Li Wei's footsteps paused, as if he was thinking about something, and after two more steps, we went out, and Li Baitian was probably still waiting outside.

Li Wei said: "You go and watch Tian'er, I'll arrange it, don't mention it for the time being if he doesn't ask." ”

I suddenly felt very heartbroken, a fresh life, because of the mistake of an adult, innocently lost his life, after losing his life, he had to be done a paternity test to prove his origin.

Regardless of the identity, the child is innocent. And the reason why children are innocent is because of the mistakes of us adults.

Sometimes I think that when the children are gone, what is the point of doing this test. But for some reason, this identification is still necessary, even to figure out what to write on the tombstone. The deceased is gone, but the living cannot continue to be unclear.

I don't know what Li Baitian will think in his heart, but with the personality of the Li family, they will definitely figure out this problem.

I came out and saw that Li Baitian was still sitting in a dejected posture in his chair, as if he was not thinking about anything, but did not want to speak. Liu Shuyu was still resting in the delivery room, and the doctor said that she was asleep, and she didn't know how to tell her the news.

I sat down next to Li Baitian, and I couldn't help but reach over my hand and cover the palm of Li Baitian's hand that was hanging on his knee, I didn't know how to comfort him, I could only convey this little bit of strength. Li Baitian slowly pushed my hand away with the palm of his other hand, not rejecting my comfort, as if telling me that he could, he didn't need comfort, and I didn't have to worry.

Slightly silent, Li Baitian lowered his head and spoke, his voice was a little solemn and weak, "When Liu Shuyu first came, I was very reluctant, I thought about many possibilities, such as the child is not mine, or Liu Shuyu used the child to let me marry him, or because of this child, my life is chaotic, a lot, I also blame myself for being dishonest before, but I never thought about this result, never thought about it." ”

Who thought, none of us thought about it. I hate Liu Shuyugui and hate her, but that child came to the world cleanly, he is not at fault at all, although he may come and cause us a lot of new troubles, but it is never his fault.

We went from being unable to accept it to finally waiting for him to come, but he left in such a hurry.

What a cruel reality.

Li Baitian continued, "Do you know what it's called?"

I thought of that word, and Li Baitian asked and answered himself, and he had already said it first, "This is a sin." After a pause, he continued, "I used to just think about having fun, having fun, being at ease, and I didn't think that there was anything unequal about the future, and I didn't think that this was evil. How should I pay it back now, what will I pay back, he won't give me a chance at all......"

I listened quietly, looked at him quietly, probably not in reflection, but in the words of my own thoughts, and the voice in my heart. He said, "I ......," his voice trembled, "I think I killed him, killed my own child, and if I had been more resolute just now, let them dissect it, force them to dissect it, maybe it wouldn't have been like this." But now, there is no more chance......"

Li Baitian's eyes were red, but he just lowered his head. When we make mistakes, we often comfort ourselves that mistakes can be made up, primary school fables teach us that it's not too late to make amends, in textbooks, we are taught good knowledge and morality, society and experience tell us that reality is cruel.

Some mistakes just can't be made up, no matter how hearty you are, you can't make up for it, God won't give you a chance. This feeling of wanting to make up but not being able to make up for it will turn into a long torment, towards the twilight, until you really see it through and let it go.

Life is an experience, far more complicated than fighting monsters and leveling up.

I still want to say something to comfort Li Baitian, but in front of life, many comforts are very pale, and even seem a little unconscionable.

I said, "When I was a child, my neighbor had an older brother who fell ill and died when he was eight years old. That brother was very smart, and everyone liked him. The fortune teller said that he was a child, a boy who was waiting for the gods in the sky, and he made a mistake, so he went down to earth. Then when the time comes, it will be time for him to go back to heaven. We don't know why we came into this world, where we will go when we leave, maybe better than now. Maybe...... It was it itself that did not want to stay, he ...... There is a place for him to go. ”

Li Baitian pondered for a moment and shook his head gently, "Those are all comforting words, that is self-deception." ”

Yes, isn't a lot of comfort just to seek a relief, to let yourself suffer a little less in regret and regret. But the deceased is gone, and the living should live positively and optimistically, so many things are too absolute, and it is impossible to judge right and wrong.

Li Baitian is still pondering, and I won't say anything anymore, this matter, if you want to say that the most hurt, it must be Liu Shuyu.

I don't like Liu Shuyu, the Liu Shuyu who beat me makes me feel hypocritical and scheming, but I don't resent Liu Shuyu as a mother.

I know that no matter what, ten months pregnant, Liu Shuyu has love for this flesh and blood in her belly. The pain of losing a child, she should be the most painful one.

Liu Shuyu entered the ward and was still sleeping. We followed from outside the delivery room to the outside of the ward, Li Wei glanced at me and signaled that the paternity test had been arranged.

That result, what kind of result will it be, at this time, emotionally speaking, it really doesn't matter, so Li Baitian didn't take the initiative to mention it.

He was still accepting the hasty departure of this life, probably not thinking about it at all.

I hope Liu Shuyu will sleep like this, and the longer she sleeps, the better, because we are a little uncourageous, and if she knows about this, she will feel unable to face her.

But she still had to wake up after all, and when she woke up, there was still a trace of exhaustion on her face, because the child had been born too hard last night.

She smiled at Li Baitian, but Li Baitian couldn't smile at her, just looked at her, even if she had no face to face it, even if she once had disgust with her in her heart, she should feel sorry for her at this time.

Liu Shuyu asked us, "What about the baby, when can I watch it?"

Li Baitian didn't speak, and my eyes were stunned, but Li Wei was calmer and lied, "It's not right now, it's in the insulation room." ”

Liu Shuyu showed a disappointed expression on his face, Li Wei and I stopped talking, but Li Baitian suddenly opened his mouth, "Don't lie to her, sooner or later you will know." ”

Liu Shuyu was ignorant and didn't understand what we meant. My nose ached, and I turned my face away.

Li Wei looked at Li Baitian cautiously, she may be worried, Liu Shuyu now knows that it will be okay if she is hit, but Li Baitian thinks that it is better to know earlier than later, otherwise before she knows the truth, Liu Shuyu has been thinking about the child in the incubator in her heart, with the mood of being a mother, and then knowing that this is just a lie, and the blow may be even greater.

Li Baitian lowered his eyes and stated lightly, "The child is gone, and the ...... will be gone when he is born."

He turned his face aside and didn't look at Liu Shuyu's expression.

Liu Shuyu's eyes were stunned, showing an expression of disbelief, and then looking at the heaviness on the faces of all of us, scum eyes, and the eyelashes were wet.

But she didn't cry very presumptuously, she probably felt ridiculous, and showed a desolate smile while crying. That expression was very complicated, and Liu Shuyu's mood at the moment was also very complicated.

Accepting the true idea is already complicated, and the blow behind the reality is even more complicated. So I think Liu Shuyu is a little crazy, and behind this layer of madness, there may be a trace of relief.

It seems that everything has become in vain, this October pregnancy, this step-by-step careful arrangement, there is nothing.

After the complication, Liu Shuyu finally began to cry uncontrollably, crying heartbreakingly. Li Wei was kind and walked to the side to comfort her, she leaned on Li Wei's stomach and cried, crying so much that she had a handful of snot and tears.

Li Baitian couldn't stand it anymore, turned around and walked out of the ward, I stood for a while, I couldn't stand it anymore, and followed out of the ward.

At dusk, there are not many people walking in the green belt of the hospital, and patients and family members who go to eat with lunch boxes on the small road are in a hurry. Li Baitian sat on a chair with flowers and trees behind him, and his eyes were hazy and teary.

He still cried in the end, this crying boy.

But he didn't cry so much, he just covered his eyes with his palms, and the skin of that piece must have been damp.

I stood a few steps away and watched him for half an hour.

In those two days, Li Baitian and Li Wei took care of Liu Shuyu in the hospital, and the main force was still Li Wei. Compensation or something, the Li family is not rare, and I feel that after the death of the child, all this is very pale and powerless.

And I, after all, still have my own things to go. The company in Beijing didn't send me another notice for a second interview, so I guess it's out of the picture. The one in Shanghai, although I can get on if I apply for a job, if I continue to delay like this, people will not always leave me a place.

But I was very entangled, I didn't want to leave Li Baitian at this time, even though I was by his side, I couldn't help much. It's just that I'm still a little worried, and I want to see that the matter is solved, and then I can leave with confidence.

I occasionally go to the hospital to have a look, mostly outside the ward, and if I don't go in, I have nothing to do with Liu Shuyu, and she doesn't necessarily want me to come to condole.

Li Baitian had not yet arrived at the hospital that day, Li Wei's child was sick and was in the hospital to see a doctor, she went to accompany me and asked me to help get the paternity test report.

It was done expeditiously, and the report came out quickly.

When I got the report in my hand, I couldn't help but feel a little curious, looking at the file bag in my hand, it took a little courage to open it. But this result, I want to know.