A grateful heart is with time

The calendar is 2014, and my thoughts are still in 2013, and we Chinese are also in a hurry in 2013, for us 13 years will be far away, and the Year of the Horse is coming.

In the past few years, I have written a review at the end of the year, and this year is no exception. It's as if if you don't write these sentences, the big things of the year are not done. So, when the countdown to the new year was in New York, I began to think about how to write this year, but I couldn't put pen to paper. At that time, in the New York scholars exchange group, I saw everyone's "2013 to the Far Away", and my heart was also very surging, and the talented people wrote so well, they sat in New York, focused on the world, from the apocalyptic fallacy to PM2,5, from the country's GDP to the sinusoidal curve of their own life trajectory, I really didn't have the urge to write, I felt that I was too young to live, and I really couldn't do it. Fortunately, I returned to China ahead of schedule, and after that bustle, I sat in the familiar study and started my happiness inventory.

Fast forward to 2013 and it was an extraordinary year for me, the longest year I spent in the air. Went to QH for the summer and went to BJ several times and went to New York. Therefore, it is also the year to see the most clouds, in the Qinling Mountains, in the plateau QH to see the flower-like clouds, and living in the clouds for a long time, a completely clean world is on the way to New York.

More importantly, this year I had the opportunity to live in a city with the softest blue sky and the most beautiful clouds, and breathe the cleanest air. In the past, whether I was going to XC or other cities, no matter how beautiful the clouds were, I was in a hurry. New York, on the other hand, when the plane hovered over New York, I saw the silky and graceful clouds of New York in the gorgeous autumn colors, and I felt that this was a place where I could feel at ease, as if this was the place where I lived.

So, on the beautiful campus of Columbia University, in New York's Central Park and roadside parks, I often smile sweetly at the blue sky and white clouds, watching them quietly embracing each other in the cleanest blue sky, which is elegant, romantic, luxurious, and comfortable. The clouds seen in Manhattan are often unchanging, holy and graceful. It was as if to tell me that I don't have to wander here, because New York has the most beautiful blue sky.

The beautiful clouds tell me that happiness is like this, and the most beautiful blue sky makes me know that I don't need to be tired in the clouds, so no matter how strong the wind is in New York, the white clouds are full of flowers, and they are all held and cared for by her blue sky, and they are leisurely happy and happy.

Yes, I feel happy and happy when I see them. On the way from the airport to the Columbia campus, when I saw the beautiful clouds for the first time, my soul was not burdened, and I clearly felt that my soul coincided with the white clouds. This feeling lasted until the day I left New York, when it was another beautiful cloud smiling at me, and I felt that my trip to New York was the most complete process. The holy clouds greeted me when I came, to tell me that this was the most beautiful place, and after several cloudy days due to the blizzard, I was convinced that this day would be clouds in the blue sky. Because the night before, I walked on the campus of Columbia University and looked at the night sky and said: I'm leaving, my blue sky and white clouds, I haven't seen you for four days, I'm not used to it. Is it just for me to leave with such regrets, we have to say goodbye.

It was also in New York that I learned that I loved the sky and the clouds so much, and I used to climb mountains to see the clouds. But I didn't realize what the clouds meant to me. It was during my days in New York that I learned that the blue sky and white clouds were a part of my life.

Almost every morning, the first thing I do when I wake up is roll up the curtains and look at the sky. The mornings in New York never let me down, and there were beautiful clouds watching me almost every day, so I would laugh out loud every morning: pretty, so good, so beautiful.

Clouds are low in New York, and blue skies and white clouds are between cities. Walking on the streets of Manhattan, you can see the blue sky and white clouds without looking up, often make me feel that they coexist, here I can't see only the blue sky without clouds, only here makes me feel that the blue sky can't be without clouds, otherwise the sky is so lonely, therefore, even at sunset, the sky will also go with his clouds gorgeously, then I see clouds instead of clouds, so I saw the most beautiful burning clouds, that is the sky for the clouds to dress the most beautiful clouds, at this time the sky does not know whether it is reflected or happy crimson crimson。

Ouch, I laugh every now and then: you are so happy, and so is Dol.

Yes, I am happy.

Dor's 2013 was a happy year. All my happiness comes from God's gift. So once again, I thank God with thanksgiving. I know how to be grateful, always remember God's gift, and never slack off in contentment and gratitude.

When I first stumbled into the Church of St. John the Divine, stood in front of God and said, 'God, your favorite is coming,' I burst into tears with emotion. It all happened naturally, and I didn't know that Columbia was next to the largest church in the United States. What's more, I'm not religious, and what I often say about 'God' is not the same thing as religion. However, all this does not affect my grateful heart. So, when I was actually faced with a place that represented God, that excitement was also an expression of my primal mentality. What I didn't expect was that my first thought was to repent, telling God what I had done wrong. For a second I didn't know that the church was a place of confession, so I made a gesture in the temple and folded my hands.

When I returned home in the morning, I went to church to say goodbye. Standing in the same position for the first time, he said: God, your darling is going back to China, I will live happily and try to make you worry less.

This time, I reverently did what I had seen on Christmas Eve, and once again burst into tears of excitement.

God, I'm your darling, I've always known that. I always knew that God was loving me at all times.

In early June, during my trip to the Ao Mountain, when I felt the fear of despair for the first time since climbing the mountain, God, you let that despair end in the shortest possible time. At that moment I understood that my God was with me. Because, it is a miracle to get out of a desperate situation so quickly.

Afterwards, I also believed with great superstition that if we had been told to go in the direction of the Mani Pile that day, if I had known that the Mani Pile had been piled up at the location of the three victims of the mountain climb not long ago, then we who were timid would have been frightened to see this scene when we were in a desperate situation. I'm glad I found out when I came back, and I'm even more glad we didn't go there at all.

My God takes us to the other side.

Half a year has passed since the incident, and it is still difficult for me to calm down when I write this paragraph, because the shock is unforgettable. Similarly, when I think of this paragraph, I have to thank Jin Ling, the big-eyed girl who experienced it together. I thank her for not only trusting each other when we are facing a desperate situation, but also for helping me in the mountains we have been climbing together. This trip to Aoshan is even more so, the water she brought ensured my needs for the whole process, without her, I couldn't have completed the Aoshan trip. Again, thank you, Jin Ling. May good luck always be with you.

It was also this trip to Aoshan that made me understand the importance of friendship: the only person who thought of helping me find help in times of despair was Miki. In the same way, here I wish you all the best in the Year of the Horse.

In short, I am still happy to climb the mountain for a year, and it is an unexpected bonus to be able to climb the mountain in New York. Next year, I will continue my happiness and walk through the Qinling Mountains to see the most beautiful clouds in the sky.

However, I shed so many tears this year in a way that I would never have expected at the beginning of the year. Because, Mingwei, a classmate like a brother, was silent forever if he didn't say goodbye to me. At this moment, I burst into tears again when I wrote this......

At this moment, I just want to tell my friends who love me and my friends that let us cherish everything we have now, enjoy and taste life, everything has no assumptions, everything has no beginning, only grasp the present. Bless you and bless all my friends.

2013, like every year in the past, was different from year to year. It is this difference that keeps us in the expectation of the unknown. No one can design everything that will happen in the future, which is the meaning and joy of life. It is impossible to imagine who you will meet on the way and who you will let go.

Then, the two Ph.D. monks I met in New York made me sigh at the helplessness of fate and the meaning of life. Thank God for meeting two friends who have had a huge impact on me now, and they are like a mirror that allows me to see myself.

The two doctors succeeded in stopping my hurried pace. I don't think I'll be able to be Dr. Haile's chic, but I'd like to be like Dr. Fayon: honest and knowledgeable.

This year, no matter how far I go, there are always the eyes and concerns of friends to let Duoer know that no matter how far away I am, there is no distance in the heart of love. At the same time, it also let me know what time can take away and what to leave behind, and when it brings us more unexpected surprises, there are also helpless joys and sorrows.

However, even in the vicissitudes of life, there is always that unchanging gaze that makes time answer shyly......

Duo'er once again looked back on the road she had traveled this year, and still smiled when she wrote these words. Because, in 2013 I was happy.

Thank God, I am your darling.

27 December 2013