I only have this one small wish, and I hope that he will fulfill it.

I didn't go offline to sleep in advance that day, and I didn't mention the last time we met, and the result of the guild's blindness was that I and the president must have met in private, and the two of them were pretending not to know each other last time. The two of us must have had a good time, but I don't know why, now the president doesn't want to be nice with me.

It's kind of what I mean.

I pretended not to see, I knew what I wanted, even if it was just an illusion, and I would make myself happy first. I still went to every corner of the scenic area with the water, and still chose a suitable position to sit side by side, looking at the distant mountains and rivers, as if I was in the middle of the rivers and lakes.

I said, "If you're tired, go to sleep." ”

He said, "I'll be with you a little longer." ”

Is it the warmth he can give me, there is only so much companionship. I sighed inwardly, but it was hard to say anything on the surface. As the member said, in the end, Wang Zhaoyang still doesn't like me enough, likes a person, why won't he try his best to run to him, just like I comfort myself in the game.

I've taken the initiative so obviously, and the best reason for him to react so much is probably "don't want to hurt me".

I bought a carton of pure milk and drank it with my eyes closed when I missed him, nostalgic for the night I slept peacefully in his arms. Now that I think about it, I wasn't expecting anything to happen to us that night, some things definitely overrode sex, and nothing happened was better.

I met Chen Shanshan once a year ago, in fact, this is not the first time I have seen Chen Shanshan in a nightclub, like most models, Chen Shanshan also came to Beijing, so the nightclub link is indispensable, but she should still be a third-rate model now.

When she saw me, Chen Shanshan just gave me a roll of the eyes, and then pretended not to know.

I don't really like Chen Shanshan, I think she's like a courtesan, as if she knows everyone in the nightclub. But there are many such girls in society, some don't know what they want to do, some work hard for the purpose, they haven't experienced other people's lives, and I don't have anything to evaluate.

On Chinese New Year's Eve, I called Wu Yuqing and said that she should eat something good by herself, and don't act as if there is no such thing as the New Year, Wu Yuqing responded coldly, did not say anything to me, and hung up the phone.

Whether she's my relative or not, I don't know. But subconsciously, I actually want to treat her as my relative, because no worries are the real loneliness.

I don't want to be alone.

The game was not online in those two days, people are children of normal families, they must be very busy during the New Year, parents have to wait, New Year's goods are done, business is brought together, how can it be similar to us, always soak in the game to relieve boredom.

I'm still looking at the scenes in the game, and every time I update the theme, the scenes are rearranged, and so much has changed since I first came into this world.

Standing on the small bridge that was difficult to recover from the water, I think he already knew that I was me at that time, because I had a lot of game screenshots stored in my space, and he could easily find them according to those screenshots.

What kind of game to play is not to play.

I also suddenly realized that there will always be a day when the game will shut down the server, and there will always be a day when we will leave this world completely, and at that time, what will I do to fool myself?

Looking at twelve o'clock in the morning, the scrolling New Year's greeting information on the screen, lonely, is a carnival of a group of people.

On the second day of the Lunar New Year, Shao Siwei came to Beijing, and I went to the station to pick him up and accompany him to the hotel. The last time I stayed in the hotel, I was with Wang Zhaoyang, and I couldn't help but feel a little sad.

Shao Siwei stayed in school to become a teacher after graduation, I know why, isn't it just to be by Mencius's side. At this time, Shao Siwei's mental outlook is good, but he is becoming less and less manly, anyway, in my eyes.

"Tell me, why did you come to Beijing in the second year of junior high school?" I asked, sitting on the bed.

Shao Siwei rolled his eyes, "Play." ”

Me: "What about Mencius?"

"Oh, he's supposed to be tomorrow. ”

My heart sank, I was very worthless for Shao Siwei. It seems that he came on a vacation date with Meng Ziming, but he can only sneak around, which is inconvenient in our hometown, so he chose Beijing.

I was very unhappy, "Shao Shao, how long are you going to drag it out with him like this?"

Shao Siwei didn't speak.

"Does he love you?" I asked.

Shao Siwei looked very sure and nodded.

I said, "Then why don't you let him get a divorce?"

Shao Siwei is meaningful, "A man has to have a home." ”

"What about yourself?"

Turning to look at the scenery outside the window, Shao Siwei said, "I'm done." ”

Who can give Shao Siwei an idea, what will he do in the future, I will die of sorrow when I think about it. There is no one in this world who is more pitiful than the other, and it is all stage by stage.

When I was a child, I felt quite pitiful, I had a mother who didn't have a mother, and I had to steal even a bra. When I grew up, I found that those things were in the past. Now I think Shao Shao is much more pitiful than me, he has a happy family, although he is not rich, he is the only child in the family, he was originally a university teacher, with an iron-clad job, looking for a woman to marry and have a baby, basically no burden of life.

But now?

I asked Shao Siwei, "Does your family know?"

Shao Siwei sat down and shook his head, why did he tell his family, men are not men or women, and most families still can't accept it immediately. And it is likely that when he is insane, he will be sent to a psychiatrist immediately.

In fact, I can understand homosexuality, I have thought about such a person before, if a person falls in love with another person, and loves the soul, then what does it have to do with gender, age, and appearance?

"Then they don't doubt it?" I asked.

Shao Siwei said, "Ask me why I don't have a girlfriend and if I want to arrange a blind date." ”

I thought for a while and said, "You can't learn from that Mencius, and you can start a family by yourself first." ”

Shao Siwei smiled, not to mention whether he has the ability to have a normal sex life with a woman, he said: "Isn't that a waste of people." ”

Yes, if a woman marries another man, the picture is that the man loves herself, and marries a person who is incapable of loving herself, and the woman's life will be ruined, and the marriage will die sadly.

So Mencius Ming's wife is quite pitiful in my opinion.

My Shao Shao is a good person, he will not destroy another person's life in order to cover up his secrets, and he would rather resist those pressures himself. So in some ways, Shao Siwei is also quite a gentleman.

I smiled and said, "Tell me if you need help." ”

Shao Siwei smiled, when I said help, I actually meant that if Shao Siwei didn't want to confess for the time being, and the family insisted that he get a girlfriend or something, I wouldn't mind helping him top it at all.

Shao Siwei asked me how I was doing, and I said, "That's it, who knows what tomorrow will be." ”

Shao Siwei asked, "Didn't find a boyfriend?"

I spread my hands and shook my head. He said, "You won't still be thinking about Huazi. ”

I reacted quickly and naturally, "How is that possible, it's been a long time." "It's true, I have a little bit of concern for Li Hua, since I couldn't see him, I don't think about him at all, some people do like it, but that like is not profound, it's easy to forget.

Then I thought of Wang Zhaoyang, and thought of his series of reactions from meeting to the present, hey.

Shao Siwei said: "You have to find someone to take care of you. ”

I smiled bitterly, who can always take care of whom in this world, the world is impermanent, and people's hearts are changeable.

Shao Siwei asked me about some places in Beijing where we could play, and planned that tomorrow Mencius would come, and the two of us would go around. When I say this, I still have the excitement of being in love, sad, sad.

In fact, I am not very familiar with the city of Beijing, such as the Great Wall Palace Summer Palace, I have never been there.

In the evening, I went back to work in the nightclub, still tired and half dead, and I should come back one after another when I went home for the New Year tomorrow, and I planned to take a leave of absence to rest and rest.

When I get home from work, I turn on the computer to play games, just to see if I can encounter water and hard to recover. The message revealed that he had been online an hour earlier.

Missed again, why can't he wait for me longer.

Then I shut down and went to sleep.

The next day, Shao Siwei sadly told me that Mencius called him and said that he was going to accompany his wife to his mother-in-law's house and that he could not come to Beijing for an appointment.

I think Shao Siwei must have felt very sad in his heart, so he put down everything and accompanied him wholeheartedly, making him feel that this trip to Beijing was at least not in vain.

In the past two days, none of us mentioned Mencius, but I can also see that Shao Siwei is a little depressed, and often looks at the sky in a trance.

Sometimes I even hate, hate that I am not a man, and that I can't take care of him. Sometimes I still think that if Shao Siwei has the ability to love women, I don't care if he is gay or not, if he needs it, I will endure it with him.

I don't understand where my deep feelings for Shao Siwei come from, I probably just feel too pitiful.

In the evening, I took time off from work and we drank at the bar near the hotel, and the two of us drank together until we vomited, with our own hearts. Then he went back to the hotel with his arms in his arms, slept with his head tilted on his head, slept from dawn to dark, and went out to drink.

I said: "Shao Shao has so much GAY in the capital, just our little touch, you come here, the GAY circle is not crazy to rob it." ”

Shao Siwei said, "Come on, it's not necessarily better to change one than the current one." ”

I said: "If Shao Shao can't marry in the future, let's get a certificate together, you buy a house, I'll find a man to have a child, and we will raise it together." I'll be my father, and you'll be my mother. ”

Shao Siwei: "Where do you find a man to have a baby?"

My heart was sour again, there was really one person in the world who made me willing to give birth to him, but he didn't seem to be very willing.

Having a child is the most undesirable thing.

The two of us drank for three days in a row, and we were so drunk that we didn't have any energy. Back to the hotel to sleep, the time is about two or three o'clock in the middle of the night. The two of them drank about the same amount of alcohol, and they drank about the same, saying that they were drunk and messy, but they were dizzy anyway.

He was lying on the bed, and I was on his lap, and the bed was big enough for the two of us to lie down however we wanted.