Half an hour later, he crawled down from me, let out a big breath, and lay down next to me, and I turned around and lay on his chest, caressing his face, but I didn't know what tone to use to comfort him

He took my hand and said, "Shu Hua, you better leave me." I've been like this all my life, and I can't get up......"

I shook my head, and I said, "No, dear, it won't be like this." This is only temporary, because your mental baggage is too heavy, and you have to unload all those burdens in your heart now. Do you remember the night we had at the beach, when I thought I was really insulated from men, but I was gradually rekindled by you, right?"

"Men and women are not the same," he said. Shu Hua, don't comfort me. I'm a complete failure right now, hehe, I don't even know how to start over, I don't know where to start. ”

I said, "Wherever you fall, you get up." Don't be discouraged, it will get better. ”

He shook his head and said, "No, it's not that good." Do you know what we got up on back then? We were all street gangsters, we started by selling fakes, and at that time it was just beginning, and the investigation was not very strict, so we took risks and made a fortune by selling fakes, and only then did we succeed in opening the company and growing bigger little by little. Now, where can I find such a good opportunity? My brothers are gone, and I'm left alone, hehe......"

I looked at him like this, full of distress, I said, "There will always be a way out, you don't have that group of brothers now, but you have me, I am." ”

He grabbed my hand tightly, and he said, "I can't give you anything, even the most basic warmth of a man now." Shu Hua, you leave me, don't hesitate anymore. I'm not the Yan Bin you know anymore. ”

I shook my head, and I said, "No, I'm not leaving, I'm not going anywhere, I'm just guarding you and staying by your side." ”

He lay limply on it, and he said, "I'm a wreck right now." I'm not even a man, what can I give you!"

With that, he slammed the bed board hard, startling me. I sat up, and I noticed that the muscles on his face were crumbling in pain, and his hands were still pounding against the bed, and my heart shook with each stroke.

I walked over and grabbed his hand, and I said, "I understand your discomfort, unwillingness, humiliation, and anger, don't keep thinking about bad things, relax your heart, okay?"

He pushed my hand away and sat up, and he said, "I don't want to eat, you can eat, I'll go out for a walk and relax." ”

I said, "I'll go with you." ”

He said, "I want to be alone, you are at home, and go to bed early after eating." ”

I had no choice but to watch him go out with his coat. The door closed quickly, and I had a faint premonition in my heart, and I leaned to the window and watched him walk slowly downstairs with his head bent, wanting to call him, but I was afraid that I would disturb his desire to return to peace.

I also didn't want to eat, I had eaten at Wang Ling's place before, I covered the lunch box and put it away, and cleaned up the house for a while, he went out for a long time and didn't come back, I called him, and he answered after a long time, he said: "I'm fine, I'll be alone for a while, and I'll go back." ”

He didn't turn it off, and I was a little relieved. I lay on the bed in the rental house, looking at the old ceiling and mottled walls, and the lifeless bouquets, and I was lost in my heart, and I always felt that something was going to happen, and my whole heart became uneasy.

That night, Yan Bin did not return. I was so anxious that I walked around the house alone, and no one answered his phone calls at first. Later, when I hit again, it became a shutdown.

At three o'clock in the morning, I couldn't bear this anxiety anymore, I called Wang Ling, and I said, "Yan Bin hasn't come back yet, and the phone is turned off." ”

Wang Ling was also anxious when she heard this, when she was with Qin Xinhao, I said: "Don't come out if you are pregnant, I will go out to find it, I don't worry." ”

But City A is so big, where should I go to find him at three o'clock in the morning?

Wang Ling stopped my crazy idea, Wang Ling said, "Why don't you call the police." ”

I said, "No, the public security bureau will only accept it if it has been missing for more than 24 hours." It's useless to call the police now. ”

I heard Qin Xinhao say to Wang Ling over there, "Ling Ling, why don't I accompany you to Shu Hua to have a look?"

I hurriedly said, "It's too late, don't come if you're pregnant." I'll wait and see if he'll come back. I'll check with my uncle. ”

I hung up again, but thought it would be inappropriate to disturb them so late, so I gave up again. Sitting alone in the room anxiously waiting, the time passed minute by minute, but I didn't feel sleepy at all, I just felt that the whole person was nervous, and I couldn't help but run out to see the slightest noise in the corridor.

Many times I had the urge to rush out to find him, but I resisted it, I didn't want the slightest accident to happen to me.

It was dawn, it was a sunny day, the morning light came through the window, and a long dark night passed like this. I called Yan Bin's phone, and it was still turned off. I couldn't sit still anymore and ran straight to my uncle's noodle shop. Uncle always got up early, and when I went, he had just opened the door.

I told me about last night, and the uncle said, "He won't do anything stupid, maybe he won't go back for a drink with someone, don't worry too much, kid." ”

Yan Bin suffered yesterday I can't mention it to my uncle because of his face, the uncle didn't worry too much, probably always reassured Yan Bin, so he felt that I was too worried, and comforted me vigorously that I would be fine, and gave me a big bowl of noodles and told me to go back after eating, saying that he might be in the house if he didn't go back.

Uncle's optimism relaxed my tense mood slightly, I obediently sat down and ate a bowl of noodles he made, too early in the morning to be a guest, the uncle sat in front of me and watched me eat noodles lovingly, and then babbled a lot to me.

Uncle is a person who is easy to open his heart, and in just ten minutes, he gave me too much information for me to digest. He told me that he had a crush on Yan Bin's mother for decades, and that her mother had only agreed to have a relationship with him until now. He also told me that Yan Bin's father was a hero, Yan Bin died heroically in an anti-drug operation when he was very young, Yan Bin's mother grew up with Yan Bin alone, and the uncle took care of them for many years, but the aunt has always held the idea of widowing for Yan Bin's father and has not agreed, until now the two of them are old, moved by the uncle's determination to never marry, plus Yan Bin has always supported, so the two came together.

I couldn't help but laugh when I heard this, Yan Bin's stubbornness on the issue of principle was really the same as his mother. The uncle also told me that Yan Bin had been a soldier before, and he had been trained at a very young age, but he made a mistake and was dismissed by the army, and then he began to mix with society. Speaking of this, the uncle sighed, and the uncle said: "It's a pity, he is as good as his father, but he probably lost his father since he was a child, so he rebelled, otherwise he would definitely be able to do something in the army now." ”

I didn't know that he had been a soldier and received special training before, and my uncle really regarded me as his own family, telling me everything, and his tone was very funny, saying that everything was a happy face. Uncle is a very happy person, and the atmosphere with him will become very relaxed.

I unconsciously finished eating the noodles in the chat with him, and the uncle said happily: "It's good to eat the noodles, it's not in vain that Uncle will reveal so many little secrets to you." Go back, go back and see if he's at home, if not, call the uncle, and the uncle will help you find it. ”

I replied a few words, rushed home with a lot of emotion, opened the door, and found him already lying on the bed, and I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, and lay next to him.

He smelled of alcohol, and it was estimated that he drank a lot alone last night, and his body was dirty, as if he had slept somewhere. My heart hurts, and I feel uncomfortable thinking of a man who was once so depressed.

I tried to help him take off his dirty clothes, he resisted for a while, muttering "don't", I comforted him while helping him take off his clothes, then poured hot water, helped him wipe his face and hands, and then lay down and hugged him to sleep.

I was indeed too sleepy, I didn't sleep all night, the moment I hugged him, I felt his body temperature, the whole person warmed up, my heart was much more steady, and the sleepiness came......

He must not have known what I was worried about last night, but when he woke up, he pushed me who was sleeping next to me, and then asked me, "How did I get back? I drank too much, I don't even know ......."

I rubbed my eyes and I said, "You collapsed in bed when I came back, where did you go last night and didn't come back all night." ”

He let out a thoughtful "oh", and then said, "I found a small restaurant to drink, and then I was kicked out by the owner after drinking too much, and I was so sleepy that I just lay down in a place and slept." ”

I looked at him distressedly, and I said, "If you want to drink in the future, can you drink it at home?" and I'll clean it up for you after drinking, don't drink outside, it's too dangerous." ”

He looked at me with guilt in his eyes, and he said, "Are you worried about me?" I told you to leave me alone, you go and live your life well, I Yanbin, I can't give you anything, and I can't afford to give you anything!"

I looked at him with a firm gaze, and I said, "I won't leave unless you stand up! You provoked me in the first place, and now you want to drive me away, it's not so easy!"

He looked at me steadily, and suddenly hugged me, and hugged me very hard. He said, "If I want to stand up, I'm going to lose your ......"