Opening the bedroom door, Lu Jingzhong gently put me on the bed and took off my coat for me. Squatted down and pressed his face against my bulging lower abdomen, his long arms around my waist.

I know that he will suffer more now than I do.

Erase all traces of his existence, and then live in another identity, those former beauty and glory have been determined by the coffin, leaving only the name after death, I don't know what kind of mentality Lu Jingzhong made such a choice for me, but he still did it.

I stroked his cheek: "Mao Mao." I miss you. ”

"I miss you too. ”

Lu Jingzhong's eyes are very dark, I used to see a comment in the magazine, that is, to comment on the popular male star, who is the best looking in which part, I remember, the magazine said that Lu Jingzhong's eyes are the most tasteful, and the eye sockets are slightly sunken, which highlights the three-dimensional sense of the eye sockets and eyebrow bones, and the eyes are particularly deep, and I always feel as if there is a steady force to attract people.

I stared at Lu Jing for a long time, and he suddenly leaned over and kissed me directly on the lips, this kiss seemed to be suppressed and eager, and his hand naturally fell on my chest. With a little bit of strength to knead, a sigh unconsciously overflowed from between my lips and teeth, I couldn't help but blush my cheeks, the red tide under Lu Jingzhong's eyes had faded a little, and he held my hand.

I asked, "Do this...... Do you regret it?"

Lu Jingzhong looked good when he laughed. There was a thin wrinkle on the eye: "What do you regret?"

I said, "I regret it...... Quitting showbiz ......"

Lu Jingzhong asked rhetorically: "If it were you, would you regret it?"

I shook my head.

That's my answer, too. ”

Lu Jingzhong lowered his head and kissed me on the lips again, there was a dragonfly kiss that didn't stop there, I was picked up, so I hooked his neck, leaned in and kissed it gently, and then unfortunately, my belly was gently kicked for a whole afternoon. The children in the belly are churning so much.

I frowned slightly, and Lu Jingzhong asked, "What's wrong?"

I took his hand and put it on my stomach: "The kid kicked me." ”

Maybe it's really a wonder of blood relationship, after Lu Jingzhong's hand was covered, the child who was churning in his stomach gradually quieted down, and I seemed to be able to hear his gradually steady breathing.

If three years ago, when I was pregnant with ice cream and tossed people the most, I could have Lu Jingzhong by my side, wouldn't it be able to soothe my mind strangely?

When I think of ice cream, my heart hurts dullly.

I glanced at Lu Jingzhong's eyebrows, I don't know what the ice cream looks like now, whether it will look a little similar to Lu Jingzhong.

When it quieted down, Lu Jingzhong also felt that I was tired, so he hugged me and went to bathe me, and I directly blocked his hand: "Don't take the opportunity to play hooligan." ”

Lu Jing pinched my face heavily: "It seems that you have strength, don't you?"

After making trouble for a while, I still asked Lu Jingzhong to carry me to the bathroom to take a shower. Since the day I knew that I was pregnant, the family had already laid out a non-slip carpet, and when I took off my clothes, I wanted Lu Jingzhong to go out, and he looked at me with a smile in his eyes: "Do you want me to help you take it off?"

I waved my pink fist: "Lu Maomao, when did you become so colorful?"

I felt embarrassed, Lu Jingzhong laughed at me twice, and still got out of the bathroom.

I stepped into the bathtub, the water lapped my lower abdomen, and my heart immediately relaxed, stroking my stomach: "Baby, mom finally got your dad back, are you happy?"

At this moment, I suddenly decided that the child in my womb was called Baobao, whether it was a boy or a girl.

It may be that I suffered too much when I was pregnant with ice cream for the first time, from early morning sickness to later puffiness, no matter which stage seems to be infinitely extended, and this child, until I found him at six weeks, he has been in a quiet way, no matter whether I am emotionally up and down, or running around, he has never brought me half of the distress, until now, more than six months, still so quiet.

Thinking about it like this, I was a little sleepy, and the heat was smoking, and when I slid down, I choked on the water.

I don't know when Lu Jingzhong came in, so he directly hugged me out of the bathtub: "I can choke on water in the bathtub at my house." ”

Looking at the dark and heavy gaze of Shanglu Jingzhong, my ethereal consciousness suddenly sobered up, I am naked now, and suddenly my ears were hot, and I said, "Bath towel, take a bath towel." ”

"It's been so long, and you're still shy?"

I said, "I'm not shy, I'm afraid you're plotting against you!"

He took a towel and wiped it on my stomach: "I don't dare, you have a belly, don't worry." ”

Lu Jingzhong directly took a towel to help me wipe my body, the dry towel slid over my body, absorbing excess water, I don't know if it was intentional, the towel was in a circle on my chest for a longer time, Lu Jingzhong also measured it with his fingers with great interest: "It looks like a bigger cup." ”

I directly took the towel and threw it in his face: "You, really, enough!"

Lu Jingzhong smiled, pulled a wide bath towel to wrap me, and hugged me out.

Facing me naked, Lu Jingzhong is obviously not Yanagishita Hui, kissing and kissing on the bed is emotional, plus Xiao Biesheng is newly married, it is inseparable for a while, Lu Jingzhong is simply a copy of "love is restraint", kissing and paying attention to the small one in my belly, I can't press it, I must also follow it.

I thought about it and laughed out loud.

Lu Jingzhong pinched the flesh on my waist and squinted: "What are you laughing at?"

I pursed my lips: "Didn't smile." ”

I opened my eyes and said nonsense in exchange for punishment, that is, Lu Jingzhong tossed me hard, I don't know why, since I was pregnant, my weight has skyrocketed, and I have grown a lot of flesh on my body, but this layer of meat has grown more sensitive, Lu Jingzhong picked my sensitive point, and made me panting in a few clicks, pushing his head and saying, "Don't ......"

Lu Jingzhong's kiss went all the way down from my collarbone, kissing my now bulging belly like a leather ball, and then continued downward.

I grabbed his hand: "No......"

It's just that Lu Jingzhong didn't listen to me, he leaned down directly, and when I could only see the top of his black hair, I subconsciously grabbed the sheets under him.

I have never had this kind of experience at all, but I know after experiencing it myself, my mind first went blank for a moment, and then exploded a bright firework, colorful, and the whole world was silent, except for a violent gasp, like a fish suddenly out of the water. Indulgence.

Lu Jingzhong leaned over, helped me remove the sweat-soaked hair on my face, and kissed my lips again.

I turned my face to the side: "Go rinse your mouth." ”

Lu Jing pinched my nose heavily: "I don't dislike it, you still dislike it." ”

Afterwards, Lu Jingzhong took out a tissue to help me wipe it clean, I was paralyzed and didn't want to move, so I let him help me clean up, and then hugged me sideways, my eyes were bright and I didn't feel sleepy at all, and kissed me again and again.

Now I feel that Lu Jingzhong is like a child who has not grown up, and he always can't eat.

Lu Jingzhong thinks that my analogy is particularly appropriate, now when I am pregnant, I can't really enjoy it when I do it, and I really don't eat enough.

Me: "......"

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In the past two days at home, Lu Jingzhong was cooking in full responsibility, I moved a chair, sat at the kitchen door, watched Lu Jingzhong tinkling in the kitchen, and smiled from ear to ear when he looked in a hurry.

"There is less water in the rice...... The oil is hot! Put the green onion, ginger and garlic first...... Don't put dried shrimp, I can't get used to the fishy smell of seafood......"

I finally became a commanding person, and finally seized the opportunity.

Whether it's when I'm cooking or eating, I talk a lot, as if Xue'er is possessed by a sudden person, and as soon as I eat, it becomes a chatter, and things that can't be beaten by eight poles can be pulled together, but Lu Jingzhong has been listening to me carefully, and he has eaten a lot.

I said, "You haven't eaten in a few days?"

Lu Jingzhong said: "I did it under the guidance of my wife, of course, I have to cheer up." ”

I pouted: "It's better to say that you are holding your own person...... but the taste is really ...... It's barely edible.

After eating, I nestled on the sofa, watching Lu Jingzhong's busy figure back and forth from the dining room to the kitchen, I couldn't help but smile, what I have always longed for is such a quiet and quiet atmosphere, with someone who loves me by my side, never abandoned.

Lu Jingzhong brushed the bowl and pulled me out for a walk.

Now walking on the street, I don't have to worry about being chased by paparazzi reporters, I don't need to disguise, I can hold my hand openly, I can kiss as if no one is around, and I don't have to be afraid of being photographed, just like a small couple in an ordinary family.

However, I suddenly remembered that snowy night four years ago, through a thin crack in the door filled with lights, Vivi said, Have you forgotten? Don't you want to get back what belongs to you? Do you want to give up halfway?

At that time, I saw Lu Jingzhong's raised arm, covering his face.

I lowered my head and watched as Lu Jingzhong held my clear hand bones.

Lu Jingzhong suddenly stretched out his arm to wrap his arms around my waist and scratched my nose: "What do you want?"

I grinned, "You don't know how easy it is for pregnant women to think wildly." ”

Lu Jingzhong shrugged his shoulders: "I know, I'm afraid of your prenatal syndrome, so you see that I am cautious now." ”

I pinched Lu Jingzhong: "You are just having prenatal syndrome, and your whole family has prenatal syndrome." ”

Lu Jingzhong took my hand in the palm of his hand: "You are the only one in my family." ”

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When I got home at night, as soon as I entered the door, I heard my mobile phone ringing desperately, and when I got it in the bedroom, I saw that it was my mother's phone, and I hurriedly pressed the answer button.

Because since I left home, my mother basically hasn't called me, as long as it's a call, it must be about ice cream, and now it's approaching the New Year, I'm really afraid that something will happen, but at the same time as I press the answer button, a bad premonition has surged up in my heart.

Sure enough, as soon as the other person on the phone opened his mouth, he said, "Aren't you on vacation now? ”

I asked, "What's wrong?"

My mother said, "Your cousin and aunt are divorced, so they brought ice cream to the house......" There was a pause on the other end of the phone, "I have had a fever since last night......

When I heard this, I was anxious: "Did you go to the hospital?!"

My mother said, "I looked at the clinic at the corner of the street and got a fever injection......

"Now it's all now, you still care about that little money?! Take the child to the big hospital to see it! Didn't I just give you money a few days ago?!"

My mother seemed to be anxious when I yelled at her, and her voice was not small, and she yelled: "What qualifications do you have to quarrel with me here! You throw a child you don't know who you don't know with home for three years, and you don't worry about it, so what do I have to worry about? Just send some money to the house? I don't think you will come back to see him when he dies! With you being a mother like this?!"

In this way, it was like a nail, piercing into the softest part of my heart.

I think the thing I'm most sorry for in my life is ice cream.

I was about to speak, the mobile phone in my ear was suddenly taken away, and when I turned my head, I saw that Lu Jingzhong had taken the mobile phone, looking at me with heavy eyes.

I forgot that he was still following him, and I don't know how much he heard what he had just said.

Lu Jingzhong put the phone to his ear: "Hello, I'm Jiayin's husband...... Yes, Chen Nuolin's husband. ”

When I heard Lu Jingzhong say this, the tears in my eyes fell, and my eyes blurred in an instant, and I could only see Lu Jingzhong's lips open and close, but I couldn't hear any sound.

Until Lu Jingzhong hung up the phone and looked at me with gloomy eyes.

I know that on the phone, my mother must have told Lu Jingzhong everything about the matter, I had a child, and this child was three years ago, Lu Jingzhong had it before he left, but at that time I was careless and didn't notice it, and I didn't find out until I was three months old, and then I made up my mind to give birth to him.

But, as my mother said, why give birth to him if she didn't want to raise him......

Lu Jingzhong must have known that the child was his.

Lu Jing looked at me again for a while, then suddenly stretched out his arm and hugged me in his arms, and let out a long sigh in my ear: "Jiayin...... What am I going to do with you......"

I wiped all my tears from his coat and said softly, "I'm sorry." ”

This night must be a sleepless night.

Because I learned the news that Ice Cream was sick, my heart was like a big stone blocked, but now the ticket to go home is not easy to buy.

However, Lu Jingzhong knew the people of the airline and got two tickets for tomorrow morning.

I lay on the bed, looking at the ceiling with my eyes open, Lu Jingzhong clasped my fingers, and in the quiet of the night, I could hear his shallow breathing.

"Maomao. ”

After a long time, Lu Jingzhong said "um".

"I'm not a good mother...... I haven't looked back for three years, because I'm afraid that once I go back to see it, I won't be able to force myself to leave...... I don't even know what the ice cream looks like now, and I didn't ask my mom to take a picture and send it over...... I hate myself to death now......"

I grabbed Lu Jingzhong's arm, and through my pajamas, I felt that my nails must have touched the flesh on Lu Jingzhong's arm, and it hurt raw.

Lu Jingzhong turned to the side and patted me on the back: "Go back this time and bring back the ice cream." ”

One night was groggy, on the plane to make up for a while, and then to the provincial capital and then transferred to the high-speed rail, from the high-speed rail station, to the hometown of X County, three years apart, oh, it should be X City, has been promoted from the county seat to the county-level city, the asphalt road in front of the high-speed rail station is straight, the bright sun is a white light in front of the people, enough to see that I left in the past few years, rapid development.

I thought I couldn't remember the way home, but when the taxi driver asked me for my address, I blurted it out.

Looking at the scenery speeding by outside the car window, I remembered that three years ago, I took the ice cream that had just been out for less than a month, took the train from Yangcheng back to X County, and carried the child to my mother, and my mother took the car overnight and sent it to my aunt's house, to raise my cousin who wanted to have a child but never got pregnant.

At that time, I didn't know what I thought, why I had so much courage, I took a leave of absence from school alone, stayed at home alone and waited until I gave birth, went into the operating room alone, and returned home alone with the child, and I was the only one with no one else to accompany me.

Even when I was wheeled into the operating room, the nurse asked me, "Is your boyfriend really not coming?"

But now that I think about it, the decision at that time should have been for Lu Jingzhong.

At that time, I couldn't forget him in my heart, thinking about him in my heart, and wanted to wait for him to come back from the United States, but fortunately, I had a bargaining chip in my hand and a chance to save Lu Jingzhong.

Obviously, it was Lu Jingzhong who threw me away at that time, but I still couldn't give up.

Thinking about it, it's already here.

Lu Jingzhong pulled me out of the car, I looked at the yard in front of me, there was no difference from three years ago, taking advantage of the sunny weather, a few aunts were drying quilts in the yard, telling each other that the parents were short, it coincided with the Chinese New Year, and there were people who were doing New Year's goods, and when they saw me and Lu Jingzhong coming in from the door, they just glanced twice, and then turned around and continued.

"Did you see a child brought back by the old Chen family last night?"

"I said, I cried all night, and I was restless. ”

"I think I'm only two or three years old, I don't know if it's an illegitimate child outside......"

As I listened, I quickened my pace.

The building was still the same damp and musty smell, and I couldn't help but sneeze as soon as I entered, and Lu Jingzhong took my hand and walked in front of me.

Passing through a window in the stairway, the sunlight that came in was dancing with fine dust.

Lu Jingzhong should have come to my parents' house at the beginning, and it was at that time that I was rescued when I swallowed a whole bottle of sleeping pills from him, but I didn't have any consciousness at the time, I only remember that someone was talking vaguely.

The door of the house was not locked, and I heard the cry of the child far away, and I didn't even knock on the door, I just pushed the door open and walked in.

The furnishings of the house are still the same as three years ago, there is a folding sofa bed in front of a window, and when I pushed the door in, I saw my mother sitting on this bed, shaking her legs and coaxing a small child.

This little boy is ...... Ice cream.

It can be seen that the child's skin is very delicate and very white, but because of the fever, a small face is red, and there are tears in the eyes, and when he heard someone coming in, his eyes turned around, and he glanced this way, his nose was red, the hair on his head was wet into locks, and the green tendons on his crying forehead burst out.

I shuddered and walked straight over, because I had a big belly and couldn't squat, so I looked down at the little boy in my mother's arms.

My mom wasn't too surprised by my big belly, maybe Lu Jingzhong had already told my mom on the phone last night, she squeezed the ice cream hand and pointed at me: "This is your mom." ”

Ice cream suddenly stopped crying and stared at me with wide eyes.

My mom said, "Ice cream, call someone quickly." ”

Ice cream suddenly turned around and burrowed into my mother's arms, looking away from me.

I felt uncomfortable for a while, my steps were a little unsteady, and I was shaky, and Lu Jingzhong came over behind me, held my waist, and used a little force in the palm of my hand, bringing me the strength of stability.

My mother smiled and explained, "At this time, the child recognized his life, and you just saw him, so it will be fine slowly." ”

Lu Jingzhong asked, "Have you been to the hospital?"

As he spoke, he leaned over and touched the forehead of the ice cream, frowning: "I'm still feverish." ”

My mother said: "The child has been crying, and he didn't burn yesterday after taking the fever injection, but today who knows that he has a fever again......"

As soon as I heard this, I became anxious: "Didn't you say that you won't be allowed to go to those small clinics?"

My mother opened her mouth and didn't say anything in the end, probably because Lu Jingzhong's aura standing next to me was too strong, otherwise with her attitude towards me, it would be absolutely impossible to endure it like this, and if she had something to say, she would quarrel directly.

Ice cream is really scared of life, but my mother's legs and feet are not good, and her legs hurt after holding him for a long time, so I asked Lu Jingzhong to hug him, he dragged my mother's collar to death, and called "Grandma ......" pitifully

I said, "Well, let Daddy hug us, let's go to the hospital." ”

But the ice cream was still shedding tears, a little face flushed with abnormal flushing, I really couldn't listen to it, but the hospital must be going, so I left Lu Jingzhong to hug the ice cream and simply walked out.

I feel that I am really incompetent as a mother, and now the children don't recognize me.

However, after a while, Lu Jingzhong had already hugged the ice cream out, and he was obviously holding a child for the first time, and his movements were a little stiff.

My mother followed: "If there is something to call, I want to go to the factory." ”

Coming down from upstairs, Ice Cream cried for a while and couldn't see my mother, the crying was quieter, and I took a tissue and wiped his eyes.

I went to the hospital to hang up an emergency room, but the doctor checked that it was going to have chickenpox, and prescribed some medicine to take, and told chickenpox not to scratch it, it would be contagious.

I have never had chickenpox since I was a child, and the doctor said, "Although adults have a certain immunity, you should be careful if you are pregnant." ”

I looked at Lu Jingzhong, and Lu Jingzhong said, "I had chickenpox when I was five years old. ”

The implication, of course, is that I don't have to worry too much, he is there for everything.

Along the way, Lu Jingzhong said very little, I looked sideways at his face, the edges and corners of his face seemed to be sharper because of the baptism of wind and snow, and a pair of black eyes seemed to be soaked in ice and snow as clear.