Grandma's, didn't he stimulate me, I cried even more, the tragedy is that I cry while I endure it, and the crying will be uglier than ordinary crying.

I really rarely cry in front of Li Baitian, I don't like to cry before and after. I'm not a fragile girl, I love to cry, because I don't like to cry so much, sometimes I feel that crying is also a state of shame to show people.

Li Baitian's head turned back again, as if to avoid my pitiful gesture, his fingers twitched slightly, and he turned to lie on his side, and put away his injured arm.

This is a gesture of absolute refusal, and I am also sensible, snorting and holding back tears, and said in a very reluctant voice, "Then you have a good rest, don't touch the water, I'll stay here." ”

"Hmm. He replied with no seriousness.

Back in my room, I couldn't help but think about tonight. I still feel full of apologies, and I still don't know how to express it.

The mud and snow that Li Baitian said made me deeply reflect on whether I was too pretentious and too strict with Li Baitian. I can hardly tolerate the slightest mistake with him, as long as I do something wrong, I will scold him, and I will never let him in my mouth.

But I let him in my heart, even if he did a lot of wrong things, even if I was angry to death every time, he didn't even have to admit his mistakes, as long as he said a few more words to me, he could be confused.

This time I should have done something wrong, I shouldn't have scolded him indiscriminately and hurt people's self-esteem. Then can I be like Li Baitian, pretend that nothing happened, wait for him to be angry for two days, say a few more words to him, and then fool him around.

This is a family relationship mode, maybe Li Baitian and I have really been so close.

Just thinking of his sentence, "We have nothing to do with each other", will make me feel a loss of heartache. But that's the way it is, even if you don't want to think about it, you have to accept it.

Now the one who has the most direct relationship with Li Baitian is Liu Shuyu.

At one o'clock in the morning that night, Li Wei called me, woke me up from my sleep, and asked me, "What about Tian'er?"

I asked, "What's wrong, sister?"

She said: "Oh my God, Liu Shuyu is about to give birth, let him hurry to the hospital, and he won't answer the phone!"

It's not that he didn't answer the phone, it's that Li Baitian didn't hear it at all, he was drunk like that, and he couldn't wake up easily. I was awakened immediately, Liu Shuyu is going to be born, he is going to be born, what is this and this.

For a while, I couldn't figure out what the concept was, but what was supposed to come was what was going to come.

I quickly got up and touched Li Baitian's room. His room was still unlatched, and he slept directly after I left.

And Li Baitian was still lying on his side in the same position as I had left, his bed was next to the window, the curtains were not drawn, and the moonlight hit his face, very soft.

I suddenly don't want to wake up Li Baitian, Liu Shuyu gave birth to a child, no one knows whether it will be a good change or a bad change.

Probably bad. If it's bad, I really want Li Baitian to get a good night's sleep one more night.

Standing on the edge of the bed, I looked at his sleeping posture and was in a trance, but finally reached out and patted him on the shoulder, "Li Baitian?

He didn't react, he slept too hard.

I turned Li Baitian's body over and patted his face again, and Li Baitian's eyelids moved, but they didn't open. I said, "Wake up, Liu Shuyu is about to give birth." ”

Li Baitian still didn't react, and after two seconds, he suddenly opened his eyes, and then he was dumbfounded.

Liu Shuyu is about to give birth, and she is going to be sent to the hospital in the next two days, why did she give birth suddenly. Obviously, Li Baitian is not ready, he may want to wait for Liu Shuyu to be hospitalized before starting to make psychological preparations?

Li Baitian didn't move yet, I reacted faster than him, hurriedly opened Li Baitian's wardrobe to find clothes for him, and pulled a shirt for him casually. I helped Li Baitian to sit up, and he was still very tired of drinking.

Help him take off the torn clothes, and then I quickly put this new one on him, Li Baitian was fiddled with by me, and when I buttoned him, he suddenly said, "Liu Shuyu is going to give birth?"

I looked at him, "Your sister just called me, and I'm going to the hospital right now." ”

Li Baitian jumped up, put on his shoes and buttoned them while walking out in a hurry, and I took his mobile phone and followed behind.

It's not good to take a taxi in the middle of the night, we are very anxious on the side of the road, Li Baitian's expression is indescribably complicated, sometimes dignified and sometimes flustered, I don't know what kind of mood is at the moment.

If it is really his child, his child is about to be born, he will change his identity and become a father, that kind of feeling, I can't understand if I haven't been a father.

I don't think he fully understands it himself.

When I got into the taxi, I could see that Li Baitian was uneasy, he still had a headache because of drinking, and he kept rubbing his forehead with his hands.

Why don't you think about being angry with me right now?

I said, "Don't worry, it's okay, it's just ahead of nowhere." ”

He nodded silently.

When we arrived at the hospital, only Li Wei was waiting outside the delivery room, and Liu Shuyu had already entered. Li Baitian's parents really didn't come, these are two very calm elders, and they haven't shown much enthusiasm for Liu Shuyu's pregnancy.

Their attitude is that when the child is born and it is confirmed that it is the Li family, they will want to treat it as they want, if not, Liu Shuyu and the child will go wherever they like.

When Li Baitian saw Li Wei, he probably wanted to ask about Liu Shuyu's situation, but suddenly he couldn't open his mouth. Li Wei is still relatively calm, after all, he has given birth, and said: "It's okay, open the uterus, give birth smoothly." ”

Li Baitian nodded, sat down on the chair, sat for two seconds, still felt unsure, and stood up again. I know he has a headache and keeps touching his forehead, as if he is thinking about something, and like he is not thinking about anything.

In fact, there is nothing to worry about, anyway, the child is going to come out, and then worry about coming out, wait calmly, and then there is the paternity test.

I persuaded Li Baitian to sit down, and he looked at me, and now he remembered that he was angry with me, so he didn't look at me very enthusiastically.

Liu Shuyu went in for three hours, the sky was almost dawn, we couldn't wait anymore, just waited patiently, maybe the next moment, and the next moment, there will be results.

The doctor came out and said once that the palace entrance had been completely opened, but the birth was not very smooth. Now we are still working on it, we asked the reason, and the doctor still advised us not to worry, not everyone can have a smooth birth, it varies from situation to situation.

Li Wei has given birth to a child, and she also told Li Baitian not to worry, she gave birth for eight hours, and it was still early.

Let's wait, I remembered to accompany Liu Shuyu for an examination before I remembered it, saying that it was the umbilical cord around the neck, and then told Li Wei. Li Wei said that when he checked for the last time, there was no problem.

The last inspection was last week, and another week has passed, and Liu Shuyu is suddenly about to give birth, which ...... No one can say for sure, anyway.

The doctor came out again and said that he was still trying his best, and there was no such thing as heavy bleeding so far, but it was not going well. I asked, "Is it too late to dissect?"

The doctor said, "Caesarean delivery is an indicator, and now it's like this, try to go as smoothly as possible." ”

Then we waited again, Li Baitian and the doctor were anxious once, and shouted to the doctor, "Caesarean section, hurry up and dissect it!"

The doctor still says that if you want an index, if you don't have an index, it is not recommended to dissect it. Li Wei and I comforted Li Baitian, don't be irritable, give birth to a child, it's a torturous process, people inside and outside are tormented, calm down.

Welcoming a new life always requires waiting and the test of mixed feelings.

An hour later, the doctor came out again, with a mask on her face, still calm, she said: "It has been born, the mother is normal, and now the child is not good and is being rescued." ”

Li Baitian glared in amazement, Li Wei and I were stunned at the same time, but we are not doctors, and there is no other way but to wait for death.

Another twenty minutes, and the doctor announced to us that the newborn had died.

Li Baitian's body shook, his face was like ashes in an instant, and he sat down on the chair with a hollow eye, and the whole body froze there.

Li Wei and I were also shocked, but we felt unacceptable, and it felt very ridiculous. I couldn't help but open my mouth and blink, my body trembling slightly.

Why did it die? We are in a hurry like this, waiting for it to be born, waiting for it to be born and causing us more trouble, we are all waiting for it, how can it ......

Li Baitian's back bent into an arc of defeat, I don't know what he was thinking at that moment, was it a pity for the child's life, an unacceptable situation, or even a trace of relief?

Anyway, he was just bent like that, Liu Shuyu was normal, and no one cared about him.

Later, the doctor brought the death report and asked Li Baitian to sign it, and Li Baitian's hand holding the pen shook on the paper, and it seemed that he could not put down the pen.

He looked at the words on it line by line, and probably didn't see anything, and the only thing he could see clearly was the cause of death: suffocation.

The child suffocated and died during childbirth, and if we had been more resolute at that time, no matter what indicators were indicators, and forced the doctor to have a caesarean section, maybe it would not have been like this......

The tip of the pen touched the paper, leaving a black dot, and I looked up at the doctor and asked, "Can we see the child?"

The doctor nodded.

Li Baitian and I glanced at each other and said kindly, "Don't look at it, I'll go with Sister Li Wei." ”

Li Baitian was stunned for a moment and nodded.

He didn't dare to look at it, where did he get the courage to look at it, and I didn't want him to see it, this life that might keep his blood, from a small embryo to a well-developed human life, if he looked at it, I dare not imagine what kind of torture it would be for him in the future.

Li Wei and I saw the baby who was no longer breathing, and the coming and going of life at that moment, this capriciousness caused a huge shock in my heart, and this shock was completely indescribable and indigestible in a short period of time.

Li Wei only sighed and looked away, I couldn't bear to look at it anymore, and when I walked out, I asked, "Paternity test, do you still do it?"