Zheng Rao suddenly didn't know what to say, and I thought the makeup on her face had become a little funny.

I stood up, tightened my schoolbag straps, and looked at Sister Xiao Xiao, who was sitting on the sofa and swallowing the clouds: "Can I go?"

Sister Xiao Xiao suddenly smiled: "It's okay, freedom, you can come and leave as you want, and I didn't sign any agreement to tie you up, but I was introduced by Rao Rao, so bold." ”

I am indeed timid, cowardly and inferior, I am afraid that something will happen, I would rather be poor.

I stood up and said to Zheng Rao, "I'm leaving." ”

Zheng Rao also stood up and said, "I'll send you out." ”

"Wait," Sister Xiao Xiao called me, handing me a business card, "This is my mobile phone number." ”

I walked to the door, and from the glass at the door, I saw Sister Xiao Xiao pointing in my direction, and I didn't know what to say to Zheng Rao.

Out of the roller shutter, and stepped on the night again.

Zheng Rao also walked out behind me, and there was more of the so-called fireworks on her body, and I finally saw something different.

Zheng Rao said: "I didn't let you sell your body and meat, just accompany a wine and sing a song, rich people come to have fun with us, I know you look down on this job, but it's all about making money, obviously you have to go to the construction site to give people bricks and mud, who is more noble than whom......"

I interrupted Zheng Rao's words: "Thank you anyway." ”

Zheng Rao wanted to speak and stopped: "Classmates are ...... there"

I read what she meant: "I won't talk nonsense, don't worry." ”

Just like I don't want people to know, I know that Zheng Rao doesn't want people to know about this kind of thing, it's not just a matter of face, but self-esteem.

Because I didn't know how to go back at all, I had to take a taxi back, looking at the red words on the meter, jumping up and down dollar by dollar, I felt dazzling, and I opened my face.

Since Uncle Du has helped me pay the rent for three months, it may last until I finish the college entrance examination and the problem of housing is solved, and now I have to solve the problem of eating.

I had to find a job as a lunch manager so that I could spread the money on the utility bills.

When I arrived at school the next day, Zheng Rao was dressed neatly in her school uniform, with long hair hanging down and a shawl, and greeted me with a smile: "Jiayin, here." ”

I nodded.

Actually, she didn't need to be like this to me, because I didn't think of exposing her at all, it was all to make money, I understand Zheng Rao's mood.

It's business as usual, and if anything, I've worked harder to learn.

If you want to change the status quo, you can only be admitted to university in the college entrance examination in June.

In a restaurant not far from the school, I found a part-time job, that is, serving dishes and washing dishes, serving dishes and ordering dishes for two hours at noon, and washing dishes for an hour from half past ten to half past eleven in the evening, and five yuan an hour for lunch and dinner.

"Do you want to do it?" In the dark kitchen, the proprietress wiped her hands with her apron and raised her eyes to ask me.

I gritted my teeth and said, "Okay." ”

In this way, I got up at half past five in the morning and went to bed until one o'clock at night, I insisted on it for a month, my eyes were red every day, my classmates drank coffee and tea to refresh myself, I was really sleepy when I pinched myself with my fingernails, and then silently told myself in the bottom of my heart: I will have time to sleep in the future, and insist on these few days.

At this time, I didn't know why I had so much confidence, and I gambled almost all my energy on this college entrance examination.

In the last mock exam, I was 200 places higher than when I first came, and even the head teacher was surprised, saying that the progress was so fast, and I could go through three books with normal performance.

The day before the college entrance examination, the students began to pack up their things, write classmates' records, and say goodbye to each other, I was left by the teacher to clean up, and when I was sweeping the floor, I saw a piece of cardboard on the ground, picked it up and looked at it, and it said: "I use four exam papers in two days to bet with the world on a tomorrow." ”

Bet on tomorrow......

Is my tomorrow tomorrow?

That year's math was particularly difficult, so difficult that I only made one of the five fill-in-the-blank questions, and I didn't have an exact grasp of it.

Wen Zong is very biased, and the things I carry are basically useless, but they are still dead.

English was originally my weakness, but memorizing words had a little effect, but I didn't understand anything except the first one, and listening was the same as listening to a book.

When I came out of the exam room the next day, I was crying, and there were parents standing outside the exam room, waiting for their children to come out.

I lowered my head, walked out of the middle of the road, walked on the curb by myself, walked silently, shed tears all the way.

The result is naturally conceivable.

Failed.

At the end of July, when I got my graduation certificate from school and returned to the rented house, I saw the landlord standing at the door, looking impatient and vicious, I nodded: "Two more days, I will definitely raise the money." ”

The landlord said: "It's been a week, and just tonight, you're either going to move out or pay the rent." There are two agents who offer high prices. ”

The rent is in arrears, the water and electricity bills are also in arrears, and the only thing left on me is the ten dollars I just paid in the restaurant, which is really exhausted.

No matter what I said, I almost lost all the smiling faces in my life, and the landlord didn't leave, just moved a bench and sat it in front of the house.

I restrained the smile on my face: "I'll go in and get the money, you wait outside and don't come in." ”

Inside, I took out the rat exterminator I had bought from the vendor downstairs the other day, opened the paper bag, and reflected the moonlight spilling in from the windowsill, and the white powder in it glowed with an eerie afterglow.

I picked up the paper bag, first the tips of my fingers were shaking, then my whole palm was shaking, and finally my whole arm was shaking, and then, the next second, I threw the paper bag into the garbage basket and closed my eyes deeply.

If you have already died once, you will never want to die a second time.

In the three months of living alone, I gradually understood that a person will not be rewarded if he pays, and I have also begun to fear death, poverty, and people's despises.

And if you want people to look up, you should first straighten your waist and be a man.

Outside, there was a bang on the wooden door, and the landlord scolded me.

The knocking on the door became a kicking sound, and I heard someone outside slamming the door with a hammer.

At this time, I was very calm, and poured out all the books in my school bag, tearing them up one by one as if to vent my anger, and suddenly, out of the corner of my eye, I saw a white hard card on the ground.

I picked it up and looked at it, and it read: Midsummer Light Year, Lin Xiaoxiao, mobile phone number: 150xxxxxxxxx.

I picked up my phone with trembling fingers and dialed this mobile phone number starting with 150, which was connected, it was a particularly charming voice, just listening to the voice, I could imagine the woman wearing heavy makeup and sexy clothes, her eyes were like silk, and the air was filled with deafening music.

"Hey, I'm Xiao Xiao. ”

I was silent for three seconds: "...... Sister Xiao Xiao, I am Jiayin, Du Jiayin. ”

After a long, long time, I wondered if I was really desperate at that time, and if I had gone the other way, would I not have had to make such a big detour.

In short, there is no dead end.

However, there are really no shortcuts to the road of life.