Wiping away my tears, I got up and went to find Li Hua, without explaining.

called Yan Xiaochang and asked her where Li Hua was, and she said she didn't know. I simply went to Li Hua's home in the city. I've lived in this place for a while, and I can find it from memory, but I didn't deliberately think about it, I found it anyway.

I knocked on the door, and then I slammed it, and it was the occupant next door, and it was late, and I was so noisy that people were sleeping.

The eldest sister next door said, "This house has not been lived in for a long time, girl, you are going to the wrong door." ”

Yes, yes, it's definitely true, and it's even more true that no one has lived there for a long time.

But I don't know where else I should go, I called all the numbers I know about Li Hua, and I'm afraid that he won't go like this. Or he went out to stay in a hotel, there are so many hotels in the city, where can I find it?

I forgot to take my medicine again tonight, and the hallway was quiet, except for the sound of my breathing, which was dull. The sensor light turned on and off, and I was very afraid of the dark, so at first I would slap my slap to brighten it up, but then I didn't care about anything.

I just sat here leaning against the door, I didn't know how long I was going to sit, anyway, I didn't want to go home, I didn't want to see Shen Song again.

I don't know why I've spent all these years in confusion, most of the time, it's just past today, and I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I've always envied those who live in peace, come home from work every day, and take care of their families. And I'm tossing almost every day, and it's still a bad toss.

There aren't many surprises in life, it's basically fright.

Flipping through those words, I suddenly understood what blandness is, this is the real blandness, a person who thinks about himself and waits for himself. The real blandness is not what is experienced every day, but the blandness in a person's heart, like a trickle, ticking and ticking.

The person who can really give me plainness has always been Li Hua.

Thinking about this, I became more and more calm, but I sat a little cold on the ground, my butt hurt a little, and my body stiffened after sitting for a long time, and I couldn't stand up even if I wanted to.

I don't know how long I sat there, but I heard the sound of the elevator door opening, and I flashed my eyes and saw two entangled figures.

Well, it was Shao Siwei holding Li Hua.

I wanted to get up, but my legs were numb, so I sat stupidly and looked at them, Shao Siwei was sober, and Li Hua drank too much. The lights in the corridor turned on, and they saw me, Shao Siwei glared, and Li Hua frowned.

Then Li Hua shook his head again, probably feeling that he was hallucinating.

My legs are numb, I really can't stand up, Shao Siwei was sure that he was not wrong, and hurriedly helped Li Hua over. Li Hua swayed three times, if my sense of existence was a little weaker, I guess he would be able to step on me.

I grabbed the doorknob and pulled myself up, and Shao Siwei asked me to find the key from Li Hua. I reached out and touched him, but Li Hua ignored me.

Li Hua has also been in the wine field for many years, and he rarely gets drunk, but he is not so drunk today that he is so drunk that he probably doesn't know what to do.

My heart hurts, I think I know why he went to drink, this is Li Hua, if this was on me, I would have turned the drunken madness upside down.

I limped and Shao Siwei into the house, his stomach churned, he rushed into the toilet and began to vomit.

Because no one lived in it for a long time, the toilet was very dry, and he probably didn't eat anything, and vomited all the water. I patted him on the back in the back, and he vomited tired and rested, waving his palm behind his back and motioning for me to get out.

I don't roll, I'm still holding him and patting him on the back. He seemed to be very annoyed, and his words were slurred, "Shao Shao, Shao Shao!"

Shao Siwei hurriedly approached and waited, Li Hua said: "Shao Shao, you let her go, I don't want to see her, you let her go." ”

Shao Siwei looked embarrassed, and knew that Li Hua was drinking too much, so he didn't reply. Li Hua pushed me, and my leg numbness almost pushed him to the ground. But I grabbed his arm, hugged people from behind with a dead face, I cried, I confessed my mistake, I said, "I'm not leaving, Li Hua, I was wrong, I was really wrong." ”

I cried, Li Hua vomited, and Shao Siwei stared dryly beside me. I just hugged Li Hua in a twisted posture, he spit out, and squeezed out two words from his mouth, "You go, get out, do you hear it!"

He yelled at me, he had never been willing to yell at me so loudly, and this time it was definitely real. I don't think it's a drunken madness, he is saying what he is saying from his heart, he doesn't want to see me, he guesses he is uncomfortable when he sees me, and he doesn't know how to see me.

I'm crying shamelessly here, Shao Siwei and I got Li Hua to the bed where he slept from childhood to adulthood, and I have slept in this bed before. But when we slept in this bed, we never did anything. And in those days, because of the flow of people, I have always been cold to him.

After Li Hua lay down, he was much more honest, and he didn't say let me get out, turned his head and curled up to sleep. The sleeping position was not stretched at all and was not a gentleman, it was just very pitiful, as if he was holding himself, and his mouth hummed twice from time to time, and there was no movement anymore.

Shao Siwei pondered that he was going to sleep, and I watched from the side, shedding tears into my death. Shao Siwei felt that he shouldn't be disturbed, and said to me, "Call me if you have anything else." ”

I cried and nodded.

There were only two people left, me and Li Hua, but in fact, he didn't fall asleep, he waved his hand at the air again, and ordered very depressed and angry, "Turn off the lights!"

I turned off the light, but still stood by the bed, not daring to move. Then there was no movement again.

I went to take off his shoes and his socks, and then I took off his pants and carefully took off his pants.

Li Hua struggled for a moment, and I became more cautious in my movements.

His eyes adjusted to the darkness and saw the tears on his face. It's the whole face, it's like soaking in water. Seeing this picture, I cried even more ferociously, and my throat shook one by one, as if a female ghost was crying out for injustice.

I couldn't stand it anymore and wanted to lie in his arms and cry, but he curled up, I couldn't get in, anyway, I was cheeky, half of my body was under the bed, half of my body was on the bed, and I could stick to a little bit.

He didn't hug me either, covered his eyes with his palms, and whimpered, "Didn't you say that when I was twenty-eight years old, why didn't you wait for me, how could you marry someone else." ”

"No, I didn't ......" I wanted to explain, but it was a long story, and I couldn't explain it to him at this time. All I have left is to say no.

I really didn't wait for him, I didn't wait for him according to what I said, but Shen Song and I can't be considered married, I don't admit it in my heart.

We both cried at each other for a long time, and he finally reached out and scooped me into his arms, and then we held our heads and cried.

He is also drunk, and under normal circumstances, no matter how sad he is, he can't cry like this. When he had enough of crying, he said to me again, "You can go." ”

I'm not leaving, he picked me up with a stick today, and I won't take it with me. In the middle of my life, I have been pursuing someone who simply does not owe anyone, so I was forced by my parents1, Lan Tian, and now I am forced by Shen Song, I repaid, I worked hard to repay, and in the end, I found out that my biggest creditor was still Li Hua.

I owe him so much, and when I was around him, I was mentally depressed at most, and I never had a bad time in life. But as soon as I left him, my poor, poor, sick people followed.

What does this mean, it shows that when I was actually around him, he took good care of me. But I didn't find out at the time.

And he came home with a hangover, no one brought him tea and water, he had a cold and fever, and no one held him to take care of him, as a woman could give him what he should give, I didn't give anything.

These debts can only be repaid with the company that is longer and farther in the future.

Wiping his tears, I went to my relatives' mouth without shame. Once you kiss you, you can't be separated, and Li Hua won't condone me anymore, anyway, I am looking for death by myself.

Then he kissed very hard, and the taste in his mouth was not good, it was all the smell of vomit and wine. I don't dislike it, he's just a mouthful of sulfuric acid now, I can dare to kiss him.

What's the point, Li Hua has AIDS and AIDS and 1 disease, I won't dislike it, the big deal is to die together.

We were twisted together on the bed, and he took his hands under his clothes and kneaded and kneaded them, all out of order, and he drank like this, and he didn't expect any rules. But there are times when this violence triggers more passion. I kicked his pants off with my little hands, kicking and kicking them off, and I don't know where they fell.

Some people say that men don't feel it when they drink too much, I don't think Li Hua can feel it, after kissing his mouth, what else is the first 1 scene, the first 1 scene, hurry up and go straight in, we can't wait.

This is not a release of desire in the body, but a form that needs to be used to release emotions passionately.

Can I say that after so many years, I have never pressed Li Hua seriously, and today I especially want to press him, because I am afraid that he will exercise too much and wake up with a headache. I rode on him and wanted to sit down, but Li Hua pinched my waist with both hands, and I couldn't sit down, and ...... It's nice to be smaller, it's in the way.

He pulled me down and hugged me tightly, I was also exercising vigorously, my body couldn't exercise vigorously, and I was panting very hard when it was intense. Li Hua shouldn't have known that I was sick, so he felt that I was fucking panting, and when he was excited, he turned around and pressed me back.

It's very violent, never so violent. One palm lifted one of my legs, and it came and went, and my body tensed for a moment, as if I felt weightless.

This warm touch may have made him suddenly sober up, and he squinted his eyes to see me clearly. Seeing that I was panting so pitifully, I gave up the movement of the lower body and hugged me very tightly in my arms with my arms.

He was much taller than me, and he hugged him so tightly that my mouth could only touch the area between his chest and neck, which was indeed enough for a bird. At this time, I hope that I am completely integrated into him, and even my mouth feels very empty, so I kiss him messily and give him a few muffled hums.

Slightly curled up, he lowered his head and took my mouth in his mouth, very soft but very deep kiss.

During the Chinese New Year, the TV series "Palace" became popular, and there were also a few episodes, I don't have any preference for this TV, but I like a song.

I set it as a ringtone, and when we were intense, my phone kept calling. Go to his grandmother's, at this time the sky will come down, and wait for the old lady to enjoy it.

"Waiting for you to come, the peach and plum blossom forest is another year, the black hair and white flower plate are sad, I don't want to let go of your hand again, you don't come back when you wake up and the moon sets, look through the mulberry field and look forward to crossing the sea, heaven and earth prove my love, I will never let go of your hand again, I want to hold the love you have given ......"