The flowers on the ground were probably brought by Li Hua, who else could there be besides him? I drank fragments last night, and I don't remember many clips, I don't know what kind of scene it was when Li Hua arrived, and I don't know how they fought. I can only guess that Li Hua must be very angry.

Look at my messy clothes. I often live a rather sloppy life because I'm lazy. Looking at the mess in this room, I didn't know where to start cleaning up, so I didn't want to clean it up at all.

The room is not tied, including feelings, and sometimes I am tired of tidying up, I think I should explain something to Li Hua, but I don't know where to start, and I feel that the explanation is very pale. Laziness is probably the biggest problem with my life, and I went to sleep.

I didn't go to work today, and no one bothered me today. I slept until dark, I was hungry, but there seemed to be no food at home, I didn't want to go out to buy it, I didn't think much about it, and knocked on Li Baitian's door.

He was at home, and he didn't go out for a day, mainly because he couldn't see anyone. Li Baitian stood at the door and did not invite me in very warmly. I looked at the two bruises on his face, which was kind of funny.

I said, "Who did this?"

He frowned, a rare tsundere, "Who did you say?" ”

I smiled softly and said, "Do you have anything to eat here?"

Li Baitian thought about something slightly and let me in. Then he turned out two buckets of instant noodles, and the two of us sat at his 20,000-yuan dining table, eating at each other, without speaking.

Li Baitian ate so hotly that I didn't have any taste for it. I've never liked instant noodles, I felt full after a few bites, put down the little fork, and said, "Li Hua came last night?"

"Hmm. He didn't lift his eyes and continued to eat.

"And then?"

Li Baitian didn't reply, took two big bites, and said seriously: "I'm quite embarrassed." ”

I just looked at him like this, and I probably knew it in my heart, Li Baitian estimated that he was taking advantage of me, and he smiled reluctantly, "It's nothing." ”

Li Baitian hesitated slightly, "Why don't I explain to that kid?"

I shook my head, "No, I'll have a chance to explain it in person." ”

There are condoms in front and rape on the sofa in the back, and I think this is not just a matter of explaining or not explaining. Even if Li Baitian and I are innocent, Li Hua also believes that we are innocent, but that layer of doubt is unlikely to be easily erased.

Then I held my forehead and began to meditate, Li Baitian and I pondered together, in a daze for five minutes, and said, "Brother Tian, I'm tired, so tired that I don't know what I should do." ”

Li Baitian looked up at me and didn't say anything.

I said: "I have known Li Hua for four years, and I have been divided in the middle, and it is better, but now, why do I suddenly feel that it is meaningless to divide or not." At the beginning, when I mentioned the name Li Hua, I was still blushing and my heart was beating, but now after so long, that feeling has long been gone. But I feel inseparable, not the kind of separation, that is, we are like one person, whether he is in the south of the world and I am in the north and south, we are all one. I haven't thought much of him this year. ”

After listening to my nonsense, Li Baitian sighed, "This is what people often say, love will become family affection in the end." ”

I disagreed, and I said, "It's still not the same, losing a loved one is like losing an arm or a short leg, but losing him is like losing a soul." Without a soul, you can still live on the surface, but if you have broken arms and short legs, you can't take care of yourself. ”

"What the hell are you trying to say?" asked Li Baitian.

I didn't know what I wanted to say, so I casually said, "I just suddenly feel that whether we want to be together or not is not so important." ”

Maybe it's because too much time has passed, or maybe it's because there are too many broken things in the middle, and between me and Li Hua, it seems that we can't see the living love anymore. But that doesn't mean I don't love him anymore, I love him, and if I do anything for him, I'm still willing to do it. It's just that I have a willing mood.

From the age of twenty to twenty-four, the name Li Hua will always be indispensable in my kindest youth. I believe that even when I am old, until the moment I die, I will never forget this person. He is a milestone in my life, he is the most beautiful scenery in my life.

He is in the deepest part of my heart, and no one can erase or cover it. I think this may be love, I used to have it very deeply, I was willing, and what the result was, compared to the meaning of love's existence, it seemed a little insignificant.

It is like a summer flower, and there may always be a day when it will wither. Being picked at the most beautiful time, I can't tell if it's a good or bad ending. But I'm the kind of person who hates to see beautiful things and gradually wither over time, so I'm very afraid of getting old.

I think if this relationship is going to be consumed one day after all, I would rather it stay still at this moment.

The idea may be a bit pessimistic, but that's what I'm thinking right now.

Since I went to Li Hua with my household registration book a year ago, I have never had the idea of breaking up, I think I want to join hands with him for the rest of my life no matter what. So Lan Tian's matter made me so big, I am willing to accompany Li Hua to support it together.

It's different from when we broke up, when we were too young and we weren't strong enough to manage the relationship. And now, it is a kind of calmness, a kind of calmness after getting it, and a kind of understanding that the loss of the surface cannot replace the once beautiful decision.

Love is not the whole of life, but good love is about the finishing touch. I think my human growth dragon already has its eyes.

Li Baitian didn't say anything, although he looked like a great god, he seemed to be able to see everything through, perhaps the most incomprehensible thing was love. So I left.

Let's talk about it, let's talk about Li Hua's next direction. Many things, when we don't know how to choose, we might as well leave the choice to time and fate, whether it is good or bad, it will always open a path for us.

The next day, Li Hua's mother called me and said that Lan Tian was missing. His mother went to the supermarket to buy a dish, because Lan Tian had been doing too well recently, and he had no intention of having a drug addiction, Li Hua's mother felt relieved, and when she left, she didn't lock the door, and Lan Tian ran away.

Li Hua's mother said that she didn't want me to worry about Lan Tian's affairs anymore, but at this time, she still had to ask me for help. In Beijing, I know her better than her, and it is easier to find someone than her.

I didn't go to Lan Tian to understand the situation, and after receiving the news, I went directly to the next door to find Li Baitian. Such a big Beijing city, Lan Tian wants to run, where are we going to find it, this kind of clueless confusion at all, but I don't worry at all.

It seems that there is a hunch, nothing is wrong, and when Lan Tian should appear, he appeared.

Li Baitian mobilized his friends to sweep the large and small nightclubs in Beijing. I didn't go out to look for it myself, I didn't know where to look for it, I just called Li Hua's mother over and over again to comfort her and let her not worry.

At eleven o'clock in the evening, Lan Tian did take the initiative to appear, right at my doorstep.

She knocked on the door, I opened the door, she was full of wine, smiled sweetly and gently at me, stretched out her hands around my neck, "Youyou......"

In the language, there is no negative emotional color, as if she misses me very much and wants to see me. I dragged Lan Tian into the room, and she was still laughing maniacally and nestled on a sofa.

I was actually quite indifferent, and after pouring her a glass of water, I turned around and planned to call Lihua's mother and ask her to come and take people away.

Lan Tian pulled the corner of my clothes, a little naughty and a little begging, she said: "Don't tell my godmother that I'm here, or she will come over soon, I still want to talk to you." ”

Aren't I also afraid that Li Hua's mother will be worried, Lan Tian then discussed with me, "Okay, just talk, I'll go home with my godmother after speaking, I won't run around." ”

I sighed and sat down across from her, with no good look on my face, not knowing what the hell she was going to do. It can be seen that Lan Tian is drunk, but he has always had a relatively peaceful expression on his face, not like he is here to cause trouble, and in his words and deeds, he is even a little coquettish with me.

It's like when she was in school, she always laughed and coquettishly with me.

Lan Tian was very well-behaved today, holding a pillow, and after looking around a few times, he said suspiciously: "Why are you so messy here." ”

I said, "Tian Tian, what do you want to talk to me about?"

She sensed that my attitude was unfriendly, and said slightly sadly and aggrievedly, "Youyou, are you annoying me very much now, annoying me." ”

I didn't speak. I can't say it's annoying or annoying, I just don't want to see her, I'm tired when I see her, and I don't know what to do with her.

She began to play the family card, maybe it was not intentional, it was just a feeling, she said: "I remember when I was in art school, we had to play against each other, at that time you often played men, we played Liang Shanbo and Zhu Yingtai, and Tang Bohu ordered Qiu Xiang, you played Tang Bohu, I am Qiu Xiang." Ha ha...... You are so good to me, when I was my eldest aunt, you also helped me wash my underwear, hehe...... I don't have a great aunt anymore. ”

I washed her once, and then the dorm girls said that we were both a little insane. She said: "At that time, we were good, I felt that I was about to have the same sex and 1 love, if I had the same sex and 1 love, I would definitely pester you." ”

Lan Tian said that I was a little sad. What she said is indeed true, many girlfriends are together, and there is usually someone who is more inclined to play the role of a man. At that time, we were really good, we said that we would marry together in the future, and the one who married later should be a bridesmaid for the front, and we should buy a house together, and the children should be set to be dolled, or worship, except for the husband, everything can be universal.