I went directly from Beijing to Lan Tian's house, which is rural, but not the kind of village that is very old and dilapidated. She also has an older brother, her parents and her brother and sister-in-law, all of whom are workers in nearby factories, and their family conditions are not good, but they are not bad. Her brother is more than ten years older than her and started a family early, so now his parents are not young, and they also take great care of this daughter.

When she was in school, she had more living expenses than me.

Lan Tian has been beautiful since she was a child, and I saw old-fashioned photo frames hanging on the wall in her house, which contained many photos of Lan Tian of various ages. The water is tender and tender, making people want to take it out of it and pinch it.

I don't have so many childhood photos, and the few that I have are also kept by my own mother.

Today, his brother picked me up at the station in the city, and then went directly to her house, and her family took my arrival quite seriously, because she knew that I was best friends with Lan Tian at school.

When their daughter became like this, Lan Tian's parents were distressed, but they had no way to comfort her.

Lan Tian's room, like most ordinary girls' rooms, is not flashy but warm. She sat on the bed, very haggard, obviously sick. And she's a lot thinner than when she walked from school.

When she saw me, her eyes trembled slightly, and she held out the only smile she had, even if she had said hello.

Lan Tian's mother asked me to go in and sit, and after I said hello to my aunt, her mother walked out and closed Lan Tian's door.

I sat on the edge of her bed, tilting my head and smiling at her, and she probably smiled at me too, but it was not easy to distinguish the expression of this skinny little face.

I said, "Tian Tian, your mother said you were sick, why don't you want to go to the hospital?"

Her response was light, "Just take care of it." ”

I just asked, and I said, "Are you scared...... Are you afraid of seeing people?"

She shook her head slightly.

I guess she's either afraid of seeing people, or she doesn't want to see people, she just wants to sit here, do nothing, eat or sleep, and empty herself in a daze. Many people want to do this when they escape from reality, but most people are reluctant to be so cruel to themselves.

Lan Tian may really be a little desireless.

This is where the importance of friends comes in. I used to have a high school classmate who had an awkward quarrel with his family and refused to eat, and the family had nothing to do with him, but then one of his brothers went to the house, patted the table and said, "If you don't eat this meal, you don't recognize me as a brother!"

Obviously, my parents are closer, but many times, my parents are not easy to speak.

I said, "Okay, you get dressed and come out to eat with me, and then I'll accompany you to the hospital." ”

She didn't respond to me, I got up and went straight to open her closet. Lan Tian has a lot of clothes, although they are not particularly valuable, but they are all delicate little clothes.

I pulled out a relatively wide sweater jacket, I remember that the two of us bought one by one at the time, but unfortunately I didn't care about the clothes as much as her, and I threw it away because the pilling was too serious.

Looking for something to wear underneath, I took out my clothes and said, "Just wear this, it's not very cold outside today." ”

My clothes were all put down, Lan Tian still didn't mean to move, I grabbed my clothes to look at her, and said, "Why don't I help you put them on?"

Lan Tian didn't bother me, and obediently put on his own clothes. I took her hand and went out to eat, and it seemed that now she needed courage to even see her own family.

I can't personally understand Lan Tian's feelings, after going through those things, if it were me, what would happen. Even if the surface can be pretended to be light and light, it is probably a pain that cannot be forgotten for many years. Or even a lifetime.

Her mother was a little excited when she saw that I had successfully pulled Lan Tian out, but she couldn't show that she was particularly excited, for fear of stimulating Lan Tian. After the dishes and chopsticks were arranged, he hid out of sight and let Lan Tian and I sit down and concentrate on eating.

But Lan Tian just couldn't eat it, as soon as she stuffed something in her mouth, she wanted to vomit.

After trying to eat several bites, she didn't have anything in her stomach, she was just vomiting sour water. I patted her on the back and saw how hard she vomited, which was very distressing.

Don't eat this meal yet, his brother has already found a car to come over, and I persuaded Lan Tian to go to the hospital with me to see a doctor.

Lan Tian just didn't want to go, she said that she was not sick, I tried it on her forehead, and there was indeed no sign of fever. But after all, everyone is here, she has to give this face, and after repeated persuasion, she pulled Lan Tian out of the house again.

I don't know how long it's been since she's seen the sun.

According to what her brother told me on the road, after Lan Tian came back from school, she was at home and basically never stepped out of the house. It was okay a while ago, I could help her mother do housework or something, but I never said anything about future work, although the family didn't want to raise an old girl, but I didn't dare to force her.

Since this incident, she has become the same again, and suddenly she has a problem with vomiting.

If she went into the room and said a few more words, she would cry.

I wondered if she was depressed, so I took her directly to the psychiatric department, who did not advocate prescribing medication, and the next day I went to a major hospital to see a psychiatric department.

The rest of the thing is that the psychiatrist accompanies her to solve it, of course, her body has been weakened after such a toss, in addition to eating more supplements, she still has to take medicine to nourish first.

I stayed here with her for three days and took medicine with her in the evening. The so-called psychotherapy didn't work so quickly, and until I left, Lan Tian was still sullen. The psychiatrist also gave her a lot of advice to her family, and this time she didn't spend a lot of money on a doctor.

Lan Tian's draft really lost his wife and soldiers.

The night before I left, I was lying on the bed talking to Lan Tian, and she asked me if I was going to continue filming?

I said, "Shoot, if there's a scene, shoot." ”

She asked me, "Aren't you afraid?"

Afraid, how can you not be afraid, Lan Tian is like this, can I not be afraid. But I'm bold, I'm big-hearted, and I still have a fluke mentality. I thought that I don't want to be popular, I just want to have a job to do, maybe in the future, I will find something else that I can do, and I won't just think about filming.

In order to transmit positive energy to Lan Tian, I said firmly: "Don't be afraid." ”

Then she asked softly, "Is Huazi okay?"

"Hmm. I just said one word softly.

I don't know if Lan Tian is still worried about Li Hua in his heart, and even if he is worried, how much he is worried. Regarding this issue, I don't want to talk to her now, Lan Tian is a well-known person, I am so good with Li Hua, I don't think she will do anything to hinder our development.

It is said that time is the best medicine, I think that the relationship between the three of us was once chaotic, and as time goes by, the development of my relationship with Li Hua should also be unraveled and clear. There is no need to emphasize anything.

Lan Tian didn't ask anything more, and probably knew that it was not good to ask too much.

Even if I am a good friend with Lan Tian, no matter how much she needs me, I can't always accompany her like this. Each of us is a separate individual, everyone in this society, and all kinds of relationships are connected to various lines, I am her best friend, my parents' daughter, Li Hua's girlfriend, and myself.

I still have to rush back to that small county in the city, because my mother's husband broke his leg and my mother is at home to take care of her, and I probably need to go back to help her.

My own mother later found a husband who was five years younger than her, and she didn't dislike my mother for a second marriage, and after giving birth to a daughter, the two of them lived quite happily. It's just that no matter how happy the second marriage is, it is not as good as a successful marriage with only one time, and my mother is a woman with a very heavy heart and not very high emotional intelligence, as I said before, her mental condition is not very good. It also means some depression.

I bought my younger sister, who is still in elementary school, a beautiful dress as a New Year's gift. She has a very sweet mouth, and she also likes me very much, thinking that I am the most beautiful sister in the world.

My mother has been taking care of her husband too hard recently, and she has made mental problems again, and she always asks me if I am doing well outside and whether I am being bullied.

She said: "It's too messy to be a star, you have to sleep with the big boss, you don't want to learn from them." ”

I reassured her, but she found time to whisper in my ear. These words, once or twice, are concerned and reminded, and if you say too much, in addition to annoyance, you are annoying.

The two of us sat and made dumplings that day, and my mother's dumplings were very beautiful, almost every one of them was exactly the same, and I couldn't learn this skill, so I could only ensure that the filling was not exposed.

My mom accidentally mentioned my dad and said that he loves to eat dumplings with three fresh fillings, and he can eat several plates at one meal.

That was the amount of food my dad ate when he was young, and now he eats at the old man's house, except for drinking and taking a few bites of food, he basically doesn't eat staple food.

I remembered it, so I casually asked how she divorced my dad in the first place.

I know a little bit about it, but I don't know it very well. Today, my mother was a little sad, so she told me in detail again.

At the beginning, my dad was a small businessman, and he made a little money by pouring cooked roast duck or something. At that time, my mother had me and didn't care much about my dad, and my dad was seduced by a woman outside. The woman who seduced my dad is my current stepmother, who was also married before, and her first husband committed a crime and went to jail, and her stepmother divorced the man.

When I was more than a year old, my mother only found out about this incident, and the reason was that my stepmother was found by the police station because of her previous husband, and my stepmother told the police that she was a good person, saying that her husband was my father, and my father-in-law was my grandfather.

At that time, my grandfather was still alive and was a local celebrity.

The matter was made public, and my mother wanted to mess with my dad, but my grandma always looked down on my mother, thinking that my mother was poor, uneducated, and unworthy of my dad or something. Probably the biggest reason is that my mom is like me, she has a stupid mouth and can't say nice things.

Then my dad kicked my mom and killed my grandfather, and soon after, my stepmom gave birth to my younger brother. As a woman who was kicked out of the Cong family, coupled with the mouths of my grandmother and stepmother, my mother left a bad reputation in the countryside, and after many years of carrying those reputations, it was not easy to find a serious job.

In those years, her life was very unsatisfactory, I could only go to her place to stay with her for one day a week, she was not able to raise me, seeing that I was not well taken care of, touching the soles of my cold feet in the winter, except for hugging me and crying, there was no way to change.

It wasn't until I met my current husband that I gradually improved. Now a family of three is still crammed into a small house of about 60 square meters, and life is enough.