If what Xiaoxiao said was true, then when we first arrived in Hangzhou, the portrait painted by Bai Lu and her suspicions during that time were actually hints pretended to give me, but I didn't think about it at the time, and missed the opportunity to confess, but why did Bai Lu treat Xiaoxiao's child, and go to see Xiaoxiao and say those words to her, and what was even more excessive was that let Xiaoxiao's child have the same name as her,

Why is all this, why did Bai Lu do this, I turned my head to look at the moon outside the window, trying to find the answer from it, but found that it was cloudy tonight, it was dark outside, and there was still a figure of the moon, my eyes gradually became gloomy, my brows were furrowed, and I smiled but hesitated and said: "I always thought you knew these things, so I have been hating you since then, until ......"

"Until what," I asked anxiously,

Smiled and sighed, "Until I found out that I had uremia,"

My eyes couldn't help but be a little gloomy, and I continued with a smile: "After meeting Chen Bailu, I swore that I must raise Nannan alone, and I must train her to be the best girl, but because there is no one to take Nannan, I want to go home to meet my parents," Speaking of this, Xiaoxiao took a deep breath, spit it out again, and said with a smile: "But the parents at home have had accidents one after another, so I can only take Nannan in Hangzhou alone,"

I never expected Xiaoxiao to skip the death of her parents, and said it so lightly, but I felt ashamed in my heart, so I didn't ask more, just listened to Xiaoxiao and continued:" When a person took Nannan, although it was very hard and tired, but now I think back on it actually feels quite happy, Nannan is a girl, I don't like to cry since I was a child, and very obedient and sensible, when she was eight months old, I went to apply for a company that can take children to work, I want to fight for the future, during that time, I not only have to go to work every day, but also take care of Nannan's daily life and learn new knowledge, life is very fulfilling, and, there is a divorced man in the company is also chasing me, I feel that my future may not be so bad, but, at this time, I began to have a low temperature fever all over my body, at first I didn't care, thinking about taking a little cold medicine, It will be fine in a few days, as a result, my body has been suffering from low temperature fever for about a month, and my spirit has begun to get worse and worse, and in the end I can't drag it on, so I went to the hospital to check it, that day, it was raining in Hangzhou, I was very panicked and scared in my heart, when the doctor told me very seriously that I was suffering from uremia, I only felt that the world was spinning, and my life was completely gray."

I dragged Xiaoxiao's hand, put it to my mouth, looked at the tears in her eyes, silent comfort, Xiaoxiao swallowed back the tears in her eyes, and continued with a long sigh of relief: "At that time, I felt why God was so cruel to me, I was unexpectedly pregnant after breaking up with you, and you got married when I returned to Shanghai, and I was born with heart disease, even my parents ......"

Xiaoxiao couldn't hold back anymore, crying loudly in my arms, tears soaked the placket on my chest, invaded my heart through flesh and blood, my eyes were hot, I couldn't help but tears, Xiaoxiao took three minutes to sort out his emotions, and continued to say to me: " Actually, I'm not afraid of uremia, I'm not afraid of death, I just can't let go of Nannan, I can't let go of Nannan alone in this world, she just turned a year old at that time, and she is babbling, and I know that my life will end someday in the future, I don't have time to watch her grow up, watch her grow, that kind of heartache, that kind of bitterness, I think you will never understand,"

I didn't know how to answer Xiaoxiao, I could only hold her in my arms, the tears on my face couldn't help but soak her shoulders, I wanted to comfort her, I wanted to compensate her, but I didn't know how to comfort, how to compensate, I owe her, a lot, Xiaoxiao slowly broke away from my embrace, and continued to say to me:" The doctor told me that if I want to live, I need to have a kidney transplant, and a usable kidney is almost sky-high, free kidney source, almost nothing, the doctor's words made me understand that I am already a dead person, and it is impossible to continue to live in this world, so I decided to give up all dialysis treatment and wait for death at home, but I can't let go of her, who has just turned one year old, I thought hard at home for a month, and finally made the next decision, I want to take care of the girl until I can't take care of it completely, and then I contacted an orphanage in Hangzhou at that time, once I died, Nan Nan would be taken away by them, after making this decision, I will do my best to teach Nan Nan to speak, teach Nan Nan to walk, I want to use the last bit of light in my life, let Nan Nan stand up and face the world alone,"

"In the end, Nan Nan lived up to expectations, and finally on the day I fell ill, I learned to walk, she lay on my stomach, and called me Mom, Mom in a childish voice, but I fell to the ground when I fell ill, but I didn't even have the strength to reply to her words, fortunately Su Su rushed to my house that day and took me to the hospital, otherwise I would probably have left this world at that time,"

"In the hospital, Su Su persuaded me, saying that let me do hemodialysis treatment, do all kinds of conservative treatment, and then wait in the hospital to be able to use the kidney source, don't be too pessimistic, but what I really listened to is, do you want to be a child without a mother at such a young age, at that time, I cried silently and hugged Su Su, but Su Su took out all the savings of her work for several years and gave me all her savings and asked me to use it for hemodialysis,"

"In this way, I started dialysis treatment twice a week, the hope of uremia treatment is easy to obtain, despair is followed by hope, the pain of each dialysis, the hair falling out after excessive dialysis, and the insomnia lying in bed all night after the body deteriorates, are slowly eating away at my few hopes, as the money Su gave me is exhausted, I am more and more hopeless, I don't know where my future is, I don't know if my tomorrow will be lit up, I began to try to leave Nannan, so that Nannan is used to living without me, but seeing Nannan lying in Su Su's arms and crying, I will hide in the dark and cryIt feels like God is cutting the flesh of my heart with a blunt knife, and I understand completely that I can't leave Nannan, and Nannan can't leave me, our lives are one and inseparable,"

"However, at this time, I actually began to hear from you, I saw you on various news, saw your company, saw you attend various occasions, I tried not to let myself hate you, but whenever I saw the figure belonging to your genes from Nannan, I always couldn't help crying, I began to complain about you, complained that you were so ruthless, and didn't care about your children, but, countless midnight dreams, I understood that I didn't have any qualifications to hate you, all of this was my own fault, your life looked forward, I can't live in the memory of the past, I began to think about whether to make a will, and wait until I die, let the girl live with you, in this way, although she doesn't have a mother, she has a father, and following you, it will definitely be much better than the orphanage, but ......"

I couldn't laugh and cry, but I asked anxiously, "But what?"

Xiaoxiao cried loudly: "However, at this time, I received an email from you, and a remittance from abroad,"

"What," I was taken aback, and opened my mouth, not knowing what the hell was going on,

Xiaoxiao sobbed and said: "You said in the email that you will never recognize Nannan, this money is reserved for Nannan, it is the first and last payment,"

"Impossible," I shouted angrily, Xiaoxiao was startled, I said excitedly: "I have never sent you an email, let alone sent money, Xiaoxiao, if you didn't have a connection with Hongling, I'm afraid I wouldn't know that you gave me a baby until now,"

My excited words made Xiaoxiao retract her sobs, look at me in confusion and said: "But I did receive an email in your name at that time, and received a remittance of 100,000 yuan, part of this money I used to repay the money owed to Susu, and the remaining part I used to do kidney dialysis, as well as my daily life with Nannan, before receiving this money, I was still thinking about whether I should hand over Nannan to you to take care of after I died, after receiving this money, your heartless words in the email, let me decide never to let Nannan recognize you, ”

I shook my head and said, "I've never emailed you to send money, it must be someone else,"

"Who is it," Xiaoxiao asked, grabbing my arm,

I couldn't help but fall into deep thought, and after thinking for a moment, I asked with a smile: "When did you receive that email and remittance?"

"When I was two and a half years old,"

"It shouldn't be," I gritted my nails, my brow full of suspicion,

"What shouldn't you," asked with a smile of confusion,

I didn't answer Xiaoxiao's question, I lowered my head and thought carefully, when Nan Nan was two and a half years old, Dong Solstice and Jade Girl had just turned two years old, and those who knew what happened between me and Xiaoxiao were only personnel girls and Chen Bailu, personnel girls are now in a coma in bed, but she didn't have any reason to send an email to Xiaoxiao, and if she really sent it, then why did she take her to Shanghai to see a doctor when Xiaoxiao was dying, but it wasn't a personnel girl, could it be Chen Bailu, to be honest, Chen Bailu was the most suspicious, she had seen Xiaoxiao behind my back before, and said those words to Xiaoxiao, and she also made Nan Nan have the same name as her,

But...... When Nan Nan was two and a half years old, the jade girl was already two years old, and Chen Bailu had been dead for two years, how could she send an email to Xiaoxiao to send money to her soul, it was difficult for her to borrow the corpse to return her soul, so I didn't give up and asked Xiaoxiao when she received the email, and said that sentence should not be,