The most beautiful thing in the relationship is the promises that were made at the beginning, whether it is friendship or love.

Lan Tian is really my best friend of all time, and although I am speechless about her now, I will never deny this fact. Maybe she will be like Li Hua, and let me remember it for a lifetime, maybe after washing the lead Hua, these troublesome pasts have been digested, I still remember what we were when we were at our best.

When I think about it, I smile, and it comes with a little regret.

"How did it change later, because of Li Hua, how did it change. She asked me.

I've always felt that friendship that is defeated because of a man is quite cowardly, just like defeating love because of money, it's very cowardly, and it's hard to talk about.

I still don't speak, just think about it, Lan Tian has liked Li Hua for so many years, Li Hua hasn't looked at her squarely, and she is indeed very pitiful. I'm much luckier than she is.

Then she turned her head and said, "I'll tell you, what you don't know, the Xue family is registering a marriage abroad, with a foreign girl." You think I didn't look for him, but I did. ”

I really don't know about this, I don't know if Li Hua knows, I have no contact with the Xue family. But the Xue family is getting married, and it's normal, when the age comes, when they meet the right person, they want to get married. Who can say clearly that Xue Jiazheng once liked Lan Tian so much, whether it was because he really liked it, or because he never got it.

Lan Tian smiled sadly, she said: "Why have I always been so kind to Xue Jiazheng, because I think that he likes me so much, no matter when I turn around, he is still waiting for me and wants me, so I toss, I am not willing to go back to him like this." I don't understand until now that no one is obligated to wait for another person, isn't it a little late?"

I looked at her, still not speaking. Anyway, she is full of pitiful temperament, and the pity is more or less done by herself, such as losing Xue Jiazheng's protection, which is purely her own doing, but it is so pitiful that people can't even scold it.

She said: "From the moment I knew that he was married, I felt that I could never be happy in my life again, even Xue Jiazheng didn't want me anymore, no one would want me, hehe, I will never be happy again." ”

I want to say, Tian Tian actually has a lot of things, as long as you cheer up, as long as you go for it, what you don't have now will be won in the future.

But I think it seems pale to tell her this. Yes, the truth is so reasonable, but Lan Tian's current body is devastated and her naturally weak character makes it too difficult for her to cheer up and fight.

Those things didn't happen to us, to put it simply, as if it were cool.

I sniffed, and it was almost time for addiction again. Although there has been a period of detoxification now, and the seizures will not be very serious, Lan Tian's physical fitness is not good, and he is a little slower than others.

She seemed to hesitate, and pulled out a small bag from her pocket, which still contained some powder, and said, "Look, I still have it." I said I didn't want it, and they still had to give it to me......"

I stared at me for a moment, and hurriedly snatched the bag from Lan Tian's hand, but she didn't grab it from me, so she let me keep it. She said, "You can keep it for me, I know I can't control myself at all, as long as I have it, I will use it sooner or later." ”

I said, "Tian Tian, you can't do this anymore, you can't contact those people anymore, they will kill you." ”

"Death?" she told me thoughtfully, "It's not terrible to die at all, it's the process of death that is uncomfortable." Do you know what it's like to swallow a handful of sleeping pills, it's more uncomfortable than swallowing a big bottle of carbonated drink, just swallow it, that breath comes up, that feeling, I can't wait to die immediately, it's very uncomfortable, you can't imagine. ”

She recalled how she felt when she took sleeping pills, and her expression was quite painful. Then he said, "Even if I die again, I will never choose that way to die." ”

Taking sleeping pills has very serious side effects. The immune system is almost completely broken, Lan Tian's physical fitness is very poor now, it is normal to catch a cold twice a month, although the doctor said that if she takes care of it, she can still raise it back, but her current state of tossing, in the long run, will probably not live long.

She said, "I know I have to quit, and I want to, but sometimes, I don't want to. For so many years, only these days, Li Hua is next to me, and only when he is addicted, he seems to belong to me completely. I'm afraid that it will quit too quickly, and when I get better, he will ignore me again, and I will not have him again. ”

I comforted softly, it was to cheer for Lan Tian, now as long as she doesn't continue to take drugs and harm herself, nothing matters.

I said, "No, as long as you're good, he won't leave you alone." ”

Lan Tian shook his head, sniffed again, and hugged the pillow in his arms tighter, his expression slightly painful. She said: "Is it true that I have nothing, the Xue family is gone, you are gone, Li Hua has never been mine," she cried, "I just want to have someone who has always been by my side, am I never happy again, ......what will I do in the future?"

I said, "What else can I do for you?"

She still shook her head, "I'm not happy, I don't think I'm happy, I want Li Hua...... But I can't open my mouth to ask you ...... I want him to be with me every day, I want to be his most special person, even if he doesn't love me, I will support him...... But Youyu, I'm sorry, I shouldn't like your man, I feel like I'm like a parasite, parasitic between the two of you, and everyone feels disgusting. I'm so sick of myself......"

She cried and hit herself, knocking her little fist on her leg one by one. It may be that she really hates herself, or it may be that she is really uncomfortable, her body is shaking, and her face is full of tears.

Lan Tian herself is actually very entangled, she knows that she can't control herself, we all know it. Lan Tian's self-control ability and psychological adjustment ability are only a little bit. She can't afford the blow anymore, a little blow, a little negativity, and she'll give up on herself.

I'm still soft-hearted, and after her family card is played, my heart is about to soften into cotton. After thinking about it for so many years, Lan Tian is really not easy, it should be easier than me, and it is not easy to get entangled like this, and he is not mentally disordered, and it is even more difficult.

If she's really crazy, forget it.

I couldn't help but hug her anyway, feeling her pumping, her inner struggle. She knows how to make herself feel better, I have what she wants here, but she can't open her mouth to ask for it, she takes the initiative to take it out and give it to me, which means that she wants to change it.

As soon as my heart was broken, I sighed in my heart, and I said, "Don't worry, I've given him to you." ”

She shook her head, and I said, "Tian Tian, I'm happier than you, I won't die without him." ”

Basically, I think that Lan Tian's situation, even if she quits now, if no one keeps watching, if she is allowed to flutter alone in society again, she will not get happiness and a sense of belonging in her heart, and the possibility of her relapse is very, very high.

What's more, she is lonely, why is she messing with those people who are of all religions and nine ranks, doesn't she just want someone to accompany her, someone to compliment herself, not just to ask for that humble please.

Without Li Hua, I wouldn't be fine. What is Li Hua, my love, but I still have relatives and friends and a career, as well as a healthy body, and all kinds of things that deserve to be called happiness. And for Lan Tian, Li Hua is her spiritual pillar, and without Li Hua, she may die.

I can't watch her die, I can't even close my eyes.

Lan Tian was still a little entangled, shaking a little more violently in my arms, and I said softly and calmly, "It's okay, I'm really okay." ”

After saying that, I secretly shed two tears, it's okay, I'm really okay.

After Lan Tian calmed down, I called Li Hua's mother and asked her to come and pick up Lan Tian. When Li Hua's mother entered the house, she also felt very surprised, because I was too chaotic here, Li Hua and Li Baitian fought two days ago, and I haven't cleaned it up until now, the petals at the door of the room have withered, but there is no trace of being trampled on, because every time I go in and out, I deliberately avoid it, and I am not willing to step on it.

I smiled embarrassedly and said, "It's too messy, Auntie, I won't invite you in and sit, I'll ask my friend to send you back." ”

Her mother didn't say much yet, so I went directly to knock on Li Baitian's door, beckoned him who was already ready to sleep, and asked him to drive Lan Tian and Li Hua's mother home.

When I left, Li Hua's mother said to me, "I'm sorry for you", and I smiled and said it was nothing.

Looking at the back of Li Hua's mother leaving, I will feel reluctant. I think it's probably the last time I'll see my mother, and I'm already planning in my heart that I don't want to have anything to do with their family anymore.

At least for now, my fucking opinion is that she's not a bad person.

I hope they can still remember Cong You, a girl who once jumped up and down in their family, a sensible girl, a woman who once almost became a relative.

I don't have any luxury, so I just want to be able to make a sound.

After everyone left, I sat in my room by myself, without turning on the lights, looking at the messy room, imagining the picture of Li Hua beating Li Baitian. Thinking about it, my heart throbbed and hurt, tears rolled in my eyes, I couldn't control it, it loved to cry or not.

But I was very firm, I decided to give up and decided to quit, and decided to start today, not to call Li Hua again, just silently quit, silently becoming a distant stranger.

Then I will never forget him, and then I will turn around, find someone who loves me, and pretend to be happy and continue with my life. Pretending to be pretended, you should be really happy.