I took a scissor-hand selfie with my phone, and I felt a little silly, just be stupid, and I don't know much about selfies.

Who do you want to send it to.

I guess Li Baitian should have recovered by now, although he needs rehabilitation, nothing else, that is, the hand is more seriously injured, I don't know how it is now, whether he can move, whether he can hold things and so on.

I guess I can only use my left hand to hold a spoon when I eat now.

My contact information, Li Wei has, she should give Li Baitian, according to Li Baitian's previous enthusiasm, the whole person has sobered up, and she should take the initiative to contact me. But I never got in touch with him.

If you don't have a letter, you don't have to make a phone call?

If he didn't look for me before, I would never look for him. But now I don't think it's necessary to be more energetic, he likes to be passive, so I'll take the initiative, friend, it's nothing.

I called Li Wei, and Li Wei told me that Li Baitian was fine, and now she was still in the United States, and she had returned to China. After recovering from what happened last time, Li Baitian, like me, did not give up the initial plan, and still stayed in the United States to study videography, film and television directing.

He's still on his path, which is good and I'm very happy.

Li Wei didn't hide it, and directly gave me Li Baitian's contact information in the United States. Regarding the matter between me and Li Baitian, although Li Wei knows everything, although she will give me some advice, she still has an attitude of not participating, how we will develop in the future, she doesn't care, she only cares about the interests of the Li family, and she cares if the woman who marries Li Baitian in the future is capable enough.

I'm not saying now that I must marry Li Baitian or what to do with Li Baitian, but since I am thinking about it in my heart, I should contact it, and if it is possible, then make it clear, and develop if I can.

And when I came out to study, to a greater extent, I was cultivating myself. How high-sounding I said the reason, what I said was to be worthy of Li Baitian's background, it was all nonsense, I learned, my vision was broadened, and in the end, the biggest beneficiary was myself.

We are all transparent people, and if we choose, we choose, and there are not so many reasons for this to be good for that. The reason has always been to exonerate the past, and I am bound to be a person who looks to the future.

When I decided to call Li Baitian, it was 1 o'clock in the afternoon, which was a very serious time. After a few rings, I suddenly remembered that there was a time difference between me and him, and I didn't count how many hours it was, but it was probably still morning when he was there, or even dawn.

When I was about to hang up the phone and plan to call again in the afternoon, Li Baitian picked it up and said groggily, "Hello?"

Yo, isn't this good life in the United States, I didn't say hello in the first game of answering the phone, I changed it to hello.

His reflection made me suddenly a little confused, I didn't know whether to communicate with him in Chinese or English, reflected, I: "Uh...... It's me. ”

Li Baitian snorted, still confused, "Who are you?" ”

No, don't you just lie down for a month, and you don't even remember my voice, or can the foreign telephone line change its voice, and you can't hear it?

"I, Zhou Wenxue!" I emphasized to him.

Li Baitian said "um" ignorantly, and before he could say the next word, I heard another humming from his side, which was far away from the phone, so it was not very clear, but it was obviously not Li Baitian humming.

There's a very pure American pronunciation, woman, "hoisthatspeaking?"

Li Baitian snorted, probably didn't wake up, his voice was still a little muffled, but his tone was frivolous, "aitforme."

Then there was a kiss on the other end of the phone.

My heart is heavy, I am about to fall to the bottom, Li Baitian coaxed his big Yanma, turned his head to the phone and said, "What did you just say?"

I didn't bother to answer again, and my voice was faint: "Are you sleeping?"

"Hmm. ”

"Excuse me. ”

I hung up the phone and no one came back. If this was before, when Li Baitian was still very attentive, he was caught playing with the girl, if I called, he would never let the girl over there make a sound, and he wouldn't let me hear anything. I found out, I hung up the phone, and he would come back quickly to explain.

Now, huh.

The phone slipped straight from my palm onto my desk, and I sat cross-legged in my chair with my head leaning back against my back. I could feel my eyes sour, it wanted to cry, but I couldn't let it do that.

I made a pact with myself that nothing could make me cry again except being moved. I want to be sincere with every tear of my own and cherish every opportunity to be sad.

There is a limit to how sad a person is, and if he is hurt beyond the limit, he will not be in pain, and if he does not hurt, he will be equal to his heart is dead.

For more than half a year, this is the first time I heard Li Baitian's voice, he may never know what kind of agitation my heart was at that moment, I focused all my nervous senses on that kind of ear, catching every insignificant aftersound, he didn't know how many feelings I had brewed in this short half-minute call, the twelve words he said to me.

He didn't know anything, he knew he was in the United States, and he was going to play with the Yanmar.

Ha ha.

I tilted my head and kept blinking, evaporating my tears and turning them into a weak ridicule, I don't know what I was laughing at, but there was an unspeakable pain in my heart, and I had to find a way to vent it.

I looked up enough, reached out and took my phone back from the table, and flipped to the call record with Li Baitian, which lasted 31 seconds.

What is 31 seconds enough to do, 35 heartbeats, 50 typing, 152 meters running, 31 seconds, and 193 days of thoughts. These 31 seconds brought me such a shocking disappointment.

Li Wei said that Li Baitian has me in his heart, yes, no one can deny this before he falls. Maybe for many years, he has me in his heart.

But what did he do while he had me in his heart? Yes, he had me in his heart, but I was never all he had, not the tree that made him willing to give up the whole forest.

The country is easy to change, but the nature is difficult to change. Li Baitian is really still Li Baitian, and he did a good job.

It seems that he is recovering well, he can play with women, and there must be nothing wrong with his body, and I have nothing to worry about.

Without much hesitation, I easily deleted the number of Li Baitian who I asked for from Li Wei, including the call record just now.

That's it, when I was in Beijing, neighbors, there was always an intersection. And now, we're separated by an Atlantic Ocean.

I took a deep breath, opened the half-warmed book, don't forget my original intention of coming here, improve myself and cultivate myself, and then return to China to show my strength, and become a person who has absolute confidence and absolute qualifications and Li Baitian, who wants to see it on an equal footing.

If I see you again, I will never let anyone think that I am not doing well.

After that, I didn't contact Li Baitian again, he really didn't take the initiative to find me, so I looked at it more and more, anyway, time is the medicine that smooths everything, and people's cells will all be renewed in seven years, and I hope people's memories are the same.

After successfully completing my studies, I flew back to Beijing from the UK in September. I had already set my goal in my first job, I fell here two years ago, and two years later, I had to get back up.

I returned to Mr. Song's company, starting from the head of the department, climbing all the way up, going very smoothly, at the beginning of the second year, when the company's personnel were replaced, I went to the position of deputy manager.

Of course, this does not exclude that I have a friendship with Mr. Song. However, those old employees back then are really about the same, and the company's performance is much worse now than when I was there, this is an era of reincarnation, and nothing is an evergreen tree of the times.

As far as I know, Li Baitian's company is also transforming, and the specific direction is not clear to us, and I don't want to care too much, because I care about him and disturb my current pace of life.

I think that I will finally stand in front of him again and let him see a different me, a me that he can't underestimate even as a young owner of the group.

Back to the Beijing I am familiar with, the familiar streets, those pictures of the two people walking together will still flash in my mind, but every time I look in the mirror, I can't remember the way my long hair flutters, and the pair of high heels that Li Baitian bought for me were left in that small house, and they have become fragments of a garbage dump now.

I didn't deliberately inform Li Wei or Li Baitian about my return to China, even though I was in Beijing. But I don't have to deliberately avoid anything, Mr. Song and Li only have a relationship, which I always know that after their friendship, will they mention this once insignificant me, and not necessarily.

But I know that I am who I am, that I am working for myself, for my life, for my future.

Just after the New Year in 2007, I need to talk about an order, the New Year, we don't go to any wine dinner, the place was chosen in Deyun Club, thinking about the customer happy, the next words are easy to say.

This customer is from out of town, this is very fresh, I sat down in a good position with them, what was said on the stage, I didn't listen carefully, I just kept pouring tea and pouring water, and I would pretend to be a grandson.

This place doesn't feel like much has changed, but the jokes on stage are being updated every year, and I can still vaguely remember Li Baitian's stupid appearance.

I caught a glimpse of a person, the smile was very similar to his, I turned my head to look in the crowd, there were too many people, and it took a long time to find the target.

Then my heart really stagnated for a second, as if a breath was stuck in my throat, and I almost didn't hold it back.

I looked at him, and I saw the smile on his face that hadn't changed much, still stupid, especially two hundred and five. His appearance hasn't changed much, his left hand is supporting his chin, and his right hand is fingering little by little on the table, which is definitely not a prosthetic hand.

I couldn't help but look at him, and my gaze changed, because a girl in her early twenties stood up next to him, and said something to him, and the thief got out.

Li Baitian looked at the girl's back and pouted helplessly.