I was very happy, I was excited, hugged Xiaoxiao, kissed her on the face, and the shy smile was even more red, and I was a little embarrassed, and after scratching my head, I said to Xiaoxiao: "You don't know how painful it is for me to look for you all over the world after you left a few years ago."

I used a relaxed tone to Xiaoxiao, how I found her after I left, how I got out of the shadow she brought after she left, and how did I know Chen Bailu returned to work in the company, and then the company fell apart, Chen Bailu was wrongfully imprisoned, I turned the tide and rescued Chen Bailu, and then I went to prison myself, Chen Bailu desperately saved me, until the end, I and Chen Bailu created Bailu Finance and the relationship between us, I told Xiaoxiao all the things about me and Chen Bailu and personnel girls in the past few years, when she heard that Chen Bailu originally married Chen Ruoxiong, I went to Beijing to rob her relatives, her expression couldn't help but be nervous, when she learned that Chen Bailu died in childbirth, she had to let me take herWhen the ashes were sent to the moon, she had tears in her eyes

And my tone, my tone has always been as calm and relaxed as if I was telling someone else's story

I didn't ask Xiaoxiao what she had done over the years, I didn't ask her why she was associated with the personnel girls, I just used her as a confidant to confide in my experience over the years, and confided in my heart over the years, when it came to the personnel girls who had a severe concussion, I was very depressed and said: "No matter what happens to the two of you, it's all my fault, and I will be responsible for the two of you."

Listening to me talk about these smiles, her eyes suddenly hesitated a little, and after a moment of silence, she suddenly said to Nannan, let Nannan, go and call the nurse sister, I immediately wanted to stand up and say that I will call, but when I saw Xiaoxiao's eyes, I knew that she seemed to have something to say to me, and wanted to open Nannan, and sure enough, after Nannan, after leaving the ward, Xiaoxiao's eyes sank and said to me: "God, I don't need you to be responsible for me, I hope you can be responsible for Nannan."

I held my breath and didn't speak immediately, smiled and continued: "I know my illness, I hope you can take care of her after I die, after all, she is also your child"

Listening to Xiaoxiao say this, I immediately wanted to refute her, she said, don't say such frustrating words, I will definitely cure your illness, but remembering what her best friend said, I couldn't help but refute her, but I didn't immediately agree, Xiaoxiao saw that I hesitated, so I said: "If it weren't for the fact that I couldn't take care of Nan Nan until I grew up, I would never have stepped into Shanghai half a step, and now I am still young, and I am leaving this world again, I have to entrust Nan Nan to you, I hope you can be kind to her."

Xiaoxiao's words moved my heart, grabbed her hand, and immediately wanted to say to her, I will definitely be good to Nannan, but before the words were spoken, Nannan, with the nurse's sister pushed the door in, the nurse saw me grabbing Xiaoxiao's hand, with a snicker, Xiaoxiao's face blushed for no reason, slowly pulled his hand out of my hand, and casually asked the nurse something, the nurse was taken away, and after the nurse left, I still wanted to say what had just happened, Xiaoxiao glanced at the girl who was looking at us with wide eyes next to her, and signaled me to shut up

I understood it at this point, and I didn't need to say anything more when I smiled, and I didn't need to say more, so I turned my head and hugged Nan Nan in my arms and said to her, "Daddy will teach you how to draw?"

"Okay," she said in a milky voice

I took her crayons and drew a child on the left hand side of the child, a mother with long hair on the left hand side, a tall father on the right hand side, I asked her what I was drawing, Nan Nan tilted her head to look at me and Xiaoxiao pointed to the long-haired one and said this is a mother, and pointed to the tall man and said this is Dad, and finally pointed to the child in the middle and said this is Nan Nan, I kissed her on the face and said that she is so smart, Nan Nan showed a very happy smile, and the smile on the side also pursed her mouth and smiled, but there was a trace of imperceptible bitterness in the smile

Xiaoxiao knew that after I agreed to let her leave, she seemed to cherish the last few days with me, and when I stayed by her side and chatted with her, she was not as cold as before, and I knew that she was hiding something in her heart, so I didn't say much about her illness and her life in Hangzhou, only about my own life and the happy things of the coaxing girl

At the same time, I was looking for a kidney source that could be successfully matched with Xiaoxiao all over the world, and I even told the black intermediary that as long as I could find a successful kidney source, no matter what the source was, no matter how high the asking price was, I would accept all the orders, but unfortunately in the face of the precious kidney source, the black intermediary had no way, and when I was at a loss, Xiaoxiao and the attending doctor of the personnel lady suddenly came to find me, and said very solemnly that he wanted to tell me something

I looked at the doctor's very serious face, and immediately asked the doctor with some uneasiness in my heart: "What do you want to say, is it Xiaoxiao's condition?"

The doctor nodded and comforted me, "Don't be in a hurry to calm down, what I'm going to tell you is a good thing and a bad thing."

I smiled a little awkwardly and said, "Then you better say good things first."

"We have found the kidney source that has been successfully matched with the patient Hong Xihua," the doctor said with a serious face

"Really," my eyes lit up, and I felt half relieved in an instant

"But," I didn't have time to be happy, and the doctor said these two words, which made me a little nervous for no reason, and I swallowed my saliva and my throat swelled, and I listened to the doctor continue: "But the kidney source that was successfully matched with the patient Hong Xihua came from the patient Qin Hongling."

For a moment, I just felt like the world was spinning, and my brain was stunned, but I didn't react

The doctor explained to me that they were on the way to help Xiaoxiao find a kidney source, and accidentally found that Xiaoxiao and the personnel girls basically met the indicators, so they helped Xiaoxiao and the personnel girls to do an HLA test, and the results were unexpectedly found that their HLA was exactly the same, meeting the standards in kidney metastasis surgery, the result was in his hands three days ago, the doctor had been in his hands, he had been hesitant to tell me, after all, one is my wife, the other is my lover, my wife has a severe concussion, coma in bed, if you take your wife's kidney to save your lover, I am afraid that the people in my wife's family will be unwilling, and it does not meet the regulations in kidney transfer surgery, but Xiaoxiao's kidney has been overwhelmed and will be alive at any timeThe operation is imminent, and if they can't find the kidney source again, they will probably leave this world, and they have no choice but to tell me the news and let me make a decision

After listening to the doctor's explanation, the feeling of the world spinning was even stronger, and it took me five minutes to react, but after I reacted, I didn't know what to do, I never thought that the kidneys of the personnel girls could be used, and there was no blood relationship between the two of them, this kind of one-in-a-million thing happened in front of my eyes, my eyes were as big as bull's eyes, and the whole person was excited and depressed, and I didn't know what I was thinking

The doctor also understood my situation, and immediately said to me, you don't have to worry, you can think about it for a week or so, if you agree to the operation, you, as Qin Hongling's family, can sign the kidney transfer consent form on her behalf, and then we will operate immediately, and the operation is estimated to last more than ten hours

I shook my head and didn't know what to say to the doctor

The doctor understood my mood very well, and said to me from a different angle, of course, if you don't agree, we also understand your feelings, after all, the patient is in a coma, let's rashly transfer her kidneys, and it is not reasonable to say morally, so you can think about this matter and give me an answer within a week

After that, these doctors sighed again and said to me, in fact, the best way is to wait for the patient Qin Hongling to wake up and let her personally agree, so that it is also said from a moral level, but seeing that she has no way to wake up, she can only take care of the person in front of her first, and then the sleepless person

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When I came out of the doctor's office, I met her with her crayon in her hand and said, "Dad, this is my drawing again, can you see it?"

I squatted in front of her and took her paintings, but I was not in the mood to look at them, casually saying that it could be very good-looking, Nan Nan was very happy, giggling, I looked at her smiling face, but my heart became more and more uncomfortable, and sent Nan Nan back to the ward, Xiaoxiao was lying on the bed, looking at the books I brought her, seeing that I brought Nan Nan back, smiled and put down the books, and showed a gentle smile on her face

I opened my mouth but didn't know what to say to her, so I had to ask her what she wanted to eat for dinner, and after getting an answer, I hurriedly left the ward and left the hospital to buy dinner for Xiaoxiao, but when I returned to the hospital, I remembered to bring dinner, and ran again, only to bring back a little porridge and soup dumplings for Xiaoxiao, and after handing over dinner to Xiaoxiao, I hurriedly left her ward and went to the staff room next door

As soon as I walked into the ward, I lay on her bedside and cried silently

I don't understand, I don't understand why God is so cruel, why other people's kidneys can't be used, why it's the personnel girl who successfully matches the kidney source with the smile, why when the personnel girl is in a coma, their kidney source is successfully matched, and losing a kidney is indeed not life-threatening, but the person girl is now in a vegetative state, and her body itself is weaker than ordinary people, if you lose another kidney, I'm afraid......

In addition, I really can't bear to make this decision for the girls, both of them are the women I love the most in this world, and now I have to choose one or the other, it's like a bad guy holding a knife and asking me to keep my left hand or right hand

But the palms of the hands and the backs of the hands are all meat, and the left hand and the right hand can't be lost