Perhaps, standing here and looking into the future, they will get the answer (below)
Perhaps, standing here and looking into the future, they will get the answer (below)
After lunchtime, after the snow locked the door, there was no direct intention to go back to the classroom, and there was still a short time before class, and according to her meaning, we walked to the secret base that used to belong to me alone during the lunch break. Anyway, I really don't want to go back now, so I just mix up the time and go back to class again.
Then, following the snow and driving under the snow, I was led to the place where I encountered, and as expected, it was still very quiet, and there were no people or noises at all.
Walking to the edge of the stairs where I used to sit, I hesitated a little under the snow, carefully pressed my hand against the hem of my skirt, and then gestured with my eyes.
.... So?
[Anything else...] Hah..]
I sighed softly and asked, if you want to find a quiet place to talk... So the activity room also meets this condition, right? There is no reason to go here in particular. However, since it has changed places, there must be corresponding reasons.
With that in mind, I walked over and sat down next to her carefully... In order not to feel discomfort on both sides, it is necessary to leave enough distance between the two.
The snow glanced at me out of the corner of his eye, then looked straight ahead again, as if looking for a place to stay, and finally stopped on the bushes not far away, and sighed softly from his mouth
[This is indeed a good place, and it is indeed very suitable for the preferences of a single species like Kikuya-kun, and it is indeed commendable to find this kind of place.] ]
[I don't get any fun at all when you say something like that...]
[No, I'm just complimenting this place.] ]
Saying such excessive words as a matter of course, completely ignoring my defiant eyes. Although I prepared some words, I didn't say anything after all, just took a deep breath, slowly leaned back, supported the floor with my hands, and looked under the snow
[M.] Indeed, it's a good place to rest..]
[Yes, and the sea breeze is just right.] ]
She and I unexpectedly agreed at this time, and after a moment of smiling, we began to look up at the sky under the snow
[Have you ever thought of a reason to apply for the abolition of the ministry?]
[Thought.] ]
[But I didn't ask.] ]
When you have doubts or thirst for answers, if the person who knows the answer is right in front of you, then the most direct way is to ask that person, and you may not get an answer, but after all, there is a certain possibility of getting an answer, right? But for me, the most normal... Not really.
Say it when you need to, and never tell anyone if you don't want to say it – even if anyone else is implicated in it. This is what she feels like under the snow. Once you've judged yourself to be doing the right thing, you won't change anything.
So, the only thing I can do is wait.
[There is no reason to continue to exist, so dissolution is inevitable, I think so.] ]
Although I thought about all kinds of answers that came out of her mouth, I felt a sense of weakness when I heard such an answer that had no room for refutation.
"There is no reason to exist" is the conclusion reached under the snow... Since it was her conclusion, there was no way to refute it. So I can only continue to follow her words
[Looks like you'd say it...] This feeling of irresponsibility. ]
[Am I wrong?]
[... No. ]
After being asked rhetorically and then followed by a short answer, I tried my best to suppress the thing in my heart that seemed to be about to sprout, so that I didn't look the same on the surface, as for the effect... It should be fine.
So, from now on, the "Service Department" of Sobu High School will become history, right? Will it become a "daily" memory in the future, or will it be an "extraordinary" past? Maybe there will be people in the future, maybe it's me, maybe they, or maybe they, or people who have come to the Ministry of Service, and those who have made various commissions to us, at some time and for some special reason, they will occasionally mention it, and there was once a place called "Service Department" here.
If you think about it from this point, isn't that what memories are? Even things that are full of joy and sorrow become a record that is constructed into the everyday and the extraordinary.
As I thought so, my mood slowly returned to calm, and the sound under the snow sounded again
[So..]
After a pause, the head under the snow slowly twisted around, looking very hesitant, and moved his lips a few times without making any sound.
[So?]
I cast a suspicious gaze just in time for her, who simply closed his eyes
[I.. I want to be in....]
Basically, you can only hear a few words... So, if it's hard to say, don't say it...
[.. If you don't feel like it, don't force it.]
When I said this, Miss Snow opened her eyes again, and it seemed that there was still a slight anger between her eyebrows...??So??I don't know anything!
For a moment we fell into an eerie silence, but it didn't last long before it was shattered by the distant sound of a bell - the bell that meant the lesson was about to start.
Ahhhh I was saved by a bell in a strange place..
With such a sigh in his heart, he slowly stood up and tidied up his clothes casually
[It's class time.] Going back, huh?]
didn't reply, just stood up silently, the sudden little anger under the snow had disappeared, and his face was indifferent, and he looked at it seriously
[I... I would like to hold a study session. ]
[Huh?]
Suddenly, such a sentence made me inexplicably stunned in place.
Under the snow he took a deep breath and said it again
[I would like to hold a study session..]
[Suddenly...]
[There are only three of them.] Yuhihama、I.. And you. ]
[...]
No, I still don't understand.. It's not right.、Literally, I understand but..
[Answer?]
[... Are you serious?]
[So... Reasons for this?]
The bell in the distance faded away, and my steps to go back finally came to a complete pause, and I turned back to look seriously at the snow, and she was looking at me with the same eyes, and after a few seconds, shook her head gently.
Then he quietly walked past me without any answer. Is it not clear that the answer or.. Just don't want to say it?
Perhaps, this was the answer she had got—I was so sure in my mind, and after watching my back disappear around the corner under the snow, I began to walk in the direction of the classroom.
In any case, the inevitable "change" has arrived, and everything in the past will eventually become a memory.