I couldn't help but ponder, if it weren't for the personnel girls, and it wasn't Chen Bailu, who would it be who would send the email to Xiaoxiao, could it be someone else, but I can't think of who it is.

Xiaoxiao saw me contemplating my eyebrows, and there was some caution in my eyes, and after I pondered for a while, I turned around and asked her what happened later, after you received that email, how did you get in touch with Qin Hongling, Xiaoxiao saw that I continued to ask her, so she bit her lip and continued: " After I made up my mind not to let Nan Nan and you recognize each other, I took Nan Nan to leave Hangzhou for a period of time, with the money you gave me, I traveled outside for a long time, I just wanted to try to get out of the haze you brought me at that time, and I didn't want my life, and finally ended up in the cold morgue of the hospital, I hope that I will finally die in a place where birds sing and flowers are fragrant, mountains and flowers are everywhere, Nan Nan grew up in the time I left, I have been telling her that I will leave this world, go to another world, I hope she can live well after I leave, Nan Nan has been listening blankly, and I don't know what I meanSometimes she will ask me, Mom, that world you are going to, there must be no pain,"

I didn't speak, lying on the side of the sleeping Nan Nan as if sensing that we were talking about her, squirmed uneasily, leaned sideways into Xiaoxiao's arms, Xiaoxiao left my arms, hugged Nan Nan in his arms, lowered his voice and continued: " Later, when I returned to Hangzhou, I was about to send Nannan to the orphanage, when I suddenly received a call from Hongling, she asked me about the situation of Nannan on the phone, I was very vigilant to ask who she was, she just didn't say, the next day she came to Hangzhou to see me, after meeting she still didn't say who she was, just said that my condition could not be delayed, I had to rush to Shanghai for treatment, and she asked me to go with her, at that time, I realized that she was related to you, so I told her, if you don't tell me who you are, I won't go with you, Hongling saw that there was no way, so she told me, saying that she was your wife, I asked in a daze, isn't your wife Chen Bailu, she told me that Chen Bailu has been dead for more than two years, "Hey!

"I asked her, why did you save me, did you let her come, she never said, and then insisted on letting me go with her, the two of us argued for a long time, and finally she threatened Nannan, saying that if I didn't go with her, I would tell Nannan that I was terminally ill, and in desperation, I followed her to Shanghai, and after arriving in Shanghai, she took me to the hospital for dialysis, took me to see a doctor, and helped me contact a usable kidney source,"

"Are you using QQ to contact," I couldn't help but ask,

Smiled and nodded,

I was ashamed in my heart, and I couldn't help but lower my head, and when I saw this, I smiled and said, "You should know what happened later,"

I nodded, sighed heavily, my heart was full of shame, helpless, but more doubts and puzzles, I don't understand, why did the personnel lady suddenly go to Hangzhou to see Xiaoxiao, and how did she know Xiaoxiao's contact information, and, that email and that money, who gave Xiaoxiao, and most importantly, after knowing the current situation of Xiaoxiao, why didn't the personnel girl tell me, but took action on her own,

"Qi Tian," I said softly as I thought, smiling and calling my name,

I turned my head to look at her, she also sighed, put down the Nannan in her arms, and said to me again: "I tell you this, I hope you can let me go back to Hangzhou, you now have a wife and children, you can treat them well, as for me and Nannan's affairs, you don't have to pay too much attention to it, I really regret listening to Hongling's words to come to Shanghai now, otherwise how could she ......"

Speaking of this, Xiaoxiao's throat has choked, I can't continue, I was shocked, secretly scolded myself for being really fucking stupid, it turned out that Xiaoxiao has been making trouble back to Hangzhou, it turned out that it was because of this damn guilt, seeing Xiaoxiao crying, I became more and more distressed, Xiaoxiao sobbed and said: "It's all my bad, if I don't come, that car accident won't happen, and she won't lie in bed like now......"

My eyes were sour, and I immediately held her in my arms, and scolded on my lips: "You stupid woman, stupid woman, how can I blame you, how can I blame you, I don't allow you to be like this, all this is obviously my fault, if it weren't for me, would you have this uremia, if it weren't for me, would you have fallen like this, it's all my fault, it's all my fault,"

I was moved in my heart, my emotions almost collapsed, and I couldn't laugh and cry silently.

After both of us were emotionally stable, I asked Xiaoxiao, "Then do you still want to go back to Hangzhou now?"

Laughing and smiling, instead of answering me, I asked her again, "Then do you want to have a kidney transplant now?"

She asked me slowly, "Is there a kidney source?"

"Yes," I replied in the affirmative,

Xiaoxiao looked up at me, biting her lip, with hesitation in her eyes,

But I took her in my arms and called her again, "Silly woman,"

This night, the two of us said a lot in the ward, four years of lovesickness, the pain of missing, life and mood changes, so that the two of us seem to have endless words, until the sky is dark, Xiaoxiao only lay on the hospital bed to fall asleep, and I was not sleepy, after seeing Xiaoxiao fall asleep, he quietly left the ward, Xiaoxiao, has let go of the guard against me, but I, but I don't know where tomorrow, I replied that Xiaoxiao has a kidney source when the firmness, so that I don't dare to go to the personnel lady's ward to see her, how do I explain to the personnel girl and Xiaoxiao, this kidney that can be used is on the personnel girl's body,

In the event of a car accident, Xiaoxiao blamed herself for this, if she really let Xiaoxiao know that this kidney is a personnel girl, she will definitely not agree to the operation, and will go back to Hangzhou in a hurry, at that time, what should I do, and if I do the operation without Xiaoxiao, I will not only be sorry for the personnel girl, but even Xiaoxiao will definitely complain about me after the operation,

What to do, what to do, where can I get a kidney that Xiaoxiao can use, I stood in the corridor of the hospital, very anxious, and, how many secrets are hidden in the personnel girl, when will she wake up and tell me those secrets, I believe that she will never know that Xiaoxiao is in Hangzhou for no reason, someone must have told her, is it, that person is Chen Bailu, impossible, I watched Chen Bailu cremated with my own eyes and sent her ashes to the moon, she can't do these things,

So, who the hell is it?

Countless questions, poured into my mind, made me feel like my mind was almost about to explode, just when I was at a loss, just when I was flustered, the attending doctor of the personnel girl suddenly ran over, and told me with a moving face, they had just detected that the brain of the personnel girl had a thinking reflex, I was stunned, and immediately asked what the thinking reflex was, the doctor said excitedly, that is, the brain has a conscious response, in layman's terms, she seems to have been able to hear the perception of the outside world, that is, she is very likely to wake up,

I stood stunned in place, but the doctor continued to explain to me, saying that the brain of ordinary people is a waterfall that flows straight down 3,000 feet, and the brain of a vegetative person is a pool of stagnant water, and now this pool of stagnant water of personnel girls, suddenly blowing a breeze, sparkling on the water surface, so this is collectively called thinking reflex, if it is good, the possibility of personnel women waking up, from 1 in 10,000, to 99 percent,

The attending doctor said excitedly that this is simply a medical miracle.

I didn't care about listening to the doctor continue to press, and immediately rushed to the ward of the personnel women, looking at the personnel women lying motionless on the hospital bed, the feeling in my heart has long been the same, the hope that was almost impossible to produce is now already lit in my chest, and the attending doctor also followed up, telling me that in the past two days, let me accompany the personnel women more, talk more with her, listen to some music, and let the acupuncturist come over again, and then do two acupuncture for the personnel women, so that the multi-pronged approach, the personnel women are likely to wake up in these two days,

I was moved to hear it, and immediately nodded affirmatively,

Grab the hands of the personnel girls and put them to their mouths, kiss her hands, all the panic in my heart, all become infinite excitement, for me, for this whole thing, the personnel girls wake up, it seems to be the only and best thing, after she wakes up, I can know why she went to Hangzhou to see Xiaoxiao, I can know who sent the email, and I can leave the kidney transplant to her to make a decision,

Thinking of these, all the original sorrow in my heart, all turned into a breeze, the whole person became light and light, infinitely relaxed, in a good mood, I accompanied the personnel women to talk for a long time, I didn't sleep all night, the result was less than a moment, I lay on the side of the personnel girl's bed to sleep, and when I woke up, the afternoon sun projected through the window to my eyes, I felt a burst of discomfort, I opened my eyes leisurely, just opened my eyes at the moment, into the eyes to see a strand of women's hair across my eyes, under the sunshine, I saw a woman with a pair of big eyes, flickering looking at me,

I sat up straight suddenly, looking in disbelief at the girl sitting on the bed instead of lying on the bed in front of me, the excitement in my chest is indescribable, and when I was about to hold her in my arms, my eyes were filled with tears for a moment, and tears of excitement flowed.

"What are you doing," the women pushed me away the moment I hugged her, and retreated like a frightened fawn.

I looked at her blankly, and I could see the guardedness and avoidance in her eyes, and I rolled my eyes, a little puzzled why she was like this,

"Hongling," I called her name,

"Who are you," she asked me warily,

"Doctor, doctor," I remembered to call the doctor when I saw her expression.

When the doctor came, she fell asleep on the bed again, and the doctor asked me what had just happened, and I told me almost all the conversation and the wariness in her eyes, and the doctor was stunned and said, "No,"