!

Yuan Changwen couldn't accept it, and he didn't want to accept it.

However, these are the definitions of self-weaving, and who says that hard work will definitely pay off?

Hard work will lead to success, hard work will be rewarded, aren't these all the definitions of self-weaving?

Further!

I exist!

These two words flashed in Yuan Changwen's mind, firmly nailed to the tiny piece of sand and stone, and looked around only to find that he had been surrounded by a large area of desert.

Just now, the two armies were facing each other, but now they were surrounded, and the tiny sand and rocks seemed so isolated and helpless in the face of the huge desert.

It's funny to think about, if the current efforts are exchanged for success in a hundred years, or a reputation in two hundred years, are you still willing to work hard?

When Shakespeare returned to his town in his later years, he was not recognized in any way, but was questioned whether all his works were written by someone else.

Cervantes, the bitter writer of Spain, spent his life in poverty. But that "Don Quixote" is a world masterpiece, and no one praises it.

But what is the meaning of the authors themselves, in their lives?

Yuan Changwen did not rise to the heart of confrontation, nor did he have the previous heroism, as if none of this existed.

I don't agree, do you still exist?

The arrogance I have now is just what I once deeply believed.

Except for "I exist", you are just defining yourself.

Yuan Changwen closed his eyes and nailed himself to "I exist".

Thoughts flashed through his mind, and Yuan Changwen tried not to read and disagree, but he would still aim at those contents.

Thinking about how much I have been through, I thought that I was almost over the entire slaughter, but now I found that the killing process had not begun at all!

I pressed everything on it myself, threw everything away, and what did I get?

couldn't help but shed tears in Yuan Changwen.

Sure enough, no one can take the initiative to pursue killing, because the so-called active pursuit will become an obstacle and eventually develop into suicide.

Tears flowed slowly, but it did not change Yuan Changwen's heart, the anger at the falsehood, and his unwillingness to be played by emotions, still let him continue to move forward.

Even if you haven't started a step for so long, so what?

It's good to start now.

I am still looking forward to it, always thinking that if I kill these self-definitions, something different will happen.

And this expectation, itself a self-woven definition, is too easy to be exploited by demons.

I'm uncomfortable now, I'm sad at the moment, and the deep sorrow seems to be able to drip water.

The demon whispers in my ears from time to time, don't be bitter about yourself, don't hold on, follow the fear and let your mind fly together!

Yuan Changwen knows that once he starts to imagine with his fear, it is the identification with the fear, and together he strengthens the "self".

But this feeling of watching fear raging in my body is so uncomfortable, but I can't take this small step of sand!

I want to fight my fear, vent it, and let it know that I am not afraid of it.

I want to divert my attention and tell myself that it will all end, that it will all be temporary, and that there are other good things waiting for me in the world.

Unfortunately, no, any other act except surrender is to strengthen the "ego".

Follow fear with surrender, find the source of fear, and slash it.