Although the dish has been served, Qin Xi didn't eat this meal today, maybe it was leaving me time to think about it, or maybe he himself also needed to think about it.

Qin Xi is a person who knows what he knows, he knows our common purpose, and he can tolerate and understand everything I hide in my heart, but as he said, he is somewhat unwilling. I don't feel comfortable in my heart, this person next to me is still thinking about another person.

Qin Xi said, I didn't want to tell me these words, if I didn't say them, maybe I would be so confused. But the older we are, the more cautious we need to be, and Qin Xi is right.

Fortunately, except for Li Baitian, most of the people I met were good men.

He left, and I sat in my seat stupidly, thinking back to what he said.

"What would it be like if Li Baitian saw you today?"

The decorative pillars on the side are smooth and reflective, and I look at what I look like today, a generous and gentle pale pink dress, silver leaf earrings are layered, and the medium and long hair is all combed up at the back of the head and barely pulled out of a small bun, light makeup, and pink lips.

These clothes and earrings were bought after I resigned, and my hair was also grown after I resigned. And before resigning, when I worked, it was a simple professional attire, black and white, outside of work, a rare break, how could I be in the mood to waste time to dress up, how convenient and how to come.

Where did I let Li Baitian see his appearance like this at the moment, except for the social occasions that he had to attend, where did he dress up alone.

Facing a table of dishes, sticking to Qin Xi's words, he looked at the empty seat opposite. It seems that Li Baitian can be seen sitting there, eating indecently, stretching out his chopsticks to pick up and pick up.

"This is good, you try?"

"This bamboo shoot is far worse than the one in Higashi-Shijo. ”

A few years ago, when he saw my appearance today, he might have said, "Eighteen changes in women's college, eighteen changes, what you look like after junior high school, alas, I won't talk about it." ”

Two years ago, he might have said, "Dressed like this, you're going on a blind date?"

And now what he might say, I don't know, maybe he won't say anything.

We think we know enough about a person, but we ignore that everyone is changing, and suddenly one day you find that he has changed, you don't know him anymore, and all that is left is the fear of time and the impermanence of the world.

I tried my best to think about it, but unfortunately there was no one on the other side of me.

There is no Qin Xi and no Li Baitian, just a table of food that no one shares.

Qin Xi is gone, won't I eat?

So I ate, holding chopsticks and looking at so many dishes, bamboo shoots, Li Baitian's favorite, after a table of dishes is placed, he will always eat some vegetarian appetizers first.

Then there is the barbecued pork, the barbecued pork that has just been served, it is hot and tender, and the ground is still shining, Li Baitian can't see this kind of food just out of the pot, and sometimes he will swallow his saliva exaggeratedly. I can't see it, and I often swallow it.

But looking at it now, I don't have the urge to swallow saliva, try to reminisce about that feeling, my mouth is still dry, take a sip of the drink at hand, remember that I used to have the habit of biting the straw, every time Li Baitian drank the rest of my drink, he had to wipe the straw that I had bitten with his fingers in disgust, saying that it was to wipe off the saliva on it.

I don't have an appetite, but I want to eat, and I want to savor the feeling of fading away in every bite.

Thinking about what Qin Xi said, the words that Li Baitian said to him, I can imagine Li Baitian's expression when he said that, and even his mood.

"She has to be strong, let her do everything. ”

"She actually has a good temper, and her anger is superficial, so you pretend to coax her. ”

"Don't choke on her, she won't be happy in the end. ”

"Zhou Wenxue is a good woman, treat him well. ”

I cried while I thought about it, cried while eating, nibbled on chicken wings, didn't care about any image, and shed tears.

For a long time, I couldn't remember the appearance of Li Baitian, and at this moment his image clearly came to my mind, and I wanted to grab him, especially hard, so that he would not run anymore.

But he was there, and I couldn't do anything about it.

I want to finish this table, but I can't do anything about it. I don't know how much I've eaten, my throat can't swallow anyway, I've been trying my best to eat, trying my best to make this meal longer, and I know that after eating it, I need to make a new decision.

I hate Li Baitian, I hate Li Baitian, every time I decide to let go of him and go to happiness, he comes out in various ways to make trouble.

The last bite of the apple reached my mouth, and I didn't swallow it for a long time, so I simply left the restaurant with my mouth puffed.

Back in my room, I thought I still needed to look for Li Baitian again anyway, the phone turned on, pressed the L key, and skillfully flipped to the fourth name, only to find that it was not Li Baitian's name.

Li Baitian's name has long been deleted by me. But I didn't know his phone number, and I never paid attention to his number.

When you are impulsive, you can often stop yourself by a small thing. I threw my phone aside and sat on the bed with my knees crossed, looking out the window that was fading, at the neon lights that were getting brighter, and at my own heart.

I was tired, so I went to sleep.

Qin Xi didn't propose to me like this, and our relationship ended completely after this trip. As long as I am still entangled, it means that I can't let go.

He gave me time until he didn't want to give it, just like Yuan Ze said he would wait for me until he didn't want to wait.

I know that there is nothing in this world that you must have, and I know that I will eventually miss another Qin Xi, but at this time, my state of mind is not good if I don't miss it.

When I returned to Beijing, I considered whether to talk to Li Baitian, and although I said that he took the initiative to find me, he was a grandson, but I found that there were no grandchildren or grandchildren.

I drove downstairs to the advertising agency, it was already time to get off work, watching those familiar people come out one by one, watching and watching, and seeing Li Baitian and Youyou walking out side by side.

Youyou was wearing red clothes, and his smile was still very sweet, and Li Baitian was also smiling at him, with an easy-going expression when talking to me. When you let you get into the car, you will first help her open the car door and gently touch his back with the palm of your hand.

And when I thought about it, Li Baitian didn't seem to have treated me so considerately. Because the time I got in the car, it wasn't a storm, and I didn't give him a chance to be considerate and gentle.

Watching Li Baitian's car drive away, I lay on the steering wheel and was silent for a while, not having too much emotion, but feeling very tired.

It was I who was going to leave, and I was so resolute.

I don't want to be with Qin Xi because I don't want to give him unfair and unfocused love, but in fact, it doesn't mean that if I don't stay with Qin Xi, I have to go back and find Li Baitian again.

Maybe the original idea was right, I wanted to get rid of Li Baitian and start a new life, but there is not only one way to get married.

I contacted some old friends, my body is well, and sooner or later I have to start working again. It is certain that I will not be in the company of Li Baitian's house, but the platform they gave me is enough for me to take this experience and find a job of comparable level.

It's just that I need to understand the industry situation now and choose which company to apply for.

After such a messy period of time, one day when I was clubbing with friends, I ran into Ah K. Ah K is now a little star, but he is still as polite as he was when he saw me.

I was invited over for a drink, and Ah K said to me, "Sister, thank you." ”

"Thank me for what. I laughed.

Ah K nodded, and he said, "It's not that you and I don't have today." ”

"That's your own talent, come on, although my sister doesn't chase stars, I will still listen to your concerts in the future." ”

"Sister, you're welcome, Ah K really liked you at the time, and I knew that you didn't like me, if it wasn't for the record company that you found someone to introduce me, I don't know which bar I still sing in. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. ”

After asking a few more words, I found out that Li Baitian once found Ah K, asked him not to pester me, and gave him a way, let Ah K find a producer under his name.

There are many talented people in this world, and all they need is opportunities.

I didn't say anything, Ah K wants to count this thank you on my head, so let him count it. When I came back from here, I passed a booth and saw a girl drinking, and the people next to me were coaxing.

I only paid a little attention to it, and I saw that it was Youyou's side face.

Why is she here alone, Li Baitian? In the end, I don't know Youyou, and it's not my turn to care about her and her friends.

However, the place where I sat was very close to Youyou's side, and I couldn't help but look at it intentionally or unintentionally.

The result of my observation was that she seemed to have come to find a friend, a girl who looked weak but was very beautiful.

Youyou was coaxed to drink half a bottle of pure foreign wine, and I was silently a little worried in my heart, because I didn't feel like those good people, and Youyou didn't know these people.

looked left and right, but still didn't find Li Baitian.

Youyou was trying to pull the girl away, but the girl didn't want to leave, and those who didn't go on the road over there obviously intended to embarrass her.

I still sat patiently until there was almost an argument over there, and walked straight over.

Youyou was pushed by his friend and sat on the table, as if he had hit something, and he was a little at a loss. I just wanted to help her out, and just after that, a woman pointed to my nose and asked, "Who the are you?" ”

I can't see these nightclubs, so I use myself as a character, some people are afraid of them, I am really not afraid of Zhou Wenxue when she is old.

Sneered, "Your grandma." ”

The little girl in front of me became popular when she rubbed it, and I pulled away the girl you wanted to take away, threw it into Youyou's arms, scooped up a Budweiser bottle, and swiped it in the palm of my hand, "What's the matter, you want to bully people?"