I raised my head slightly, Lu Jingzhong was still wearing sunglasses and a mask, and seeing that I didn't react, he pulled me up and stuffed me into the back seat of the car, threw me a pack of paper, and then turned his face to look out the window.

At this time, I had no tears, but I cried for a long time, I couldn't stop sobbing, until I reached the door of the hotel, Lu Jingzhong threw the car door directly out, and didn't look at me again.

Back in my hotel room, it was only a short morning, but the world was already turning upside down around me.

In the evening, Wei Wei asked me to go over to get those formalities, and saw Lu Jingzhong standing on the balcony drinking alone, facing the dark blue night sky.

I couldn't help but ask, "Why does he drink so much?"

Wei Wei raised her eyebrows: "Why don't you go and ask him directly?"

Lu Jingzhong turned around and raised his glass to me, the red liquid was illuminated by the overhead light, reflecting his eyelids purple red, and made a gesture to me to pass.

I hesitated for two seconds and walked over.

I can still remember that before going out in the morning, Lu Jingzhong picked a contemptuous smile on the corner of his mouth: "I bet you can't hold on." I said to Lu Jingzhong menacingly: "If I can't hold on, I'll use the name you gave me, and I'll go to Yangcheng!"

Now that I think about it, it's like a joke.

I'm the joke.

Lu Jingzhong said: "Because wine is a good thing, it can make you forget many things. ”

"Really?" I asked.

Lu Jingzhong took out a goblet and gave me half a cup: "You can try it." ”

I took it, looked at the liquid inside, shook it, and was about to drink it, when Lu Jingzhong opened his palm and pressed the mouth of the cup: "Aren't you afraid that I have drugged it in?"

I had a slap in my hand.

"Lie to you," Lu Jingzhong withdrew his hand casually, "Drink." ”

I held the wine glass, but I didn't drink it anymore, sticking to the wine glass, a slightly cool touch.

Lu Jingzhong suddenly asked me, "Do you think life is hard?"

I was stunned by Lu Jingzhong's question, and nodded when I came back to my senses.

He smiled: "Since so many people are living so hard, why don't you choose to die?"

I suddenly remembered the night when I took sleeping pills and wanted to commit suicide, the cold and darkness attacked, and my stomach cramped and uncomfortable when I remembered it, and with the shadow of that gastric lavage, I don't think I would choose this way to commit suicide again in my life.

However, Lu Jingzhong didn't notice the change in my expression, as if he was asking himself: "Because everything is over when I die, only by living and enduring can I fight back, so there are so many people who feel hard but are still alive." ”

I didn't quite understand what he meant, and asked, "Are you stealing your life?"

"Haha, yes, yes, yes. Lu Jingzhong laughed heartily, this is the first time I have seen this kind of smile on Lu Jingzhong's face in the past two weeks.

The cool breeze blew for a while, and Lu Jingzhong had already lit the second cigarette, and the smoke that rose straight up was blown by the slightest cool breeze, and it spread out.

I thought I should leave, put the wine glass, which was almost warm in the palm of my hand, on the table, and said politely, "I'll go back to my room first." ”

Lu Jingzhong didn't answer me, and I didn't expect him to answer me.

Much later, Vivi asked me a question, and she asked me, what do you think of Vincent?

I replied very officially: "He is handsome, he sings well, he is my idol." ”

"That's all superficial work, the first time I saw him, out of a dozen teenagers, I directly picked him," Wei Wei smiled, her eyes looking into the distance, "because he has a wild, untamable wildness." ”

…………

Early the next morning, Weiwei wanted to drive me to wait for the long-distance bus, copied the address to me, and gave me a mobile phone: "Someone will pick you up when you arrive." ”

However, I had just fastened my seatbelt, and Lu Jingzhong knocked on the driver's window: "You come down, I'll send her." ”

As soon as Lu Jingzhong sat down, he lit a cigarette between his fingers, and rolled down the window of the car.

There was nothing to say all the way, and Lu Jingzhong didn't turn on the radio to listen to the songs, so he drove quietly.

I looked out the window quietly, and the further I drove into the suburbs, the grayer the sky became, from high-rise buildings to low-rise bungalows, and then to corn-grown yellow earth.

Before getting out of the car, I tightened the strap of my backpack: "Thank you." ”

As soon as I jumped out of the car, Lu Jingzhong rolled down the window completely, gently shook off the ash on the cigarette, and a touch of red flashed in his eyes: "Du Jiayin, congratulations, you are nineteen years old." ”

I was slightly stunned.

Oh, today, April 21st, is my birthday.

Oh, I'm Du Jiayin.

By the time I reacted, the private car had gone to the dust, and half a cigarette was thrown out of the window.

The yellow sand in front of me was scattered, I looked at the gray sky at the end of the road, and silently said to myself: Du Jiayin, happy birthday.