Yes, this name, I also heard it from Gu Zhenyu's mouth.

So. Li Zhengke's mother is ......

As I thought of this, I suddenly covered my mouth.

The door of the ward suddenly opened, and I looked at Dad Li who came out of it with some horror, and met his gaze, as if he couldn't see anyone, and then turned around and ran down the stairs directly from the safe passage.

I pressed my ankles and squatted on the ground, the pinprick-like pain creeping in. I gritted my teeth, and it took a minute before I could barely exert myself.

Now, there's a huge hole inside me that is devouring me bit by bit, blurring my flesh and blood.

In my mind, I have thought about it countless times, fantasized about a peaceful morning, just like the breakfast I ate at Li Zhengke's house, warm, warm, with the care of my elders and my younger brother.

Right now. It finally came true, but I couldn't believe it, and I was inexplicably afraid.

I think of the bits and pieces of the past, and think of when Li Zhengke started to be good to me, and when did he start calling me sister. Later, after I gave birth to Yanyan and was hospitalized in X City, Li's mother said to let Li Zhengke take good care of me......

A series of things, just like that, all strung together.

It turns out that they all knew for a long time, and I was still in the dark alone!

In the end, my memory stayed in the courtroom, and Li Zhengke looked at me for the last time, and actually said, "Sister." Help me take care of my mom. ”

It turned out that Li Zhengke and I were really sisters and brothers.

I sat on the steps, biting my lower lip, and looked up at the window at the top of the corridor, only that window showed a trace of light, now, Li Zhengke is not like this, there is a bright place in the high place, there is only one bright place, and the rest is all dark.

If that's the case, I think I'll die of distress.

I'm going to die of distress now.

I dug my fingernails into the palms of my hands, numbing the pain in my heart with the pain on the outside.

Now, Li Zhengke's father and mother. There are also Gu Zhenyu and even Gu Qingcheng, these people, every face flashed in front of me, flashed in turn, my headache was about to explode, and there were two forces in my heart tearing violently, as if they were going to tear my heart to pieces.

I didn't dare to cry out loud, but I just shed tears drop by drop, and my eyes were so sour that I could barely open them, as if I was spicy when I cut an onion.

I don't know how long it took to be in this state, and suddenly fell into a warm chest.

The familiar smell enveloped me, I turned around and threw myself into Lu Jingzhong's arms, and then cried loudly: "Maomao, I know...... My mother...... How can this be? Zhengke is really my brother......"

Lu Jingzhong took me in his arms, gently stroked my hair, and said in a childlike tone: "Didn't you always wish to have a younger brother, now that the younger brother is so old, he can still fight for you......"

It is precisely because of this that I feel sorry for Li Zhengke.

I choked up with tears and said intermittently, "Can you ...... Find a way to replace Zhengke...... I really don't want to ......."

Lu Jingzhong held my shoulders, turned his face sideways, and wiped the tears from my cheeks with his fingers: "Do you know what he told me when I saw Li Zhengke that time?"

I shook my head.

Lu Jingzhong said: "He said that he would be satisfied with the sentence of 20 years this time, you said that he was a man, and he wanted to protect his sister, so you must not feel guilty about him, otherwise he will cry." ”

"Really?"

Lu Jingzhong blinked: "Yes." ”

I gave him a push on the shoulder: "How do you look like you made it up." ”

Lu Jingzhong smiled and kissed me on the face, "Let's go, he is grown up now, he has his own thoughts, and he has his own reasons for doing these things." ”

I stood up against the railing of the staircase, and with a groov, I held on to the railing so that I didn't fall.

In response to Lu Jingzhong's inquiring gaze, I said, "My foot is broken." ”

Lu Jingzhong's brows were furrowed, as if he could kill a fly, and his gaze moved down from my face to look at my ankles. Brother Zhuang of the regiment.

I hurriedly explained: "It's just a slight twist, and you can still walk, but you can't push too hard." ”

Lu Jingzhong didn't listen to my explanation, and directly squatted down and pressed on my instep, and I screamed.

“……”

I tugged at the corners of my mouth: "Actually, it doesn't hurt at all." ”

Lu Jingzhong originally came to hug me, I felt embarrassed, and said that he could go, but he insisted on hugging, so I had to compromise and let him carry me on his back, go down to the orthopedics department on the third floor, and take an X-ray.

There was no fracture, just a bruised lump on the instep of my foot, and the doctor gave me a cold compress and applied medicine.

During this process, I gritted my teeth and remained silent, staring at the small bag on the instep of my foot, with the kind of gaze that could penetrate the back of the paper.

After the doctor went out, Lu Jingzhong said, "I want to see your mother?"

Lu Jingzhong can always see what I think at a glance, and then poke, I don't look away, "No, go home." ”

It's just that Lu Jingzhong still carried me to the door of Li Zhengke's mother's ward, he carried me on his back, and my vision was just level with the small window on the door of the ward, and I could see inside the ward.

It was dark inside, but the moonlight was good today, and through the moonlight spilling into the window, you could faintly see a figure on the bed.

Lu Jingzhong turned the doorknob, and I pressed his shoulder: "Don't bother...... I'll just take a look. ”

My mother, who has always been by my side, cared for me and loved me in another way.

No matter how troubled I am now, the intricacies in my heart are inseparable from the sentimentality of a trace of heartache, I resist, but I also accept it.

On the doors and windows of the ward, my face was reflected, and I opened my mouth and silently made a lip shape: "Mom." ”

………………

The second day of my broken foot, it was the most painful time, no need to use force at all, Lu Jingzhong carried me downstairs to eat in the restaurant, I hugged his neck and didn't let go, and I remembered in a trance that four or five years ago, also in C City, Lu Jingzhong carried me on his back and rushed to an overpass, and then mixed me a cocktail, the action was clean and very handsome.

I tugged at Lu Jingzhong's ear, "Maomao, do you remember that bar? You mixed me a cocktail, saying it's called Doomsday." ”

Lu Jing nodded.

I said, "I want to go to that bar again." ”

This time, when Lu Jingzhong drove me there, he passed a wide asphalt road, looking at the high-rise buildings rising on the side of the road, I remembered that at that time, there were still some buildings that were not very high, and on this side of the overpass, there was also a flyover.

In my memory, the buildings on that piece of land are not very high, and they are not particularly lively downtown areas.

"It's not going to be demolished, is it?"

I opened the window and looked out as if I had never seen the world.

Lu Jingzhong said: "No. ”

"You're so sure, you haven't been here. ”

"I haven't been here," Mr. Lu said, "but I know the owner of the bar." ”

Me: "......"

"The owner of the bar, you've met it too. ”

"Who?"

"Pei Sicheng. ”

Oh, I've really seen this guy, and I kind of like that little bully in his family.

The name of this bar is "beloved", and it is the same as five years ago, with the English letters in the flower body, and the signboard has not been replaced, and it is a little shabby, and it looks very old.

This time it was daytime, and there weren't so many scenes similar to cows, ghosts, snakes, and gods, so I suddenly exhaled a long breath, and I was supported by the landing scene, jumping and hopping.

"Why would Pei Sicheng have a bar like this here?" I looked around, "the location is not good, the benefits are not good, and it is basically throwing money into it." ”

However, a young master in a big family like Pei Sicheng shouldn't care about the money in his hand, and it's okay to squander it at any bar.

Lu Jingzhong said: "In order to find someone." ”

"Did he find it?" the name of the bar is "beloved", and even if my English grades are not good, I know that it means pampering.

Lu Jing flicked my forehead again: "I'm not Pei Sicheng." ”

Sitting at the bar, I asked Lu Jingzhong to mix me another cocktail like back then, the dawn of doom.

Lu Jingzhong said that he hadn't mixed wine for two or three years, and the action of bartending was a little rusty, but the taste of wine was the same bitter, quite bitter, last time I only drank a small sip, which was equivalent to sipping with the tip of my tongue, this time, I didn't hesitate to take a big sip and choked out tears, but what remained between my cheeks was a sweet, very strange illusion.

Under the pale blue light of the bar, Lu Jingzhong's eyes were shining, like neon shining in the sinking water.

"Jiayin. ”

"Huh?"

"When your feet are healed, let's get married. ”

I listened to Lu Jingzhong's solemn tone, and almost burst out laughing, in fact, I understand Lu Jingzhong's character, he belongs to that kind of sullen type, and he will never tell you in advance if it comes to the end, it seems that this time, Lu Jingzhong must not be able to hold back.

"Haven't you already received your certificate?"

Lu Jingzhong squeezed the palm of my hand: "You know I mean the wedding, the grand wedding that women have longed for in their lives." ”

I shook my head: "Actually, I didn't think about how grand it was, as long as there are you, me, family and friends, it's enough." ”

Despite saying this, I still feel like my heart is beating, and I really have a lot of anticipation for this upcoming wedding.

I know that Lu Jingzhong must already have a blueprint in his heart.

Probably stimulated by alcohol, I stretched out my finger and picked Lu Jingzhong's chin, "You look good, come, give the master a smile." ”

Lu Jingzhong's eyes dimmed, so he clasped my wrist in the palm of his hand, and I hurriedly pretended to shout: "Don't forget that I broke my foot." ”

"I know you broke your foot, not your wrist. ”

Me: "......"

Then, in such a beautiful environment, Lu Jingzhong directly buckled the back of my head and kissed it carefully, I felt that my face was burning, and I vaguely heard the sound of others whistling in my ears.

Lu Jingzhong's face was right in front of me, and I looked at his eyes like a vast ocean, and he grabbed me deeply.

I gradually loosened myself and put my arms around his waist.

This is my lover, this is my man, and this is the person who will accompany me through the rest of my life.

………………

That night, when I returned home, I hesitated and wanted to call Gu Qingcheng.

Lu Jingzhong took a towel to rub my feet, and I screamed in pain.

He put a very high wooden plank under my feet, "If you want to fight, you can fight, I know you want to tell Gu Qingcheng about this." ”

I looked dissatisfied: "Am I so obvious?"

Subsequently, I still called Gu Qingcheng.

The first is because of my mother's affairs, and the second is because of Li Zhengke's affairs.

When I called, it was already more than ten o'clock in the evening, Gu Qingcheng didn't connect, I thought he was asleep, so I said that I would call again tomorrow.

Lu Jingzhong said: "Gu Qingcheng's kind of person, there are cases where he sleeps with his eyes open at night, not to mention that someone else beats him, he has to take it even more if you beat him." ”

From the beginning, I didn't quite understand why Gu Qingcheng would be so good to me, if it was just half-time, then he also hated his "half-sister" Gu Qingliang at the beginning, and he didn't treat her well, I frowned, "Did I meet Gu Qingcheng somewhere before......?"

Lu Jingzhong smiled and fixed my legs, "Then you have to ask him." ”

I narrowed my eyes: "You say, did he come to see me?"

Lu Jing pinched the soft flesh on my waist, it was the kind of pinching with a little flesh, and I suddenly screamed: "I was wrong, Brother Maomao!"

I found that Lu Jingzhong especially likes me to call him brother, especially when he is **, every time I have to toss and beg for mercy again and again, I am willing to give up, maybe it is really a bad taste of men, no wonder Qiao Chu said before that there is a little devil living in every man's body.

In just a few minutes, Gu Qingcheng called me back, and his voice still sounded energetic.

I said, "I know who my real mother is." ”

"Well," Gu Qingcheng said, "as expected, you'll find out sooner or later." ”

I paused and asked, "You...... Have you seen your father lately?"

Gu Qingcheng chuckled: "Isn't my father your father?"

Yes, how could it not be.

Now that my mom and dad have been found, I should be happy, but I don't have the slightest joy in my heart.

Because this is equivalent to a third party, like a third party in marriage, it will break the original balance because of my insertion, Gu Zhenyu can recognize me because he and Gu Qingcheng's mother have divorced, and Li Zhengke's mother Huang Manru is still pregnant with her husband and two children, Huang Jingya and Li Zhengke, she will never recognize me.

Thinking of this, my heart is very blocked for no reason.

I asked, "Gu Qingcheng, do you know what they were back then...... What the hell is going on?"

On the phone, there was only a blank space for a while, as if the signal was not very good, and there were some noises.

I realized that this was touching the secret of Gu Qingcheng's heart, when he was young, his parents divorced because of an affair and cheating, and it would not be easy to be anyone.

"You don't want to ......"

Gu Qingcheng interrupted me and said, "Do you know that I asked my mother why she wanted to divorce and what my mother said?" She said that after seeing Huang Manru, she knew that the fragrance of books was really brought out of her bones, and my mother and Gu Zhenyu were originally forced to combine interests. ”

"I'm sorry. "I didn't expect to touch Gu Qingcheng's memory.

"What do you have to be sorry for," Gu Qingcheng said, "Don't put the things that don't do you on your head, just like Li Zhengke, I've heard of it, don't keep blaming yourself, it doesn't matter to you at all, he is an adult, he has his own thoughts and decisions, every decision has an impact on his future, he has thought it through, you only know now that Huang Manru is your mother, but he knew it before, he and Huang Manru both knew, but they just hid it from Huang Jingya and Li Shaoyan." ”

Li Shaoyan is Li Zhengke's father.

Gu Qingcheng said: "Don't say sorry to any of them, in fact, Li Shaoyan knew about your birth at that time, but just after you were born, your mother was taken away and sent to the countryside before she had time to take a look......

"What about Gu Qingliang?"

Gu Qingcheng smiled: "Do you think Gu Zhenyu is very stupid, he has raised his daughter for more than 20 years, but it is not his own flesh and blood, I was very sympathetic to him at the beginning, but now I know that he has known that Gu Qingliang is not your daughter for a long time, and he has been looking for you." ”

"Then why did he do that?"

In order to reassure Huang Manru. ”

I hung up the phone, and for a long time, I didn't speak, staring blankly at the window.

In the past, Wen Wen in the dormitory had always been obsessed with the fact that she was the illegitimate daughter of a wealthy family, and every time she mentioned it, it was as if she had been pierced by a nail, and it was her mother's suicide that gave her the opportunity to walk back to the wealthy family.

But now, I realized that I would not see the light of day, otherwise it would destroy my mother's family again.

So, if they don't want me to know, then I'll pretend I don't know, I don't know that my biological mother is Huang Manru, and I don't know that Li Zhengke is really my half-brother.

On the phone, Gu Qingcheng said that there was nothing wrong with what he said, Li Zhengke's decision would really affect his life.

After two weeks, the nanny of the Li family was tidying up Li Zhengke's study, packing up stacks of books from the table, placing them on the shelves, and dropping out a piece of paper from the two thick books.

It is Li Zhengke's university acceptance letter.

I once remembered that in the days before the college entrance examination, every time I called Li Zhengke, Huang Manru answered, saying that Li Zhengke was simply studying with an unprecedented passion, and he was almost going crazy.

I suddenly remembered that after I gave birth to ice cream and before the college entrance examination I took again, I was also in that state, as if I was gambling with my life, just this time, you can go to City C if you seize it, so that it is possible to get closer to Lu Jingzhong and meet Lu Jingzhong.

That's right, my belief at that time was Lu Jingzhong.

And now, I know that Li Zhengke's belief is me.

Until now, I still have the text message that Li Zhengke sent to me in my mobile phone - sister, when I am admitted to university, I don't need you to give me a birthday gift, go to Lhasa, don't tell Brother Chong, just you and me.

Sometimes, I really don't understand what Li Zhengke thinks, my head hurts when I think too much, and my eyes will be sour, so I just don't think about it anymore, and I just send some things to Li Zhengke every once in a while, hoping to do my best to make his life better.

………………

Although I already know that Huang Manru is my biological mother, I still take care of her every day in the hospital, and occasionally take a look with Huang Jingya, her eyes are cruel when she looks at me, but because of Huang Manru's attitude towards me, I didn't say anything excessive.

It's just that when I see it in the corridor or elevator outside the ward, she will still sarcastically mock me mercilessly, of course I just smiled faintly, from a certain point of view, Huang Jingya is also a poor woman, who is looking for a psychological breakthrough.

Because Huang Jingya is now a single mother, with a little daughter who is just over a year old.

I have seen this little daughter, Huang Jingya said that it was not her ex-husband Yu Zeduan, but many people who have seen it say that it is obviously carved out of the same mold as Yu Zeduan, and it is so similar that it can no longer be resembled.

Huang Manru is very demure, I can see from the morning that her character is like this, suitable for the kind of life that begins after getting married.

However, I really can't imagine why she would hide from her husband and be with another man after she got married, and how much courage she had to give birth to me.

I understand it now, I don't blame her at all, it was Li Zhengke's father Li Shaoyan who sent me away, and she didn't know at all.

Now, I can be there for her, if only good.

"Auntie, I made rock sugar white fungus porridge today, you can taste it. ”

I felt that the takeaway next to the hospital was unclean and unpalatable, so I made an extra one at home every day and brought it in an insulated lunch box.

I finished the porridge and turned around and gave it to Huang Manru, she looked up at me, there seemed to be something hidden in her eyes, but it was fleeting, and said, "Jiayin, don't be so troublesome in the future, just eat casually in this restaurant." ”

I said, "When I was hospitalized in the hospital, Zhengke was with me every day, and now I am taking care of you on his behalf." ”

Hearing me say this, Huang Manru lowered her eyelids again.

I said it on purpose, and I knew that by saying so, she couldn't say no.

From time to time, my mind popped up, and I really can't forget his eyes on the last words Li Zhengke said to me in the courtroom.

If he really wants to stay in it for ten years, then I will do two of these ten years of filial piety.

In the evening, Lu Jingzhong came to the hospital to pick me up, I carried the thermos pot out of the door of the ward, and as soon as I went out, I saw a figure standing next to me.

"Gu ......"