He's not afraid, I'm afraid of anything

Originally, I asked Li Zhengke to sleep in the guest room, but he had to sleep with me in the master bedroom. A man struggled to bring up the folding bed downstairs and put it next to the wall of the master bedroom, and spread a blanket and quilt on it: "Just sleep here!"

I looked at Li Zhengke's sunny smiling face, my eyes were a little sour, and I rubbed my eyes.

Three years ago, when I went to work as a piano tutor for Li Zhengke, I definitely didn't think that at this time, when I was the only one left, this person I regarded as my younger brother would be by my side.

It was really because of the company, and my heart gradually calmed down, and I fell asleep deeply.

Next. I went to the hospital to see Lu Gaofeng, Lu Gaofeng's face was very gray, even a little bleak, compared to a while ago, his spirit looked even worse, Lu's mother was sitting beside her, holding a bowl of soup, putting it to her mouth to blow, hearing the sound of me coming in, put down the bowl in her hand.

Mother Lu smiled at me and pushed Lu Gaofeng: "Old Lu, Jiayin is here." ”

Lu Gaofeng, who was originally recuperating with his eyes closed, opened his eyes, and his eyes were full of chaotic gray, and he beckoned me to sit down.

I put the nutrition I bought on the table. Also sat down.

I got in touch with the Lu family because of Lu Jingzhong, and now, after Lu Jingzhong leaves, I should also come and take a look and draw a happy end.

Merely. I have some doubts in my heart that I haven't seen the official Mrs. Lu yet, and these days, all of them are accompanied by Lu Jingzhong's mother here.

After all, in the face of the elders, I couldn't let go of it, and after saying a few words stiffly, I wanted to get up and say goodbye, but Mother Lu came out, saying that she was going to send me, and I could see it. She wanted to say something to me.

The door of the ward closed behind me, and Mother Lu walked slowly with me in the corridor and asked me, "When is the due date?"

I said, "April 21st." ”

Mother Lu sighed: "You...... If you don't want to raise the child after birth, then give it to me, after all, you are only in your twenties, and you are still young, and I have something to do in the countryside alone," Speaking of this, she suddenly pursed her lips, "As long as you are not afraid that I, an old lady, will not be able to take care of the child." ”

I grasped the important words in these words: "Auntie, you are going to the country?"

Lu's mother said: "My connection with the Lu family is Lu Jingzhong, my son, but now that my son is gone, I have no reason to stay." ”

"Is it just for Lu Maomao?"

When this sentence was blurted out, even I was stunned for a moment, and suddenly I was a little stunned: "I'm sorry." I didn't think ......"

Mother Lu waved her hand, and when she said the words, she had become firm: "Well, it's for my son, just for my son." ”

However, to my ears, this sentence seems to be a firmness that can be emphasized in order to strengthen myself, I glanced at Lu's mother, and her eyes showed deep sorrow.

When I got downstairs, I walked towards the parking garage, and when I was far away, I saw Li Zhengke smoking in the car, and the smoke was swirling, as if he was bothered by something, frowning.

I couldn't help but pause, walked over quickly, and snatched his cigarette with his hand, and he suddenly came back to his senses: "Sister, are you out?"

"When did you learn to smoke?" I pinched out my cigarette and threw it into the trash can, looking up at Li Zhengke.

Li Zhengke smiled very brightly, as if the person who was frowning and meditating on the car just now was not him, "Last semester, sometimes the pressure of studying was too great, so I learned to smoke ......"

I laughed, "Too much pressure to study?"

Li Zhengke nodded: "Yes, but I promise, it will be after my eighteenth birthday." "Longitudinal order pill garbage.

In the past year, Li Zhengke's size has surged a lot, and now he is 1.8 meters, I can't wear high heels when I'm pregnant, I need to look up at him, and his face is a lot quieter, obviously his tone of voice is no different from before, but I always feel that there seems to be something hidden in his eyes, which is frozen.

I couldn't help asking, "Zhengke, are you hiding something from me?"

Li Zhengke's hand to open the car door for me paused, but he looked down at the ground, I didn't see his expression, he smiled: "Sister, I have a lot of things to hide from you, which one do you want to hear first? A few days ago, a little girl confessed to me, does it count." ”

Listening to Li Zhengke's words, I couldn't help but smile: "Count, tell me whose love letters you have received?"

Li Zhengke really told me a few names, but I didn't know any of them, he stepped on the accelerator, hit the steering wheel and got on the road, and then asked me: "Sister, where do you want to eat?"

It seems that since he accompanied me to a seaside search and rescue boat, Li Zhengke has changed a lot, he basically didn't call me "sister" before, and since he knew my relationship with Lu Jingzhong, he basically didn't contact me for anything, even if he came to find me, he was even looking for his "heavy brother". But now, almost every sentence calls me "sister", as if it is deliberately emphasizing something.

I shook my head violently, as if to chase away the flies in front of me, "Let's go to the Imperial Tower." ”

The reason why I chose to stay in Yumanlou is that Lu Jingzhong once brought me here, saying that the food here is very clean and tastes very good to my taste.

Li Zhengke said: "Sister, you often come to Yumanlou for dinner?"

I said, "Your brother has brought me here twice." ”

It's just that I didn't expect to come here and meet Zheng Rao here.

Originally, Li Zhengke said that he wanted a private room, but I felt that the box was too boring, so I chose to sit in the hall, there were only two of us, I took the menu and only ordered three dishes and one soup, Li Zhengke grabbed the menu and added three more dishes very generously.

I said, "We can't finish ordering so much." ”

Li Zhengke said: "Now we should be three and a half people, plus one in your belly, I am now in puberty, and I can eat more than one and a half people." ”

I couldn't laugh or cry.

While I was eating, I saw two people coming out of the door.

The person on the left is Zheng Rao, I can see it at a glance, but the person on her right is not Rong Ling.

Zheng Rao's eyes looked over here, I hurriedly moved a seat inside, and Li Zhengke asked, "What's wrong?"

I waved my hand: "Hide from people." ”

In order to cooperate with me, Li Zhengke sat out and completely blocked me, with my angle, I could just see Zheng Rao, but she couldn't see me.

Zheng Rao glanced at me twice, then turned her head to talk to the man next to her again.

The man next to him looked familiar, wearing a black coat, and the two of them entered the box as they spoke.

I couldn't help muttering: "Who is Zheng Rao and that person......

"The chairman of a new food company," Li Zhengke said, "I met my dad when I went to my father's company a few days ago, and I asked two questions. ”

I had some scruples in my heart, so I asked, "Where?"

Li Zhengke shook his head: "I don't know, I'll help you ask." ”

I always feel that Zheng Rao is a time bomb here, although in the past six months, she has been very good to me, accompanying me to buy clothes, visiting pregnancy and baby stores, and even caring for me, better than my best friend, but I always feel that she is really not as kind as she seems on the surface, sometimes she has no time to hide in her eyes, I can also see a feeling similar to jealousy.

In fact, before Zheng Rao and Rong Ling's wedding, I originally wanted to tell Rong Ling about Zheng Rao's previous affairs, and by the way, ask Rong Ling what he thinks of Zheng Rao, after all, so many years have passed, who can guarantee that he really has the same original intention. But why didn't I call to tell Rong Ling about Zheng Rao in Yunnan?

It's because of the words that Zheng Rao said to me in the café, the words she cried out, who doesn't yearn for a love that is at ease with the situation and finally settles?

Thinking a little distracted for a while, Li Zhengke tapped my plate with chopsticks: "Sister, eat quickly." ”

I snapped back to my senses, "I'm going to the bathroom." ”

When Lu Jingzhong was there before, I wasn't worried about what Zheng Rao would do to me, because I believed that Lu Jingzhong would give me a sense of security, and he would protect me, but now, when Lu Jingzhong is not by my side, I have to be able to protect me and the child in my belly.

However, unexpectedly, I pushed open the door of the bathroom directly and bumped into Zheng Rao, and I didn't even have a time to dodge, and suddenly my heart was beating very hard.

Zheng Rao was also stunned when she saw me, but she recovered faster than me, and said one step ahead of me: "Jiayin, you are also here for dinner?"

After a while, I had regained my composure and said, "Yes, Li Zhengke brought me here to eat, saying that the food here is clean and delicious." ”

"Li Zhengke?" Zheng Ran narrowed his eyes, "That youngest son of the Li family?"

I nodded: "Yes, I have known him since I was a freshman, and I guess I am half a younger brother." ”

The reason why I want to get involved with Li Zhengke is because the Li family is also a big family in City C, even if there is no Lu Jingzhong now, it can make Zheng Rao jealous of me.

I asked, "Who are you from?"

Zheng Rao said: "With Rong Ling, come here to eat." ”

Obviously, I saw it just now, that man was definitely not Rong Ling, I smiled, "Is it just the two of you?" Then you might as well come and sit with me, and the four of you will share the table." ”

"I ...... There are others," Zheng Rao said, "who have made an appointment to discuss business." ”

"Then don't bother. ”

The two of us walked out of the bathroom together, and at the table that passed me, Zheng Rao's eyes flashed: "You also have other guests......

I was slightly stunned, looked at the table, and sure enough, there were two more figures, one big and one small, at the table, but I can't explain why Pei Sicheng and his son were at my table now, and now it seems that Li Zhengke is playing with that kid.

Li Zhengke saw me first and beckoned to me: "Sister!"

Zheng Rao's eyes flashed: "Then I'll go back to the box first, and I'll contact you when I have time." ”

I nodded.

It turned out that Pei Sicheng was the owner of this Yumanlou, and he came to inspect it with his son today.

Pei Haoyu suddenly pouted, muttered something dissatisfied, I didn't hear it clearly, Pei Sicheng's face was a little heavy, but there was still a smile on the corner of his mouth, and he asked me very politely about my plans to give birth to a child.

To be honest, I don't know Pei Sicheng well, I only met Zheng Rao's wedding once, and I know that he is a brother with Lu Jingzhong's eldest brother Pei Yuming, and I also know from other people's mouths and even on the Internet that the Pei family is a rare big family that has been involved in military, politics and business, so when Pei Sicheng asked me this question, I didn't expect it at all.

But then I figured it out, maybe it was just based on my friends and buddies who asked, so I smiled: "I don't have any plans yet, I'm a lazy person, what I'm best at is to take one step at a time, and after Lu Jingzhong left, I didn't have any ideas." ”

This is my big truth, all my previous plans were all made around the situation of Lu Jingzhong, but now, Lu Jingzhong is really gone, and I have no idea what my future plans will be.

Pei Sicheng smiled: "How do you know that you don't have Lu Jingzhong in your future?"

I was stunned.

Pei Si continued: "Lu Jingzhong is gone, but Lu Xiaowu is still in your heart." ”

I didn't pay attention to the meaning of Pei Sicheng's words for a while, and Pei Sicheng had already changed the subject and said, "Are you studying at University A? Do you know a student from the Department of Literature?"

I said, "It's a coincidence, I have two roommates in my dorm who are from the literature department, are you looking for someone?"

Pei Sicheng smiled: "Yes, can you give me your roommate's phone." ”

I thought that Sangsang's family was not from City C, so I gave Xue'er's phone number to Pei Sicheng and asked casually, "What's the matter?"

After saying this, I almost bit my tongue, why did I gossip more and more after I got pregnant, this kind of thing can be asked, I really want to bite my tongue.

However, Pei Sicheng didn't care, but instead pointed to Pei Haoyu, who was shaving off the fish bones with difficulty: "About my son." ”

I instantly thought of a sentence - the little tadpole is looking for its mother.

Because there is a little child around me when eating, it is not so dull when eating, children look really cute, especially four or five-year-old children, it is a fun year, I like to pretend to be a little adult, I looked at Pei Haoyu, I thought of my own ice cream, thinking that when I waited until the New Year, the first thing was to go back to pick up the ice cream, and by the way, look at Qiao Chu.

Coming out of Yumanlou, Li Zhengke was driving, and his mobile phone rang suddenly.

He turned sideways: "Sister, in my pocket, help me take it out." ”

I put my hand in his coat pocket, and in addition to a mobile phone, my fingers also found a hard thing, and I took it out, and when I saw it, it was a diamond ring.

Li Zhengke's expression suddenly became a little unnatural, and he said, "This is ...... My sister bought this dress for me, and I guess she forgot it. ”

"Oh. I didn't doubt it, glanced at the word "Dad" on the phone screen, and helped him connect the phone and put it in his ear.

"You'll be right back for me now!"

In the microphone, Li Zhengke's father seemed to be losing his temper, and his voice was angry, even if I was next to him, the voice in the microphone could be heard clearly, so he moved the microphone away from Li Zhengke's ears a little.

Li Zhengke looked unhurried: "Well, I know." ”

Li Zhengke's father on the other end of the phone said: "Go directly to the Municipal People's Hospital!"

Then, the phone snapped and hung up, and I hung up the phone with a busy tone, and asked a little anxiously, "Who is sick?"

Li Zhengke said: "No, my parents are very good. ”

I knew that this was their family matter, and I didn't want to interject, so I said, "Just go to the intersection in front and drop me off, and I'll take a taxi back by myself." ”

Li Zhengke insisted on sending me back, but he didn't have the same enthusiasm as when he came, and he deliberately said something a little angry and depressed.

Before getting out of the car, I asked him again: "Do you really want me to go?"

Li Zhengke suddenly leaned over and hugged me: "It's okay, sister, I definitely don't need you to go, I'll come to see you tomorrow." ”

…………

When there were still three days before the Spring Festival, the Lu family held a low-key funeral in the cemetery in the western suburbs.

Because the funeral for the New Year is really unlucky, only a few people who know each other have followed, but it really can't be delayed for the New Year, and they always have to be buried in the ground.

In fact, Lu Jingzhong's body was not found at all, so when Gao Ming found me and asked me to choose a set of clothes before Lu Jingzhong's death, I faced a full men's wardrobe and took out a black casual dress from the innermost.

I only remember that this black casual outfit was worn by Lu Jingzhong when he met him for the first time, and the whole person looked like a pine tree, with a handsome figure.

Then I took out one of my red skirts, I remember this skirt clearly, it was when I first came to C City, Lu Jingzhong pulled me to the mall to buy it, it was the first dress in my life that cost more than 1,000 yuan.

When Gao Ming saw me give him the skirt, he was really stunned for a moment and looked at me: "...... are you?"

I said, "Put my skirt with his clothes." ”

Gao Ming said: "This is unlucky. ”

I smiled: "He's not afraid, I'm afraid of anything." ”

Gao Ming listened to my words, looked at me several times, and finally went out without saying a word.

After he went out, I sat on the bed and was stunned for a long time, and I didn't know what I thought, why did I suddenly have the idea that Lu Jingzhong was not actually dead.

First of all, it is because of Gao Ming, it stands to reason that Gao Ming is Lu Jingzhong's assistant, even if he is busy, he should go to the seaside to search and rescue the ship, but the first time he learned about the crash, he was anxious about the affairs of the Lu family, and even said something like "How can you let him do things with peace of mind".

The second is the performance of Lu Jingzhong's second brother Zhu Qihong, who was on the beach at that time, which was too quiet, even more calm than when he first met me. If it wasn't too cold-blooded, it was definitely him who knew that Lu Jingzhong was not dead. However, it may also be that I have overthought myself and made a mistake in judgment.

The third is that when I was having dinner at Yumanlou at noon yesterday, I met Pei Sicheng, and Pei Sicheng's sentence "Lu Jingzhong is gone, but Lu Xiaowu is still in your heart" completely woke me up.

Maybe, I'm making an analogy, maybe, Lu Jingzhong just wants to use this accident to fake a scene, to forge an illusion that Lu Jingzhong is no longer there, then the so-called second young master of the Lu family does not exist, and the vi who must show affection to Lan Xuan in public does not exist, just an ordinary Lu Xiaowu, who can pull me on the street......

When I came up with this thought, I was terrified.

Could it be that I am really stunned, why do I have such a weird thought, I went to the bathroom to wash my hands, looked up in the mirror, and suddenly felt that Lu Jingzhong was standing behind me, and his breath was still lingering around me.

I'm really thinking too much about it.

Before going to the funeral, I changed into a black dress, which was the same dress I tried in the fitting room when I went to the mall with Zheng Rao that day, and it was in that fitting room that I heard the bad news.

In this dress, I pinned a small white flower on my head and put a black cashmere coat over it.

Gao Ming's car was parked downstairs.

Even if it is approaching the Chinese New Year, there are a lot of media reporters waiting outside the church, when I got out of the car, I happened to meet Lan Xuan, Lan Xuan's face is also very white, and she looks thinner, and she has a pair of big eyes that are black and pitch, as if they are two whirlpools, and she stopped at the door of the church and waited for me before walking in hand in hand.

The funeral was carried out according to the general process, but when the relatives bowed to the coffin, I also walked over, raised my eyes to see Lu Gaofeng, and was helping Lu's mother to prevent her from falling down in good spirits.

The moment I bowed my head, the tears I had been holding back flowed down and fell to the floor with a tick, and my heart was completely empty at that moment, as if it had been emptied in an instant, blowing a leisurely wind through the hall.

After the funeral, Gao Ming drove me away from taking me home, but drove down the road.

I look at the scenery outside the car window that has been thrown behind me all at once, connecting into a streamline, speeding on such a highway, I always have a feeling of walking on the road of life, there is no end, there is no way back.

After driving for a long time, I made the transition from the city to the urban-rural junction and then to the township.

Gao Ming stopped the car and told me to get out of the car.

I looked at an apartment building outside and suddenly felt familiar.

Gao Ming said, "Don't you remember? You should have been here." ”

Yes, I've been here.

At that time, when I opened the door, the living room gave people the illusion of being ransacked, and there were six bedrooms near it, and in this house, I met Zhu Qihong, Li Yu, and Liang Yi again.

Gao Ming said: "VI is not dead. ”

Hearing this, my heart didn't make too big waves, I just stared at Gao Ming.

Gao Ming smiled: "You must have guessed, right, at that time it was indeed the flight that was bought, but when he arrived at the airport, he found that he forgot the most important thing in the hotel, so he returned to the hotel, and it took a lot of work on the way, so he missed the flight, so he had to take the next flight, and when he was at the airport, he heard that the plane crashed and fell into the sea." ”

"You will know what happened later, he pretended that he was still on that flight," Gao Ming said, "I didn't understand it too much at first, but then those actions told me that he wanted to correct your name, for the follow-up things of the Lu family, and for Lan Xuan...... In the future, there will be no such person as vi, and there will be no such person as the second young man of the Lu family, only Lu Jingzhong, only Lu Xiaowu. ”

I gasped for breath, as if I had run 800 meters, and my heart was clenched, and I suddenly let go and clenched again.

Gao Ming paused and said: "Actually, at that time, I heard him say that he forgot the most important thing, and I originally wanted him to take that flight, and I went back to get it for him." But he said that it was something very important to him and that he had to go back and get it himself. Luckily, otherwise I would have hated myself to death. ”

Gao Ming handed me a key: "This is the key to 511, I won't go up." As he spoke, he opened the door and sat in the cab, then skillfully reversed and left this ordinary residential complex.

I stood in front of the door, holding the key that Gao Ming handed me, and my fingers began to tremble uncontrollably.

I had another feeling that when I opened the door, I could see the person I wanted to see, and this person, right now, was looking at me through the door.

Suddenly, a hand reached out from behind me and covered the back of my hand.

I struggled slightly, and then stopped moving.

Because, I smelled a familiar smell on his body, my back rested against his broad chest, and his palm was on my lower abdomen, and the breath that spewed in my ear became hot.

I looked at the hand that was on my hand, the fingers were slender, the phalanges were distinct, the nails were neatly trimmed, and the palm of his hand had a heart-warming temperature, and with a click, the lock opened.

With a slight strain in his palm, he pulled me closer into the room and closed the door with his backhand.

The face in front of me is a face I haven't seen for ten days, but it has been imprinted in my heart for ten days, and even when I dream back at midnight, I see this face in front of me, and I am heroic.

Lu Jingzhong had a small cyan stubble on his chin, and his eyes were a little sunken, perhaps because of his thinness, the outline of his face was particularly distinct, and the lines were very hard, he looked down at me, pursed his lips, but didn't say a word.

I lifted my palm and stroked his face, down from the brow bone down to the lip flap.

Then, I slapped him mercilessly, and the snap was particularly harsh.

Lu Jingzhong's face turned to the side, and he called me softly: "Jiayin." ”

I restrained the tears in my eyes and took a step back: "Why didn't you tell me? Do you know how many tears you lied to me?!

As I spoke, I finally couldn't hold back my tears, Lu Jingzhong rushed over and hugged me in my arms, I slapped him on the back hard: "You bastard! You won't tell me, I won't say it! Lu Maomao, I thought you really didn't want me anymore, I thought you were going to leave me and the children behind......"

The more I cried, the more painful it became, and in the past few days, I had been holding on to the tears that had not fallen, the moment I saw Lu Jingzhong, the moment I heard his voice, the embankment broke, and I couldn't stop it.

At this time, I realized that my strength was pretended to be seen by outsiders, and in the face of Lu Jingzhong, I really wanted to fall into his arms all at once, I didn't care about anything, he was my God.

I hooked his neck, pulled him down, kissed his lips as if I was angry, with a little emotion, and bit his lower lip fiercely, my teeth opened a little flesh, and instantly my teeth were filled with a sweet smell of blood.

Just as I was about to leave his lips, he grabbed the back of my head, put one hand around my waist, but took the initiative, the tip of his tongue brushed my lips like a small brush, and then carefully poked between my teeth, teasing my tongue, and in an instant, I was a little out of breath.

This is my dead end, even if I have kissed Lu Jingzhong many times, I still can't breathe, every time I need Lu Jingzhong to help me breathe or give me a second to ventilate, this time it's the same.

His lips fell on my crying swollen eyes, on my jaw, on my neck, and he said, "It's me who is not good, it's all my fault, it's me who is wrong, I will never leave ......you in the future."

Maybe it's because I've been standing for a long time, my legs are a little numb, and when my strength is relaxed, I almost didn't stand firmly, Lu Jingzhong supported my waist, and then bent down, and his elbow passed through the crook of my knee, and when he picked me up, I was startled, and hurriedly reached out to hook Lu Jingzhong's neck.

"Let me down, I can go myself. ”

I just weighed myself two days ago, and the fetus in my womb is developing so well, one hundred and fifty pounds, and now I look in the mirror, and I really dislike myself.

Lu Jingzhong steadily held my waist upward: "I hold you, you and our children." ”

One hundred and fifty pounds of princess hugs, I leaned my head on Lu Jingzhong's chest, and there were tears on my cheeks after crying just now.

Actually, I didn't blame him at all, as long as he could come back well, even if the tombstone at the funeral was mine, I wouldn't cry.