In fact, I have always understood that there is a big problem between me and Xiao Shaofeng. Two years ago, I was still naïve to believe that love can change everything. If you like someone, you will be as integrated into his life as possible. But now, two years later, I gradually understand that life is far from simple.

Two days ago, Lao Yang stewed a big pot of chicken soup and sent it to Xiao Shaofeng. Originally, I thought that this was a change in Lao Yang's attitude towards Xiao Shaofeng, but Lao Yang told me that the reason why he did this was because Xiao Shaofeng was injured because of me, and as my parents, I had to come to the door to thank him. Nothing else.

It is enough to see how deep Lao Yang's prejudice against Xiao Shaofeng is.

Thinking about Xiao Shaofeng's mother again, as far as I am a designer who has returned from studying abroad, I am not high or low, in her eyes, but I am barely satisfied with this stage. In her opinion, marrying into the Xiao family is a blessing that I have cultivated in several lifetimes, and I should be grateful for the opportunity to serve his son. Moreover, she actually wanted me to give up my career to become a full-time wife, and there was no room for change.

Seeing Xiao Daxia's injuries improving day by day, my heart became even more anxious. I can't let him perceive my mind, because I know that once he knows, he'll be in this tangled situation just like me.

I want to be ruthless, just because I don't love him. But every day after walking into the ward and seeing his smiling face, I clearly knew that I couldn't fool my heart.

It's been seven years, and it's the only man I've ever loved.

All the first times, I gave it to him. I love him, but I also understand that when he returns to the imperial capital, there will be a new life, and that kind of life is just the opposite of the life I yearn for, and we can't go together.

I feel that I have fallen into a desperate situation that I have never had before, on the one hand, I can't let my parents perceive the requirements that my aunt made to me, I know the character of Lao Yang and Lan Meiling, they are like all parents, they don't want their children to be prosperous and rich, the only thing they want is that I can be happy; on the other hand, I can't reveal any news to Xiao Shaofeng, I know his character, I can't let him give up everything about him, just like myself, there is no way to give up everything about me. Besides, I don't have the confidence to let him give up all this for me. Even if he wanted to, I think, he wouldn't be happy.

Guarding these unspeakable thoughts, during the day, I went to work, and at night, I went to the hospital to take care of two patients, and I had to cover everything up, I really felt like I was about to suffocate.

I watched as time went by, but I couldn't figure out a solution to the problem. But the weight, unconsciously, dropped another ten pounds.

A week later, Xiao Shaofeng's wound had basically healed. This means that it has only been a few days since he and his aunt returned to the imperial capital. As I expected, my aunt was at the teahouse again and made an appointment to meet me.

In fact, we all have the answer in our hearts, it's just a question of who will speak first.

There was a stack of documents in front of my aunt, and when she saw that I hadn't spoken for a long time, she asked me, "Xiaofei, how did you think about what I told you?"

I looked up at my aunt and was speechless in sadness.

Seeing that I was silent, Auntie took a sip of Tieguanyin, and said with a smile: "Xiaofei, you are a smart child, you should also understand how difficult it is for parents to accept another family that is far from us for the sake of a child's affection." ”

Yes, that's what I'm afraid of.

Because I'm alone, I want to cut off my innocent parents for the rest of my life, I don't think, I can't do it.

"Auntie, I understand what you said. I pretended to look at my aunt calmly and said, "However, I'm going to disappoint you." ”

My aunt looked at me in amazement, and I knew that she must have thought I didn't know what to do.

"That's all I can do for Shaofeng. ”

Auntie stood up and said with a smile: "Xiaofei, you are a good boy. ”

"When are you going to go back?" I choked up, my fingers running across my palms, and I didn't feel any pain.

"Tomorrow. ”

So, tonight, I'm going to say goodbye to Xiao Shaofeng, right?

Actually, I wasn't that sad. This seemingly old-fashioned plot has appeared in many TV series, but how many people are truly happy?

I longed for a miracle, but I also understood that I couldn't pass my own level, and where did a miracle exist.

So be it, let it go.

Xiao Shaofeng called me and told me that he had been discharged from the hospital. Ask me what time I get off work in the evening and come and pick me up in person. In order to prevent him from seeing the situation, I went to Yintai to do a spa, sat in the aromatherapy room and cried for half an hour, and asked the beautician to paint me a light makeup, and then ran to the appointment.

The date was set by me, and you may not know it, it was at our alma mater.

Xiao Shaofeng arrived twenty minutes later, and for now, his famous brand and handsome face are still in the spotlight of girls, but he finally satisfied me, and walked towards me arrogantly in full view of everyone.

Lover's Lake, four years of college, recorded how much I was looking forward to.

Xiao Shaofeng handed me a cup of milk tea, touched my head, and said, "Why did you suddenly think of this?

"What's the good news?"

"What do you say?" Xiao Shaofeng took my hand, looked at me distressedly, and said, "I always feel that you have a lot of worries in the past two days, if you have any problems, talk to Xiao Daxia." ”

I couldn't bear to look at him, glanced at the surface of the lake, and said, "I've heard that couples who walk around this lake will remember each other for the rest of their lives." ”

"Remember?" Xiao Shaofeng shook his head dissatisfiedly and said, "It sounds a little sad." ”

I got up and stood up, took Xiao Daxia's hand, and said with a smile, "Let's go too." ”

Xiao Shaofeng saw that I had made up his mind, so he took my hand and walked up, my feet were ten centimeters high, walking beside him, the height was very compatible.

Halfway through, Xiao Shaofeng finally couldn't help but speak, and said, "Xiaofei, what's wrong with you? ”

I didn't answer, and continued to pull him forward.

"Did my mom say something nasty to you? Xiao Shaofeng tightened my hand and said in a panic.

I squeezed out a smile and said, "I'll tell you when I'm done with this lap." ”

Xiao Shaofeng, who was still walking, suddenly stopped, stared at me tightly with a pair of eyes, and said, "You must have something on your mind, you say it first." ”

The smile on my face could not be contained, for fear that my tears would fall, so I hurriedly looked away and said, "Can't you even agree to this little request?"

"Xiaofei......" Xiao Shaofeng panicked, he nervously pulled my right hand to his chest, and said, "Don't scare me, your current expression, I look scared......"

I glared at him and said, "Xiao Daxia is still scared?"

"Yes. Xiao Shaofeng looked at me with blazing eyes and said, "I've been thinking that you have something to hide from me for the past two days, Xiaofei, I hope you can discuss anything with me, okay?"

I was furious in my heart, shook off Xiao Shaofeng's hand, and said, "What are you discussing? Haven't you noticed? How much you have changed from before, do you know, I'm not used to it!"

Xiao Shaofeng was stunned for a moment, and said with a smile: "Then can't I change it?"

"Who told you to change it?" I don't know how to say those words, I can't.

"Then what are you going to do, I'll do as you say. Xiao Shaofeng shook his head helplessly and reached out to take my hand.

I quickly dodged his hand and said, "Xiao Shaofeng, let's break up." ”

Xiao Shaofeng's right hand hung in the air, looked at me with a pair of eyes in shock, and said, "Yang Xiaofei, what are you kidding?"

"I'm not kidding. I took a deep breath and said, "Tomorrow you will go back to your imperial capital." I don't want to see you anymore. ”

"Yang Xiaofei, this joke is overdone...... Xiao Shaofeng's face was gloomy, he looked at me dissatisfied, and said, "You know ...... me"

"I'm not kidding. I looked up at him and said, "I'm not going back with you." Sorry we ...... There's no going back. Please don't come to me again in the future, and go back to your imperial capital. ”

Xiao Shaofeng looked at me in astonishment and said in disbelief: "Yang Xiaofei, I know, I know why you are so sad these days." You're trying to kick me away, you've thought about it a long time ago, right?"

I stood still, looking at the man in front of me, and my mind went back to seven years ago.

Seven years ago, I was still a fat circle who didn't enter his eyeballs, and the three words Yang Xiaofei were like passers-by for him.

I think every girl has experienced an innocent time, fantasizing that she is a fairy tale Cinderella, holding Qiong Yao's wild gnawing, secretly shedding tears alone, looking forward to the day when the prince will come with flowers in his hand and smile.

Five years ago, I just lost dozens of pounds. Four years ago, I lost weight successfully, and I walked on campus wearing a brand-name long skirt of unknown brands. Three years ago, I paid attention to the calories in my diet and accurately read a famous book every day. Two years ago, I tried to ignore the guilt in my heart and tried to have a desperate love. And now, after experiencing the double baptism of the workplace and love, the realistic, stubborn self still believes in love, but no longer believes that there are miracles in love.

If you want to enter a person, you must first adapt to his life circle. Not a pretended adaptation, but a real adaptation. If you want to enter a person's heart, in addition to perseverance and hard work, you also need to constantly improve yourself.

For seven years I have been immersed in this seemingly luxurious circle, and I am completely comfortable with the problems of work, all thanks to everyone who walks by me.

Most importantly, the once unattainable you.

I still love you. It's just that, I understand, we can't be together.

PS: I'll do it today. The eldest aunt was really unwell the next day, so let's write here. See you tomorrow. Good night.