I don't know if Lan Tian really didn't understand me, or if she was pretending to be crazy and stupid, she just kept pushing me out, trying to push me out.

She was sick and sick, not my match, so I lifted her to the couch and held her down, and went through her cabinet drawers.

Lan Tian still came over desperately to stop me, as if she was afraid that I would find out her secret, but she was tired and drank too much.

Today, Li Baitian told me that when I went to check Lan Tian's account, he was hinting at this aspect intentionally or unintentionally, because he felt that Lan Tian did not have the need to spend those inexplicable money, and the crew probably found something, so he didn't want her, and the first thing Li Baitian thought of was taking drugs.

Then I remembered the syringe I saw at Lan Tian's house, she said that it was doing manual work, but there was nothing else to do it for work other than the syringe.

I haven't been in a hurry to tell Li Hua about this matter, I came to her today just to find out.

I rummaged through and turned out some syringes and medicines, these things I have not really touched, not even Li Baitian, I don't know what it is, but I can already roughly conclude my conjecture.

Lan Tian couldn't stop me, so he sat on the ground and started crying, my heart ached, and I took out the things and asked, "What are you doing, what are you doing? Are you crazy!"

Lan Tian was still crying, she probably didn't want us to know this, how could she not understand the truth of cherishing life and staying away from drugs.

It doesn't matter, I've found out now, and it's still too late. I was going to destroy these things, and when I got to the toilet, Lan Tian rushed in and stopped me, she said, "Youyou, Youyou, I beg you, you leave me a little, don't ......"

She hugged me in the back, pulling and pulling, and we both sat on the ground, and I don't know where I touched it, and a hole more than ten centimeters long was slipped on my arm, and the blood rushed straight down.

I pressed my arm, and my hands were covered with blood, but I didn't feel much pain, I just didn't know what to do with Lan Tian. After all this time, I never really couldn't bear to be angry with her for a moment, but I'm going to be angry now, and I can't wait to slap her a few big mouths, hard, and wake her up.

Lan Tian saw the blood on my side, she began to be dumbfounded, she came to see my arm, but I had a very bad attitude, I said, "Don't touch me!"

She was frightened, her eyes wide open, and she was crying.

I also stared at her like this, and after staring for a while, she ran out to find the medicine box, and I came out of the toilet, and she was not allowed to bandage me, and I made do with it.

Lan Tian didn't dare to touch me, so he sat opposite me, his face was very calm, and he didn't cry anymore.

I'm so angry now that I really don't want to care about her anymore, I look at the wound and estimate that I need stitches, so I'm going to go straight to the hospital. I was about to go out, but Lan Tian stopped at the door, she said, "You can't go!"

I ignored her, she held on to her death, we almost had another fight, she didn't dare to let me go, she was afraid that I would leave on the front foot, and she would tell her godmother and Li Hua about her drug use on the back foot, it turned out that she was still afraid. When I pushed Lan Tian away, this time she sat on the ground, and I said, "You're crazy! Lan Tian, you're crazy!"

She smiled desolately, sat on the ground and looked at me like that, and when she was tired of fighting, she didn't fight, "yes, I'm just crazy, I'm crazy, isn't it, come on, send me to a mental hospital, and then you don't have to worry about me, and then the world will be peaceful, hahaha......"

I was still heartbroken, and then I cried, and I said, "What do you want to do, what do you want to do like this? Do you want us to worry about death, Tiantian, you shouldn't be like this!"

"Then what have become of me, what do you want me to become?" she shook her head, whether she wanted to laugh or cry, "You don't understand, none of you understand, you don't understand my pain, do you know how much pain I have, I was already dead, why did you save me?"

"Do you think it's good to be alive, it's just you, because you're happy, because they all love you. You have Li Hua, you have Li Baitian, what do I have? I don't have anything, I use the uterus...... I can't exchange my womb for him," she said with a sad expression, her eyes burst with fantasy light, as if she saw something very beautiful, she said: "I can only belong to me if I close my eyes, take medicine, and then close my eyes, and he can belong to me as I want, and he will do whatever I want him to be, without you and without my godmother, only us, he still holds me and says those nice words." Her eyes suddenly burst with resentment, and she asked me: "Otherwise, how can I live without these, do I rely on my jealousy of you, and rely on your sympathy!"

She smiled wryly, "It's been more than four years, these four years, do you know how I got here?" One day I don't like him, I don't love him, and one day I don't fantasize that he will be with me. Sometimes I hope that if you die, he may be mine, I hate you, since you rescued me from the hospital, I hate you. I don't understand, what am I inferior to you, you accompany him to Guizhou, I can too, you beat him up, I can too, I can do anything for him, but why I don't have a chance. ”

"I want to act, I know you want to, I think there's always a place where I can be better than you. Hehe, but they don't want me anymore, I fight so hard, they don't want me anymore. I don't think I'll ever be happy, what do you say?"

Lan Tian is a little crazy, it is estimated that he is really insane. Li Baitian told me that drug addicts are like this, crazy, irritable and irritable, unable to control themselves, but intoxicated with their own fantasies, the small world that they can control.

I felt like my head was about to explode, looking at her face that changed for a moment.

"You go, it's ......okay if you all know it," she laughed, got up from the floor, and walked over to another cabinet. I didn't turn over all the things she was hiding just now, she was holding a syringe in her hand, and the smile she unfolded at me was a very bloody rose.

I watched as she pumped those things into her own bloodstream, and watched her lean back on the couch in a very stretched position. Her pupils gradually dilated, losing their brilliance, and later ...... Then I fell asleep.

Sometimes I think I'll just sleep with her.

I didn't leave, I found a quilt to put on her, and then cleaned up the mess we had tossed, rummaged through her room, and found nothing new. finally decided to call Li Hua.

Li Hua arrived early the next morning, and when he came, Lan Tian was still sleeping, and I sat next to Lan Tian all night, and I didn't care what the wound on my arm would look like.

I didn't have any energy at all, and I didn't even bother to explain to Li Hua what I had briefly said on the phone. Lan Tian opened his eyes on the sofa, saw Li Hua's face, and said in a faint tone, "Are you here?" and then rubbed his forehead, "My head hurts, I drank too much yesterday." ”

Lan Tian drank a fragment yesterday, and didn't remember the fight with me last night, I sat on the other side with my head down, too lazy to raise my eyes to look at her, and didn't bother to care about anything.

Lan Tian looked at me again, swept around the room, and seemed to remember what the starting point was, Li Hua swallowed in his throat and said, "Tian Tian, let's go to the drug rehabilitation center." ”

Lan Tian suddenly panicked, jumped up from the sofa, hugged the quilt and shrunk in a corner, his eyes wide open in horror, and looked at me with a distress look.

She didn't dare to look at Li Hua, she definitely didn't dare to look at Li Hua at this time.

I looked at her and didn't speak.

She started crying again, grabbed Li Hua's arm and said, "No, I'm not going, I'm not addicted, I'm not going, I'm not going to use it in the future, I'm not going." ”

Lan Tian's crying has always been pear blossoms with rain, and it makes people feel distressed when they cry. I was in pain all night yesterday, and I can't hurt anymore. What she says is the same to me as if I couldn't hear it.

It's useless to say anything, Lan Tian wants to run, Li Hua has no choice but to hug her, hugging her very tightly, this is the first time I saw Li Hua hugging Lan Tian.

He said: "Tian Tian, you are obedient, you can't be like this anymore, I'll accompany you, I'll go with you, huh?"

"I don't go, I don't want to!" Lan Tian was still crying. I annoyed her crying and got up and walked out of the room. After that, Li Hua said something to Lan Tian, I didn't want to think about it, my arm was very painful, very sore, and the scabbed place was uncomfortable when I pulled it. Then I found an outpatient clinic and went in and asked someone to help me with my wounds.

The outpatient doctor looked at it and said, "It's been so long, and the stitches may not grow well." ”

I nodded slightly, "It's okay, let's watch it." ”

My wound, the first few centimeters of the wound is not deep, there is no need to sew it, but at the end of the end, the skin and flesh are torn, in fact, two stitches are enough. The doctor told me that two stitches hurt twice, and anesthetics also hurt twice, so let me choose.

I said, "Then let's stop fighting." ”

Then I closed my eyes. I don't remember the feeling of being pierced by needles and threads, in fact, I really didn't feel any pain at the time, it just didn't hurt, my whole body was numb, like a walking corpse.

I just held on, wanted to cry but didn't want to cry, and after treating the wound, I went back to Lan Tian's residence in a daze. I still have to come back, although I don't want to care anymore, I don't want to get in the way of Lan Tian's eyes anymore, but I still have to come back.

In the afternoon, Li Hua's mother arrived, but Lan Tian was still sitting on the bed, and Li Hua was guarding her next to her and did not speak. Li Hua's mother stood quietly for a while, and called me outside to talk.

I haven't slept, my head is still messed up, and I can't show any seriousness.

Her mother's eyes were red, and she said to me with tears in her eyes, "Youyou, our family is sorry for you and Tiantian." ”

I smiled wryly, "It has nothing to do with me." ”