Chapter 25: Perfection with Flaws Perhaps Is the Beginning of His and Her Quest (16)

[It's so cold...]

It was as if the clothes on my body had been invaded by the temperature of snowflakes, and when a breeze blew through my ears, I couldn't help but shiver, folded my hands and shrunk them, and the pace that I had been trotting stopped with it. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

The heavy snowfall that had been falling since noon had no intention of stopping, and there was no sign of even a small decrease, and even if I was walking back the way I came, the footprints that should have been left were gone in an instant.

Looking down, the snow was already up to my ankles, and the chill was constantly coming from the soles of my feet.

[No.... Am I self-inflicted..]

As far as the eye can see, the apartment can be seen faintly in the distance... There is still a long way to go from the apartment, and it is clear that I came out by myself, but now I sigh in my heart, "It's so far away".

Now they... What are you doing? Maybe you've figured out I'm gone, right? And then?

.....

[If.] If it's just like that, it will bother them...]

Perhaps, for them now, I am just a familiar person, or just an acquaintance, and there is no reason for them to make concessions for someone like me who has so far been irrelevant. They're doing what they're supposed to do, going back like this... It might affect the atmosphere.

I shook my head, looked left and right, hesitated for a few seconds, and after peeling the snow off it, I went back to the stone bench next to me.

So, starting tomorrow... From tomorrow onwards, just go back to that place again. Now, just take your time and enjoy the last of your peace.

....

It's snowing...

It's cold...

Clenching his hands tightly, even his body became stiff.

Let's go back... No, not yet.

Fragments of the past began to emerge in my head, replaying them in my head like a slideshow.

Am I wrong.... Maybe.

So, am I wrong to sit here now?

.... Probably.

But I still have tomorrow... and all the time thereafter.

However, it was so cold.

I feel that the blood is slowly freezing, and it seems that all the temperature around me is being stripped away, this is a world without color and temperature, just today.

Can I walk over there... Today.

Maybe it's better to fit into this kind of world without temperature like this... No one, except me.

....

But what about tomorrow?

Will it snow tomorrow? Will it still be so cold? Maybe... I should have gone find a warm place.

But no one ... Perhaps, I'm the only one in this park.

I buried my head deeply, clasped my hands, and tried to keep my body that was gradually frozen.

Some of the past flashed through my head.

...

Suddenly, I felt a scorching temperature from my eyes, which stayed in my eyes for a few seconds and then slowly slipped down, dripping on the cold back of my hand, and I couldn't help but shake a little.

I... Crying?

Obviously I don't think so.

But the tears flowed out uncontrollably, like a full glass of water that was constantly overflowing from the edges.

Ahhh

Perhaps, I want to cry a lot at this moment.

Perhaps, I wanted to throw myself into his arms and shout those words out loud.

Or maybe it's to find a reason to fit naturally into them... Or chance.

I made a decision just now, but now I have to overturn it.

...

[I want to too... Join you..]

The kind that has no scruples, no need for a reason... Sitting together, talking, laughing, and sharing together can also be borne together.

I know that these things are far away from me now, although I firmly believe that one day this will be the case, but not at all, right? Now he's completely abandoned.

Probably... So you can say that I am a greedy person. I walked out by myself, but after making such a decision, I regretted it without permission, and in the end I didn't even have the courage to go back, and I wanted to get this, but I didn't even have the courage to cry out loud and say it out loud.

It's just a fantasy.

So, since it's a fantasy, why am I so embarrassed...

[A person is like this... It's so uncomfortable...]

[Then let's come along.] ]

Unconsciously talking to himself, with a sobbing voice, was replied by another bland voice.

It was as if someone had struck him in the chest with a hammer, as if he had been awakened while he was asleep.

Slowly raised his head and looked at the source of the sound.

Before he could get past two meters, his line of sight was blocked by a figure, and he could no longer emanate it.

Breathing a little rapidly, the white mist produced covered half of the cheeks, slightly serious and worried eyes, hands naturally drooped, uneven snowflakes scattered on the body, the top of the head completely turned into a black and white form, the face was a little stiff, and the feet were completely submerged in the snow, just standing in front of me slightly bent.

At this moment, it was as if time had been frozen.

I froze where I was.

Why...

The vision gradually blurred, and a complex and indescribable mood filled his chest.

[Why... Will you be here?]

[Stupid? Of course I'm looking for you.] ]

He sighed softly, then slowly walked over and stopped in front of him, saying these words in a reproachful tone.

[... I'm sorry.]

After saying this inaudible apology in a trembling voice, I couldn't hold back my hands and hugged the familiar .... Put your head in his chest and cry.

Maybe, that's how I can really cry.

This is where I should be.