Stopping under a bus stop, I stared at the crowd in confusion, not knowing what I was doing here. I once came to Beijing to try to break through, but now I haven't made a name for myself.

What I don't know is what I want to do in life. I found that I had no goal all along, so Wang Zhaoyang pushed it, and I would obediently move forward.

I don't have any so-called dreams, I just have a muddy life, and the happiest thing every day is to go to the Internet café after work to play games and escape reality.

What is my dream, if I really want to make a wish, I just want to have a home, a place that doesn't need to be big, but I don't have to huddle with other people to share it, I don't have to worry about losing that little shampoo and shower gel for anyone, I don't have to dislike the toilet paper that others throw on the ground, anyway, it's all my own family's, and I'm willing to clean it no matter how dirty it is.

Who can give me a home, and when will I have one?

Sitting on the bus, I looked at the scenery of the city by the window, in fact, there is not much difference between the big city and the small city, the difference is just the mood here.

I haven't been home for half a year, and suddenly I feel a little homesick.

still sent a message to Wang Zhaoyang, "Have you arrived?"

After a long time, he replied, "Hmm." ”

The phone is stored with a number that is difficult to collect. With a wry smile, I accepted the reality that Wang Zhaoyang was covered with water and could not be recovered, and I also accepted his hurried departure, I said, "What do you mean by giving me money?"

"Buy a computer first, Internet cafes are not safe. ”

I said, "I have money myself." ”

Then he didn't reply to me, and didn't seem to be trying to convince me of anything. Anyway, the money is already in my hands, and I can't throw it away, whether I buy a computer or buy clothes, it probably doesn't make a difference to him.

I'm just trying to figure out where he got the idea of giving money. How did I get it, I look like a lover of him, and it's a lover who doesn't do any work and takes money for nothing.

If this had been what we had done last night, I would have just sneered in my heart when I saw the money, and it should have been his reward for me. But what is this now.

Okay, didn't he say buy a computer, just buy it, he wants to take advantage of it himself, what am I embarrassed about.

I got off the bus in a digital city, I went in to pick up, I don't know how to pick this thing, and finally chose more than one or four thousand notebooks, saying that it was a large online game I played, and I could barely bring it up.

I didn't feel like I was feeling like I was buying something new, and I felt like I had a very big pimple that couldn't be opened. It's jammed and panicked.

I feel like I've been given a handout, and it's not very happy.

When I got back to where I was staying, I found someone to help me connect to the internet, and I started downloading the game. But the download process was slow, so I simply turned on the phone and let it lay down on its own, change my clothes and go to the nightclub to go to work.

Come back at night and log in to the game, and want to find the water that is difficult to collect and make it clear. After going up, I saw that it was difficult to collect the people in the guild and the people in the guild, so I didn't bother him for the time being.

It's still not good to have a laptop with a large online game, it's not as smooth as in an Internet café, but it's also acceptable.

I waited and waited here, looking at the white notebook in my hand, which was a gift from him, although I bought it myself. I felt lost.

It's hard to get rid of the water, or Wang Zhaoyang, do you dare to say that you don't like me at all? If so, why do you say you just go, if not, why do you drag the mud and water like this?

Wait, wait, my game dropped. I thought it was because my laptop was playing unstable games, but later I found out that I had a stolen number. By the time I finished the game, I hadn't had time to download the antivirus.

By the time I got back into the game, I was penniless, with all the decent gear left, and only two gorgeous outfits that couldn't be traded.

The guild channel typed, "I was stolen." ”

Many people came out to comfort me, saying that they needed help finding them or something, but they didn't speak. I glanced at the guild information bar and he went offline.

I wasn't in the mood to get gear, so I just sat on the bed, working on antivirus software, and waited for the flooded online reminder.

But he never showed up.

They said that the president had said that he would go to bed early and went to bed.

I sent a text message to Wang Zhaoyang, "Are you hiding from me?"

He didn't reply.

But I could feel it, I could feel that he was avoiding me, but I didn't know why he was hiding from me, it made me feel bad, but I couldn't dig into the root cause.

Because I can't recover it without water, the game is still my pure land to avoid reality, in fact, I was wrong. This game is hard to recover because it is not covered with water, and for me, it is equivalent to losing the soul.

I didn't have soy sauce equipped or unarmed, so I could only stay everywhere in the city and scenic spots, and when I saw those figures shuttling, I suddenly felt so lonely in that picture.

Because before, no matter when, there was always a man by my side, tall and big, silent.

When there is no water around the mountain flowers, it is difficult to recover, and the mountains seem to be no longer mountain flowers.

But I waited every day, every day, in the place we frequented most, in that corner hidden at the end of the village, there was a big tree, and if it was very good, you could see the wind and grass, and there was firefly waste under the small tree in the distance.

A few small houses that no one lives in, old cows who have been grazing forever, I used to say to the flood, "This is our house." ”

The wooden raft cart behind the house, which was covered with flower petals because of the festival, said that on the night of his business trip, I hid under the flowers and asked him to come to me.

The picture is close in front of me, obviously it was still yesterday, but no matter how you say it, it has changed, what happened.

Maybe I shouldn't, I shouldn't be curious to dig out the water and expose his identity as Wang Zhaoyang. I can't guess what he thinks and what he wants, it's just that I miss him so much that he doesn't care.

Xiao Wu once came to talk to me, and he said, "What did you do with the president that day?"

I said, "I didn't do anything." ”

"Why doesn't the president love going online lately?"

"Maybe it's busy. ”

Without the core backbone of the guild, the more people in the guild played, the more scattered they became, and many veterans quit the guild, including a buddy who had dinner with us that day.

That day, I was seen hanging up in the corner with the headline "Waiting", and the member came in to talk to me, and he said, "Don't wait. ”

Me: "Why?"

Member, "Does it make sense to wait?"

Me: "......"

I knew it didn't make sense, but I didn't know what else to do for that little miss in my heart other than hanging up here and waiting for him. I didn't dare to call him, I was afraid that he wouldn't answer, that he would have a cold attitude, that it would interfere with his life. I just want to wait, if one day he suddenly sees it, maybe he will be moved?

Actually, I'm just waiting to pass myself. Sometimes, if it's not about another person, don't let me wait, what else can I do, and I don't necessarily want to do anything.

The member sighed and said, "He definitely just doesn't like you, a man loves a woman, and he won't let her wait." ”

The member left, I read this sentence repeatedly, and I felt that it was very dazzling, swiping the screen, brushing it off.

Is it really as he said, Wang Zhaoyang doesn't feel anything about me at all, why don't I believe it so much!

Working in a nightclub, I can't go back for the Chinese New Year, it doesn't matter, Wu Yuqing doesn't have to go back anyway. I've been trying hard to find a job lately because I want to finish the New Year first.

That rich and handsome, because he never took me down, is still thinking about it.

Occasionally, he would send me a flower or a perfume, and he would ask me out of the nightclub with people he knew. I don't care if he is sincere or false to me, or if he is the unwillingness of Brother Gongzi to take a girl.

He asked me why I didn't say yes, and I didn't even think about it, and I replied, "I have a boyfriend." ”

This is the most plausible explanation, albeit a self-defeating one. I have already deceived myself into the position of my boyfriend. He filled me to the brim, and now he really can't let anyone else in.

I just want to have the right opportunity to ask him what he thinks, whether he likes me or not, why I just can't understand.

In fact, in nightclubs, as long as you want, there are always some opportunities to climb the dragon and the phoenix, and there is a bit of posture and talent. I have also had these opportunities, but if it weren't for the game, not because of the difficulty of recovering the water in the game, and Wang Zhaoyang in reality, I might not be able to resist these temptations.

When I went back that day, I still hung up and waited for someone, and Xiao Wu chatted with me privately, "The president appeared." ”

Then Xiao Wu added me to a team, and I could see the avatar that was covered in water, but he didn't talk to me, and I didn't take the initiative to talk to him.

The four of us went to play the dungeon. When I used to play the book, I was a soy sauce, responsible for the nerves and entertainment atmosphere, and today I still plan to do so.

But no matter how much I entertained, it seemed very deliberate.

It seems that there is no longer a cold joke like "there is a white egg in the sky, and its name is the day".

I can't see him and miss him, but when he appears, I feel that this is not a good taste. Can't we go back, when he becomes Wang Zhaoyang, we can't go back.

I stopped fighting, and they thought I was stuck and stood by looking at me.

I had just punched the two-hundred-dollar horn, and I started swiping the horn on the screen for everyone, and of course for a specific person to see.

"If there is no Wang Zhaoyang in reality, please leave me a flood in the game!"

"If there is no Wang Zhaoyang in reality, please leave me a flood in the game!"

"If there is no Wang Zhaoyang in reality, please leave me a flood in the game!"

I didn't speak, Xiao Wu and the other people in the game, when they saw the horn I sent, they were all nodding, and some people began to gossip about what happened to me and the president.

I moved the mouse, moved my little man in front of his little one, raised my face and asked, "Is that okay?"