Chapter 190: Love and Sorrow

"Huo Jingyan, are we still so polite between us?" After teasing, Yun Canghai looked into his eyes and explained very seriously, "It's not that I won't go, it's really that I promised my mother to go home for dinner in the evening, so if you have anything to say, you can say it in the car." ”

After speaking, she reached out and pressed down the window glass, looked at the gradually receding scenery outside the window, and secretly thought in her heart: with her understanding of Huo Jingyan, the reason why he was able to break into Huo Jingchen's house like a child like a child must have something important to say, but she was not curious about what he wanted to say at all, because her heart had been handed over to Huo Jingchen.

Huo Jingyan turned a deaf ear to her explanation, and there was a hint of temptation in his eyes when he looked at her, "Canghai, since you said that we don't need to be polite between us, can I ask you if I have any questions?"

"Absolutely. "There are some things that are not the way, Yun Canghai smiled and nodded quietly.

"It's been more than four years, and if no matter how hard you try, you can't get that position next to you, then I'd love to ask...... I once said to you when I was abroad, I only have one friend of you in Jiangnan, if one day, you have no friend, then I will leave, and when I left a year ago, I also thought like that, as long as I leave, I will never come back, because my friend is no longer in Jiangnan, I can't see her, so for me, floating on the sea casually for this life, is my destined destination. However, my friend, she actually returned to Gangnam after leaving Gangnam to give me hope, my heart hurts, and I really want to ask my only friend......"

Speaking of this, he suddenly braked sharply and looked sideways at her, "Canghai, you say, my only friend really doesn't have me in his heart? Doesn't she even have the slightest place? Does she really not care about my feelings? How do I feel when I see her being forced to marry in front of my eyes? Canghai, do you understand?"

The expression on Yun Canghai's face did not change at all, only the unblinking half-drooping eyelashes fixed for about ten seconds, and then she smiled, "What do you mean?"

"Don't you know what I mean?" Is it true that I don't understand at all?" Huo Jingyan suddenly pointed to his heart, "There is you in this! Although I know who you have in your heart, I only have you in my heart! No matter who your eyes see, I only see you in my eyes in this life!" From the moment when our two cars were parallel, you were like a seed planted in my heart, more than four years, you are like a tree in my heart, you have long broken the ground and sprouted day and night, becoming the appearance of today's covering, so, you can help me think about it, in addition to liking me or plucking my heart, how else can you help me remove that tree?"

Yun Canghai couldn't laugh anymore, and stared at him with wide eyes, "Huo Jingyan, I never knew ......"

"I don't know, it's okay, so now that I say I love you, will you be afraid? Will you hate it? But there's no way, if I don't say it today, I'm afraid I'll never have ......a chance again" Huo Jingyan's long-suppressed emotions finally broke out, "Yun Canghai, I have loved you for a long time, and I can't live without you!"

Xu was shocked too much, and it took dozens of seconds for Yun Canghai to ease up, with a look of disbelief, "Why do you love me?"

"Why do I love you?" Huo Jingyan repeated these words, and then stared at her, her eyes were so affectionate that she couldn't understand, "Usually people say that there is no reason to love someone, it's a lie at all!

Seeing that Yun Canghai was silent, Huo Jingyan's emotions became more and more excited, "If you still ask me why I love you now, then there are at least a thousand reasons why I love you, your smile, your eyes, your voice, your kindness, your elegance, your taste, your style, your temperament...... Your hindsight, your sluggishness, your evasion, your many, many things, I love all the things in you, that's why I love you!"

Yun Canghai continued to be silent, his brow furrowed even deeper.

When everything crosses the line, it can be unacceptable, and so does the sound, the original beautiful piano music becomes a cacophony noise in a discordant mix with the traffic and people outside the window, and she is frustrated and irritated, so she simply turns off both.

In fact, she knew very well that what really upset her was not the music, nor the traffic and crowd outside the car window that were not too high, but Huo Jingyan's confession that suddenly pierced the bottom line.

In the small space inside the car, the atmosphere is dull and tense.

She didn't know what she should say, and she seemed to think that she should say something, and she was thinking about how to say it, when Huo Jingyan's hoarse voice slowly sounded again-

"There are thousands of people in the world, and I have met many people in the past 26 years, but not everyone I met can walk into my heart, and not everyone I know is worthy of my cherishment. If I love someone in my world, I will give everything to give everything, when I give everything to truly love someone, I will spend my whole life, no matter where that person is, no matter who she is, there is always my constant love waiting for her, but ......"

After a pause, Huo Jingyan suddenly looked at her and said a word, her tone was cold and lonely, which made Yun Canghai suddenly burst into tears.

"I want to put down all my dignity today to beg that person, beg her not to leave me there indefinitely just because she knows that I will wait for her forever!"

He no longer has the nobility and elegance of the past, and the humility revealed between his eyebrows after confessing is so poignant, so sad that it makes Yun Canghai tremble.

She quickly raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face, and her voice trembled imperceptibly, as if she was afraid that she would not be able to explain it too late, "Huo Jingyan, your love is extremely precious, I am very grateful, but I can't and dare not accept it, it is blasphemy to accept it, because my heart was given to him long before I knew you." ”

Who the word 'he' represents, Huo Jingyan fully understands, and it is precisely because he understands that he has not been silent for a long time.

After a long time, the tears on Yun Canghai's face gradually dried up, looking at his lifeless face, trying to comfort, "Huo Jingyan, there is not only one kind of human affection, we can't be lovers, we can still be friends for life." ”

"I don't want friends, I'm a person who doesn't need friends as long as I love, even if I'm lonely for the rest of my life!" Huo Jingyan leaned sideways to her, so close that she could smell each other's breathing, and each other's heartbeats could be heard, "Canghai, it's better to give up if others can't say it, but I'm different, I haven't given up in love, even if I run out of life, I will do my best for love!"

Yun Canghai tried his best to maintain a calm expression, wanting to make a joke to dissipate the embarrassing atmosphere, "Okay, let's not joke, our two families will meet tomorrow, they have already voted in favor, as my good friend, your vote is very important to me." ”

"Love is not a referendum, it depends on who gets the most votes. Huo Jingyan retreated, leaned on the steering wheel with one hand, and slowly raised the other, as if he wanted to hold something, but in the end he fell back forbearingly, "I know that the core structure of love is: you love him, he loves you." On this basis, it is meaningful to be recognized by everyone and blessed by the elders. Otherwise, no matter how beautiful the cheerleaders dance, the competition will not be exciting......"

"He's destined to be a legend, and I just like to be quiet, so my love with him doesn't need to be exciting, I just need him to stand by my side, it's enough. ”

Huo Jingyan didn't answer immediately, and only after a while turned around and yelled at her with red eyes, "Impossible! Ask your sincerity, do you love him? Do you really love him with all your heart? Isn't it because he used tricks to lure you into getting you to agree?" Canghai, if you have come out of Chu Anxun's past, then the first thing you see should be me, Chu Anxun knew you four years earlier than me, and I knew you four years earlier than my eldest brother, I don't know who Chu Anxun has in his heart in these four years, but I know that my eldest brother has a woman in his heart, as long as that woman comes back, it will only be you who will suffer, I only have you in my heart, I can't bear the possibility of you suffering, so I will stop you from marrying him at all costs!"

Seeing that he was trembling with anger but still thinking about her, Yun Canghai was so moved, if she was replaced, she would probably be like this, but being moved does not mean that he will be soft-hearted and give him a chance, sometimes cruelty is more powerful than soft-heartedness.

"Huo Jingyan, true love knows no time and no boundaries, no matter how many years are apart, no matter how far two people are apart, they will eventually meet because of love, the future is too far away, I can't see it, but if I really have that day with him, it can be regarded as a catastrophe that I can't escape in my life. ”

Her words of voluntary response to the robbery made Huo Jingyan speechless, he bit his lip, and suddenly smiled, except for the red circles in his eyes, he couldn't see any unhappiness, just looked at her-

The eye-catching eyes rippled over the shallow water waves, there was a kind of moving haze, as if more than two months of parting did not exist, she finally sat next to him again, it was time that finally pulled the two so close, but it was also time that the two of them were pulled into the sky and the sea, looking back in the silent night of more than 70 floating on the sea, she was always at the distance of her own step, also dreamy and illusory, sweet and smiling, ethereal...... And at this moment, her person is really sitting beside her, why does her heart seem to be farther away from him?

Tomorrow, thinking that tomorrow's Yun and Huo families are about to gather together to participate in the grand event, his heart hurts desperately, so painful that he can't breathe, as if the pain is about to drown him, as if grasping a life-saving straw, he can't help but grab her hand, "Canghai, even if you and Aunt Ye make an appointment to go home at night, then it's only past three o'clock, even if you laugh at some things, it's okay if I don't give up, I have to tell you today, can you go to a place with me, just half an hour, enough, okay?"

Thinking of the things he had collected for more than four years, as well as the things he was going to give her, he really wanted her to go with him to see if he could get something back, but unfortunately, as soon as his words fell, he heard Yun Canghai's apologetic voice sounding timidly, "I'm sorry, I know you're good to me, but you're like this, you can only ......"

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