Fu Ji told me that he was sorry, and he was sorry that he was going to leave me behind.

There's no way to do it, I can't accompany him to old age in Qiu You, and he can't do what he promised, take me all over the mountains and rivers, and see all the mountains and rivers.

It used to be a fault, but now it can only be missed.

He's always like this, knowing that I'm going to be sad, but he still doesn't want to lie to me once in the end.

If you're sorry, why did you leave me alone?

People who are not in good health are squeamish, I patted him gently, humming a small tune as before, and coaxing him gently.

Fu Ji was really snooze, it was almost noon at this time, but he said that he was tired and wanted to sleep for a while.

Then I'll wake him up later, and then talk to him well.

It's not gloomy weather, it seems that it's easy to make people feel good, I squinted my eyes, saw that the sun was just right, and I couldn't bear to disturb Fu Ji, but seeing the shadows above, a few clusters of scattered light penetrated on his face, bringing out a little warmth, like falling into a dream that would never wake up, I'd rather fall asleep than wake up again.

There was silence all around, and I couldn't hear anything but my own heartbeat.

Maybe I have ignored everything around me, and I have begun to fall into confusion again, but I am silently thinking in my head, Fu Ji has already said this.

Oh, he's already said it..............

I remember that when I was on the glazed hall, there was already a sky-high fire outside, and the heavenly street and the palace road were full of palace people fleeing in all directions, and the screams came up from the bottom layer and layer after layer, dyeing the entire Jing Palace into a purgatory-like scene, which was reflected in our eyes.

At that time, Fu Ji was still wearing a dragon robe, and led me up step by step.

I thought he was reluctant to let me die with him, and I thought about persuading him to live well, at least live together, things will always turn around.

But Fu Ji still let go of my hand in the end, just looked into my eyes and said: Xianxian, I'm sorry, I want to leave you behind.

That's the only thing he left me at that time.

I racked my brains in Guanghan Palace to think about it, and I thought about it, and I only had this sentence,

This is the second and probably the last.

After this time, there will be no next time.

No one will wait for me in the stupid Qiu You, will not deliberately spill the decoction to make me angry, nor will he shake me up three or four times in the middle of the night just to make sure that I am still by his side.

He even told me he was sorry.

Fu Ji's temper is so bad, so many years have passed, and the number of times he has said sorry to me is only a handful, definitely not more than three times.

He was too cunning to calculate that every time I must be the first to give in.

I still squatted in front of Fu Ji very unimaged, and said to him that it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter, in fact, we have done our best this year, and no one owes anything in the future, I still give him a little wife, he can still call me, everyone lives a good life together, even if there are no children, it's nothing, look at how clean it is!

Remove the bad ones, and we'll only have those pink memories left~!

"Aji" I pressed Fu Ji's hand on my face, smiled hard, asked him over and over again, and took the trouble to ask him: "Aji, did you say yes~?"

It's a pity that Fu Ji didn't speak this time.

He seemed to be asleep.

What a good-looking man, with a straight nose and thin lips, when he is smiling or not, he is always leisurely and leisurely.

He's the best-looking, gentlest man I've ever met.

As many times before when I fell asleep, when he lay in my arms, squeezing my palm, like a child asking for candy.

It's just that I know that this time he will never wake up again.

There were footsteps behind me from far and near, and I didn't look back at all, but the voice was a little fierce, as if it was squeezed out of my throat, and I didn't say angrily: "Whisper, didn't you see Ah Ji asleep." Saying that, I squeezed Fu Ji's hand tighter, the posture was too ugly, squatting on the ground, and the hanging bun was loosely left aside, but I was very clumsy and wanted to reach out and hold Fu Ji in my arms, which was extremely indecent and pitiful.

It's not easy for anyone to come now, I can't breathe, I can't swallow, and everyone looks like the culprit who broke me up and Fu Ji, so I simply shouted at the person behind me: "Get out, no one is allowed to wake him up!"

The people behind me still wanted to pick me up, but I broke away as if I was ruthless, I just didn't want to move the place, bared my teeth, completely lost my former demeanor, bright and luxurious appearance, just kept shouting: "You get out of the way for me! Get back!"

The good guy was pushed and shoved, and he was scolded to let him go, and the life of the person who usually said this was gone, but unexpectedly, the man didn't have a temper and came up, he really let go, took half a step back, and just stood and looked at me nervously.

In the eyes of outsiders, I'm probably ridiculous, but I don't think so, because I have my Fu Ji in my arms.

He's just asleep, maybe he'll sleep for a long time, but I'll have to be patient, and when he wakes up, I'll have to measure him and give him a winter fox fur, we'll all say it's okay.

I'm like a madman, no, I'm just like Li Zhaorong that day, crazy and unconscious, just blindly immersed in my own world, babbling words that outsiders can't understand;

No, just after saying two words, a handkerchief was handed over to the side, purple satin, and the faint smell of Suhexiang, which was very familiar.

"Wipe your face" Gongsun Di frowned, looking at me squatting on the ground without any image, holding a dead man alive and dead and refusing to let go, but he didn't stop it, but just said: "I saw you crying and laughing from afar, ugly to death." ”

I didn't answer, I took the palm of my hand and wiped it on my face, it was wet, and it flowed into my mouth, and the taste was salty and bitter.

I was crying.

“......... You don't know, I was only fifteen years old that year, and I hid from the master's class and came out to pick dates to eat" I stood up and rearranged Fu Ji's clothes and his hair crown.

"At the age of fifteen, there have been many people who have come to discuss marriage, the Baili clan in Pingyang, and the Cen family in Runan, all come to my house every day to worship and post" I finished tidying up Fu Ji, and I didn't go away, just crying, talking with an empty expression, and I don't know who I was looking at: "No one told me that the prince would also come to the general's mansion that day, and the moment I fell from the tree, I thought he was just the little son of that family, and he walked into my garden for a while." ”

I saw that he was crushed by me and fainted, and I had the courage to touch him on the face twice" I wiped my face vigorously, and my sleeve was wet, but the tears kept falling as if they couldn't be wiped clean.

"Don't say it, it feels really good to the touch. After all, except for Deng Fuzi and my father, I have never seen other men, and I have never seen such a good-looking man" I smiled: "At that time, I thought, if I really smashed a good person, then I will let him enter the mansion to marry me and live with me, anyway, we have a lot of money in the house, and there is no one more mouth from him." ”

"But, who knew he was the crown prince..........." I sighed, "The result was not that he came to the general's mansion, but that he fooled me in." ”

It may be that my eloquence is very good, and my words are very vivid, and Gongsun Di saw that I didn't want to leave, so he had to put the veil back, not smiling or annoyed, but the expression was complicated and people couldn't understand it.

He said, "And then?"

"Later, I happily married him~!" "What I said is called a joy, as if the scenery of that day, the satisfaction of that day, and Fu Ji's amazing and implied loving gaze, I will never forget it in this life: "On the day of marriage, ten miles of red makeup, Shangjing was crowded, and even the princess was blushing when she saw it, and even the palace was rewarded, all of this seems to be what I dreamed, it is a match made in heaven written in the book.........."

"But it's a match made in heaven, how can it be like this.........." At this point, I suddenly lost my words, and began to shrink uncontrollably, wrapping my hands around myself, just repeating: "This shouldn't be, shouldn't be.............."

If you let people stay like this again, I'm afraid you're going to have hysteria. Gongsun Di listened to me half crying and half laughing for nearly an hour, and finally moved his hand at this time, while I was still chattering to Fu Jixu, he raised his hand for a while, and let me be completely quiet.

I only remember that before I fell into the boundless darkness, I still grabbed Fu Ji's hand and refused to let go, hoping that he would open his eyes, even if it was to scold me.

We can't summarize it in three words, it's really a love-hate past, obviously we have been killed so badly, we have been pampered for many years, but we can't even have children, and I don't even have time to ask if he is sincere, such a comparison, I simply lost completely.

But I still have to admit that in fact, what I have always liked the most, and what I love the most, is just this teenager who walked under the tree back then.

Believe me, if you see him, you will like him too.

I really don't want to let go of Fu Ji's hand, and I don't want to leave him...............

If I could, I even felt that it didn't matter if I died with Fu Ji like this.

I'm afraid that I'll die too late, and Fu Ji won't be able to wait for me below.

The tip of my nose poured into the heavy Su Hexiang, which seemed to promote peace of mind, I was beaten and picked up, and my left hand unconsciously grabbed the man's shoulder, whenever I read Fu Ji's name, this person's body was very strangely stiff, so that I could not sleep steadily.

It would be nice if the person holding me was Fu Ji...........

It's ridiculous that I was still thinking about him at the last second before I fainted.