I jumped out of his arms, covered my mouth and ran under the doorman's house, and for some reason I wanted to cry when he said what he said to me.

Maybe I'm really too pessimistic?

The rain flowed down the eaves like a waterfall, and when Bai Xiaoyu rushed over, my tears also swept down my cheeks like the rain.

"Did you listen to what I said? Bai Xiaoyu looked at me with his hands on his hips and asked, it was the first time I had heard him speak to me in a stern tone.

"You're right, Bai Xiaoyu. I leaned against the wall, looked at him weakly and smiled and said, "I'm really selfish." ”

"But I hurt, it's not me who hurts, it's my Ruliang and Ruyi, when I see them seeing other children with their fathers by their side, they are really pitiful. ”

I looked at Bai Xiaoyu and said like a deranged person, I was also convinced of myself, why do I always see my life as so pathetic?

Bai Xiaoyu looked at me, a smile rose at the corner of his mouth, that smile seemed to be gentle to me, but I felt that it was a mockery of me.

"Now you know you're selfish?" he said with a sneer on his lips and a mocking smile in his words.

I know very well what we mean by selfishness, maybe others see me as a perfect female president on the surface, which is in the eyes of people who don't know me, but in fact, I am often asked some questions by my own children that make them miserable, just because of one thing, that is, they don't have a father, just this one thing, is enough to make me miserable, but I think of myself so pessimistic, resulting in my body being tired, if I also fall, it can be liberated, but what will Ruliang and Ruyi think, isn't it a selfish manifestation that I destroy myself like this？

"Smack!"

I slapped myself in the face, and this time I resented myself instead of God.

"You should have slapped yourself a long time ago. Bai Xiaoyu sneered, then glanced at me, clasped his hands in front of his chest, turned his head, took out a cigarette and smoked.

"You're right, I should be optimistic instead of burying myself in the past. I said lightly, reached out to catch some rainwater, and washed my face.

I really should be sober.