Extra six: At this moment, I finally took the first step for my ideal (II)

The night view of the city in the distance from the balcony is brightly lit, but the evening breeze blowing from both sides of the building has a chill that has nothing to do with this warm color, giving the impression that winter is about to begin. The pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info maybe, this is just my illusion.

After dinner, it was almost ten o'clock, and I was currently taking a shower in the bathroom under the snow, and I took advantage of this short time to go to the balcony alone.

He took out the white envelope he had received from her today from his pocket and looked at it in a daze by the light.

Although I made all kinds of speculations about the contents of this letter, I was never able to get a satisfactory result. I didn't say anything about this letter to the snow, but I didn't deliberately hide it. Since you agreed, there is no need to say it.

The letter... What the hell is it..

[Hah...]

Hawkers,Anyway,Let's take a look first.,Thinking so,I gently tore open the seal、Carefully took out the letter inside with my fingers.,It's a piece of letterhead.。

Slowly holding it in his hand and spreading it out, it was covered with beautiful words comparable to that of print. It's written horizontally.、It's probably the format of China.,I can clearly see my name on the top line.,But I didn't add any special title.-

Biqi Valley:

When you open this letter and see this sentence, it proves that I have made a decision.

Actually, I hesitated for a long time before this letter... After all, I still wrote it, as for why I used the letter.. Because you know, I'm not a good communicator, and I don't know if I can put words into words that I want to say. So, but with words, maybe it's better.

You know what? From the time I first transferred to the university here, the first thing I saw on the podium was you. It's kind of a strange reason, I'm afraid of too many eyes and I hate being looked at.

Since I was very young, I spent my time alone for many reasons at home, whether it was at school or at home, whether it was a sick or a birthday, I was just facing these things alone, although I used to fantasize that this situation would change, but as a result, while waiting, I began to get used to being alone and began to become unaware of how to interact with others.

I'm one of those people -- I only feel at ease in my own world.

So, for a long time, I always thought... We're the same kind of people, and that thought started a month after we met you... Produce it. I don't know why I think this way, probably.. That's why I'm writing this letter.

You are not alone, but you can feel a breath very similar to mine in you.

If it were you, you would be able to understand why I thought so. So, I've been watching you, longing to find answers from you, but to no avail.

You always like to be alone, but you can't get rid of the people who are with you.

You always like to read quietly, but you are always disturbed by many strange things.

Even on the way back, you can always see other people greeting you.

There are no warm conversations, no warm invitations, but you will always be brought into gatherings that seem far away from you.

Actually, you don't need any of that, do you? You just want to be alone and live quietly, right?

Once, there were many times when I wanted to ask so directly, but I was given up again and again... It's not a question I should ask, after all, you and I at that time... Nothing but classmates. Even after going through a lot of things, we have become friends with each other, we can't ask this question naturally, but now, I think that such a question has lost the need to ask, and even if it is asked, the answer I get is definitely not what I need. The environment is too.

But even so, I will still unconsciously pay attention to you... In the past few years after graduating, in addition to occasional contact, I will also inquire about your news from Yono-senpai and Sasaki-senpai.. Hehe, this always feels incredible... I myself sometimes get shocked when I think about these things on my own. People like me have been asking other people's questions about things like that... It's been a long time since the last time I did something like this. How long has it been? I don't remember exactly.

But what about you? I probably didn't think about anything other than remembering that I had a friend, you're such a person, but I'm still going to be honest, occasionally when I'm holding my phone, I'm always a little helpless, although I also know in my heart that you're like this to anyone but her... But I'd like you to pay a little attention to the aspect.

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At this point, the letter is separated by a long dividing line, and after two lines are empty, the following content begins:

This next part... Think of it as my own monologue.

At.. The day I became friends with you began... I confess that some of the things that arose in my heart. Strange feeling.

Some time after that: I finally admit it - that feeling is called "liking".

I can't say that myself, because it was the first time I had feelings for someone other than hatred and pity.

Maybe it's your figure, or maybe your words are always lingering in my head. Anyway, for a long time after that, I was always thinking about you. The drawings that are drawn on the lock on the drawing board will be drawn into your back before you know it.

Knowing this, you're surprised, isn't it?

I was surprised, but I didn't hate it at all. At least, I can still like someone else like an ordinary person... Isn't it?

But then came the feeling of falling out of love... Some are suffocating. Occasionally, when I am alone in bed at night, I will have insomnia... Even, there will be tears for such a fact.

These... You don't know at all, do you?

But these are all things a long time ago, after experiencing that trespassing relationship, I feel that my living environment has slowly begun to change... It's a windfall... It's a lot easier than before.

Looking back now, I will never regret having these feelings, even at the moment when I wrote these things, I can clearly feel the intertwined feelings at that time, flowing smoothly in my heart.

So, let me say in this letter that I liked you, and I am.

It's kind of making up for the previous regrets.

....

I have to go.

After thinking about it for a long time, I still can't give up my sketchpad and brush... The job here is not for me.

So, I'm going to travel all over the world and take my sketchpad with me.

Being able to paint those beautiful scenes that exist in this world but few people know with my own pen is the goal I pursue, and it is also the meaning of my life.

.... I'll definitely come back when I'm done drawing the whole world.

When I come back, I hope to find a place to stay in this land... When the time comes, it's up to you.

But at this time, I don't know when I'll be back - because the world is really big...

Finally, please turn the letter to the back... It's a gift to you before you leave.

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On the back, there is a painting.

Painted above... It was the night of my wedding under the snow, the moment when the two of us hugged each other...

At the bottom of the painting, in the lower right corner, there is her signature and a blessing written in Chinese:

May this moment stay with you forever. - Liu Wei