041 Inferiority complex
Maybe I've changed, at least when I'm in a bad mood, I start swearing and venting.
Later, Li Baitian told me that I was the purest place in his mind, and although he took care of the flashy world, he could not allow me to become the same worldly, and he would be very uncomfortable, as if something he had been holding on to had been snatched away, as if the lighthouse in his heart was gradually extinguished.
So seeing my change would make him feel gloomy. He also knew he shouldn't care, but he couldn't help but care.
I often think that I will never bother with Li Baitian, but I have been messing with Li Baitian for too many years, and many things are related. It's like you have a conflict with your loved ones.
When Yuan Ze arrived in Beijing, I still had to show up with Li Baitian, but when it was not necessary, I ignored him.
After arriving in Beijing, Yuan Ze only had a short rest day, had a meal with us, and had to go back to rest in the evening, and there was a game the next day. Li Baitian and I went to the club stadium to watch the game, because it was just an exchange game, and the management was not very strict, Yuan Ze arranged us in a position on the side of the court, so that the three of us could talk.
Yuan Ze didn't start, Li Baitian teased, "You can't do this, I thought you were so capable, it turned out to be a bench player." ”
Yuan Ze smiled and didn't say anything. I snorted, "You can't sit on the bench if you want to." ”
When he was in high school, Li Baitian also liked to play basketball, and thought he played well, pretending to learn to slam dunk, but unfortunately he was not tall at that time, and it was a little difficult to touch the basket. But Li Baitian was not convinced, and he still had to go over to shop for the opening of the school's indoor basketball court on weekends.
He also fought with Yuan Ze, of course, he was abused.
I guess this matter can still cause a little shadow to Li Baitian, to be honest, Li Baitian is really no better than Yuan Ze except for the money in his family, he and Yuan Ze are together, and they will always give me a feeling that he is being pressed by Yuan Ze.
I don't know if Li Baitian himself feels like this.
This is the first thing I said to Li Baitian in the past two days, Li Baitian glanced at me, "Who do you look down on, I have also been in the school team, okay?"
"Hey, I don't know who was replaced in one game when I was in CUBA. ”
"Yo, you still care about CUBA?"
As soon as Li Baitian said this, I suddenly stopped talking. At that time, I did go to see the CUBA branch in Beijing, but Li Baitian didn't know about it. I remember that there were a lot of at that time, and the girls were talking about the No. 8 of the National University, and then all kinds of openings for the net worth of the No. 8.
In those few games, I don't know how many girls' hearts I have gained for Li Baitian.
When girls watch basketball games, most of them go to commit nymphomaniac, which Li Baitian understands very well, so he hurt me again, "Why didn't I know that you still had such a girl?"
I didn't let him either, "But isn't it, I can still treat myself as a girl now, you have to be a father's person, is it interesting to compete with a girl?"
Li Baitian glanced at me, pursed his lips and stopped talking.
As far as I know, Liu Shuyu is almost due to delivery. When the kid was really sure it was Li Baitian, I waited to see his liveliness.
Yuan Ze smiled and listened to me arguing with Li Baitian, he never participated, he just watched very indifferently, and where he thought it was funny, he only smiled shallowly, never as exaggerated as Li Baitian. Yuan Ze is a very introverted character, but it doesn't make you feel gloomy.
In the second quarter, Yuan Ze was arranged to play, and he was never replaced after he went up. I don't know about basketball tactics, but after getting acquainted with Yuan Ze, I learned that there is a "sixth man", and Yuan Ze often plays the sixth man. When you get on the field, you're the absolute main force.
Yuan Ze played, Li Baitian and I sat across a chair, and we didn't speak, just watched him play. Li Baitian is estimated to be really watching the game, but I can't understand it, mainly watching Yuan Ze.
The last time I watched Yuan Ze play, it was all in high school, and the level naturally can't be compared with now. To sum it up in one word, it is - fast.
I'm really still a girl, and I'm a hot-blooded girl, I feel very handsome when I look at Yuan Ze now. He will pay attention to his every attentive expression, every movement he makes to his teammates, and the muscles that are pulled up in his calves when he is running.
That feeling of strength invigorates me.
Looking at it, Leng Buding remembered that Yuan Ze liked me, so he looked at Yuan Ze's gaze a little differently, and even suddenly felt a pounding feeling in his heart.
At that moment of thudging, I looked at Li Baitian. Like a fool, he stared at the pitch, stunned and motionless.
It really doesn't seem to be better than Yuan Ze.
With Yuan Ze in comparison, my dislike for Li Baitian seems to be getting stronger and stronger.
The result of the competition didn't matter, after Yuan Ze played here for two days, and I accompanied Li Baitian and visited the Great Beijing City, the Forbidden City and the Summer Palace with him.
When I was climbing the Great Wall, I almost broke my leg from exhaustion. Li Baitian and I have been lacking in exercise recently, and we have climbed four collars in Badaling, and we already feel that we have no strength at all.
But for the sake of the sentence "If you don't go to the Great Wall, you are not a hero", I still gritted my teeth and accompanied Yuan Ze to the end. Li Baitian said that I was really tired and lay down.
Holding on to the big stone, I pressed my thigh and struggled up the steps, Li Baitian looked back at me and stretched out a hand to me, "As for the girl, come and I'll pull you." ”
I opened his hand so that I didn't want him to pull it, and I hated him to death. I would never hold the hand of a man who is someone else's father, so a woman like me, even if she loves a man, is unlikely to be a mistress for someone else.
Another strong collar was held, Yuan Ze saw that I really couldn't do it, and said, "Otherwise, let's get here, let's go down after a while." ”
At this time, the sky is just right, the suburbs of Beijing are pleasant, and a slight breeze on the mountain, if it is not because it is too tired, it will blow people's hearts relaxed.
I looked at the mountain peaks that seemed to be far away, and I had a hint in my heart that I didn't want to give up.
In the end, it was Yuan Ze who carried me on his back, and from the time I jumped on Yuan Ze's back, Li Baitian didn't shout a word again, silently walked in front, and from time to time walked through the city wall to look at the beautiful scenery of the mountains and rivers, with a look of infinite thoughts.
Yuan Ze said: "Liu Shuyu is about to give birth, Li Baitian must be in a very bad mood now, don't always talk to block him." ”
It's thoughtfulness as a buddy.
But I couldn't, and I said, "He brought it all on himself, and he deserved it." ”
Yuan Ze shook his head, the corners of his lips were about smiling.
We didn't take the camera, and when we got to Badaling, we felt very bad, and we didn't have any special thoughts except for being tired. I took a casual photo with my mobile phone as a souvenir, and the three of them swayed down from the Great Wall.
The next day, I went to the Forbidden City, and when I came out of the Forbidden City, it was already noon, and Yuan Ze's plane back to Tokyo was four o'clock in the afternoon.
"Zhou Wenxue, how was your interview, why didn't you hear any movement?"
I was going to this company for an interview, and I told Li Baitian before, and he seemed to have mentioned that this company had a bit of a cooperative relationship with his father's company.
I said, "It's not good, I drank too much the day before, and I forgot everything I said during the interview, so let's wait for the news." ”
It's been a few days, and I guess there's no more news.
As he was talking, someone came to ask for directions, and his Mandarin was very awkward, and he didn't understand what he wanted to say for a long time. Yuan Ze made a tentative sentence in Japanese, confirming that he was Japanese.
The Japanese man had been separated from his companions, and said that they would meet somewhere, but they didn't know how to get there. After Yuan Ze understood, he turned his head and asked Li Baitian, "How do you go?"
Li Baitian stretched out his finger and said the way to run away skillfully, and then Yuan Ze translated it in Japanese to the person who asked for directions. The one who asked for directions politely said thank you to Yuan Ze, and Yuan Ze politely told him that it didn't matter.
Then Zayonala.
I looked at Yuan Ze's little touch, and I felt a trace of admiration in my heart, and I felt more and more that this young man was versatile and amazing. Li Baitian owes and says, "What are you doing talking to the little Japanese devil so much." ”
I said: "Do you understand that the person who is here is a guest, Beijing is still bidding for the Olympic Games, and when the time comes, the Eight-Nation Coalition will come, and you will shoot people out with guns." Are you aware that this is a time of peace?"
Li Baitian had an unhappy expression, "Yes, yes, yes, you are all people who are open to the world in language, and I am illiterate, okay?"
Li Baitian's attitude, why does it always make people look so uncomfortable.
Obviously, Li Baitian was inferior, Yuan Ze wanted to say something to comfort Li Baitian, just opened his mouth, Li Baitian glanced at the noon sun, squinted his eyes, and said, "I have something to do in the afternoon, you can wander around." ”
Li Baitian left, and in the chaotic crowd, he said goodbye to Yuan Ze in a hurry.
Yuan Ze and I don't want to say anything about Li Baitian anymore, he is now in my eyes, he just doesn't want to forge ahead, and now he knows that he has low self-esteem, and he knows that he has no interest, why did he go earlier. I didn't really despise him, it was he himself who always thought I was despising him.
That day, Li Baitian went to drink with a friend, and then went to the police station. As soon as I sent Yuan Ze away, I received a call from the police station, hurried over, and saw the tear on Li Baitian's clothes, which was still stained with blood.
I said, "Li Baitian, you are enough, you are like a puddle of mud now, look at yourself, what else can you do except fight and pick up girls!"
Li Baitian seemed to be in a good mood, but when I scolded him like this, he was instantly annoyed, "You didn't fight, which eye of yours saw me fighting." ”
I grabbed his arm, and I didn't care about the two buddies of Li Baitian who were standing next to me, and continued to scold, "You're not fighting, are you letting the dog gnaw? Or are you enough to bite it? Li Baitian, you have a long heart, what a big person, is it a shame!"
Li Baitian directly ignored me, turned his head and walked outside, a man in his thirties walked out, and politely said to Li Baitian and them, "Thank you, I invite you to dinner." ”