Extra-four: In short, it is an unstoppable obsession (9)

So, in this very strange atmosphere, we chose to stop and think for a long time. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

From an outsider's point of view, it may just feel a little strange, or it may be because of a sudden quarrel or disagreement between the two people.

But what about the facts?

Perhaps, only I know what I am thinking now--my words, in addition to shock, there is only helplessness.

Although, what she said will definitely not come true, because this situation simply cannot exist, not that she is lying, if I directly agree at this time, it will become a reality... But ah... If this would not have existed in the first place, there would be no way to assume, so these will be drowned out one by one by the things that will follow, and finally become words that cannot change anything.

My thoughts and opinions are like this, and I may be surprised by such words, but they will definitely not change.

And what about her?

When looking at her with speculative eyes, she could clearly feel the expectation and firmness in her eyes, which also confirmed that every word Yeyue said was true, maybe from the bottom of her heart, she really planned to do so, and looked forward to making it a reality. However, this was only her expectation, and I could not respond to it in the strongest way.

Of course, it is not possible to export the refusal directly.. As for why I couldn't do it, I can't even say the reason for refusal.. Maybe I don't want to see the loss that arises from this surface. Or for some other reason, it's always like a lump of threads that have been crumpled in the heart, and it can't be straightened out.

But even so, I am very grateful to her from the bottom of my heart for this... It can only be thanks.

Suddenly, a sense of irritability rose in my heart, an irritability I felt about how useless I had become in the face of her at such a time, and I was disgusted with myself.

The silence ended with a long exhale, racking his brains for thought, and after a few seconds he uttered the words that represented the lack of words

[Don't use... To the point of this..]

When he spoke, his voice trembled unconsciously, and even if he noticed that he wanted to keep it steady, he couldn't do it.

The appearance and expression at this time should be very embarrassing... At least that's how I feel, a feeling of being rejected by everything around me.

However, this "everything" does not include her-

All the while, he just looked at me with inclusive eyes and gentle eyes, looking at me expectantly, even when he was silent, and he was not shaken by my answer, nor did he take his eyes off. Slowly shook his head

[Because I decided it myself, I don't think there's anything wrong with it]

[But I..]

[It's okay if you don't agree, there's no need to think about it for my side...]

Yeyue's gaze slowly lowered, and her head slowly lowered with her gaze, and finally fixed on my chest, staring at something intently, as if thinking.

[The current word.] That's it for now.Later things.. I'll just talk about it later.]

After saying that, he covered up the words in a very relaxed manner in a completely different style, walked back to my side, and wrapped his arms around me, the only difference was that the strength was much higher than just now, almost using all the strength of his hands, and the pressure felt from above was like being pressed by a heavy object and unable to move.

Mu Ne watched Yeyue finish all this, a feeling of colic near my chest, I took a few deep breaths and forced those memories to be pressed down... If I can't keep my sanity, I don't deserve that name... Hikiya Hachiman.

So, we started walking at a time, slowly, in the same direction as before, aimlessly, and the bustling streets, the noise and bustle did not diminish in the slightest.

The occasional breeze can still feel the biting temperature on your face, but you can't feel the obvious cold.

His gaze wandered out, looking at the surrounding shops and various goods, not wanting to buy anything, just to keep his attention from staying in those places just now, and... Don't even think about it now...

[... Anything you're looking for?]

[Hmm?ah.] No, there isn't..]

Slightly embarrassed to reply, he fixed his gaze straight ahead, which really looks strange... I really didn't notice the previous words, but it must be strange for two people to walk like this... It's like two people coming to the shopping street on a date. Although there is nothing to buy.

[... What about you?]

I asked back with a tentative attitude, but the answer I got was yes

[Hmm.]

Yeyue replied softly, looking a little happy, looking farther ahead, and then said in that direction

[In front.] Something I want to buy..]

[Oh..]

That's it.. Although it was a bit unexpected, it felt normal, after all, it seemed stranger to walk on this street and not go shopping... Well, in that case... Just go buy a gift... Tomorrow is Sasaki's birthday, and I don't know what to buy... However, what are the things that Yeyue wants to buy?If it's clothes or daily necessities, you can't bring them with you.. If you want to give a gift, it is really suitable to go to a larger shopping mall.

[What do you want to buy?]

Thinking so, I also asked this question casually.

[Hmm.some daily necessities.]

[Is it..]

In other words, it's a different way. Then there is no way.

[Can you come with me?]

[Ahh

She knows this kind of thing even if she doesn't have to ask.

With that, after a little more distance forward, Night Moon opened the topic again

[What if... One day I suddenly became nothing... Can it be like this?]

[... If this hadn't existed in the first place..]

[But if it's true..]

Although what Yeyue said at this time sounded uneasy, there was no uneasiness in her tone, her head tilted slightly, and she gently rested on my shoulder, saying it in a very relaxed tone.

Ha... So, this "if" doesn't exist...

If you have to say such a hypothetical situation... My answer is... I raised my head slightly and looked at the gray sky and thought about it, and got a simple and clear answer

[――Nothing will change.]

[...？]

[Those so-called "nothings" just lose something ephemeral, and what they really have... And how can it disappear with all this.... If you can really disappear at will... I can't talk about having it..]

It's always the ephemeral things that disappear, and that's been doomed from that moment on—and the things that really don't disappear will always come back, even if they're sealed in the dust of memory, right?

Because, isn't the two people who are walking together at this time the best proof?

I smiled as I looked into the distance, and now I said such handsome words... It doesn't really look like me.