Chapter 24: What is the Hidden Thing Beneath Loneliness?

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But when I really heard this kind of question, I couldn't help but sigh silently in my heart, maybe out of sympathy, maybe because of the resonance of a certain part and feeling helpless, but no matter what, the answer will never change.

Under the gaze of Liu Wei and Yeyue, I slowly walked to the edge of the window in the corridor, raised my head to look at the dark sky, took a few deep breaths, and began to speak slowly

[People... From the moment you are born, your environment has been decided. No matter whether you like it or dislike it later, you can't change anything in a short period of time, and miracles won't happen at will. Then, what can only be changed is ourselves, or adapt, or escape, in this way, it may become a little better, but the environment itself has not changed after all, even if it is a new place, the environment also exists, it should be said that as long as there are people, there must be a "living environment"]

At this point, I couldn't help but pause, turned around and leaned against the guardrail, but I was faced with an empty corridor where there were only three people, and the students who had come to class had dispersed, and everything around me was quiet, so I could hear it clearly even in my own voice, and after glancing at the two of them, I continued

[The factor that determines the environment is people, not one or two, but many, all the people who choose to coexist in this environment, with some kind of unwritten rules to bind everyone, and the guys who can't fit in will inevitably be rejected by this invisible rule, which is the law of nature]

[.... Why... It's just me?]

As if my explanation was not accepted, Liu Wei's original self-deprecating expression slowly disappeared, replaced by an unacceptable look.

[Well, if you want me to say it, because you're weird.] ]

I suddenly chuckled and said calmly, after all, even I didn't dare to say that kind of "Declaration of Independence" on the first day of school, not only that, but the silence and few words, not smiling are the deepest impressions, except for the work of other languages are basically nothing.... Even if it's me, I'll deal with two sentences from time to time.

smiled and ignored Yeyue's doubts and Liu Wei's gloomy eyes, and said it again

[I said you, since you have this kind of pass-like appearance, it will be very easy to pack it properly]

[.... What's the difference between that and the beginning? At the end of the day... It's all going to be the same.]

It seemed to be back to the beginning of the situation, and after I finished speaking, Liu Wei laughed self-deprecatingly again.

[Say leave...] It's more because I didn't get it at all. What am I...]

[Do you get nothing if you don't do anything?]

Taking Liu Wei's words, I continued

[Don't you think it's strange? If everyone had this kind of thinking, there would be a lot less deeds that were praised and praised?]

[That's not what I'm going to care about.] ]

All she got was this indifferent answer, and indeed, this was her truest answer.

[Actually, all I want to say is.... Whatever it is, someone has to be the first]

It's like debating whether the chicken or the egg came first... No, no, I can still say these things to others as a "preacher"... Ah, the realism of the impermanence of the real world.

[Whether it's the environment or the rules, someone has to be the first, and then continue according to this procedure, and constantly absorb and accept outsiders, so no matter who it is, there is another possibility besides being accepted, that is, creation. ]

[Create what?]

["Living environment" that suits oneself]

Speaking of this, I couldn't help but laugh, not a sharp smile or an evil smile, but a heartfelt, happy smile

[Everyone who lives in this society will find a place that suits him, but the existence of this position is not so easy to find at some point.] I remember you once saying to me "what a weird guy", didn't you?]

[...]

There was no response, Liu Wei stared at me silently for a few seconds, and then nodded slightly.

You're a weird guy, as I said earlier, and since they're all weird, you can always find something in common, right?

With that, I bent down slightly, made a welcoming gesture, and said in a bright voice

[Welcome to this strange "living environment" that I have created that cannot be called an environment for the time being, Liu Wei.] ]

In the face of such an inexplicable strange invitation that suddenly popped out of my mouth, whether it was Liu Wei or Ye Yue, who had been silent and listening, they all opened their mouths slightly to reveal a shocked expression, and froze stiffly in place.

Then, slowly, the consternation on Liu Wei's face turned into doubt, and finally calmed down completely

[So... What do I need to give?]

In such a short period of time, I found back what I insisted on, which is really worthy.

[No, it's not a deal for me.] ]

I shook my head and denied her claims, even her insistence, and continued before I could say anything

[But didn't I already receive it as a gift in return?]

[... What?]

[Thank you for the porridge you cooked, I did receive it.] ]

[No, that's different, that's...]

Maybe she couldn't tolerate such a simple "price" and shirked all the responsibility for this matter, so a rare anxiety appeared on her face, and her hands unconsciously clenched their fists.

I interrupted her before she could finish

[Words in return are enough.] ]

Shaking his head and saying this.

Then, take a deep breath. That's right, the final answer has not changed until now.

Then, look at her seriously

[Because, I want to ask you to be friends with me, is it okay?

Then there was a moment of absolute silence, as if even the beating of the heart could be heard, as if the space had been frozen, and even the slightest movement had stopped.

What am I feeling at the moment? nervous, expectant, worried, scared? Actually... I couldn't have imagined that almost four years later, I would say the same thing again... Aha... Isn't it a bit of a long memory?

However, I don't regret this decision, at least I am.

Finally, I don't know how long later, in this silent corridor, there was an inaudible response

[... Hmm.]

Breaking the silence also woke me up from that complicated emotion, like a breeze on my cheeks, indescribably calm.

Really.... It's not the same as it was then.